no time, no time...
no time to stand and stare
no time to look and see
no time to play...
no time to sleep...
an endless rush from here to there
hours, minutes and seconds needing to be saved from their death
is it supposed to be like this???
maybe I'm at the wrong end of it all?
am I not doing something right?
I HAVE TO KNOW!!!!
2 weeks,
2 months,
4 months
when will it stop?
I feel haunted,
maybe harrassed,
how about stoned?
so many things running in my mind
I just want to tear it out and stop the endless thoughts

sunday was a good day I must say...
started with 9am serice as usual, and then I joined the family for lunch...indian lunch...
I had like pieces of thosai and cheppatti and whatnot and then me and papa left.
He gave me a lift to orchard and there I met erika =)
lunch was pepper lunch...never been there before
with this thing where you have to constantly mix the rice so it'll cook well and stuff...
rather interesting... for me...
it was nice seeing her, after not having seen her for like 10s of years...haha...just kidding
I'm like so tired, I have this feeling that I'm running on adrenaline.

yesterday, the whole school was let of at 1 so baby and I went to spend some quality time together. i really miss that...

today was all lectures...
started with chem lect with baby, then physics lect which i was so tired in and then we had pe...I swear I'm not getting anything the teacher is teaching about badminton...I just can't do what he does...for me I just whack the shuttlecock and stuff. Physics tutorial was just amusing...mr wee is so comical and I think he's just oblivious to it...he's just weird or something the way he explains things and his little stories and philosphies about life. I was dying by math lect and my eyes were so tired, after which I went to the library to accompany baby where he left me to go play soccer later on and now I am home, still wanting to sleep...

Is it me or am I like a bottomless pit for food recently...
I'm always feeling hungry, like right now....
baby says it's good cause that means I'm not stressed...
is that true?

today was just absolutely frustrating...
I am still pissed about it and I think I'll just blow it all right here on my blog.

enough is ENOUGH!!
I have seriously had it. I was really short of time and I cannot believe I traded a better grade for my math for a fucking O for physics, At first I thought, hey why not give physics a chance and really work at it this time and get a C , like BULLSHIT man! my math and physics ended up at the wrong end of the table of grades. COME ON! for CTs all I did was memorise the formula and I got an O too...I mean looking at the odds, it really isn't gamble worth taking anymore.

I was so happy I put so much effort into it and managed to do more or less most of the questions, I was still rather deluded when I got the paper...I thought I'd gotten a B with 63.5 but then it hit me like a train that I hadn't even passed. I mean WHAT THE HELL is it going to take!?!??! I've already gone through almost 3+ years with physics and i've worked and worked and to no avail. I mean is it like gonna take 10 years, well I kinda DON'T HAVE 10 YEARS!!! I have like less than 3 months. I juist don't get it. I don't know what's wrong...I really have no idea...I just can't get it, I mean I really want to. I even thought I was starting to get the hang of it and maybe even be able to do it...and now this.

will somebody tell me what's wrong....cos I really want to make this right...I really do...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LISA!!!!!!!

like omg....
my computer is working 0_0
it was like dead the past 3 days...I just could not get into windows AT ALL!!!
and mei mei needs it on friday for some stupid e-learning thingamajig the school is doing cos there's no school for her...
so woohoo...it's working...
I just hope it stays this way, I have no idea what made it konk-out
anyway, ther first day of normal school was just bad...
today just had to be the one we end at 5, needless to say we were all pretty much dead as the day approached its end. I was already falling asleep during math at 4...
plus I have homework to do!!!! there's like sampling distribution and transition elements...
I still wanna sleep though... -_-zzzzzzzz

I like this world cup song...celebrate the day...hmmm, it's growing on me...
roight, time to go cook rice....ciao!

sometimes I wish I didn't have a bloody conscience

You keep me
You keep me smiling
You keep me safe in a crazy world
You understand me
Embrace my fragility
You keep me safe in a crazy world
And in your arms I find the strength to believe in me again

I went on shopping trip today...
a failed shopping trip...
i set out to buy a pair of heels, seemed simple enough...
met baby and we went to orchard.
I like the strappy kinds, which are low heeled and I have this thing about the buckle for the heel cos I especially don't like it flip-flopping everywhere when I walk around.

Baby and I must have walked into almost every shoe store on orchard and the kind of shoes I liked have heels like 2 inches high, i mean come on, what happened to the low heels meant for lousy people like me who can't take the height?!?!? I mean they used to be in charkes&keith and now, they're all GONE!!!! It's teeming with those pointy-toed shoes thingie. I know it's all the trend now, but people like me don't suit it and plus don't find squeezing my toes into a triangle very comfortable. there was hope when we found a nice 9.90 pair...I liked the pink, which had no stock for my shoe size, then there was the green which didn't look as good. Tinkerbell was just as bad...bursting at the seams with those pointy-toed shoes. I just don't get it...

I fely very, extremely, terribly bad for dragging baby from shoe store to shoe store, not even buying anything. I swear I need a shopping buddy, who wouldn't get irritated at the way i shop, walking into stores looking and not buying or saying things are nice but not buying. Plus I have this thing where I survey the store from outside, and just one look I would know this is not the store I want and just walk off.

omg...I seriously need help and a new pair of shoes... =(