.::Lossehelin::.
Just a bunch of pointless rantings...
Wednesday, May 13, 2020
circuit breaker month 2
Monday, January 27, 2020
How much is too much?
Saturday, June 01, 2019
Change
Wednesday, March 06, 2019
If there's anything to remember this wedding by, is that I don't want to remember most of it.
I really cannot think of anything that has made me happy through this entire preparation period. It has been full of accommodating everyone's whims and fancies. Not forgetting inconveniencing a whole bunch of people and spending a shit load of money on things that I could have gotten for cheaper if done it my way.
Sure this wedding will be memorable, full of lessons learnt and reinforcing my need to get away. Better yet, out of this country.
I feel absolutely suffocated by all these people around me and I just want to run away.
Thursday, December 27, 2018
Not on the same page
This is probably a foretelling of what would happen if I stayed home. It's not just in my head, but I would go crazy. This craziness... Will really lead to horrible consequences.
This tiredness frustrates me. Is it me? Or normal? It makes me feel like I'm not working hard enough that's why I'm not busy. Business does not equate to a better worker, but this disparity is starting to bug me.
Wednesday, June 27, 2018
These feelings
I don't know what the root of these feelings are. Logically, I have no reason to feel this way (I think) , but yet I do. It is because I don't understand why I feel this way that frustrates me.
I used to think that it is jealousy, but maybe it's because I feel I'm better? Or maybe it's just because people have different views? Maybe I'm also being too judgmental?
Is the key to solving this detaching myself from all of this?