Wednesday, February 28, 2007

I
HAVE
OFFICIALLY
JOINED
THE
RANKS
OF
THE
UNEMPLOYED!!!

Today marks my last day at thhe dreaded offshore island...aka Jurong island...
After the boss almost pissed me off today...I felt happy to be leaving, but after thinking about how nice the people there are to me and how they've helped me through these past 1 and 1/2 months...I feel kind of sad. Anyways...i shall have to start looking for another job myself tomorrow so that money comes in like A LOT faster than when it goes out.

Sunday, February 18, 2007

greetings from malaysia my people...
haha...
I'm back here once again for the new year as usual.

Set out this morning for the long drivr to tuai ma's(great grandma), which was rather eventful. We left at about 9 and headed towards the woodlands checkpoint. surprisingly there was like no jam...weeeee!!! then we got to the malaysian checkpoint which was unusually super jammed up. We like waited in one queue for 1 hour moving only like 1 metre during that period of time...it was ratehr strange seeing as during the times when we occasionally go in it's hardly jammed...the worst it gets to is just slow moving traffic. I can handle slow moving traffic, i mean at least you feel like you're getting somewhere and not stuck in one place. When we got pass that, it was just the tolls...i can't remember which one it was that we got jammed in. In a way it is pretty unusual for a jam to form at a toll, but it happened. As usual it got into the usual 'no moving' state and then all of a sudden one guy pressed on the horn and then everybody joined in. It was like absolute chaos....and i just wanted it to stop...i am a person who really dislikes noise. Turns out some reallt stupid people got into a little accident in front of the toll and decided to hold everyone up, get out of their cars and see who could shout who's head of in the middle of the road. like wtf...take it to the side of the road man...not everyone here wants to be involved in your bloody argument.

so those were just the terrible parts of travelling...we finally reached tuai ma's at like 2.30pm..had like a light lunch there and then people started arriving...which signaled the start of 'hong bao collecting' haha....daddy began playing black jack with the aunts and uncles, while the rest of us just talked with the others. People just continued to pour in...apprently there seemed to be news that one of my super tai tai aunts is pregnant. She actually came down in a lotus last year...and we were just wondering how in the world she would fit in it...i mean given that it's such a low riding car and with the newly added curves.

Had dinner with the many people and we left at about 7 plus and drove up to visit maternal side, not before we dropped at this humongous textile place just selling...textiles. mummy headed to a few stores to look at the curtains...we saw a couple of really nice ones at first but a pity they were either all sold out or didn't come in white. The trip wasn't wasted though, we actually found somthing nice, then it was another hour to the aunts.

Feeling so so tired, and there's still pizza to eat...i feel the sore throat's coming back...ciao!!

where did you go?

Wednesday, February 14, 2007

day 4

Dear Valentine, come away with me. If I had a day with you and you only, I would enjoy the simple things. The things that bring joy to the drudgery and the mundane, the things that, in the end, when time steals the rest away, are the only things we'll remember. I would paddle you across a still lake in a rowboat and read poetry to you until you fell asleep, and I would never ever think about the hours.

Dear Valentine, if I had one day with you and you only, I would admire every line of your face, every strand of your hair, every graceful movement of your hands or your eyes or your body. If I had one perfect day. Don't you see, my heart beats only for you?

Dear Valentine, these are the things I remember, my love... A warm hand, your warm breath, your warm mouth, your arms around mine. I remember feeling safe, ceaseless, like one person, the two of us, still, at rest, entwined. I remember how I felt the first time I kissed you. It felt like... the high dive. What do you remember? How will I ever know what was inside your heart? Where do they go, all the things we think and feel but don't say?

Dear Valentine, these are the things I never told you, these are the things I need you to know... that I loved you always, and my love was so big, it lives still after you're gone. I'd like to tell you that I would do it differently, that if I had one more day I would do everything right. But I know that not to be true. I'd make all the same mistakes. That is, except one... I wouldn't say good-bye.

Happy Valentine's Day...

Tuesday, February 13, 2007

day 3

I’m bringing sexy back
Them other boys don’t know how to act
I think it’s special, what’s behind your back?
So turn around and I’ll pick up the slack

back from work...
feeling very very tired...
anyways...work was rather pleasant, with tht absence of the lady boss...
when she left, the office was so much more pleasant and i didn't feel as if there were a pair of eyes watching me...
when i had nothing to do, i need not to go on a frantic search to find things to do and when things came, i got them done. I wish work could always be like this.
After work...,mummy told me to go to the polyclinic to get medicine for my cough, so i went to find the polyclinic, which took me forever. Having gotten there, i found it close at like 4.30pm. i mean wtf...people knock off work at the earliest 5?? how was anybody going to make it there?? i just didn't understand it. So i went to guardian and bought cough mixture and lozenges. I swear my house is a like barren, in terms of medicine. after which i took the bus all the way home.

bathed and am here now...dreading that today is ONLY tuesday...and that tomorrow would be wednesday. I am willing for time to past faster, especially during work...where i'm just "locked up" on that island, with no where to go. Plus the cough just aggravates then situation. basically, i'm just suffering...AAH!!! all for money!!! omg...I can't believe myself...

Anyways, i was watching the Victoria's Secret Fashion Show last night right after the chinese show at 9,when this beautiful creature caught my eye...Adriana Lima...she was first in the castings...omg...her face was just beautiful. she had this girlsh but yet exotic look...and her eyes are amazing and so is the body. i like. After watching...the need to go gyming has increased...i seriously need some abs to like APPEAR!! I need nice legs...not nicer legs..but nice legs...and a nice butt. haha...problem is...the 'gym' is missing in the 'gym-ing'. I'm too upper body focused...i need help with the lower...anyone i can consult?? justin timberlake's presence also just made the show so much hotter, his fabulous dancing and popping never fail to amaze.

Monday, February 12, 2007

day 2

well, i'm at work...blogging...
my boss is out...so i'm just taking a little risk right not, cos the boss of my boss is still around...
anyways...went for the NTU alks yesterday with a couple of the girls. It was a pretty good eye opener...it's just sad that NUS doesn't have this kind of stuff, cos there's just no way to compare and i don't wanna be swayed by the words people say. I also don't wanna be swayed by my own biasness towards NUS. Met lots of people I had lost contact with...haha..like miss eu-nice chew...she didn't even know i'd cut my hair...that was like 2 years ago!!! met some other CJ people...some I recognised, some I knew. Met jeremy and liting too...haha...seeing them reminded me of baby.

After the talk jolene, cherie and I just decided to walk around and just window shop. Actually, that was more me. anyway..shopping with them was a rather new experience. I walked into stores i myself would never have walked into and actually found some nice stuff. We decieded to drop into zara...seeing as i've never been in zara before in my whole life. Stepping in there was, like stepping into a new world. I wouldn't say it's high fashion, that would be an exaggeration, it's more like fashion higher than what we usually look at. I walked around...and was utterly amazed at all the clothes, most of them were really nice, something i'd love to go to work in when i'm like in my 20s, i mean cos they would define a sort of high status. Yhen again...as i was thinking further...i realised i do have friends my age who actually shop there. They say they shop during the sales...but looking at some of the clothes which range from like $60-$200+++ how much cheaper can they get really? where exactly do they get the money from? I'm not pointing fingers at anyone...it's just a curiosity that I have. Do parents out there really give out this kind of money? Or is it just because i'm like weird? mango itself is no different...so yeah...it was just something i was thinking about the past few days.

anyway...baby's at field camp...no contact for 6 days...something i hope i can get by with. i mean, usually the week passes real fast...and plus there's work to keep myself busy with and when I get home, i'm so tired i just go to sleep. He won't be out for v-day too...so we'll just see what cny has in store for the 2 of us. I'm still not even sure if we're even going back to m'sia at all, if we aren't then i suppose it's good for us, cos we'll be able to spend saturday together. I heard there's a possible half day on friday for work..so...more time for me to go home and sleep too. Other than all this...there's nothing much to consider in the week...i'm just looking towards friday. i still have a really bad sore throat and cough...in addition a headache after drinking all the ginseng root thingamajig. I am one sickly person.

Plus, i think i've been overeating the past month, i mean yes i am skinny and i should eat more, but not at this rate...I feel so bloated and disgusted. I'm usually able to like eat 70% full and then eat a little small snack like a piece of bread later when i'm hungry..but now i don't, so i eat a lot in one go. As a result...i have this extra, how do i say this? extra ring of fat around the area just above my hips, which has never been there before, it's not a lot...just a thin layer enough for me to notice. I wanna go out to run, but i'm still sick, making it impossible for me to do so...so i'm pretty stuck. stuck just doing crunches and push-ups. i have this desperate need to weigh myself. i always forget when i go to baby's house. i have no desire to gain nor lose weight....i just wanna maintain it. omg...could living be anymore stressful..haha...

do you miss me like i miss you?

Saturday, February 10, 2007

I sound like a man...omg...this has got to be the worse sore throat ever. throw in a terrible cough and i look or rather sound like i've got some contagious disease.

A lonely saturday...
baby's still in camp...he won't be booking out today, cos he's got field camp starting sunday for a whole 6 days...later i shall be heading over to papa's office to just sit there and read, sleep and eat. In the evening we shall go shopping...weeeeeeee....

Yesterday, after work went to the driving centre to register for my basic training. Took an extremely long bus ride there from lakeside. I didn't even think it would take that long, the ride just never seemed to end. The procedure was quite simple. no hassle at all. I did however find out that i had lost my posb card. I was super freaked...i even took out all my cards and peered into all the pockets to make sure it wasn;t hiding in there. So i had to queue again to pay by cash. While waiting, met alicia and her father...after that was settled, I had to think when i last used the thing, which happened to be last week. After i deposited some cash I realised i must have forgotten to take it. Called posb and they said that the machine realised that I hadn't taken my card so they've already issued me a new one. Being relieved, went to book a test date...omg...march was totally booked up and I have wait till like April and I was planning to be able to drive by the time I reach u. Hopefully possible, despite the late test date. I liked the driving centre, it seems rather comforting? like it didn't look so bad...or anything too intimidating. Waited for the shuttle bus to bukit gombak mrt and took the mrt and then bused home. Bathed, talked to baby and had dinner. Daddy found my new posb card in the mail...this one's better...it's got my name on it...haha...took the coungh med and then I went to sleep.

I never thought i could miss you so much...
what's going to happen next week??

Wednesday, February 07, 2007

for the second day in a row...i haven't gone to work...
i actually planned to...but after mummy dropped meimei off i felt extremely terrible...so i told mummy that maybe i should go home. Cos if i suddenly decided during work that i couldn't take it, there's like no way to get back until 6. it kind of saddens me that i've lost money from not going to work these 2 days.
so came home...slept...had lunch and slept until i couldn't sleep anymore. this was about 12...decided to do some washing seeing how sunny it was outside. Then, had my lunch...drank some ginseng tea and slept again. Basically, it was a really lazy day for me...i feel rather alright now...just that my voice sounds terrible, like a little nasal due to the sore throat. Went through a terrible headeache, which just would not go away, in the afternoon. Then i started thinking of all sorts of weird stuff...like maybe I have like a tumour or something or maybe my brain's being eaten away inside my own head by something, making it hurt so bad...well, the headache's gone now...so i guess it wasn't cause by that. I didn't even switch any of the fans on the whole day for fear that the headache would just come back. It really sucks being sick like this.
i really miss school.
'O' level results will be out this Friday...so 'A' levels will be on the way too...I have my doubts, I've done all i can...maybe it's not enough?

Tuesday, February 06, 2007

the start of another new week...
although it didn't start off very well.
before that, let's recap the weekend...

saturday was pleasant...
ben's mummy came to pick me up and we went to pick baby up after he booked out in the morning. made a detour to the army market to get some stuff and off we went to fetch chuan yang. ben's mummy cooked lunch and then baby napped while i played some sims...weee!! i had long forgotten about that...haha...

watched some tv and then headed to town to have dinner at cartel...i decided to move out of my eating comfort zone and have pork ribs...haha...seeing as i had salad for 4 days in a row for work...it's time for some meat!!! reached home at about 10 and then i went to sleep.

sunday was alright except for the trip into malaysia...i had my long awaited hair cut =) and dinner...and we went shopping. i felt ab-so-lute-ly terrible...as i felt so under the weather...my knees hurt, so did my back and the air-conditioned environment didn't help either. At least we went my 2nd link...and got home fast after spending a bomb on grocery shopping. I did receive some tragic news upon my return to Singapore...For all who know Mrs Magdelene Low, please pray for her and her family...that they may find the courage within themselves to push on and that Mrs Low herself would find the strength to be able to continue being a mother to her children as well as her students. The only subject she taught me was ME but she did play a special part in the lives of my older and younger sister having taught them lit and english respectively. For all those who knew her would know how amazing she is at both, hopefully in this time of grieving she would be able to receive support from all those close to help her get through this.

home from work much earlier today...cos I was feeling most terrible at work. The place was freezing...i wore 2 jackets and still felt like an ice popsicle. I couldn't concentrate, my head felt like it was about to explode and my back felt like it was about to break. I like finished a whole tray of panadol there...but it didn't prove to work much. so after work, mummy picked me from lakeside and brought me home. after drinking some black concoction I slept for so so long...woke up when baby called me. =) He just finished guard duty and wanted to tell me he saw dolphins during his shift...haha...that was interesting. I told mummy and she was like 'dolphins? at tekong?'...haha...
anyways...i guess i shan't be going to work tomorrow, seeing as what a terrible state i'm in.