And so I turn sixteen...YAY!!! Had so many presents...never had that many before...in my life...and I got TEDDY BEARS!!! HAHA!! The day was good except for the end...but it way surpassed that. Nothing special at home...just the usual...had tuition and the cake came late, but it was mango. =)

Thanks to sheryl for the nice pencil case, Nic m, perry for the chocs and the flower(I can't spell it, ethel for the 'me to you' bear I love it, erika for the R&B collection CD...you're a genius man, how did you guess...haha, prissy for the simpson chocs, chris...for the waaaaaaaay interesting gift, nat and van for the really blue cushion, magella for the bear and sameema for the diary thingie, although I hardly talk to the both of you...it's nice to know you guys remembered...I really appreciate it. And to the tonnes of people who wished me happy birthday...I love you guys...haha

Okay...hmmm....the password's still the same for daddy's comp...so I'm in luck. =) Shan't talk about today...too many things...I just can't cry for this kinda fucked up shit anymore. Although am happy that my gf likes her prezzie...after all the effort put in by erika and I. haha...

Saturday
sec 4 farewell...thanks to plc 04/05...it was a job well done...much appreciated...the party was aiight. esp with natasha just being herself and Nic m being high, and when I say high I mean HIGH...on strawbwerries (can you believe this girl?!?!?) and thanks to erika, she got cake on me...I don't care what the story is. Got tonnes of gifts, thanks to you all...since I only got you peeps sweets. Taught erika how to use one of those hairclippy thingies(you know the super thin black ones) while waiting for the 2LW to change. lugged around 2 plastic bags(well not actually thanks to erika)...went out with ethel, erika and perry to eat. Had some fruit cocktail thingie. Went to pay toys 'r' us a looksie looksie....perry insisted we watch 'barney'. my gf left and somehow the conversation led to us going to erika's house. so went there...hung out at her house a little while...then went to the park. darling was just being really lethargic...okay, tired so left and then took bus to bishan and then toa payoh and to papa's office. Came home, bathed...watched 'KA' again and then the 'heavenly sword and dragon sabre' show. Felt sooooooo good to be lazing around...now I'm startin' to think that's bad.

Sunday
church...well it was fun...chatted with dennis a little and the had class...then auditions...the woman just didn't get that I couldn't remember any pieces...kept askin' me to play somethin'. Didn't have to audition for dance as we were a apparently in O.o. Daddy fetched me and then went with mummy to this 'study in US' exhibition thingamajig. Kept talkin' about credits and units and what not, bottom line...I didn't understand. Later on, found out it was gonna be super-di-duper hard ( and I mean DAMN hard ) for me to do medicine since I ain't a citizen there(long story) so got into a little quarrel with mummy, cos she asked me to go take something else...and I so happened to NOT have any interest in ANYTHING else right now. Left to go meet erika...had a hard time gettin' outta suntec.
Mood was better as we went shopping...I mean...for the first time in my life I had an AIM as to what I wanted to buy... and I must say we actually finished doing it pretty fast for us. Although we DID keep walking in the same bloody stores more than once...and starring and turning that stupid box on the shelf...the woman there must have been DAMN frustrated with us just seeing us shop. sat down at coffee bean for a nice mocha ice-blend and a slice of cake, courtesy of erika. Had a nice chat and then decided to head on home. Came home...lazed around a bit more (I'm gonna miss doing this)...and then watched chinese show and then went to eat...iron uniform and then to sleep.

OH YEAH!! Say it with me....IT'S OVER!!! Say it again!!! HAHA!! You have NO idea how good I'm feelin' right now. After staying away for a 2 weeks...WOW!! Roight...today's Emath...was the highlight...nobody studied...I mean WTH...yesterday exams were officially over...haha. Anyway after paper, went with alex and janice to cine and watched 'dodgeball'. The show was feckin' hilarious...was like laughin' so much. Ben stiller is phenomenol. Met Hazel, RW and RH there...found out they were watchin' too. Met dennis there too, lucky ass not doing Os. Walked around a bit...then ended up at borders...looked at books, CDs. I want so many CDs now. lemme list,
- honey soundtrack...great danceable music
- troy....the woman is just so haunting...I LOVE it...it sorta makes you go into a trance enjoying it.
- the new R&B collection
- the OC: mix 1
don't know which one to use. well...gonna watch tonnes of vcds today, pig-out, slack, do whatever I will not be able to do in the next 2 months. Tomorrow will be good...except that now I have to go iron my guides U...but will go out...and watch my 'heavenly sword and dragon sabre' and will once again start studying...but we shall now focus on today and I will do what my mother calls 'time-wasting'.

Wednesday
got up damn early...went for chem...met erika, eunice and yvonne. chem was aiight, sat with erika...the crowd was rather rowdy. After chem...decided to go novena. met my darling at the bus-stop, so decided to go together. 10 am at novena...not a lot of things open...so wandered around ALL the floors. erika went off for tuition at 11 and my darling and I headed to J8 to look for her confi clothes. Saw some nice stuff...she liked the espirit shirt we saw. bought gummies and had lunch. Had fun eating her char siew. Wandered a bit more then went home. Paul cancelled so, watched charmed...I swear, the more I watch that show...the cuter drew fuller(Chris Perry) turns out to be. Didn't feel well, so went to sleep early.

was bored so decided to post the doodles erika did on my chem book...

doodles...courtesy of erika 

Thursday
Got up at 7am...did a bit of chem QA, had bf with mummy. then left the house to meet erika and my darling. Ethel and I managed to convince erika NOT to watch anaconda...and she didn't want to watch 'Garfield' and since ethel and I couldn't watch 'Man on Fire', we settled for 'Raising Helen' at cine. heartwarming...I liked it...but not that great. had lunch at KFC in taka...where a certain man eating leftovers was making me feel uncomfy and erika was trying out gross things with her food. Walked around trying to find something for my darling to wear for confi. we walked a lot and she finally settled for a very nice skirt from daniel yam...which erika and I had to convince her looked nice with the espirit shirt. Hope she finds some nice shoes to go along with it. went to daddy's office later...and throughout the whole day...it seemed like the whole world decided to wear pink, like the whole world made a date to wear pink or something. so strange. went home for tuition...was productive, somehow we were moving really fast. watched apprentice and then did work until 2 and went to sleep.

I ab-so-lute-ly loved today...I mean yeah...it was good...THANK YOU to the 2 of you...I needed this...haha

Today
daddy woke me up and then had cereal...I picked the correct milk...I DISLIKE the other one. watch some wcs with guin and then went to daddy's office (AGAIN!!!). To make up for yesterday's fun...today was mugging. Amath and chem...it was NO joyride...Amath irritated me and chem was just plain boring...and the headache DID NOT help. came home, and now I am here. Should be going to eat now.

gf: I MISS YOU!!!
darling: Sorry can't come for your confi thingie...hope it all goes well =)

I used to think maybe you loved me, now baby I'm sure
And I just can't wait till the day when you knock on my door
Now everytime I go for the mailbox, gotta hold myself down
'Cause I just can't wait till you write me you're coming around

Things are always easier on daddy's comp. well just came back from amath 2 hours ago...needless to say....it was BAD!! The worse of my panic attacks ever...yes I have panic attacks, not funny. okay, laugh of you wish. haha....anyway...I woke up this morning, and mucked around for a while...lazing around. then went for lunch, and daddy sent me to school for amath. after amath went to get my chem QA notes and then decided to head to fairprice...for shopping with alex. Managed to get everything 'cept her double cream...you know I had NO idea GROCERY shopping could be this fun, haha. bought a nice hot dog bun for daddy and now I am here. shall go start on amath and then chem and if possible...bio, which I haven't touched and get ready for chem class tomorrow at 8am.

gf: I know this was not the kind of shopping you had in mind for...I KNOW....haha...I know what kind of shopping I need and I will go do it...soon.

everybody has the same dream
a dream in their heart
give a chance to make it right
love somebody they want
open your eyes we're all the same
we've all been scared
so lets sing together now
nah nah nah nah
in this universal prayer

it's very cold now...brrr...anyway shall vent a little, I promise, only a LITTLE. I dragged myself out of bed for a 9am math class only to find out that it was postponed to 2PM!!! I came at 8.50 to find only xier there...and then mich w came...only to receive a msg then informing us. were quite pissed about it...so decided to got to janice's house to pay her a surprise visit for her birthday. were there for awhile then went off for lunch and then tuition. just the usual gang...and I finished ALL my work...haha!!! well, except for the compo...but she forgot about it so good. did corrections and then brainstormed for a compo again...then headed on home and now I am here will go do some math and chem later on. I think will be going to thomson plaza to do glasses...PLEASE mummy get me contacts....and I hope tomorro's math class will stay at its fixed time slot.

I can hardly wait
To do my dance to wave my hand
Hear my jam you can count me in
I wish tonight would never end...

I have to go on hiatus soon...I mean prelims are here...okay will do that after Sep hols. well, today woke up damn early...got to church really early like 20mins...was really empty so sat there and stoned for awhile. after, went to eat lunch...had shui gao mian and some yu seng...very nice. then headed home...did some amath...then napped for awhile...did some chem QA or is it VA...oh fuck that, sisters have gone to coffee bean for some pure choc. Jin lao shi called and so I remember the papers I have not finished, make that 3 papers, and a compo...oh boy. I shall just complete the papers. I am so screwed. pop-ups are irritating meright now, I need a pop-up stopper...suggestions people? random thought, trying to find some new music and the damn site does not seem to have anything, or maybe it's because all the good songs are not coming to me now. I shall just be happy I changed my layout...hopefully this one'll last for a while, until I find a nicer one that is.

physics...I have mixed feelings about it...however...had a nice day with daddy. especially yesterday's bak kut teh...I finally got a taste of it...yes, laugh...poor gen has never (or at least she thinks she hasn't) eaten bak kut teh. I am a banana...you know, yellow on the outside and white on the inside....never mind. Found this nice passage...what with all the Athens Olympics having just concluded...I like it.

"If you could have the arms of Hercules,
legs as swift as the wind.
If you could leap shoulder high above the rim,
have the kick of a dolphin,
the flexes of a cat.
If you could have all these,
you would have the body,
you would have the tools.
But you would not know greatness until you understand
that the strongest muscleis the heart."

To me that is the soul of the Olympic Games

-Andrea Bocelli