I don't know what this is supposed to be. A trial by fire or just something which it's sole aim is to break me?
I seriously don't know whether to cry or to smile when people ask me how I am. Does smiling and saying everything's ok make things better? Maybe somehow convince me that things will get better? Whatever it is, I guess crying is just too much for anyone to take.
There are so many things I want to do for myself
1. Get my experiments done because if not I basically will never finish my PhD
2. Write my review paper, because no has done it yet. If it gets done, it could ger cited a lot, and unpublished work is not research
3. Spend time with my boyfriend just because I need someone to go to to recharge and also to lean on when things get hard
4. Practice piano because it's a hobby they I enjoy doing
5. Catch up on my serials from time to time because it's something passive that I do to relax and get away from all the thinking I need to do all the time.
6. Exercise, this really is taking a back seat much to my dislike because I really feel that it's important to my wellbeing
7. Sleep, because if I don't, I fall sick and everything goes to shit
Some of these things can be done together to save the need to further split my time between them. Also, they don't all have to be done in the same day because things like spending time with my boyfriend don't happen everyday due to conflicting schedules sometimes.
Sleep: 6-7 hours
Experiments: 4 hours
Review paper: 3.5 hours
Eating: 3 hours during which, now and then, I squeeze in an episode of whatever it is I am watching
Travelling: 2.5 hours
Piano: 1 hour maybe
Seems pretty ok... But so many things happen in between. Like how productivity drops so things just take longer to get done. Or more like during the number of stipulated hours almost nothing gets done or there are distractions. Not forgetting things like having to attend class, other outside activities like teaching, going to church and Bible study.
Am I making this out to be a bigger problem than its supposed to be? Maybe I need to adhere to a timetable for this to work out properly so I don't fall flat on my face and suffer more...Maybe I'm just not doing things right?