Saturday, April 30, 2005

saturday again...
today was a good day studying...
woke up at 7.30 and then went back to sleep, woke up, lazed around...then decided to give my baby boy a call...haha...nice to hear your voice. went down to have bf...then did a lot of stuff...left the house
got on the train at clementi to meet my baby...took the train to dhoby ghaut. went to KFC to study....study study....had lunch. Somebody tell me...WHY the bloody 2.95 meal thingie is soooooooo bloody small. Do they actually think it can FILL a person like me up...like, for long? Plus I could just run into a wall for just thinking "wow that looks nice and big" , cos the damn think wasn't even bigger than my palm. right...enough venting...study study...kids crying...people laughing...study study...
trigo is demorlising
i just can't get physics...or is it just that I can't do it?
left at 5pm...went walk walking...spotlight to buy mummy's buttons. The buttons were gaudy...disgusting and have no class, unlike my mummy. then went walk walk somemore...then took 77 home while my baby went for dinner.
reached home, bathed, watched TV, cooked and now I am here. my aunties will be here soon...and I will have to go eat dinner soon enough...I miss my baby so much.
friday...
8-11am...project meeting..how 'bout we say 9am-10am...I have NO idea what to say...I mean...it's hard working with people, but then again you just got to make way for them...make do with it. met my baby and we went to eat...then had GP lect...critical thinking. Don't you think critical thinking should be spontaneous or at least prompted, NOT forced. just like creativity can't be forced, but nurtured. oh well, break, then math tute...dum di dum...chem pract...I always like chem pract...30mins tops...haha, so proud of myself. then went for council meeting at lt 3...basically all the dos and don'ts on campaigining, important dates and stuff, then took pic for the web and then left. To ben's house we went...watched the usual 2hours of TV...somehow, the wait for friday always seems worthwhile..and yet, it is sad to leave. took 970 home and then talked to my baby and then I crashed.



I feel guilty,

yes I do,

about what I said.

it didn't go through my head,

I didn't want to hurt you,

it wasn't intentional.

I hope all is forgiven.

you have given me so much I can't return

comfort, companionship, security

something I never knew anyone

in this world could ever offer me.

I hope that through all that we go through,

be it quarrels or sadness or just happiness,

we would both reach the end together.

happy and contented, in each other's company.

Monday, April 25, 2005

today was good...
woke up...assembly...ties...so warm...
physics prac...nothing practical about it though. I'm talking literally...mr wee just gave us all the readings and we just had to plot and calculate and write down all the stuff he put on the board.
back to class for math...trigo...fuck that. Ihat drawing graphs...always have and always will. what? you don't like that? so? sue me...I don't care.
Went down for break...met my baby...hehe....he makes me feel so happy for some reason or another...then chem lect...where the teacher called my name AGAIN. I mean HELLO!!! is it my fault that I'm the only freak who feels cold in the lt and feels the need for me to put on my very blue jacket...stop picking on...me...waaaahh!!!...okay then break, or what we thought was break. stupid timetable switch. luckily frankie and I decided to go back and saw mr hoi waiting outside...then we were like...it's GP now? I thought it was break...and obviously we were wrong. GP essay writing...I thought this one was horrendous....absolutely horrible. I was feeling crappy, the weather was crappy, stuffy and I was heating up from within and I felt DAMN tired. In other words, I wasn't in my best form.
NOW it's break....then chem tutorial...had mass spect test, somehow this one went a lot better than the moles one. maybe it was just the thought of you walking by...haha...was afraid you'd get caught my miss koh. Got the moles one back..just passed...and congratulations to how kiat for getting 17...I think he deserved it.
then went for council interview at 4.15...I thought it went pretty well, I think I answered quite well. then just hung outside the SC room with christian, sandia and 'manda. OMG, we were just busy being bimbos and himbos...haha...then my baby came and we left.
haha...the wait was worthwhile to me. ab-so-lute-ly rewarding.
guin came later and yeah...my poor baby sister was and IS sick...poor thing...
mummy came to pick and then home. bathed, and now I am here. Will be going to eat dinner soon, then watch desperate housewives...and I need to do my newspaper review.

Sunday, April 24, 2005

Done all my stuff, typed my essay, did all my homework..I feel so much better, so now it is MY turn to ANNOY you with this very LONG survey which I ripped off od jo's blog...enjoy...=)


ON THE OUTSIDE
1. Name: sew wei xin, genevieve
2. Birth date: 300988
3. Current Location: home
4. Eye Color: dark brown
5. Hair Color: dark brown...yes...boring I know
6. Righty or Lefty: righty
7. Zodiac Sign: dragon
8. Horoscope: libra, the scales


YESTERDAY, TODAY, TOMORROW
9. Shoes you wear today: eh....my NB shoes...although i think it should be WORE not wear...
10. 3 things u did today: church, talked to my baby, finished my GP essay...
11. Your fears: nothing much...just not performing up to MY expectations of myself
12. Your perfect pizza: hawaiian...although I'm not really picky
13. Your most overused phrase: er...maybe that would be 'WHATEVER'
14. Your thoughts first waking up: SHIT...there's school...hehe...
15. Your best physical feature: my fingers and nails...
16. Your bedtime? late...that's all I'm goign to say, cos I never seem to be able to get enough sleep
17. Your most missed memories: the years in IJTP...10 years of great life


YOUR PICK
18. Pepsi or Coke: neither...7-up or sprite is always better for me
19. McDonald's or Burger King: um...Bk...berkelium...benjamin kho...haha..okay I'll stop
20. Single or group dates: um...not sure
21. Adidas or Nike: both are fine...although I do want adidas sneakers
22. Lipton Tea or Nestea: lipton esp. the blackcurrant one, or was it blueberry...
23. Chocolate or vanilla: CHOCOLATE!! is the answer
24. cappuccino or coffee: cuppucino


DO YOU?
25. Smoke: no...I do not intend to spend money on something which I will use to kill myself slowly with
26. Take showers: is that a trick question...idiot
27. Have a crush: yes...if you haven't, you're not from this earth are you? I mean even animals have crushes...omg
28. Like(d) high school? I take that would mean sec school...yes...it was a wonderful 4 years
29. Get motion sickness: no
30. Think you're a health freak: yes...a lot of people would vouch for, what with how I LOVE to eat veggies, tomatoes and like to look at the fat content on food packagings and stay away from oily food
31. Get along with your parents: depends on what...I pretty much just try not to get in their way
32. Like thunderstorms: I like it...I mean, feels really nice in a way
33. Play an instrument?: yeah...there's the old recorder and the piano which I love so much


IN THE PAST MONTH
34. Drank alcohol: yes...port...bleah!!
35. Gone to the mall: um...yes...okay
36. Been on stage: yeah..I walked on it...and then off in a matter of 10 seconds
37. Eaten an entire box of Oreos: just to inform you...I DISLIKE oreos
38. Eaten sushi: yes, and I like it mind you
39. Gone skating: no...
40. Dyed your hair: no...but I wish to...if not for the fact that my mother would disown me for the act, I would have done it.


HAVE YOU EVER
41. Been trashed or extremely toxicated? no
42. Changed who you were to fit in: maybe...but not so much


GETTING OLDER
43. Age you hope to be married: that depends whether I feel the right person has come...I do not marry due to limitations
44. Children: I dislike them......
45.Describe your dream wedding: um...one where I actually love the person I marry, a place presentable enough for me to invite people to come and WATCH me get married, I'm not complaining if it is extravagant...but that is optional
46. How do you want to die: happy....
47. What do you want to be when you grow up: gynae...or...some job where I make tonnes of money...like 6-figure sums...I wanna own a business empire


IN A GIRL/GUY
48. Best eye color?: blue, green, grey...I like all
49. Best hair color?: nothing outrageous and punkish...
50. Short or long hair: short!
51. Height: I was hoping for 1.7m...but haha...we can't have everything can we...haha...besides it's not that important...just as long as he's not shorter than me
52. Big or small eyes? um...nothing to extreme
53. Best first date location?: somewhere I can actually concentrate on him and not on the horrible condition the place is in....
54. Articles of clothing: um....what kinda question is this!?!? clothes are clothes...just as long as they suit him


IN THE NUMBERS
55. Number of bags I own: 3?
56. Number of CD's I own: a lot...less than 20
57. Number of piercings: none...although I wanna pierce my belly button but due to what has been said in no.40
58. Number of tattoos: as above..meaning none but due to no.40


I congratulate you on reaching the end...I didn't think you'd make it...no....seriously.

Saturday, April 23, 2005

well, i am back....haven't blogged for like 5 days...
the phone seems a better option..haha...
anyway...the whole week passed fast...
just the usual...school school....and more school...
haiz....stressful week...homework just piling and me....poor ole me taking a damn bloody long time to clear all the crap...by the way, it STILL isn't cleared.
anyway...let's start from friday...hehe.
yea...half hour chem, lardidum...was as usual....then had break. frankie and I stayed back and had a lil' chat with miss koh...was quite fun, and I learnt that i have too much at stake to um....offend her.
after that had chinese...crossword, then unscramble the words...which I don't recognise li8ke 75% of the words there...as in collectively...nvrm.
physics lect...I think we should sit like that more often. haha...just seems so fun. came in and sara, guoshiong and ben were sitting in a row with significant vacant seats for the 2 of us...haha, twas a fun physics lecture on forces. then to lt 3 for GP lect...2nd lect on edu...i liked the mtv. then break, forced frankie into eating some wedges.
math tuitorial...trigo...omg...I swear I will NEVER ever learn to love sketching graphs. then chem pract....hot weather not good for this kind of prac...not to mention how bunsen burners do not make the heat any less. but yeah...it was aiight.
went back did a lil' work and then ben came to pick me from my class...then to spend some quality time together we went.
it was...enjoyable. watched chase, joey and the OC...with some added seasoning...haha...okay, I'll shut up. came home, had dinner, did some work and then talked on the phone...and to sleep I went.
today...meaning saturday, if you didn't notice
woke up...ate bf...had some fun with my mummy, she was just hyper in the morning and when she is...it's kinda freaky, as to why she's so hyper...I don't why and I don't want to hear any suggestions. called my baby later on, talked a bit and then went to change to go out to study. ben came to pick and then took 66 to jurong east interchange, went to the library and then studied. left for lunch, which made him feel very guilty (I was guilty too...but..yeah...) studied a bit more until we were stopped by some roaming security guard in the libary. only allowed to study on the fourth level...wtf..I mean HELLO!! it just seems so illogical, and we can only study on ONE frikkin' level? I shall not vent here. went to the entertainment centre to study, which was unconducive bit manageable.
left at 7...took the train, 156, home, hung up clothes, bathed, washed fruits and cleared shopping and now I am here...


just some pics taken when studying...haha...



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Sunday, April 17, 2005

Amber coloured dusk
like candy in the beautiful far off distance
Your face was not made up,
yet I've fallen wildly in love



well...I have decided to blog again...
today was as usual...
woke up to church...was quite fun...had our little gathering of people who went away...dennis, sarah and elise.
drinking tea(tea tastes good...) and filling up the sc form...it's taking me a looong time to fill this up...I just can't put it down in words.
anyway...the week has been good. aside from the fact of being sick...aaaaaaaaand passing it to ben...I feel so guilty. =<
wednesday was just crazy...all the cross country and the chopping of places and then VS stealing it...the time spent was good...sorry to make you worry, but you need to know that I get like that...haha...


saturday...
can I say I feel a liiiiiittle guilty...haha. woke up....did all my stuff and then left the house at 10+ and walked down to the bus-stop. got on 67 and to ben's house...dum di dum.
started work...did math...MI was fine...we just got stuck, then moved on to chem...energetics, I was utterly confused, kept peeping over at his work and I bet if I looked in a mirror there and then I would see a whole tonne of question marks and exclamation marks above my head. had lunch...beehoon, I cooked SCRAMBLED EGGS...although they weren't salty enough, I promise I'll make better ones next time. finished watching thursdays OC, plus a bit more time together than intended...haha. back to work did physics...and some more other homework, can't really remember what it was. then I became fascinated with the palmtop....it's got so many functions and lots of other stuff...yeah stuff...I want one toooo! sorry if I got a little too distracted...from you...there's just too many things in your room...too much um...stuff, haha and the aphrodisiac and underwear thing and the um...sounds were just freaky, esp the last one. went out to the living room and then watched malcolm in the middle for a while and home I went.
went to bukit panjang interchange and talked there a bit...meaningful talk, then took 970 together talked more on the bus and more time together. =) sent me home and you went home alone...sorry and then bathed, ate dinner, road to el dorado and then talked to you then to sleep.

Friday, April 15, 2005

today was meaningful...
as usual school...and then lessons.
relatively short day, was waiting and anticipating for it to end...it just had to, I couldn't take it. it was killing me...aaaaaaaaaaah!
anyway, started off with chem tutorial...I was so tired, didn't even write down any of the stuff that she said...wth.
break, then physics lecture, I swear I was about to scream my lungs out...but ben made it all the better...lol.
physics is so going wrong, I'm just copying stuff....like alll the yellowy typed thingies...like omg...I'm just copying..I CAN'T work like this.
GP lect...lt 3...it's damn cold larh...and yes vocab. everything was going fine unitl the bloody bastard called. I mean who in their fucking mind would call me in school...I give my friends the benefit of the doubt, that they are smart enough not to CALL but SMS...it's just damn lucky the teacher didn't confiscate my phone, if not I would have been damn pissed off at this person.
break and then maths. I figured out the implicit differentiation...I am such a genius...and that doesn't take a genius to know it. chem prac...finished it in an hour...I feel so proud of myself man...haha. helped some other people out in calculations and washed the apparatus for them. had a nice talk with chen yang...he's okay. back to class and then to IJ with ben.
was nice going back....saw so many people I missed...haha. hung around for awhile and I felt bad, I mean yeah...you felt kinda out of place and I was just running around.....yeah. I feel bad. to coronation to take photo and then to wath chase. that time was just wonderful...I loved it...you spoils me so....haha.
went home at 7.30 came home and had dinner...watched arts central about making pizza....yum yum and now I am here.


ERIKA!!! i MISSED YOU SO MUCH...DAMN i LOVE YOU!!


I wanted to make today special

and I hope I managed to do so.

you gave me so much

to make me feel special

and I love the way you make feel....

I'll say it one more time

happy birthday.

Sunday, April 10, 2005

I hope you don't mind,I hope you don't mind
That I put down in words
How wonderful life is now you're in the world!



and I mean every word...


sunday...
I am sick...or at least not feeling well...
last night, fell into a nice worriless sleep after talking to you...haha.
woke up, got my ass to church...was a good time, sunday class was good for at least once..I mean not boring. Dennis came back from down under and sarah from city harvest (at least I think she's still there...), elise from eh...actually don't know and pao from under a rock? it was full of noisy catch-ups in the cry room, AND fun bible reading...haha, if only it could be like this all the time.
then went to TC for lunch...had my mee hoon kueh and then we talked more about plotting to steal one of the pink smiley cows across from my house, which I suppose are for the mooooove ad...was quite funny. imagine a flat, pink, wooden cow smiling "walking" across the road in the dead of the night...lol.
okay...to papa's office...guin lingered for awhile to go for tuition. papa sent guin to tuition and then you came =)...somehow it feels so good to have someone who cares so much and shows it =) Had such a good time, although we didn't do much actually...haha...had to trouble you to bring sooo many things. lemme see...a yellow highlighter, 3 packets of tissue, 2 tablets of panadol and a bottle of water...I know you care.
stayed there, read education notes, papa bought desert for me, fell asleep again. woke up feeling bad...didn't wanna open my eyes, so bright. went home at 4.30 and then bathed, ironed, had dinner, did work and now I am here.


I didn't mean to be angry at you, it's just that you know very well how I feel about you spending money on me. that was just the main issue...I hope you understand...but I appreciate it VERY much

Saturday, April 09, 2005

it is saturday...a beautiful saturday...
although it started of with much turmoil and the changing of tonnes of plans...but everything settled itself. thanks to you...=)
washed my spaghetti smelling tie (ACK!) and then cooked noodles for my sis and then she made me eat her leftovers.
anyway, walked down to the bus-stop, ben's parents picked me up and to TP library we went. had lunch first...can I say the second the plate of chicken rice appeared on the table I was freaked out...majorly!!! the chicken pieces were glistening in the sun...did you get that GLISTENING!!! and the rice was so tasty...well actually not tasty, but yeah, you can taste the oil in it...or at least I could, somehow. but like a good person I swallowed it...all...save for some chicken skin...BLEAH!!...ACK!!
right study...I have never enjoyed studying with someone so much before. haha...it's like um...buy one get 2 free...yes, bad analogy, but I am tired and I couldn't think of anything else. you're just so many things...=) studied...then breaked...study break...haha..can you unscramble an egg...that was funny. borrowed my book and decided to find a place to eat something light.
ended up wt the food court in the interchange...ate pi dan zhou =), yeah light, riiiiight gen....then walked the long walk to the ulu-ated bus-stop and got on 156...bus rides have gotten more enjoyable now with you....haha...=)
came home, bathed and now I am here...supposed to be going for dinner, buuuuuuut I'm too damn full now...haiyoh.
I think I'm coming down with something, more like 'I am' not 'I think'. my eyes feel very warm, I feel tired and I don't feel too good. not good, not good. I knew it was going to happen sooner or later, just that it's sooner oh well...
mumy will kill me if I fall sick...NO!??!


you made me feel so happy today, although friday was better =)

Sunday, April 03, 2005

internet is laggy today..
doing the retarded GP assignmen...
actually I don't really know what I'm supposed to do with it, just assuming I'm supposed to find the meaning of the words.
doing it in pencil...
today, I was really free....
so I did what not even a moron would think of doing, wait that doesn't make sense with what I'm going to say...okay...I did what no one with anything else better to do(which is why I did it...) would do...a whole lot of homework.
it's really a lot, I mean a lot more than I imagined that I'll ever do...it's just that once I got started I couldn't stop...
I won't give you the details...just, yeah.
anyway, woke up, church and then had pork porridge for lunch. to turf city I went to papa's office. There I went on my crazy phase...which I told you about ^above there. Came home, bathed and ironed clothes. then watched miss congeniality for a while then went for dinner. BAK KUT TEH!!!! well w/o the pork....or rather tiny bits of it, when it's suppposed to dominate the dish. so it was actually just beancurd and the soup, which was ab-so-lutel-ly heavenly for me...and guess what?? ummy saved a whole lot more for a few days more =)=)=). had ice-cream, watched ore TV and now I am here.
aaaaaaaand tomorrow there's school
aaaaaaaaand I wanna eat my sushi, *whines* where is my sister?!??!?!
you see I can't eat the sushi until she gets her ass home...argh!!!!

Friday, April 01, 2005

friday...last day of the week...
in the morning had welcoming ceremony...so long...1 hour+ I think, I mean it's not that it was long...how should I put this. the service was as long as I expected it to be, but my legs were going so numb. i mean given that I'm in a bloody skirt..I shouldn't lift my legs up even if I were wearing shorts underneath...very unglam.
got badges and 9.30 lessons start.
C math first...miss ang, man I so want mrs koh back, oh well, we'll see how she is. then chem lect...was boring, okay mean to say that since some people didn't do chem for 1st 3 months....but I expected it to be.
break...haha...was looking for ben, and yes when i saw him, he SOMEHOW managed to miss me despite his gaze having passed me....haiz...but I was happy seeing him. I still can't help it...he's my brother...HAHA!!! (inside joke...)
so then came GP, nothing too exciting...yeah, mr derrick hoi. He was all, I want this from you, I want that from you. then physice..mr wee -_-... there wa a lot of tension...I mean yeah, just look at the people in my class, you'll get the idea.
went to get the math notes...I dunno, but it seems the girls are all doing the work. they just like to sit in class and talk talk talk. so unlike T23...the guys there were more gentlemanly, I mean they won't let the girls do all the work like carry books and stuff, so different from T29 *shakes head*
then chem pract...did a lil' titration revision...then went to mr tan's office to wait for my appeal results.
apparently I have been disappointed once again, this being the end of the line...maybe I'm only meant to do 3...oh well.
met ben and went to the library to do chem...somehow I feel like I'm losing it, I can't seem to see things like I used to anymore, my mind seems to have slowed down A LOT...why?!?!
156 home and then bathed, TV, the phone =)...cooked dinner and then ate and now i am here.



I don't know what to say...

I'm out of words...

but I think I have some left =)

nothing too mushy,

nothing too serious,

I'll type it here

and it's the truth

you make me feel...

Thursday, March 31, 2005

rightsss...I shall not say what happened cos it's gonna PISS ME OFF!!!
today was a good day...got chase tonight, not watching to type this out and then there's the OC, YAY!!! more seth cohen and ryan...chrismuka!!
today was interesting yet boring. started off with brother paul giving his little intro for the OCIP and NYAA and then the talks came. OCIP was not so bad...maybe it was because that I was so sleepy that I couldn't sit through it, but it eas interesting nonetheless. NYAA killed me...I mean yeah...the GREEN laserpointer...WHY!!?!? 1 hour++ ate into our break too. By the time he had finished all his blah blah blah, it was 9.06 and by the time we stood up to back to class it was 9.22 and then when we reached the classroom the bell rang for maths lecture.
maths lecture was a repeat of binomial theorem...had I known I would have brought my old notes, which happen to be sittitng in that file of mine, and just sat in elcture and stoned. Not that I couldn't without them, but felicia koh was wlaking around watching us like a hawk.
tht ended and then it was chem lecture in the audi. same slides as first 3 months...been there done that. then had a lil' discussion at the back of the audi with miss koh about whether we should move on or start all over from the beginning...THANKFULLY we didn't have to.
went for break
home tuitorial session, class matters, class and individual goal setting .
physics lecture...haha...I'm in the same lect as YOU...at least I get to see you...haha. it was the same slides...with all the SAME typo errors, spelling errors, then dismissed...went to the canteen with frankie. sara came later and then the two of us started competing with our respective phone receptions. it was damn lame and retarded...imagine a tall indian and a short chinese staring at their phones and the one suddenly shouts "haha...I have one bar mwahah!!!" "I have 4 bars haha you loser!!!" you get the idea...
frankie and sara left.
wait...wait...wait...
met ben and to papa's office we went.
did physics there...it was enjoyable...haven't touched work for like eons. he went at 6.30 and then daddy came and now I am home...typing away.


wednesday



I HOPE MY APPEAL IS SUCCESSFUL!!!


today wasn't much...just basically preparing for finale afternoon. practised cheers, mass dance, item too...ladida. finale afternoob started at 2.30 and the house war...mura, pyro, hono, ilden, blaze and incendium, the 6 flames of CJC. most of the items were funny, some hilarious. I will never forget the indian lady writing a letter to her son...
"nowadays these bathrooms come with a washing machine too. Just lift the lid, put the clothes in and push the handle. strange thing is I never saw those clothes again."
"I am writing very slowly because I know you cannot read fast."
haha...it was good fun. went for dinner later...yum, hokkien mee...and then had a good bus ride home =)
bathed, the phone, and then slept at 10.30


tuesday
SENTOSA!!!! HE CAME BACK!!! he's in T20! anyway...ended up in T29 yes...jerome was our the facil. so yes sentosa, started of with amazing race. went to merlion walk...walked in the snake fountain...was fun I mean HELLO it's water haha. the fun was shortlived, the last set of our class couldn't do it due to the impending rain.
It DID start to rain...
then to the carlsberg tower we went, took a pictures and then had a five minute break before carrying on.
ended up having to wait out the rain under some sheltered place (duh!)...we ended having to warm ourselves with fries...or at least I did, grabbed some from other people..I was cold okay!!
yes, next stop...the southern most continent of asia...station managed by jon chan. smthg to do with hula hoops...had a lot of time to do it...but could have been faster...but we beat t30!!! mwaahaha...sara's class.
next...siloso beach. had to sculpt out a slice of cake from the sand. it ws damn nice...looked good enough to eat...except that it was brown...HEY!!! chocolate!!! anyway...the cherry was SUPER nice so round and cute haha...and the cream...omg, dalun did such a good job man!! should have seen the way he did it, so damn serious and focussed...if he were like that most of the time, I might actually have thought that he was a smart person.
to emerald hall...had to come up with stuff to entertain the facils there...did hono cheers. hehe, then we got lunch...then stoned, went walking around with frankie and then came back and stoned somemore. decided to play volleyball, booked a court and then started playing. something about the girls having no skill, but lots of luck...hmph! Half true, we almost, keyword being almost, won by accident...lots of accidents. somehow the ball favoured the coconut tree, hitting the people seated below it and the sea, coming back sandy and wet...
beach games...
first was telematch...getting wet, filling bottle and cup with wet shirts, pants and SEAwater in the mouth...finding puzzle pieces...we did well.
second, float...damn tiring, had to partner and push a float back and forth from a floating marker. I like haven't swam in 5 million years or smthg...but we did good.
back to shore for tag...this was a hard to control. lots of backstabbing, people playing dirty...hence the tension arose...not very fun to play already.
then capture the flag...would have been more fun in a bigger space, too small hard to play and too many people, so ahrd to run about and cut around people, but it was good, people were trying unlike tag.
last 4 team captains ball, this was total chaos and confusion...like balls falling from the sky randomly and being thrown from person to person. ard 80 people in one compound...just snatching balls from the air and people. Got knocked twice fighting to catch the ball, both times by guys...gen ah gen, cannot fight with guys like that or in this fashion...sure lose one....haiyoh. yan zhang was just standing in the hoop catching all the balls thrown at him....some few from one court to another...just catch thrown away and then chatch another...haha.
debrief...bathed and then took the bus home...the enjoyment was shortlived but I liked it all the same. took mrt with cynthia, then 77 and then dinner, the phone and to sleep.



spending time with you

makes me feel like

the most fortunate person in the world.

the way you hold me, hug me;

makes me feel so secure.

I could lie there and forget everything...

you treat me so well

it makes me feel so guilty

I wonder,

do I really deserve this?

and you always say the same thing back

"every drop of it"

Monday, March 28, 2005

I just have to say this....I feel sooo happy.
not bursting kind of happy, but a quiet joy that resides within me...I feel so...yeah.
anyway today was a lil' better, got home classes early in the morning. 29!!!! from 23 to 29...omg, that's a damn beeeeg jump. anyway...morning assembly formalities...then to the quadrangle for icebreakers, then went to class to meet HTs.
As if it wasn't coincidence enough that, yan zhang, trevin, frankie, how kiat(sadly...), grace, liang wang are in the same class and me; our Ht is miss koh...as in koh siok bee.
went for break and then back to the audi.
had mass dance...danced with guo shiong...haha. was damn fun...I mean it's so guo shiong....haiyoh *shakes head* why did you have to take 'F' math.
then the stupid get the cup game...nothing much really, nothing haven't done before.
house meeting...hono....sounds like homo and yet also 'oh no'...oh well. house colour is purple (WHY?!?!? at least it's better than luminos), jap for fire...I think. yeah.

hono hono,

we are gay,

we wear purple everyday

then talk by michael tan on cca...he was fast, finished when I was just about to fall asleep. signed up for the usual, dance and council. walked around a bit with alex and christine...ben came back =)...dum di dum. talked a bit...then had to go back to the audi for last briefing...and oh well, I am stuck with my 'L' size orientation T-shirt. too bad. to papa's office and then back home with you....bathed, cooked dinner and then the phone. BENJAMIN KHO, YOU SO CANNOT KEEP A SECRET....WHY!?!? haha...nvrm...I am so happy!!!
eaten dinner...gonna watch depserate housewives tonight and there's the OC season 2...yeah baby!!! the week keeps getting better...and I am going to sentosa tomorrow...hope it'll be fun =)


you cannot imagine the happiness I feel inside,

it's not anything over the top,

it is not bursting at the edges,

rather it is a quietness.

a quiet joy that I feel inside,

a calmness after a storm,

simply happiness.

and guess what?

I am so going to cherish this...



I love you !!!!

Sunday, March 27, 2005

it's raining outside....
yup...it is...
anyway...waiting to go for dinner at warren(as usual)
just came in from pulling lalang.
I felt water droplets fall from the sky, and yet gen stupidly thought it was from the REALLY tall palm tree nearby which was being blown about by the breeze.
If I had a dime for every lalang that grew in my house...I'd be rich...nono, wait...FILTHY rich and IF I were God I wouldn't have invented those THINGS!!! weeds are only good in a person's personality...you know having the determination like a weed...not being killed so easily, all that stuff.
rights...anyway, woke up this morning...really lazy, DRAGGED myself out of bed and to church w/o bf...omg...that was terrible. okay not church, but the feeling. chruch was quite enjoyable what with all the skits, video and stories and whatnot. had mee hoon kueh for lunch...yumyum. pep yalk...lalaa...but I was just listening, hey I did my frikkin' part.
home...
talk on the phone =) and peeled french beans. ironed...I swear I'm getting too damn good at it, I'm damn fast or smthg...haha...lol.
physics...I figured out 2 and half questions, now I wonder is that the reason I feel completely useless...hmmm...MUST GO TRY AGAIN!!!
then to the garden to pull lalang with guin...as my comments on it were ^up there, plus it was a bit fun....haha. guin was like talking to the grass and pulling it, so cute! I mean yeah, talking to random things like ants on the ground, flies and in general the lalang...bathed to freshen up and now I am here...waiting for my dad and sis to come home so we can go for dinner..hmmm...


I hope you can come tomorrow...I miss you so much!!!

Friday, March 25, 2005

Today
Good Friday...
the day Jesus died on the cross to save us all from the power of sin...
morning, woke up, dressed and then waited for everybosy to get out of the house. when for a damn speedy bf at the hawker centre we frequent for lunch. met auntie rosana there.
church was okay...quite funny actually...all the skits and stuff, nothing too dry.
then headed of to town to shop shop shop.
OMG...today found sooooooooo many nice things and mummy was like spending...bought some really nice stuff. wanted to buy more of one of the items, but then if you think about it again...too much of the same kinda clothing in my wardrobe...nono...not good.
was like buy and buy...yum yum.
had lunch at macs...bleah!!!
then shop somemore...then came the most infuriating thing...buying my sister's shoes.
we'd walk into a store and she will just stare blankly at the shoes on the shelf like it's something out of a car mag. then she picks one off of the shelf and she'll look it, feel it, turn it around in her hands and then hand it to you in silence and you have this look that says "so, what do you want me to do with this?" she somehow can't make up her mind about what kind of shoe she wants...walked to 3 stores...not forgetting that we went back to one twice, at least afte that we finally bought the shoes. oh well...
so home we went and I bathed and now I'm here. lalala...


yesterday
2nd day of orientation...didn't do much actually.
left the house at 8 and met sheryl on the bus...
reached at 8.15 and then saw sara in the canteen, talked and then went to the quadrangle to assemble. then to the audi for assemnbly.
all the formalities... sing-a-long...haha, I make it sound so terrible. learned the school song and campfire songs and then talk by brother paul, his usual dry humour injected at regular intervals.
then mass dance and then went for break and then back to play games. one we played at amazing race...the other was quite retarded...but it was damn fun, gidman was just...yeah, gidman. and the 4 guys tied together look damn gay. I mean they would look even worse if the held hands(we were all tied together you see...) and then skipped all the way together...LOL. all in all, better than yesterday and more fun, I suppose because we make it fun.
went back to audi and it was all the admin stuff, handing out orientaiton t-shirts all the way, took damn long, like an hour. ben came back to appeal so we waited for mr tan so he could see him.
left at about 5 and to TP library to borrow books. ice-cream, which made me quite happy and then home...
bathed, daddy and guin went to church, I cooked. ate and watched chase and reading...omg I haven't read like this in a million years. HAHA! I am contented I have BOOKS to read!!! mwahaha...

Wednesday, March 23, 2005

hakuna matata?


first day of orientation...
oh boy...it was so bad compared to the first one...
*shakes head*
got to CJ checked my IG group number...38...
the first orientation I was IG 4...I was on the other extreme end of the audi...now I'm at the other extreme end...eh... feels a bit weird.
saw a lot of familiar people...nicole, jo wong, cynthia, sara(sarvana), yan yi, frankie, ju, sheryl, trevin, yanzhang, liang wang...blahblsh and the list goes on.
what can I say...I couldn't really be bothered the remember the names of my IG peeps...after all, getting our home classes tomorrow..I do remember SOME people...gidman, nat, hui ting, sherman, ho yi, christian(I think...)...BAH! thas about it. okay...the facils, slightly better than last time...2 guys namely donovan and zi sheng.
started in the audi...normal morning procedures and then some of us moved to the audi extension and we tool t-shirt sizes...-_-...sat there and sat there and sat there until like 5 million years later, we moved BACK into the audi. Next...school tour....been there, done that. la di da...
came back...and mass dance. I always enjoy this...it has improved MAJORLY...as in my dancing...finally tied up loose ends. they cut out the MJ thriller part though...*sigh*...the session went better than all the sessions of the first orientation put together.
went for break later...sat with sheryl, ju and chris. met van later on and we sat in a classroom.
left at 11.30 and met my IG at the pull-up bars at the canteen and then we went to the quadrangle. This has to be the most stupid part of today. did icebreakers. Okay, not the whole session of icebreakers sucked but the later part. started out fine ...did simple ones where you follow the first letter of your name and find a postive adjective to sorta attach to your name...that was fine. until we did the shoelaces thingie...we basically used shoelaces to lay a path and walk on them, to reach the end...but you see the "end" kept moving cos basically, zi sheng was moving and he was "the end". *roll eyes* yes I encourage you to do so. did a lil' more of that and then did something else involving the shoelaces as well.
after that went back to the audi for briefing...we separated form the 2nd intake and we had to go register if we haven't and buy uniform. could have gone home, but decided to wait for yan yi to buy her uniform. went with alex to the canteen and talked while I waited for yan yi, was lovely...haven't talked to her for such a long time. met yanyi and then headed home.
hopefully tomorrow will be better...and hopefully my home class for the next 2 years would be bearable...oh how pessimistic gen...*shakes head*
truthfully, despite having been in CJ for the first 3 months...I still feel out of place. I mean the environment HAS changed..with all the new people even if there are still old friends around. a lot of apprehensions and stuff, a lot of reservations...it didn't feel like this on the first day of term one.


I want to eat pi dan zhou...hmph!!!


it felt weird not seeing you today, not hearing you, you know what I mean...I miss you...I wanna see you

Tuesday, March 22, 2005

so ends the 3 month stint...
some are moving out..some are staying =)
whatever it is...tomorrow will start and everything would be back to square one...like the 1st of january. It's like being hurled back to the start, just that the people that were previously along for the ride, aren't there anymore...or just maybe that a number of them are missing, or have left.
oh well...tomorrow is brand new day...and a new start. It's gonna be a bit strange, but it's something I'm gonna have to get used.
the past 2 days were utter bliss...haha, okay bliss is a bit exaggerating but I feel VERY happy.
Haha...


dum di dum...I miss you so...

Friday, March 18, 2005

Love

1 Corinthians 13



I may be able to speak the languages of men and even of angels, but if I have no love my speech is no more than a noisy gong or a clanging bell. 2I may have the gift of inspired preaching; I may have all knowledge and understand all secrets; I may have all the faith needed to move mountains - but if I have no love, I am nothing. 3I may give away everything I have, and even given up my body to be burned - but if I have no love this does me no good.


4Love is patient and kind; it is not jealous or conceited or proud; 5love is not ill-mannered or selfish or irritable, love does not keep a record of wrongs; 6love is not happy with evil, but is happy with the truth. 7Love never gives up; and its faith, hope and patience never fail.


8Love is eternal. There are inspired messages, but they are temporary; there are gifts of speaking in strange tongues, but they will cease; there is knowledge but it will pass. 9For our gifts of knowledge and of inspired messages are only partial; 10but when what is perfect comes, then what is partial will disappear.


11When I was a child, my speech, feelings and thinking were all those of a child; now that I am a man, I have no more use for childish ways. 12What we see now is like a dim image in a mirror; then we shall see face-to-face. What I know is only partial; then it will be complete - as complete as God's knowledge of me.


13Meanwhile these three remain: faith, hope and love; and the greatest of these is love.

Wednesday, March 16, 2005

it's late...will be going to sleep soon...haha.
today was a good day...I feel contented.
woke up at 0814...ate bf, ironed clothes, bathed, dressed and then went out.
shopping...omg...I swear, ben and I walked almost the whole of orchard. kept going back and forth, back and forth...omg...I have never known thayt something as simple as a HARIBAND can be SOOOOO hard to find. at least we found it...in far east...and to think before that we thought that heeren and taka would have at least someplace with nice ones *shake head* walked around HMV too, looksie looksie...I will buy that jay chou cd soon!!! met erika and alts at tangs...cos she just wanted to see him...anyway, was lovely seeing her and alts.
walked to dhoby ghaut to meet cot (circle of trust), to carrefour to buy snacks and drinks and to east coast we went...not forgetting to include the half hour wait for the damn bloody shuttle bus. reached east coast...met melvin and we went to play pool...and my energy level sorta went for a dive. Felt so tired and my aiming all that shit was off and I kept missing even the direct shots...*shakes head*. got a lil' tired of pool and so we went to bowl...okay...so today wasn't my day...very inconsistent...I didn't know that after having not bowled for such a long time (5 years), I sucked that bad and that I CANNOT bowl straight to save my life.
After 2 games went for dinner, HOKKIEN MEE...omg...I have been craving that for a long time...aside from pi dan zhou...and then we go to the highlight of today.
*drum roll*
CS aka counterstrike...yes...I was intoduced to this wonderful LAN game. It's damn exciting and absolutely brings out the vengeful side of a person. it's just this game where two teams, namely the terrorists and counter-terrorists, are all in this lil' maze like thingie and basically you have weapons, a whole range of them and you just go around killing the other team, you have infinite lives, so after you get shot you basically just start playing again...and it goes on and on. it's a damn good way to vent and it's kinda addictive. cos when you get killed, you just wanna return the favour ten fold to the person who served you the bullet. met shing and ju there...staying over at costa sands with their class, if I'm not wrong.
left at 9.30...took 16 and then changed to 77 at park mall and home I went. bathed and now I am here...ahout to go to sleep.
TOMORROW..oh fuck how I damn dread it...another 8 hours...it's just sad isn't it?


can I say, I'm gonna miss you...

Monday, March 14, 2005

YEAH!!!
well okay it's holiday..uhuh...the downside...I gotta be at my dad's everyday except saturday and wednesday. yeah, I know it sucks..you don't have to tell me that.
if that's not bad enough, add the boredom to it...aaaaand now it's just hell.
today wasn't so bad, I feel contented =)...so satisfied...lol. haha...anyway tomorrow's tuesday, another day here. nuthin' much to blog about...except that I owe people more money. *shakes head*


jon: your problem is with me...solve it yourself, don't go buggin' other people askin' them to help clean up your shit, ESP erika!

Sunday, March 13, 2005

right...I'm baack!!!
okay....this was a good week...had its ups and downs, but hey, it was good.
term hols have started and I'm probably gonna be damn bored...nothing to do...no homework (not that I want any...so you can see how desperate I am)...and plus I'm a gonna be stuck in my dads office for 5 days.
I mean seriously...what the fuck do the two of them do...SHIT!! anyway...today, woke up for church, to giant to buy fruits, lunch was xiao wan mian and them the ppwc to buy veggies.
saturday was the same ole stuff. Watch TV...lavender and the 3 usual comedies...ironed for 3 plus hours and watched sixth sense and then went to sleep.
friday was a long day...finished watching homerun and children of heaven...eh...I'm not talking about the 1 for 2 package...I mean I watched both of them, on the same day. yeah, talked mr tan out of doing anything and mrs koh let us do whatever we want. after school, helped to blow balloons and then chris and ben came over to bath and back to school we went...met 'manda, setup the stall and sold drinks. was like some ij reunion saw so many people =). ooooooookay, so the concert wasn't that great, but hey, I thought it was a good start for CJC. cleared the people out and the stuff up and home I went =). met jie on the way home, bathed, dried my hair and then I crashed.
now I need to hang out the clothes and wash the fruits. I shall be lazy today...to make up for the 5 days I'm going to be spending in my dad's office...I don't give a fuck.