there is an impending long holiday...
=)
there's steamboat tonight...
=)
I'm like into PCD songs...I have no idea why...but they were just playing during warm-up during dance and it just made me move...so yeah...
today has been productive...I have done just about everything I set out to do...
the week ended off well with the possibility of me dancing for the PAC opening might...so I'm quite happy...I wonder if my contemp is better than my hip-hop or street jazz...if it is, then it is quite a pity i never picked up ballet, but not a big one..I very much appreciate and still love playing the piano. I'm quite happy with how the week went, I've been busy busy...so i feel good...I still need to find time to do my SATs practice...omg...that thing is seriously stressing me out big time. It's like no time to do anything...cos I'm busy...roight...
There's the prospect of cutting my hair tomorrow...which is good timing cos phototaking is like on tuesday, but I wanna spend time with baby...time together is so hard to come by and I'm not unhappy about it...I'm just...hmmm...not contented...satisfied? hence, why it is a good thing that I'm busy. but then again...nothing much can be done...we'll just have to wait...dum di dum...

Oh, my baby's sexy for sure
I had to have him when he walked through the door

it's tuesday...
haha...only the second day into the week...
today everything was just slow...I seriously thought the day would never end...
I mean the prospect of a 5 o' clock day is already devastating as it is...
anyway...the funnist moment today has to be about milo and cumar...omg...michael trying to get to cumar cos of something he did, and they were just moving round the class until finally cumar was stuck in the front and couldn't get back to his seat cos michael was in it.

C: "where's miss ang....I'm unhappy...she's late...(points to his watch) time to start lesson already"
(Michael's sitting in Cumar's place)
(clicking of heels at the stairs and miss ang appears)
C: finally!
(miss ang walks in)
A: what's going on?
C: why are you late miss ang...I'm unhappy
someone in class: michael wants to beat cuamr up...cos cumat did something to him
A: okay, I let you all finish first okay?
C: uh...no, miss ang...have to start lesson now...(points to his watch frantically)need to start lesson...very late already
(math lesson over)
(GP lesson over)
(Cumar starts packing and is on his way to the door, but michael beats him there)
someone in class: oh no...not again
mr hoi: why?
someone: michael wants to beat up cumar
mr hoi: oh...beat then beat lor...not my business what
(cumar looks at mr hoi 0_0)
(michael starts to close in on cumar and he mves)
mr hoi: cumar, why you so scared...you're from judo...michael's from canoeing, he can't do anything to you
C: mr hoi I think I need to get something from you...um...yeah...
mr hoi: okay...

haha...the exchange between the two of them was just damn hilarious in class...haha...anyway school is over and I am home typing away now. Should get down to doing work soon.
anyway, watched "so you think you can dance" on monday...it's on every monday at 7 on channel 5..and omg...artem and blake are like super hot. Like artem's body is amazing...the abs rae just THERE!! and when he dances ballroom (his shirt's usually open) the way his body moves is just amazing.

As for blake...he's just super good at lyrical...I swear when he dances it's like he transcends into a different world and he takes you along with him. His facial expressions are just so full, so indescribable....and when he spins( my god, he can spin...and the fouettes...whoo!!) he stirs so much emotion in you and he just hits everything so well...it just drives me crazy...it's things like this that make you so proud to be a dancer. Dance today is not just about sex and seduction, there's so much more to it than that...and it's these things that makes someone a great dancer...

oh...and I almost forgot..I got my first taste of ben and jerry's ice-cream today...yes, my first...there was like a free ben and jerry's ice-cream giveaway at certain outlets and the nearest one was like united square. Pity I finish at 5 today, but baby went down to get his share and brought some back from united square all the way back to school for me....If you ask me, I am inclined to say that was a super sweet (no pun intended) gesture and it's these little things that make me love him so much...muakz!! I love you baby!!!

so far this week...

I have yet to receive my egg...it is still easter...
shit happens...I mean it was that close man!!! stupid yellow box!!!!
the weather has been cold...I've been cold all day long...
and there's so much shit to do...
and I still want an easter egg...

so yeah...that's about it for now...ciao!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABY!!!

sorry I'm not there to celebrate with you...I really hope you like the wallet...haha...
dum di dum...the weather today is so nice...
nice and cool...
I think I like grey skies...I have no idea why...but I think it looks just as good as a blue on. well unless I'm hanging out the clothes...then maybe a blue one is preferable.
today's like intensice work day...just doing more and more work...
it's like the most boring thing to do...sleep, eat and work...
anyway...the week went rather well...i must say...
physics spa was not up to form...but hopefully I managed to smoke through. 2.4 run was fast enough for me to get a gold...I got luckyy by 2 seconds...haha...lessons are moving along...although a large majority are stagnant...which is rather infuriating if you ask me. But...we must all be patient.
I don't know...I just can't tell...have a I become somewhat impatient? or rather very impatient? I sense it at times...but perhaps it's a result of wanting to get things done quickly and fast or maybe it's because of the class, cos everyone is so slow...slow not meaing stupid...but meaning not doing the work...or just not paying attention, hence the impatience has arisen. I have no idea where it came from...or the source of it.
I've also been told that I've become self-centred. okay...um...to me...that seems exaggerated. and I really have no explanation because...I don't think I am. I mean...I like to get things done fast...but I do think about the situation, which is the class...so I haven't said or complained about anything. I really am confused by these comments...I don't think I'm in denial...I feel like I'm supressing myslef a whole lot due to these comments, cos after being said to me...I'm feeling rather self-coinscious.
um...roight
anyway tomorrow's EASTER!!!
weeee!!!
um...I want an easter egg...a big one...I don't care if the easter bunny doesn't exist...
I want an easter egg...

4 weeks into school...
so much has happened...good and bad...
I'm just feeling pissed and...I don't know...sad?
sometimes I think I'm just plain stupid to get into this...
I mean...it just makes me worry about things I'm not even supposed to be worried about and what makes it worse is I feel like I'm the only one who feels like this. which hence makes me feel even more stupid.
Everything is so unpredictable...I don't know what will happen tomorrow, I don't know when we'll quarrel next, I don't know when we'll start talking again if we quarrel, I don't know if we'll even be okay after that. I don't even know if he know's how bad it is. Ironically I feel so alone.
I feel so lost...I'm so worried...
he just can't see...

The hols are ending...so soon...
I wish it were longer...I'm always feeling so tired...
anyway...the week ws pretty good to me.
finished 90% of the homework I intended to do and have been spending much quality time with my baby before all the busy schedules from school roll in once more.

thursday...
HAPPY FIRST ANNIVERSARY baby....haha
yeah, it's been a year already and yet it doesn't feel that long. I guess in a way that's good... I mean it would not be good if it felt eons...haha...but I always love the time we spend together.
Baby and I played badminton in the morning at tp sports hall with sean, lisa, sean and deb...then baby and I went off to town to have lunch together at cafe cartel...we just sat around together after the meal and enjoyed each other's company. I like doing that...it just feels so comfortable...after that we just walked around orchard and then baby went for his class babrbecue.

friday...
met up with erika, ethel, nicm and perry. Haven't seen these people for soooo long...other than ethel...but it's been real long. had lunch at swensens and then we just sat around and talked The company was good...then bussed top baby's house to spend time with him.

today...
roight I am sick...like with flu-like symptoms...just without the incessant sneezing and stuff. woke up at 6am feeling absolutely crappy...went back to sleep woke up at 7.30 and then at 8.20 and then I just had to get up. Called baby cause I was feeling so bad....then went to have breakfast and then mummy drove me to papa's office where I did nothing but sleep and sleep and sleep. then mummy brought me home to rest and I slept somemore and now I'm here.

It's so unbelievable
And I don't wanna let it go
Its something so beautiful
Flowin down like a waterfall
I feel like you've always been
Forever a part of me
And it's so unbelievable
To finally be in love
Somewhere I never thought I'd be

the hols are finally here!!!
anyway the last week was as usual...
it was a bit crappy but there was some good stuff.
J1 orientation last week and I went to rockafellaskank with baby on friday...it was waaaaaaaaaaay better than last years...I mean there was so much good stuff this year...saw some old friends too..
saturday went out with baby and I went out with sean and lisa to settlers cafe to play some board games...I thought it was good. we played risk and upwords.
Went across the causeway yesterday to get my hair cut...have dinner and go shopping. Company was rather good...just mummy, daddy and I...quiet...haha...but giant was TERRIBLE!!! I mean school holidays...you got kids running around screaming, playing with toys on the shelf like they own it...riding bicycles around the shoppiing mall like they own it when they haven't even bought it...omg...parents should just stick them in the trolley, then we'll only have the screaming to worry about. I bought new pair of shoes too, a pair of nike sneakers...WHOO!! It pays to be a good daughter and do housework...though I don't get stuff most of the time like my sisters...but when I get it, it's damn good!!! haha...
today was quiet...spent it at papa's office...I've like finished half of almost every piece of holiday homework....dum di dum...watched some vcds and that was about it...I think I should change my desktop wallpaper REALLY soon...

muahahaha...me found for videos...this time from funkmania!!!
anyway...I know some of you people don't really wanna watch so i'll just put it at the very end of my post. I'm just gonna put some of my favourites, the picture quality isn't very good...made worse by the stage lighting for some of the performances...cos it's at nights and the stage lighting just kills the picture more.
onto today...

went to church today and I thought I looked damn good...haha...not something someone says to herself, but I just had to say it...haha...sent guin of at J8 after church and then went to have lunch at turf city and then shopping with mummy.
Got home, ironed the clothes I need to iron while watching 'japan hour' I LOVE that show...haha...today was like ramen overdose...I like have a super big craving for it now.finished ironing at about 4 and decided to take a nap. Like a 3 hour power nap...haha...woke up...had dinner and now I'm here.

there's school tomorrow and I don't really mind that. I just feel more secure if I go to school rather than stay at home with nothing to do but housework...I think I wish I could stay in school all my life...it's like such a comfort zone for me. but I like lots and lots of money too...haha...so i'll have to go work, cos I don't wanna be a tai tai, cos I'll be board outta my mind. That day nessie and I were talking about how we can be tai tais together and dress our kids up in branded kids apparel and hang out together. Problem being I don't wanna be a tai tai and I don't go well with kids. I like to be busy doing work and making loadsa money money...haha. dum di dum...

gotta now...so here's the vids from funkamania

street soul


fat mama crew


Indi dolls

There's something in your eyes
Something in your smile
Something in the way you move me
You make me want to sing
Make me want to dance
Make me want to cry
I'm falling in love with you

CT's are like finally over!!!
haha...and the hols are like coming soon...
after math...baby and I went out with sean and lisa. We walked around a bit...looksie looksie and baby attempted to repair the ipod that weijie gave him, however it was unsuccessful due to the warranty having expired at the beginning of the year. oh well, looked around the ipod shop...the aount of stuff you can come up with for a gadget and the money. an ipod nano sock costs $12...when I can just go buy a striped sock at some stall outside for like $2 or even less!!!
Had lunch at fish and co at wheelock...baby and I had the usual...complete meal with swordfish collar while sean and lisa had loadsa stuff haha...then we just went our separate ways. baby and I spent some quality time together.
today wasn't really interesting...at least what I did wouldn't interest you. just went top papa's office watched a couple of movies there and did some chem. I swear I love doing chem...it's the only thing I can do and the only thing I get excited about doing...stop staring at the computer screen like that...I'm serious. I've recently gotten hooked on 'The Calcium Kid', one of the earlier movies orlando bloom did...you know the guy who did legolas...haha...it's damn funny. I think the britsh are the only people who can appreciate funny...I just love the way the mother says massage...it's like mass-saaaaage...haha...my sis and I were playing around with the pronuciation during dinner...

btw..jeanette has found some videos from danceworks and they have INCANDESCENCE!!!!
1st in the preliminaries...GO CJC!!!!
they're going to be in the finals on 1st April so GO SUPPORT people...haha...still trying to see if they've got a video of my group (illuminate)...there's another one from RAW STILO!!!
they're from NYP...and they are damn good...omg...haha you have to watch it...the sounds not really good but that's not really an issue...enjoy...bon appetit!!!


Incandescence


raw stilo

Save me from this place
Heaven knows i'm falling
For you my sweet embrace
Heaven knows
Heaven knows I've been waiting

I realise that I haven't blogged for like more than 2 weeks...
been ab-so-lute-ly busybusybusy...
my phone's alarm clock rang at 6 and I woke up...shut it off and then said to myself..."what the *beep* why the hell did I set it at 6...it's freakin' sunday" and with my sleepy eyes I landed back onto the bed. suddenly I sat up and realised it's monday...omg...I was so damn tired...had bf...did all the usual stuff and then to school iw ent for NE and GP.
I swear i told so many of the dancers the story above...haha...they were all pretty dead...I think the first person I told was andrea and then I saw luke in the canteen and told him...haha...saw lisa in the morning and then sean and baby came to join us...
NE was like shit...I was just reading and not comprehending...what's that called? that's like brain dead...haha..anyway I shaded stuff and then onto the canteen to bum around and wait for GP. GP was a so screwed...I dunno what happened...maybe becuse I was tired or smthg but I was half dead at summary and I was dead at AQ....I just made some crap up which DID NOT even make sense to me AT ALL!!!!

Anyway...sunday and saturday was danceworks...haha...went down on saturday to support mel's group - incandescence. dum di dum....they got FIRST!!! just for the dance sugment but whatever muahaha...CJC dance rocks man....haha...sunday was us....and we won first of for the sandwich board....whoo!!!! I mean it was pretty DUH!!! none of the other sandwich boards could compare...haha...we didn't get into the finals but incandescence did...so people GO SUPPORT them on 1st April. Feels quite sucky to be beaten by a buinch of kids...but hey they were damn good...you should really see them, it 's the kind of thing you have to see for yourself and I guess at least we were beaten by a worthy opponent. after all the crying and stuff...went to wash up and then we hung around the shopping centre just talking and talking. We'd like talk and refuse to move and linger around...like we did oputside the toilet...it's just damn funny...haha. Finally decided to go pizza hut and have dinner...mrs koh's treat..haha and we drove her absolutely crazy the way we ordered food. It was a damn fun evening...constantly suaning each other and getting little doses of gossip from people, we were so loud the staff had to ask us to tone down a little haha...after that went home while the rest went on to venezia for more food.

got home bathed, packed my bag...ironed...did the sheets and I just headed to bed.

It's Friday, im feeling that I wanna party
So call up my friends and come on everybody
Gonna make it tight
Gonna make it alright

finally back home...
cooked, bathed and smelling oh so nice...
maths lect... I swear I dislike vectors, I could never get the hang of it in JC...it's like you know what's going on, but somehow you just don't know how to go about to doing it. It's ab-so-lute-ly frustrating you know!!!
anyway we had break at like 9am...the one and only break today, THIS is the one break I so disagree the time with...I mean omg!!! 9am?!?!? and you expect a frikkin' bowl of noodles to keep me full till then...I mean seriously maybe students in CJC are late for lectures due to the poorly timed breaks...so their just dying form hunger coming from the J-block...roight...I'm exaggerating.
GP was fun, as it always is...I was rather displeased to have it end. Then it was math...I like diferential equations...it's just so mechanical...but then again, mechanical, is what makes Singapore students so inflexible towards certain things.Then there was the issue on the stupid toto draw today...I didn't even know about it, apparently it's like 10million+++, so all the guys were just basically going on and on about how they'll not come to school if they win the money and all sorts of other stuff they wanna do....and it carried on into like chem pract...sigh...
chem lect... I stupidly stashed my carbonyl compounds with my whole organic chem pile at home and thought we were doing hydroxy...when we finished hydroxy before starting carbonyl!!!! stupid, stupid...
chem pract...the second hour was terrible..I mean...I hate copying stuff...ARGH!!! I was like late for dance by a half-hour...
DANCE....YESYES!!! MORE MORE...GIVE MORE!!! I need to remember that!!!

"It's better to die dancing, than to be roadkill"

It's not always easy and sometimes life can be deceiving
I'll tell you one thing
It's always better when we're together

it's THURSDAY...
so close yet so far...
I seruously want the weekened to come...
my body just feels so tired...
I just realised that CT is not far away which means I like should be getting down to studying like SOON!!!
The week's been quite okay just that I've been feeling really tired, so it just feels like I've been a little spun outta orbit but I'm still holding quite well so I think I'm quite amazing. Tests haven't been good so far...as usual...the usual stuff like happens and then I'm like a super goner during the test so, it usually doesn't come out good. I swear it's like crazy...there's at lest 2 tests a week...be it some shitty FA or CA...stupid crappy school system. Dance is stressful...not in a drive you crazy way but like...something that weighs in the back of your mind and you constantly have this notion that you NEED to do something about it. Actually that's kinda worse than if it were to drive you crazy. so yeah, need to learn eights fast...really fast!!!!
go gen, go gen...
more power, more strength, more energy...
AAAAAH!!!!!

Got my eyes on you
And I like what I see

so begins february...
oh well...
the past few days of school...was just so tiring...kept sleeping here and there in between and as well as during lessons. Just couldn't get enough sleep. Had 2 sessions of dance for danceworks which is like at the end of this month, my body is super tired now esp. my back...all the body waves and stuff.
Past 2 days have been chingay...went to to ushering to get com service hours...it was like the first time I ACTUALLY watched a chingay performance. First time I actually felt happy when I made someone smile...never used to be like that when I did CIP...maybe its because CIP mostly involved the old folks which I had absolutely no way of communicating in dialect with. There was this guy during the pre-show segment singing all the michael buble songs...omg...he was ab-so-lute-ly wonderful...he sounded so much like michael buble and he sang all the songs I like...haha. Chingay was actually good, with all the floats and lights and performances by all the different countries. Most were enjoyable...although the bosch float was extremely out of place...I mean what's with all the provocative dance moves....like everything was so cultural and ethnic and then this THING comes along with four women dancing like bartop dancers on a blue float. I found it super weird....like it didn't belong. Met baby later and then went to see the street party but I didn't wanna stay so he sent me home.
The house is quieter and less crowded...my relatives have all gone back to m'sia....I kinda like it this way, don't mean it in a bad way, I just don't like too many people in one place...I get quite irritable and exasperated and stuff....tomorrow there's school...gotta sleep early...-_-...

Can you tell, in my eyes
the happiness when you are in my heart
the joy you bring
makes me wanna sing
I love you and you mean the world to me

roight....
cny...I got more money than last year...haha

cny day 1:
okay...spent the day at my aunts house...my mum's side that is. Can't really remember what we did...mostly just getting hongbao and then lazing around watching TV. Not much hongbao from this side...seeing as my mum's side isn't much for size, then ate brunch and then we set off towards my paternal grandma's house in sepang.

It was a damn long ride...longer than I expected...I thought something like an hour or so...oh well...there was a tinsy-winsy jam. eventually we got there after driving around endless countrysides...or rather rural, yet not so much to that extent. Just lots and lots of wild grass and occasionally in the midst of all the grass, a house. anyway we reached the town and then went towards my tuai ma's house to see the EXTEEEEEEEEENNNNNNNNDED part of my dad's family.

It was rather empty at first, but people started arriving slowly. Saw quite a number of familiar faces and remembered a few names here and there...exchanged greetings, got hongbao and then we headed to a restaurant to eat lunch. omg...lunch was like eating a cow for me...which is ab-so-lute-ly impossible. There was like herbal chicken, emperor duck, fish, dessert and like 5 or 4 more dishes and I was absolutely full. Then went back to tuai ma's house again and then hung around with...talked to some more people, watched people...and yeah it was quite like that. Daddy was like gambling playing black jack...haha.

The highlight of the day I suppose was when my auntie wendy came down with her new husband(I didn't even know she was married, let alone engaged), brian, in their new silver lotus which they acquired like 2 days ago. It was like, I dunno...um wah... but not WOW!!! you know, maybe I'm biased and only have eyes for a porsche, but seriously I just thought it looked good...something that would make heads turn, but to me not something I would wanna have. Anway, people just started touching, sitting inside it...blah blah...personally...if that were my car I would be crying...all the fingerprints and yeah you know...I wouldn't even bring it down.
Daddy carried on with black jack and then we 4 ladies went back to my grandma's house to just cool off...I mean it was just damn hot and stuff. napped and then went back at around seven.
dinner...was just different from previous years to me...not so rah rah...but anyway it happened, hung around a bit more after dinner until 10+ then went back to grandma's house, bathed and then to sleep.

many many mosquitoes.

cny day 2:
woke up...went down to tuai ma's place again...
had breakfast there...super heavy one at that...tuai ma just kept telling them to cook and cook...basically they were just reheating yesterday's stuff...so it was like dinner instead of breakfast. Somehow tuai ma was not convinced and just asked for more to be cooked.
quickly left the table and then sat around and talked to suntie winnie for a while and then set off to my paternal uncle's house to see their pink dragonfruit plantation. walked around there...looksie looksie and met their dog. She was sooooooooo damn cute...haha...she was so happy...running here and there, haphazardly....wagging the tail...haha...omg...everything about her was soooooooo cute..I wanna dog.
we left to meet my aunts and cousins for dinner and the new hong kong restaurant...it was a good dinner haha...I always like chinese food. The headed back home, bathed, talked to baby and then went to sleep.

and that wraps cny...I'm too tired to type anymore...so ciao!!!
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

gong xi fa cai
hongbao kuai na lai
hongbao hongbao kuai na lai

it's the eve of cny and hence I am back here in malaysia AGAIN!!
anyway school yesterday was olright...
i mean it was a normal day of lesson...
the cny concert went quite well....our first run for the J2s was bad...at least i felt it was bad. like I didn't really put anything in it. The second round for the J1s was a lot better, maybe because ryan was there? After that went back to the studio, changed...got all the make-up off and then went for class. Met baby after school and then he went for canoing and I went home to do housework. I like cleaned the fans...ironed the clothes, hung out the wet clothes and folded the rest. I felt so tired after that. had dinner...did a bit of DC circuits and then talked to baby and then went to sleep.

today, woke up and bascially mummy was in an absolute frantic mood to finish up all her unfinished business for cny and then get back here(m'sia). obviously mummy got into a fould mood, cos my stupid sister (as usual) was taking her own sweet time to do this and do that. I basically just stayed out of her way and did a tonne of stuff for her. Ironed more clothes...washed more clothes...hung out more clothes....and whatnots. finally got into the car and finally started off the journey. Was talking to baby after we cleared the singapore checkpoint but then the reception got cut-off cos i don't have that auto-roam thingie. oh well....

got here at like 4+ and then cousins came downhad dinner and now i'm just sitting here...typing...dum di dum...tomorrow will be more travelling..this time to my nai-nai's house, where I should meet many many people I do not really know. I mean, my dad's side is soooo big half the time I have NO idea who the people who come up to me and say "so big already arh?" or "why still so skinny" are. I just call them auntie. I can only remember the significant ones...more like the ones who actually talk to me or have distinguishing features i remember.

Sometimes I think my nai-nai feels lonely...I mean someone living in a three-storey house...all alone...I would feel lonely. even thought she can still walk to my tuai ma's house..she'd still come home to a somewhat empty house. She only sees us like once a year. She only sees her son and 3 granddaughters once a year. I dunno...sometimes i just feel that way. Anyway..hopefully tomorrow I will get many many hongbao from my aunties, seeing as my father's side of the family is so big. Then monday will be home and then school starts like on wed. I still have many many things to do...studying I mean...but I just feel so tired...I just want to sleep and sleep and sleep.

I want a hug so bad....

I felt that today moved really slow...
haix...
I feel so tired and any amount of sleep just doesn't seem to help AT ALL!!!!
chem lect was where I started sleeping...I mean seriously there wasn nothing to even copy let alone listen to. EVERYTHING was in black and white...I mean I could just learn all this stuff at home...
then pe...this was fun, maybe cos during frisbee my team was just trashing everyone and the funny part was just paki falling on his ass...haha...he just does it so well...haha...
then the day just passed...
went to the dance studio after class and then slept there for a while and then practice started with all the cleaning...and yeah...everything was soon sorted out...now i just need my black shoes...
met baby and then he went home first and then i took a bus home...bathed, cooked and now I'm here. I still feel soi tired...I still need to eat and then do my work.........................

I just don't get it...you just have no idea where the line is. I mean you don't just take over....it's just plain rude...you just have to be in control, like some control freak. Then when someone just asks you to keep your comments to yourself you just interpret it as like some rude remark when you're the one who was in the wrong.
You're such a hypocrite. I mean you tell people it's like this it's like that, not like that and then when someone asks you to do it...you just suck yourself into your "shell" and act like some good humble person and you tell the world...I'm not good, I suck so bad.... well let me tell you...I just hate it...in fact I'll just say that I cannot stand it. If you think you're so good, and that you're right then why is it when you're asked to show it...you're such a coward...PUT YOUR MONEY WHERE YOUR MOUTH IS!!! come on....don't give all that bull...i'm not good enough...it just annoys people.
The way you totally disregard people and then only take into account those you think are "worthy" to give you advice...I don't know...it's like you think you're better than everyone and only certain people are fit to be around you. I mean how can you live like that????
I don't really have anything else to say...maybe it's just me...but somehow it's gone on for far too long and I don't kow if I'll regret saying/typing this one day but thank God I won't be around much longer.

dum di dum...
been lazy to blog the pass few days...haha...
anyway last week, FUNKAMANIA...omg...I swear I so wanna dance like that...I mean one day I wanna. I'm like a far way off...I catch stuff fast, it's just a matter of getting everything cleaned up and adding more energy...it's motivation...and I WILL get there. They're just unbelievable...I mean the way their bodies move looks damn easy, but when you try you realise it really isn't and there's a need of a tonne of control which I lack because I just DO NOT have any muscles to aid in any such control.

this week...
it's been pretty smooth sailing...my stamina for studying is still there...the motivation to clear-up all doubts and make sure I know everything I need to is still there...then there's the future where I MIGHT just let-up on all this stuff and land myself in the most unwanted predicament...so I need to be a super-nerd this year and still have like a tinsy-winsy bit of a social life. dance has been prepping for cny and I'm in the jazz group which is good, cos that's what i wanted and I have to admit I think my jazz is somewhat better than hip-hop and dance has cost me a couple of blue blacks on my knees...haix....
PE...monday was frisbee, I just like this game and thursday was like killer..I mean running and running which seriously made my thighs hurt so bad I had diffriculty going down the stairs...tried to stretch it out but to no avail so I'm just letting the pain wear off. I'm starting to feel the weight from school, it's starting to take a toll on my time and whatever I wanna do....haix...

yesterday...
went out to meet baby after his training and then we went walking to try to find my black shoes but then um...yeah we didn't get it cos we just came to a rather easy solution for the lack of nice cheap black shoes. then went to study...had dinner and then went to watch memoirs of a geisha...itwasn't bad...in fact I quite liked it, now all I have to do is just to read the book to complete the circle...haha...now I have to do my physics...

ciao!!!

Fall on me
Tell me everything you want me to be
Forever with you
Forever in me
Ever the same

today was a rather good and enjoyable day...
haha...
had commencement ceremony in the morning to like officially start the year and stuff...
which ate into our chem lect, which is good, cos yeah....chem already has a lot to take in and I haven't quite got the hang of trying to get a permenant space for all the reactions and their conditions in my oh-so-small brain.
anyway lessons started like at 9am and it was physic lect...so i got to see baby...yumyum...haha...although i wasn't much for talking. after that break and then 2 hours of what was supposed to be pract, however it turned out to be a tutorial session. omg...it was the worst thing ever...okay maybe not cos I was actually trying to understand and all that stuff...but once my brain got so tired and loss the momentum...I got sleepy...but stuff still kinda got in. then it was math lect...baby again...haha...I get to see him in 2 out of my four lectures this year...haha...which is good...dum di dum...integration by substitution, you're probably like this---> 0.0 now but I guess...it's okay.
then CCA...dance was a good session today...we had like 88 juniors so we had to like split them into shifts...the auditions were good. saw some rather good dancers and of course that can't, those that have potential and those that were just a lot of fun to watch. there was this real skinny cat high guy, douglas, omg...he was like so cute...haha...his legs looked like they were going to break under his weight...haha...and his freeestyling was like those retro-shake-your-ass moves...was so cute. we had like many many guys...like 98% from SJI and christian came too..haha...I mean guys is good...we have like so little and they were pretty spontaneous on the freestyling...all the breakdancing and stuff came out...so it was really cool.
went to the grandstand to look for baby...talked to jo and omela for a while and then baby and I went home at 7....
bathed and now I am here...should be going to finish my homework NOW!!!

I'm so happy it's holiday...
I could get used to 4 days of school a week...haha...
anyway...it's been raining non-stop...i would think the weather is great if only I were actually at home to enjoy it and not in school freezing my butt off...
I just get cold real easy...
anyway...played frisbee for pe yesterday...boy it was fun...no, seriously...the ground was like cavingin under our feet cos of the rain and we were just running all over the place on it. For the first time, you hear guys complaining about their shoes getting dirty. junlonf was like skidding on the wet mud all over the place...cos it was just impossible to run...properly.
today...I'm just at home...
tackling unfinished business and who knows what I'll do later...
I'm still in holiday mood...not feeling like doing any work or anything that would require my brain to do some deep and referencing for that matter...
I just wanna cuddle up in my blanket and just sleep the whole day away or go out somewhere..I don't know where...but somewhere...dum di dum...

well, the week's been swell...
I mean I end at like 4 on tues and wednesday was just fun at CCA pasar...
all the dancers were super hyped...the orientation dance went real well, we danced once in the audi and once in the quadrangle...then it started to rain, drizzle...then we did like this year and last years mass dance in the in the middle of nowhere...however today was a damn waste of time....I mean there's like only 2 lessons today...2 hours...
pe was just height weight taking...I have suddenly become rather indifferent towards my height, i have just become accustomed to the fact that i am never going to grow anymore and that I'm rather comfortable where I am...not too short, not too tall. weight-wise...maybe not so indifferent, I like gained 500g...haha...and majority of the guys in my class wanted to be in like the 60s...I have no idea why though.
here's why it was a waste of time...we had like a 2 hour break to do nothing...there's was like a 1 hour free period and a 1 hour break as well, so I could have come home earlier at like 12.30 without the free period...instead of 1.30...
oh well...
school's been rather kind for now...integration is still manageable, organic chem is so going to be a killer for me...wtf. I just haven't gotten used to the different coloured uniforms walking around school...I know I've been there...but it just...yeah, never mind. ethel was in baby's group...she seemed quite happy and stuff, causing baby some chaos...haha...I heard a lot from him.
I've been worrying a lot this year(and it's only been 5 days...) my mind's like 9 months ahead or something and it's not exactly imagining the prettiest picture...omg...I'm a super worry wort....I just can't stop it. I'm such an asshole. -_-... I'm thinking about so many things...now if I had things to do I wouldn't be thinking about other things too much.
dum di dum.