tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-63668792012-01-13T22:11:18.622+08:00.::Lossehelin::.Just a bunch of pointless rantings...Gennoreply@blogger.comBlogger4941100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6366879.post-56049934988386156352012-01-13T22:11:00.001+08:002012-01-13T22:11:18.635+08:00Nothing to talk aboutGennoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6366879.post-64466280131429352362012-01-06T23:09:00.002+08:002012-01-06T23:10:29.035+08:00brokenBroken, is how this family is and how I feel. A crack everyone tries to ignore but at the same time is is the cause of so much unhappiness in each and everyone of us. Yet we don't know this.
I understand, but you don't seem to.
you hurt me so much, but you'll never know.
because you don't understand.
I feel unfairly treated, why? Because it's obvious. You say you know, but I guess you have "aGennoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6366879.post-3653747052670845272012-01-04T18:51:00.001+08:002012-01-04T19:14:48.745+08:00ROAR!I just have to put this down somewhere.
OMG no money, no money, no money...IS THAT ALL YOU THINK ABOUT!!
It never fails to come up, "I want more money", "why do the 'ang mohs' get so much money?", "why keep bringing in 'ang mohs'?" and hearing this all over again just irritates the hell out of me.
Firstly, for some of us, it's our first job. How much the hell were you expecting? Stop looking Gennoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6366879.post-39943238373583610192011-12-31T22:39:00.001+08:002011-12-31T22:40:45.299+08:00The end of another year and things I need to remember and doThe year's drawing to a close and since I'm all alone with nothing to occupy my mind (or procrastinating...)I decided to think about what is going to be 'last year' in a few years.
I've made many leaps and bounds this year. I did my honours, graduated and found my first job without much difficulty and delay after school. Another year together with the most wonderful man and, I hope, have grown Gennoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6366879.post-56778295690867050372011-12-11T23:19:00.001+08:002011-12-11T23:27:09.243+08:00The importance of first thoughtsBe too nice and you get stepped on, try to be a bit meaner and you're a bitch, judgmental etc. (depending on the situation).
Think a little further and some people appreciate it whereas some people think you cause more trouble, inconsiderate, lazy stubborn etc. (basically all the horrible things that never crossed your mind when you had good intentions).
I get that we cannot make everyone happyGennoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6366879.post-39354001904331998542011-12-11T00:37:00.001+08:002011-12-11T01:06:57.574+08:00ConfidenceConfidence. Something so simple, yet so hard to earn.
For me, I either have too much or too little of it. Why? I don't know. Even for things I do so often.
Thinking too much? Probably, but then I get careless. Not thinking it through enough? Leads to hesitation, doubt and worrying.
All this yoyo-ing is just getting to me, making me wonder why I cannot be a better 'me'. Why can't I be the Gennoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6366879.post-47453488990366466102011-11-11T22:18:00.001+08:002011-11-11T23:33:37.090+08:00Small mindsWorking life is an onslaught of things more than just work. Small minds at work, plant seeds that are like a slow poison infiltrating and influencing your mind. You don't even know it until you look back on all things you said and thought and wonder why you not only went along with it, but participated in all of it.
I strongly believe there is no ill intention behind it all, it is the action Gennoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6366879.post-12711537668528437152011-10-01T01:28:00.000+08:002011-10-01T01:28:21.129+08:00And just like that...the day has passed.
It was supposed to be great...but instead it was just as it usually is.
It's difficult to understand. The mind gets it but not the heart.Gennoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6366879.post-86955845655822945042011-08-21T12:50:00.000+08:002011-08-21T12:50:55.677+08:00Tired. Exhausted. Mentally.
Something keeps making me go back. Foolishness? Love? Love? Really? Can something like this be called that? Thinking about all the words that went back and forth, all I remember was my disbelief at what was said by her and the usual words that played like a broken record.
SHUT. UP. Please.
I'm not keeping score, but with words like that it's hard not to recollect Gennoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6366879.post-43272674186835749362011-08-20T16:12:00.006+08:002011-08-20T16:21:36.329+08:004 pm, alone at home, on a rainy Saturday.
Sad songs play away to the voices of 정용화 and 이홍기.
I should be writing my journal paper.
I've been at this so long the music's changed over to more upbeat rock. The brain is now in a mix of 'enjoy-the-beat' and 'OMGOMGOMG'.
Gennoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6366879.post-68495231380277396752011-07-06T21:49:00.002+08:002011-07-06T21:49:38.789+08:00I'm tired...
I just need someone to talk toGennoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6366879.post-81871985976818819332011-06-29T21:55:00.000+08:002011-06-29T21:55:00.068+08:00What is a home?
I seem to have forgotten what it feels like.
Did I make things turn out the way it is now?
What did I do?
Is anyone there?Gennoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6366879.post-34331777614805380032011-06-27T22:15:00.000+08:002011-06-27T22:15:46.913+08:00Time flies, I've graduated, started working.
Too many things have happened in the pass few months to write them all down.
Too many thoughts have come and gone. I did not know how to start writing them down then and neither do I now. A mess of emotions mixed with thoughts that run through my mind, a breeding ground for impetuous, shallow and judgmental accusations on people.
Are some people Gennoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6366879.post-63307346791249182392010-12-27T15:54:00.000+08:002010-12-27T15:54:21.601+08:00writer's block...fuck.
My brain feels like a stuttering idiot...after reading all that stuff, I just can't type it out onto a word file. Sometimes remembering what you've read is a curse...you have a rough idea but you can't seem to phrase it in the way it is commonly done, so you decide to refer to the article which is where all the trouble starts. You read more than you should and you get so Gennoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6366879.post-35768435466425670562010-12-12T23:09:00.000+08:002010-12-12T23:09:04.627+08:00I shall refrain from posting about the goings-on in my head...and instead lament about the fact that I didn't think through what I just did with my blog...
a revamp without a template back-up.
I thought I thought it through and hey, whatever's not there is fine...I mean most of it was pretty juvenile given I've had this blog for a while...a very long while...until I notice that my links were Gennoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6366879.post-55636454251428033942010-12-09T22:23:00.000+08:002010-12-09T22:23:25.914+08:00End of another week...
at least I'm on track with work for my materials and methods...the intro really needs to start moving too though. The drawing is giving me hell too...ugh. I cannot learn software like this....if only someone could teach me how to do it. Not forgetting the data, it's like a jack-in-the-box, the work just keeps piling up and one day, it's going to KILL ME! I might need Gennoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6366879.post-32385291194931383362010-11-30T23:27:00.000+08:002010-11-30T23:27:58.675+08:00what does it feel like to have someone there for you?Gennoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6366879.post-63112323787075469372010-11-18T21:31:00.000+08:002010-11-18T21:31:39.820+08:00Is this called temptation? Or just purely the lack of the ability to keep your nose out of someone's business? This feeling doesn't seem to follow the latter.
8 MORE DAYS!!Gennoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6366879.post-46423443564089535392010-11-16T17:57:00.000+08:002010-11-16T17:57:44.237+08:00It was going fine!!
Please stop...please. I cannot feed this preoccupation...all I ask is 2 weeks, then you/it/whatever can haunt me...
PleaseGennoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6366879.post-11376107900742527382010-11-15T16:45:00.001+08:002010-11-15T16:45:49.065+08:00A 2 week break...Hopefully things will start to clear up.
Just study and not think about itGennoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6366879.post-22033344391863837192010-11-11T22:07:00.003+08:002010-11-11T22:11:03.804+08:00Savior, please take my hand.
I work so hard, I live so fast.
This life begins, and then it ends
And I do the best that I can
But I don't know how long I'll last.
I try to be so tough
But I'm just not strong enough.
I can't do this alone,
God I need You to hold onto me.
I try to be good enough
But I'm nothing without Your love.
Savior, please, keep saving me.
Savior please, help me Gennoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6366879.post-87876916093774240062010-11-10T09:48:00.000+08:002010-11-10T09:48:14.137+08:00How is it something not about you could make you feel this way?
You want to help, but you don't know how...how to make it feel just slightly better, because you don't know the least bit about what is happening or how it feels and what that someone would need.
So...you don't know if you should call, message...it might not be the right thing...so you leave it alone.
Alone. Somehow doesn't seem Gennoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6366879.post-75242129196089406922010-11-08T19:44:00.001+08:002010-11-08T19:45:25.675+08:00I didn't think it meant anything much...
so why does it bother me so much?Gennoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6366879.post-58122884639851653142010-11-03T22:11:00.002+08:002010-11-03T22:11:17.076+08:00I think it should end here...I might be in too much over my head.
What do you think?Gennoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6366879.post-57650946250680280062010-10-27T22:18:00.002+08:002010-10-27T22:18:54.059+08:00since when did going out together become this difficult...
"Upset" just cannot sufficeGennoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6366879.post-49648046339588237772010-10-23T08:25:00.000+08:002010-10-23T08:25:17.746+08:00No no no...I'm probably going to hell because of this.Gennoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6366879.post-67676441609966091202010-10-18T19:48:00.001+08:002010-10-18T19:53:57.620+08:00The road to hell is paved with good intentions...
I think I really need to think about what I am doing...Gennoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6366879.post-10463061482160114282010-10-12T09:16:00.002+08:002010-10-12T09:48:57.484+08:00I have realised that I have come to use my fb as a venting ground...WHICH is not really ideal, especially for people who have no desire to understanding my ventings.I have never done so till recently, which is rather frightful change from usual, cos people actually do notice my especially emo-fied messages. Probably, comes as a result of neglecting this place. Seeing as it has been neglected, I Gennoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6366879.post-54087568282384546992010-07-19T01:05:00.002+08:002010-07-19T01:39:15.117+08:00This feeling has come one time too many, you would think that it should feel familiar.It could just be the usual plunge that I often get in a month which causes me to overanalyse or go into this depressed mood about my future and rather low self-esteem.My chronic worrying is a curse, a curse I wish everytime that it would go away. The things I worry about and the feeling of despair that comes Gennoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6366879.post-65782691401709984972010-02-04T03:09:00.002+08:002010-02-04T03:50:18.218+08:00An update has been much desired no? I guess I got way too lazy...lol. Especially with the the project rush and the packing to London.It's been more than a month already...going around....experiencing a place that's such a blend of urban and rural. Rural seems to carry negative connotations like being poverty-stricken, so I guess countryside would be a better word.A bigger country with more land Gennoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6366879.post-42121684860527466652010-01-30T03:51:00.000+08:002010-02-04T04:00:38.608+08:00Just came back from Emirates Stadium (for those of you who don't know, it's the home ground of Arsenal). A very nice and modern looking stadium, unlike the ones in Singapore, mostly made of concrete.The football atmosphere was so refreshing, with a surprising number of people buying team merchandise. The amount of dedication can be felt or at least seen with the number of people exiting the storeGennoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6366879.post-51469388262358659952009-09-09T13:05:00.001+08:002009-09-09T13:14:52.477+08:00Gen is demoralised by the endless circling of present tensed words in her lab report.... =.=...I shall never EVER for get again.Like just make a remark somewhere and to write in past tense.Is it me...or does school depress me? I seem to be especially emo when I go to school...maybe I'm just not cut out for it...Gennoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6366879.post-85043203855795214022009-08-15T22:47:00.000+08:002009-08-15T23:28:44.289+08:00How does something that is supposedly so beautiful turn so sour?Is it possible for someone to be that comfortable that no matter how hard reality smacks you in the face you just refuse to answer? Why would you not want to answer it if it concerns your livelihood?Is there a plan in all of this? We are not meant to comprehend your ways, but is this not a little too much? It may seem like I am Gennoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6366879.post-43144942212006920232009-07-17T22:46:00.000+08:002009-07-18T10:49:36.695+08:00a good 4 days...eat, sleep dive; eat , sleep dive; eat, sleep dive....open water plus advanced water...truly the best holiday of my lifeGennoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6366879.post-84110489414539303022009-07-11T21:29:00.002+08:002009-07-11T21:57:52.000+08:00We all don't really know what we want do we?When we're busy we wish we didn't have anything or less to do and when we don't have anything to do...we wish we had things to occupy our lives with. How can so few things take up so much time? So few the number doesn't go pass counting with one hand. (1) UROPs (2) Dance (3)QT. It's so simple...yet one I think about 24/7 the other the weekends the last Gennoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6366879.post-75265631648030176122009-06-07T20:16:00.002+08:002009-06-07T20:28:02.417+08:00$124 dollars that I fell in love with at vivocity aldo...pity I had to let it go.. =(Gennoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6366879.post-45419673752868220632009-05-16T18:09:00.002+08:002009-05-16T18:21:07.542+08:00Just go away...sometimes I wish you never existed. I wish you would LEAVE ME ALONE!!!Can't believe what I just typed? Well, right now I just feel this way. You say you miss me...well you know what, I'm quite sure it's pretty much a very one-sided feeling.I've said time and time again, wait for June...but no...you ask and ask...and I say yes. After a while I have to cancel, cos you know that this Gennoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6366879.post-43537306269118795482009-05-16T10:58:00.000+08:002009-05-16T10:59:05.239+08:00I wish I had the time....Please stop making me feel this way...Gennoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6366879.post-22130596458697257052009-04-20T20:28:00.003+08:002009-04-20T20:48:43.459+08:00Watched centre stage II few days ago...rather disappointing actually, compared to the first, so I suppose that's why I've never heard of it.The acting isn't great...painfully awkward, esp between the male and female lead. You can't blame them though, they're dancers not actors. Although some people say to be dancer, you gotta learn to act. The dancers from the first installment, did a rather Gennoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6366879.post-87434750952394350292009-03-18T14:02:00.002+08:002009-03-18T14:08:39.395+08:00Romeo, take me somewhere we can be alone.I'll be waiting; all there's left to do is run.You'll be the prince and I'll be the princessIt's a love story - baby just say 'Yes.'I behave like an idiot when I don't know what's going on...doesn't everybody?You've got to tell me who to go to to ask for what...I can't just randomly ask anyone in the lab; unless that's the way you want me to go. I'm not a Gennoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6366879.post-57673211636380325762009-03-17T14:42:00.001+08:002009-03-17T14:45:43.609+08:00and so we are 4 :)with many more to comeGennoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6366879.post-20059464282252489062009-02-18T20:14:00.002+08:002009-02-18T20:24:35.897+08:00My fingers are not as they used to be....less nimble, out of practice...years of practice...My brain cannot seem to manage it like it used to...too many things....When I try so hard to bring myself to back then...I come to loathe myself for it's inability...I drown myself in pieces I used to play to comfort myself, but I know I'm not really going anywhere. Just plain old muscle memory.If there's Gennoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6366879.post-44670596967415692872009-02-17T13:29:00.002+08:002009-02-17T13:31:32.422+08:00I need someone honest...a friend who'll listen to what I have to say and let me know if it's just me or if it's just INSANE!!!Cos right now...my head has this sign in red neon lights that saysINSANE!!!P.S.: it rolls in and outGennoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6366879.post-58553512402383060092009-02-14T21:18:00.003+08:002009-02-18T23:25:08.150+08:00I am what I am...femaleAnd we all pretty much want the same things...Maybe I try too hard to act indifferent, for I cannot bring myself to demand or expect such things...for I myself cannot give.Dear Valentine, come away with me. If I had a day with you and you only, I would enjoy the simple things. The things that bring joy to the drudgery and the mundane, the things that, in the end, when time Gennoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6366879.post-91240671848989968852009-02-07T09:56:00.001+08:002009-02-07T10:00:45.725+08:00Being a member of this place is like working in a department store."the customer is always right"you work, but you have no voice.Perhaps it would be better not to have any.Sometimes I can't wait to quit...but I don't know how long I would last without it.Gennoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6366879.post-27149463341122919982009-02-04T20:28:00.002+08:002009-02-04T20:30:56.919+08:00London blanketed in snow....Britain's capital has ground to a halt after an overnight snowstorm, the worst in 18 years, blanketed the city. Heavy snow across large parts of the UK has disrupted travel and closed hundreds of schools.I foresee my future there in a years time...a time spent in a room with like 5 RADIATORS!!! okay...that's an exaggeration...but a person like me not for cold...ut's Gennoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6366879.post-83166421040664671952009-01-29T10:39:00.002+08:002009-01-29T11:18:59.723+08:00CNY wasn't as exciting as this year...maybe it was the lack of fireworks...Drove back in on Saturday...and arrived late so upon arrival it was mostly just going to sleep.CNY Eve - Next morning we woke up and had 'tuan yuan fan' in the afternoon as my cousins wouldn't be in that night. We then went out shopping, since I still had some stuff left to shop for from Christmas...only managed to get a Gennoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6366879.post-64570777059626290282008-12-29T15:20:00.003+08:002009-01-29T10:39:23.281+08:00Christmas Holidays have come and gone...spent the 25th-28th in Malaysia.Spent Christmas day in the car driving up to Malaysia and then had dinner with baby's family and ours. We had like 4.5kg of crabs...sweet and sour crab, salted egg crab, steamed crab...which basically is too much crab and cholesterol for me. I mean if you don't think that's much, you might wanna think how much a crab Gennoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6366879.post-86294332040526643112008-12-15T13:27:00.003+08:002008-12-15T13:45:32.390+08:00Love just is, whatever it may beLove just is, you and meNothing less and nothing moreI don't know what I love you forLove just isIt's almost Christmas =)December's passed really fast so far...exams were okay, neither great nor bad...I guess the ups pretty much made up for downs. Although I'm pretty much terrified of the outcome. My experience with disappointment seems to follow me around like a Gennoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6366879.post-47597150126504903872008-11-20T21:27:00.004+08:002008-11-20T21:38:33.941+08:00I am just so so sick of the complaining...Like why don't you just ASK for help...like it's SO bloody embarrassing!!!You keep asking the same people and thinking you're going to get a different answer or solution. When half the time, the people you speak to are probably giving bloody comments like 'aiya, he's hopeless'; basically pessimistic and most likely, non-constructive comments.You know halfGennoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6366879.post-70709688455537446872008-11-13T21:17:00.002+08:002008-11-20T21:25:51.229+08:00Tiny To my one and only hamster:Thank you so much for being a part of my life .It was truly great and special for me.I hope the life with me me was a happy and comfortable one.Wherever you are now, I pray that you are happyI still turn around now and then thinking I have to feed you...but then I turn around and see the empty cage. Then it just goes 'oh'...Gennoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6366879.post-91843322637782845982008-11-03T17:22:00.002+08:002008-11-03T17:23:59.892+08:00Like NOOOO!!!The one time I decide to actually be a part of the crazy people staying up till the wee hours to watch a sporting event, no Ferrari takes the championship....Why Timo Glock?!?!?!Gennoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6366879.post-88716881943362692982008-10-30T15:40:00.002+08:002008-10-30T15:47:11.266+08:00Sleep hasn't had much of an affinity to me. I wonder why...but I seem to sleep better on nights that I'm not consciously stressed, although that's pretty relative. Sleeping more doesn't seem to help much and definitely not sleeping less...I'm pretty much at my wits end as to solving this issue.I do wonder if sleeping is considered a luxury, coming to university or at least NUS? Schooling never Gennoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6366879.post-11662924736884604732008-10-05T19:11:00.002+08:002008-10-05T19:14:21.151+08:00In that still and settled placeThere's nobody but youYou're where I breathe me oxygenYou're where I see my viewAnd when the world feels full of noiseMy heart knows what to doIt finds that still and settledAnd dances there with you-HAPPINESS by Edward MonktonThank you Erika and Ethel =)Gennoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6366879.post-47210047586344713592008-10-01T00:49:00.003+08:002008-10-01T01:43:18.601+08:00It's all over, the concert's over and so's my birthday.Concert was a blast. Can't help but think that all us Shaun's people bonded well through all the crap and stuff. At least we delivered the finished product well and people actually thought the item was good. The bitching we did at the side waiting to go on will be greatly missed especially all the remarks made by Teck Nam. Although I can't Gennoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6366879.post-8803299558085531752008-08-19T20:06:00.003+08:002008-08-19T20:21:17.952+08:00Well now...I seem to be having many problems with the admin crap...First I didn't get LSM1202 (General Physiology) which is essential for some modules if I decide switch my life science specialisation to biology...hence IMPORTANT!! They didn't seem to think so...probably a blessing in disguise what with the terrible combination of core modules I have and gen physio being hard to score. I shall doGennoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6366879.post-48174177103024004132008-08-05T13:19:00.002+08:002008-08-05T13:58:13.063+08:00Special sem's over and school's gonna start next week...I have never had such a big problem with bidding in my life =( I should have put more "money" down argh!! now I am panicking and scrambling for a bloody mod to do *rolls eyes*I seem to be rather animated in my post today. Probably it's because I've nothing to do. I just ironed all the clothes and washed my hamster cage.Went to town to Gennoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6366879.post-42681162252813743452008-06-25T10:43:00.003+08:002008-06-25T10:53:19.247+08:00I'm looking to change my blog skin, but I have yet to find a suitable one. I've seen a few nice ones, but they're either not me....or the place to write stuff in is just way too small.oh wells...No school today....Thursday's gonna be my first lab session. A taste of 8 hours of continuous lesson. I'm scared looking at the stuff that we're gonna learn and do, it's pretty daunting for a person like Gennoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6366879.post-22649836556068504342008-06-20T16:12:00.003+08:002008-06-20T16:19:57.987+08:00I'm at home...all alone....you see, normally I'd really appreciate this, but I've nothing to do. So I'm utterly bored and irritated out of my mind. I'm not working, the BASF kids' lab is over, so I've got some money in my bank...well soon to be there...and nothing to do. The desktop is officially down, so I can't really play the sims which usually helps the time pass...so I'm pretty much screwed Gennoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6366879.post-61175806063406735872008-05-18T21:50:00.002+08:002008-05-18T22:33:30.021+08:00It's halfway through the hols now.A 3 month holiday shortened to less than a month...I'm starting to think that I do nothing but stuff to do with school...sounds kinda sad actually.I've an absolute slacker for the pass few days...just playing the sims and going for dance. I have never played so much sims in my life...haha.Packed the dance wardrobe on Tuesday and the amount of costumes that we Gennoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6366879.post-67871632373436729802008-05-05T21:41:00.002+08:002008-05-05T21:51:35.748+08:00It's all over...the exams are done with...As usual there's the strange feeling of emptiness and a hole in my time that remains to be filled up with the time that I used to use for dance, projects, homework and studying.It makes one feel so free...that you're bored. I was watching stardust last night, one of the best love stories played out and an amazing fantasy story told by Neil Gaiman. I shallGennoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6366879.post-22948377707178001392008-04-16T22:14:00.002+08:002008-04-16T22:23:01.441+08:00So, exams start in 2 weeks and my driving test is next week...Just had genetics test today....needless to say my mind was totally blank. I even forgot how to do the punnet square and when I remembered, it took me so long to do the question. Itw as just so messy and confusing. It's times like this that you really hate yourself. Well, it's over anyway....and I should mug for the rest now.It's so Gennoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6366879.post-28926400468057130272008-04-11T22:14:00.002+08:002008-04-11T22:27:05.454+08:00IT'S OVER!!!!well not quite...but the 35 pages worth of words and diagrams is in =)I swear, that was the bane during these few weeks...always something wrong...not enough...I was about to go into serious depression, cos I did nothing but that and study for the tests that I didn't have time for...so it's in, all that's left is viva and congress...which means I have to read up everything again to Gennoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6366879.post-47342728506598027362008-04-01T13:02:00.003+08:002008-04-01T13:28:45.672+08:00I'm not gonna stop That's who I am I'll give it all I got That is my plan It's amazing how time flies....it's like week 11 of sem 2...the review is due next week, congress is in 2 weeks...madness is what I call it.I'm at home today cos I've only got lessons from 4-6pm today....waste of time I know...my timetable this sem really sucks like crap. Which is also why I can't wait for this sem to be Gennoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6366879.post-83592755704320244592008-03-13T00:19:00.002+08:002008-03-13T00:37:24.189+08:00It's late...I should be asleep but I am troubled...I feel guilty, but yet I feel that I have done no wrong...I don't know what to feel...Gennoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6366879.post-46428682143793522942008-02-13T21:41:00.002+08:002008-02-13T22:20:32.212+08:00HELLO!!!Yes, I haven't posted since the start of school, so here I am.Had a genetics test today...was a bit screwed, cos I switched question halfway cos I realised the question I was doing wasn't as easy as I thought...probably cos I didn't really have the time to put much thought into that journal paper. I switched...so everything was pretty okay until the last part, I was trying so hard to Gennoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6366879.post-46909962487569059762008-01-12T22:30:00.000+08:002008-01-12T22:40:13.093+08:00Today is a good day =)I realised I haven't posted since last year...haha...been sort of enjoying the hols.If it's not being the resident maid, since I'm home most of the time. Been trying to brush up on my driving as well...test is next Tuesday, which actually causes me to miss my very first biodiversity lecture of the year, hence I really hope everything goes really well =)Headed out early todayGennoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6366879.post-77400254736186231622007-12-23T11:46:00.000+08:002007-12-23T12:00:40.370+08:00I'm not in the best of moods right now...so I'm here to vent lest I offend someone in this damn house.Like WTF...you think no one here has a bloody life is it? Like you just want people to switch their plans just because of you...then FUCK YOU!! Who the hell do you think you are man?!?! You record your business appointments like nobody's business and you don't even give a fuck about anything elseGennoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6366879.post-37721476768861275272007-12-11T21:16:00.000+08:002007-12-11T22:37:30.184+08:00Today was a good day out...rather productive if you ask me...haha...Baby came over in the afternoon and we did some re-scaping of the tank =) and put up our black oyama paper (It's some sticky paper that you put on the back of the tank to make it look nicer on the inside...) now the neon tetras look really good against the black background.After hanging around, ate lunch and then decided to head Gennoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6366879.post-61739590645017570672007-12-08T08:15:00.000+08:002007-12-08T08:31:55.452+08:00If wars break down, I will come for youIf angels cry oh I’ll be there for youYou saved my soulDon’t leave me nowDon’t leave me now-Rule the world by Take That (from stardust)OMG...my exams are over...actually they were over on Thursday...but I kind of didn't have time to come blog about it. Anyway, yesterday morning went to the Airport to send Chuang Yang and Michelle off to NY...was quite sad...Gennoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6366879.post-73379420231653678482007-11-17T18:53:00.000+08:002007-11-17T18:54:25.567+08:00I just wonder, what happened to that little boy in me....he seems a little far away....Gennoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6366879.post-47966792520479717502007-11-13T19:36:00.000+08:002007-11-13T19:48:22.416+08:00I have been feeling so unsettled...not the worried unsettled...but the can't sit down and study unsettled.I am majorly frustrated, pissed off and irritated at this....I am desperately trying to sit and study but I just CANNOT!!! Like WTH!!!I just cannot seem to sit down and study, if i'm not sleepy i'm just NOT HERE!! I don't know why....I DON'T KNOW WHY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!I just want to study....Gennoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6366879.post-18354520206088177572007-11-10T18:32:00.000+08:002007-11-10T19:01:58.186+08:00Woke up this morning and took meimei to TTSH to buy her malaria tablets and if she hadn't mentioned it...I wouldn't even have known that there was a donut factory there....yum...there've been so many donut shops popping up all over Singapore, they all just seem the same...SERIOUSLY!! If any of you thought what I just mentioned was a serious crime, I really thought that (dunno about now though...)Gennoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6366879.post-19193789686377998482007-11-09T10:19:00.000+08:002007-11-09T10:30:03.601+08:00"With Christ in the weather, we can smile at the storm"Are you smiling at the storm?received this in an email not long ago...I read it, but never thought much about it....until this morning...kind of hit me when I saw it again while checking my mail...maybe it's be some help for the peeps out there taking exams esp the 'A's and 'O's...not forgetting the others who are gonna be having exams Gennoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6366879.post-50130610528208630662007-11-07T18:43:00.000+08:002007-11-07T19:04:09.691+08:00Everydayof our lives,wanna find you there, wanna hold on tight.Gonna runwhile we’re youngand keep the faithI've supposedly got a super long weekend, which starts today and ends on Sunday....coincidentally there weren't any lessons today cos my LSM lab is done , I've no more IT lectures and IT tutorial's been shifted to next week....which are all my lessons for today.So today has been mugger day..Gennoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6366879.post-33062679617202286932007-10-27T23:34:00.001+08:002007-10-27T23:51:21.716+08:00I'm so taking a break now...the day was unbelievably busy. I shall start work tomorrow!!!I dragged myself out of bed at 7....okay 7.15 by right....then headed to school to do my SPS experiment at Edison's hall. It was quite funny I got to PGP just before 9 and went up to his room...then sat around for a few and after failing to contact Rebbecca, we decided to start first. Edison continued to try Gennoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6366879.post-84413965755564974092007-10-16T19:15:00.000+08:002007-10-16T19:33:28.714+08:00I am quite happy today I must say...haha...although I still think lack sleep here and there...woke up at about 8, had breakfast and then proceeded to do a little reorganising.My aunt helped iron all 3 weeks worth my mum's working clothes yesterday and so the suits are not in order....meaning they're not matched to how my mum wears them, so I took them all out and rearranged them properly. My Gennoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6366879.post-34370979902595873732007-10-10T17:28:00.000+08:002007-10-10T17:32:10.572+08:00I'm hungry....I'm like pretty free now...I think I have things to do that I don't really wanna do...I feel like listening to my organic chem webcast....but I realised that I left my notes at home cos I thought I wouldn't have time to do it.so now I'm in the SPS room just sitting here, blogging...I should be editting my RFID part...but I think it can wait...I'm hungry too....Gennoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6366879.post-15198585378003643022007-10-07T20:42:00.000+08:002007-10-07T20:43:42.103+08:00It appears error analysis was just spouting absolute nonsense to me....AAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!Gennoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6366879.post-74869921199813246922007-10-06T13:58:00.001+08:002007-10-06T13:58:23.110+08:00ERROR ANALYSIS SPEAKS!!!time to go for dance...Gennoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6366879.post-56656410314850987592007-10-05T15:51:00.000+08:002007-10-05T17:16:25.057+08:00I'm home today...no class...was supposed to have a project meeting today....but it got canceled.The weather is super hot today...the fan is like blowing hot air at me...and I can't imagine what my poor fish must feel.Attempting to do mass completion of assignments, I have too many assignments due in the first half of next week, not forgetting the 3 projects due. One due next Tues, another due endGennoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6366879.post-60799862352085376552007-10-02T21:54:00.000+08:002007-10-02T22:05:06.288+08:00well...today didn't go so well...still a little frustrated...aaah...well..there was bio lecture first, that was alright, but I'm beginning to come to content that I think I really need to study for and like...the content is just 0.o mind boggling. okay...then there was lab...I sorta had and inkling that I might screw up...what with so many compounds and the need to find a suitable solvent for Gennoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6366879.post-63545744695134273472007-09-30T23:21:00.000+08:002007-09-30T23:42:51.710+08:00Today's been a very good day =)woke up, went to church and headed over to baby's after that...spent the time there studying a bit and then left at 3 to go to fish city. weeeeeeee....The guppies there are absolutely exotic...they had such brilliant colours on them. They were like going at $10-$20 a piece...omg. Some of the tanks they had were so so filled with little baby fry...haha...went to takeGennoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6366879.post-63764619494313463542007-09-13T13:15:00.000+08:002007-09-13T13:21:15.539+08:00It's finally Thursday!!!!I shall be heading off for booth duty to sell tickets at central library later.Life has been absolutely hectic...rushing to do things...most of my things have been pushed to the later stretch of their deadlines cos I just have too much stuff to do and stuff to clear up for my lectures. Friday is like a breather yet not really one. I don't have to go to school, so it Gennoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6366879.post-17125945664186755262007-09-05T14:27:00.000+08:002007-09-05T15:00:45.799+08:00school has been way busy...I think it's starting to wear me out.Possibly because I finish at 9pm from Monday to Thursday...although I do have a day off on Friday. But I still don't feel recharged and stuff, like there's an underlying tiredness...some of my friends say I look tired too...haha...I suppose I'm here again just to sort out my thoughts...more for a personal service...cos I just can't Gennoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6366879.post-75091576330330714792007-08-12T16:38:00.000+08:002007-08-12T16:57:47.816+08:00well...orientation is over and school starts tomorrow...not forgetting that I have a 8am lecture...anyway...the past few days has just been about orientation...far too long if you ask me...they should juts make it 1 week or something...we were like having orientation stuff and bidding for our modules. Some of us stayed up till like 2, 3 am to look for modules to bid and to keep watch on the Gennoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6366879.post-51035214734302768382007-07-30T08:56:00.000+08:002007-07-30T09:19:07.885+08:00It's pretty early right now...I should feed my fish soon..haha, and it looks like it's going to rain, again.I can't believe school's starting next week...it just feels a little weird, like after slacking around...I now have to go to school. not just any school, but a varsity. A little nervous, anxious, scared i'll screw it up and it'll all just go down the drain...yeah.Some bleak thoughts for an Gennoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6366879.post-19652055923870789522007-07-26T18:15:00.000+08:002007-07-26T18:30:18.856+08:00today passed quite fast...I like vacuumed the ENTIRE house today...dunno what got into me today...I just thought today'll be housework day. I even ironed all of my clothes plus my mum's. So right now...because of the vacuuming I have an aching lower back.I basically spent the whole day looking at dance clips on youtube...went to look for those from CJ. I saw some familiar ones...and looked at Gennoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6366879.post-62365737231770422102007-07-25T10:51:00.000+08:002007-07-25T11:01:27.642+08:00weee...I'm actually really sleepy...hitched a ride with mummy to Jurong East MRT...dropped my cheque off to deposit and then headed for my driving lessonit went pretty well....did parallel and perpendicular parking too...I think I'm rather okay, it's just the changing down of gear, u-turns, and basically that little tiny bit of road I always turn out from when I first start every lesson that I'm Gennoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6366879.post-38032985352735223272007-07-20T11:20:00.000+08:002007-07-20T12:28:38.393+08:00I just realised I haven't blogged for like almost 2 weeks...haha...it sorta just slipped my mind, or it is possible that i may have just gotten a little lazy to blog...anyway, this week's been pretty hectic...I have like something on almost everyday....probably due to the fact that I'm having driving 3 times a week...so right now I'll just recap the whole week...can't remember what happened last Gennoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6366879.post-41806364297921463382007-07-07T21:08:00.000+08:002007-07-07T21:23:27.952+08:00today was good...the weather was so good...it was raining when I got up...Changed, and went out to see baby...we were supposed to take tumble out for a walk...but it was drizzling, so baby and I ate some breakfast and sat around reading the newspaper, while baby used the comp.after a while the drizzle stopped and we took tumble down...as usual it was a good walk...she was so cute just walking Gennoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6366879.post-72352397666605175992007-07-06T17:09:00.000+08:002007-07-06T17:49:04.173+08:00Live like you mean it.Love 'til you feel it.Its all that we need in our lives.So stand on the edge with me.Hold back your fear and see.Nothing is real 'til its gone.the week has been passing by slowly....but at last tomorrow will be the weekend...so I'll be seeing baby after almost 2 weeks =)A lot of things happened which made me start thinking...and this made me kind of scared...maybe fearful Gennoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6366879.post-66510344020276172002007-07-04T09:43:00.000+08:002007-07-04T16:55:32.831+08:00Came back from camp on Monday...it was a really good 4 days I must say...so I think I shall bore you with the details=)Day 1:not much activity here, just met Valerie at clementi mrt and had brunch at macs there. Then we took 175 and dropped off without knowing where we were. We were supposed to meet at west coast park...behind macs. So we were in the bus and then we saw a macs on the other side Gennoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6366879.post-41270406078583104052007-06-28T15:06:00.000+08:002007-06-28T15:30:01.493+08:00Well...it's super hot afternoon...the words hot and afternoon should never come together cos when they do, they just make the day so unbearable.Had driving in the morning 11am...it was pretty much the usual driving up and down. The driving just makes you feel so proud of yourself, cos it makes you feel like you're one with all the drivers out there without and 'L' or probation plate...haha. Then Gennoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6366879.post-82839921145929724812007-06-26T09:12:00.000+08:002007-06-26T09:12:20.888+08:00Today was an amazing day....haha...woke up early ate my breakfast which was cereal and then took 156 to meet baby.We bussed and walked to venus drive and began our walk to the tree top walk. We walked through the forest...looked in the streams and saw so many longkang fish....some so big, swimming around...they look like tiger barbs or something. We saw so many pond skaters too...we continued Gennoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6366879.post-63628559262063052222007-06-21T09:12:00.000+08:002007-06-21T09:38:24.003+08:00Today's Thursday!!!!There's driving in the afternoon later...and I shall have to chiong lessons for next month...and hopefully get most of the lessons in before uni.woohooo....It'll finally be Friday tomorrow and baby and I will finally go to tree top walk and we're planning to walk all the way to Bukit Timah Nature Reserve I think...haha...Yesterday...I was home alone for a while...I've been Gennoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6366879.post-23264914728217108582007-06-19T13:06:00.000+08:002007-06-26T09:29:13.299+08:00Dancing is like dreaming with your feetWell Monday passed slowly and so is today...Spent the whole morning watching Brainiac on youtube...for those of you who don't know what it is...it's a really whacky science show that does weird experiments like blowing up trailers using different methods like static electricity and putting all sorts of things into microwaves to see if it'll explode...haha...Gennoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6366879.post-5077951328579108002007-06-15T18:47:00.000+08:002007-06-15T19:14:24.300+08:00well...that's the end of working for this holiday...I think...I feel I've earned this break..my stamina for working has just waned...enough is enough. I should like chiong my driving lessons and try to get it done and over with soon. I shall bum around like a shameless teenager who lives of her parents without giving back....haha...that was a bit harsh. My colleagues treated me to ice-cream at Gennoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6366879.post-19242282872022377522007-06-13T18:33:00.000+08:002007-06-13T20:16:24.073+08:00Well...I am home from work....I just wish it were Friday, then I wouldn't have to work anymore. My stay at this company has been an eye-opener to the kind of people that exist in the corporate world...although the actual existence of some of them is truely shocking.I really need more Grey's Anatomy epsiodes...I watched didn't manage to watch the last 4 episodes of season 2 because my mum had to Gennoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6366879.post-52060999280710894272007-06-08T21:22:00.000+08:002007-06-13T18:38:06.050+08:00It is FRIDAY!!!Well, the last day of work is officially next friday...I am so jinxed with the work-for-one-and-a-half-month thing. Yesterday's driving was really good...I drove around the choa chu kang area for like 1 whole hour...the other half hour was spent practiciing my directional change....sheryl is so right, once you get the hang of it, driving is damn fun. I ust have problems changing Gennoreply@blogger.com0