today was a rather bittersweet one...
Had work from 10 to 1...
then baby and his parents came to pick me up to send him of to tekong. The car ride was nice...I mean...I won't be able to seem him as and when I like anymore...so I was trying to remember whatever I could about him...to commit it to memory.

parked at white sands and went to the bus terminal to board a bus to get to the ferry terminal. It was like at so many parts of the journey, the enlistees had to queue separately or go to somewhere else to check in and stuff...I felt a little empty...like I didn't want him to leave yet. He was apart from us most of the time...actually for the whole tour of the BMT school, but the accomdations, amenities and especially the food looked like damn good. There was this video where they showed a video of recruits lining up for food and the plate was like carbo LOADED!!! with like humongous fries and stuff. like wth...anyways, they were in the process of buidling a basketball court and street soccer court for them...and the recreation room was big, with TV, foosball table...haha...They even get dessert in those field packs...haha. Later on, there was this presentation about the equipment that they would carry and in the field packs, which had a person carrying it with uniform and camo on...and ben's mum and I were saying that the guy was quite pitiful, standing there having to do this...later I found out it was joel...haha. He was like calling me and I kept turning around to see who was calling and then I saw him.

last meeting was the meal, met in the canteen chiongwei too...like long time no see that marist since he left 1st 3 months. The meal was alright, rice with veggie, fishcake and a chicken wing plus green bean soup and an apple. after that...was bye bye...the ride home in the car was lonely...it was like I forgot to bring something back. I mean I did leave someone there but...like an empty feeling...

and tomorrow is another day...
just very different from usual...

i don't know when you'll read this,
but i hope i can be what you need me to be...
i love you... =)