I do not know how to describe how I feel right now. Maybe quite similar to what happened that day just at a much lower intensity.
I do not think that it is the need to prove myself right but more of that I was very disappointed and having a hard time forgiving and letting it go.
I guess in all these nine years I have come to know that comforting words are not what I would get when I pour out the problems I face. Who would I go to then? To pour out my worries, get a good cry, a hug and all that that I want so much?
Maybe all this is supposed to make me stronger?
What I know right now is that I feel distressed, all alone and just lost. So, maybe I don't have the right person to go through a crisis/difficult time with? In the words of Meredith Grey, I don't have a person.