it's tuesday...
and the weekend just seems so far away...it seems that everytime I work, i only look forward to the weekends. Not that i didn't when I was schooling, but it's pretty alright to sleep during classes or in between classes, as in not out of the ordinary, but it isn't during work.

It just always happens during work, perhaps due to the lack of things to do??? I discreetly catch 40 winks here and there. Especially since sunday was 'house cleaning' day, there was an extreme reluctance to get out of bed. It's extremely horrible having to get out of bed so early 5 days a week...although I did do it like 9 years of my life. The perks of an office environment, such as an air-conditioned environment, soon become a bane. The dry air makes your eyes, nose and throat dry, hence making you sleepy and uncomfortable, plus it makes you feel like you're on the verge of falling sick everyday you go to work. To make matters worse, I get cold very easily, so I feel extremely uncomfortable.

Anyways...the weekend was really good, besides the house cleaning on Sunday. on Saturday, woke up, went for a run, came back and helped to clean the front of the house. The shoe cabinet, door, doorpost and the grilles. The amount of dust that has collected over the year is disgusting...especially with the contribution of the massive re-construction that my neighbour's house went through. After that, bused to baby's house after he had finished the NE programme at SDC. His mummy 'da bao-ed' the nice ban mian from the back of his house for lunch and we watched some TV together. Watched army daze together and he played a few games of dota while i napped. Went out at about 6 to lot 1 to buy some stuff and after that to orchard. We had dinner at vilage, which is the newly re-vamped marche...service is a little better, although there aren't many foreign chefs like there were in marche. Other than that, it was a really good dinner. =) walked around a bit and then headed home. Just like that, a day is over and sunday evening he went back. It just makes you wish for more time in a day.

work has been rather olright this week so far...
with the exception of the constant desperation to look busy when i have nothing to do.

The people are fun to be around with...the only problem still being the 'ulu-atedness' of the place, my constant hunger to eat something and the oily food. I have this reaction to oily food..it's not an allergic reaction like 'break-out-in-hives' kind of thing. My throat just gets really phlegmy, my stomach just feels like throwing up and I feel like scrubbing my sides clean or something like that. I apologise if I have made you queasy, but it's how it is. I tried bringing bread...but it doesn't fill you for long...then you might say, 'bring more'...but then eating so much bread just makes you never want ot eat bread again in your life. To think that I am actually contemplating to stay there for 5-6 months. I mean it's good money and stuff, but to imagine yourself stuck out there...is just a little unbearable.

The boss was supposed to set-up a computer at my table for the past 2 days...and it has still yet to be done. From what I hear, it's a rather scary move...because it means she's gonna be giving me A LOT more stuff to do and from what I hear... she's one of those psycho workaholic kinds who don't give very good instructions. I have been there 2 weeks without a PC, can you imagine that...you must wonder what the hell i do there. That would be just filing, calling people (which I hate) and at times answering phone calls. I suppose that would all change once the PC comes along. The people there say time moves A LOT faster with one to interact with.

The people there speak tonnes of chinese and dialect...people who know me well enough know how amazing my command of chinese and dialect is. With chinese, i'm quite okay...I just have problems conveying certain ideas and messages. My dialect ability is non-existent...I didn't even know what 'chi she' meant. Directly translated it means to eat snake...meaning slack. However, the people make it rather alright.

I HAD plans to learn to drive during this 6 months while I work...but looking at the cost...perhaps not. Even after working for 6 months...I would be left with almost nothing. I planned to learn how to drive before going to the U...plus since I'm working in the most 'ulu-ated' place in Singapore, makes it hard to commit to lessons. Anyway....baby's booking out tomorrow...after 2 weeks of confinement...I feel to happy and excited to see what he looks like. haha...what with the bald cut now. I just want to hug him...so much after not seeing him for so long. =)

work is starting to take its toll...
or was it supposed to be toll on me...
waking up so early all the time...and not sleeping early due to late dinners which make it uncomfortable to sleep right after a meal..
I have this horrendous feeling that if I do, i'd wake up fat and disgusted at myself. a beautiful vision.

baby called last night...well he calls almost every night...i got a little afraid when I read the sms about the ippt categorising...he "sounded" so unhappy and upset at himself. I was afraid it would really get to him...cos he always tries so hard when it comes to fitness, but he was alright. The army feeds them damn well...so far I heard bak kut teh, half a spring chicken with chips, a bun soup and cordial, plus ice-cream as a treat. haha...they were issued their m-16s yesterday night and learnt to assemble...reassemble...blahblah...i just wanna see it and touch it...however I don't think that would happen.

baby got worried too that I was going to work so tired...so I am eating dinner early tonight...there's also the matter of prisonbreak. I have yet to decide whether I should watch it, I could watch the encore on sat...but I may be forced into going to papa's office, resulting in me missing this episode for good. Then there's also the reason that tomorrow's friday...so after tomorrow, I can sleep in on sat to recuperate and make up for the lost time. there is the matter of that stupid shift in timeslot...making it end even later...at 11.30...
AAAAAH!!!

Baby what we doing makes the sun come up
Keep on lovin' til it goes back down
And I don’t know what I'd do if I would loose your touch
That's why I’m always keeping you around
My sexy love

so you think you can dance 2 has ended...
so we'll just have to see what 'dance floor' has to offer, not that i'm doubting it's abilities or the ability of our local dance talents.
i'll put some videos of some of the favourite dances I've seen at the end of the post.

anyway...work was a little better...
there was a better flow of work down to me, so i was relatively busier...which is what I like.
At lunch I went out to do my S pass...which grants me easier entry than what I have with the 'V' pass....with the 'V' pass I have to get of the bus and queue up every morning to surrender my IC to get the pass and then get through the gates and metal detectors every morning and the people on the bus have to wait for me. For those of you who are like 'huh-ing' at the post...I'm actually working at jurong island now...and not at venezia anymore...the checkpoints are like those you get at 2nd link and causeway...they check your boots, your pass...in layman terms very 'lechey'. high security area.

The S pass was done pretty fast...it was like my number was called after i sat down for a few mins. The photography was weird...I mean I went inside, sat down and smiled at the camera cos I thought she was taking...but I didn't hear from the woman in there. she just kept typing on the computer...and then like a few mins later she gives the pass with my photo on it. usually people say something when their taking your picture. thankfully the pic was nice.

went back to the office...did more work and that woman eunice came. the first time i saw her...i didn't like her...she gives of that vibe like...she's better than others? call it confidence if you want...but it just makes you stay away from her, cos she just seems to be looking for a quarrel. The worst part of work would be the calling part, it's that I'm uncomforable with talking, but these kinds of calling...i usually have little idea what i'm calling about...so I just seem rather noob. plus the person who did the job is on maternity leave...so no one can really help me.

came home...bathed...and I'm here...I'm so so sleepy.
2 weeks seems so long, 3 months seems so far...maybe I should relief teach after 3 months...like at IJ sec???

Heidi and benji - Black mambo





I heidi has grown on me during this season...I've come to LOVE her. Benji and her are cousins too and they dance AMAZING together...i mean where can you get such gret genes running in a family man!!


Ivan and Allison - Sexy Love





this performance had a special place in my heart...it was so sweet...not mushy...seeing them dance like that, I wish I had someone to dance with like that...haha...and this kinda of hip-hop really touches you SO much more than the aggressive kind we normally see.


Top 4; benji, donyelle, travis and heidi - sexyback




I LOVED this one...wade robson is a GENIUS!!! and travis...hothothot...the way he worked it walking down the stage...haha...


heidi and travis - calling


this one left me rather void of emotion..i dunno why...like after I saw it...i felt empty...which is a rather strange feeling to evoke.

today was a rather bittersweet one...
Had work from 10 to 1...
then baby and his parents came to pick me up to send him of to tekong. The car ride was nice...I mean...I won't be able to seem him as and when I like anymore...so I was trying to remember whatever I could about him...to commit it to memory.

parked at white sands and went to the bus terminal to board a bus to get to the ferry terminal. It was like at so many parts of the journey, the enlistees had to queue separately or go to somewhere else to check in and stuff...I felt a little empty...like I didn't want him to leave yet. He was apart from us most of the time...actually for the whole tour of the BMT school, but the accomdations, amenities and especially the food looked like damn good. There was this video where they showed a video of recruits lining up for food and the plate was like carbo LOADED!!! with like humongous fries and stuff. like wth...anyways, they were in the process of buidling a basketball court and street soccer court for them...and the recreation room was big, with TV, foosball table...haha...They even get dessert in those field packs...haha. Later on, there was this presentation about the equipment that they would carry and in the field packs, which had a person carrying it with uniform and camo on...and ben's mum and I were saying that the guy was quite pitiful, standing there having to do this...later I found out it was joel...haha. He was like calling me and I kept turning around to see who was calling and then I saw him.

last meeting was the meal, met in the canteen chiongwei too...like long time no see that marist since he left 1st 3 months. The meal was alright, rice with veggie, fishcake and a chicken wing plus green bean soup and an apple. after that...was bye bye...the ride home in the car was lonely...it was like I forgot to bring something back. I mean I did leave someone there but...like an empty feeling...

and tomorrow is another day...
just very different from usual...

i don't know when you'll read this,
but i hope i can be what you need me to be...
i love you... =)

Well it is a bit late but HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!
I'll be heading to work soon...at like about 4
I'm like working 12 hour shifts this week.....and baby's heading into NS next friday.

oh well, lots has happened the past few days, so lets start with

SATURDAY

the relatives popped down to celebrate the new year so the house was mighty crowded and noisy...perhaps noisy is a rather negative word to be used...how about warm...it's like you can't move around or find a space for yourself. Took the cousins out for lunch at turf city to eat the fried fish bee hoon at our favourite stall, then headed home bathed and changed, and headed out for salsa!!!
met stacey at the macs at parklane and we talked a little, the class was not bad...haha...it's like the best time of the week for me...it gives me a high...dancing just does that to me. after that, rushed to pick baby up from the bus stop and headed home for steam boat...haha...joseph came too...so it was like 14 people squeezed at the table. we had gelato, konyaku jelly and some sago dessert plus sone other stuff....I think we had like 5 courses of dessert. haha...played some bridge which I just suck at and will probably never ever play again unless I make sense of it. Mummy and daddy sent joseph and baby home and I went to sleep.

SUNDAY

morning was church...sadly PEW is leaving us...he's like the humour of the church.
Came home, had lunch and wasted away in front of the tv till like 3 when we headed out. Met baby and went shopping!!! haha...well sort of, seeing as we didn;t buy anything. Saw a nice denim skirt for lik $21, but decided to head down to the sales to find anything cheaper....which there was for $9 woohoo!!! they just didn't have my size...so that was the end of shopping. Walked around PS for a bit and then headed to city hall to meet ben's friends for dinner and countdown. The pre-show was quite terrible, entertainment was pretty bad but the fireworks at marina was so good. Besides the fact that there was no bus for me home and it was super duper crowded and a girl slammed into me stepping of my toenail which is sort of broken now...it was a pretty good evening spent with baby....muakz!!! haha...mummy, with my aunt in another car, came to pick us 7 stranded travellers home.

MONDAY
Happy birthday kelvin!!!!
lets see what happened...well I woke up at almost noon and had brunch...sat around and chatted for a while and when guin came home, we headed of the m'sia for dinner at 3.37. it was early....but we got there at 6...it was jammed pretty badly. Ate at the usual place just with more stuff and more people...and we left after that. Then it was another 2 hours to home. I actually wanted to watch So You Think You Can dance today, the episode looked SO SO SO good. but I just had to get it taped. Came home, bathed, watched little nicky...and then it was of to bed.

TODAY
Happy Hari Raya haji to all the muslim people out there!!!
Everybody's left...so the house is pretty quiet. All that remains of noise right now, would be the incessant sounds of the construction coming from my 2 neighbouring houses. It's just hit me that school actually starts tomorrow and I have no uniforms to iron norbooks to buy...it feels rather foreign to me. I'm old....I wanna drive =)