Pain comes in all forms; the small tinge, a bit of soreness, the random pain, the normal pains we live with everyday. Then there’s the kind of pain you can’t ignore. A level of pain so great that it blocks out anything else. Makes the rest of the world fade away. Until all we can think about is how much we hurt. How we manage our pain is up to us.
Pain. We anaesthetize, ride it out, embrace it, ignore it. And for some of us the best way to manage pain is to just push through it. Pain. You just have to ride it out. Hope it goes away on its own. Hope that the wound that caused it heals. There are no solutions. No easy answers. You just breathe deep and wait for it to subside. Most of the time pain can be managed but sometimes the pain gets to you when you least expect it. It’s way below the belt and doesn’t let up. Pain. You just have to fight through because the truth is you can’t out run it. And life always make more.
- Grey's Anatomy "Bring the Pain"
I am going to make an effort to like watch grey's anatomy...cos...i don't know...it IS the medical world and I like it. And yes, I like the getting excited over the 'the-gorier-surgery-the-better-it-is' thing...
anyways, I am somewhat peeved right now...if not for the fact that I am financially reliant, wanting to keep things together and that i can't cook very well, right this moment, i really feel like up and leaving.
Firstly, I mean what kind of person comes home and doesn't even FUCKING border to hang up clothes that have been sitting in the stinking washing machine for half a day?!?? Instead you not only walk pass it...but you actually opened it, with the intention of throwing your dirty socks into it, saw it was full of wet clothes and dumped your dirty socks in the laundry basket instead. It wouldn't take up like a frikkin hour to hang it up!!!
Secondly, so there wasn't anyone home early enough to cook the rice (i knew i couldn't rely anyone to do it, when I was rushing off to church from home after coming back from work), you decide to go out and eat. Fine, although i don't see the point of doing that when rice could like cook in 40mins, you don't even bother to 'da-bao' anything back for kor kor and I to eat at all when we were like OBVIOUSLY coming home late. Just to describe how obvious, they actually called to ask.
I mean seriously, I am doing more if not a lot more than an average person my age should, ndering how I should spend every dollar...having to stretch like $10 a week in JC. Paying practically EVERYTHING through own bank, until it almost dried up and I shouldn't have to pay my way through _______ school. I mean it's supposed to have been planned out...wasn't it? Having to pay for things that aren't mine? I mean okay, it's supposed to be family...but what about me?
am I even appreciated?
There was this DISC test we took in secondary school, I happened to be a very high D...being dominant. Being D, our biggest fear is to be taken advantaged of...and I can testify to that. Right now, I feel not only stupid but pathetic...I hate that I have such a conscience...I mean my sisters are like they don't mind my mum doing stuff, but she fucking mops the house upstairs and down, cleans all the toilets, cooks dinner for all of us for the whole week and has a freaking office job. You'd think they actually think beyond themselves? I'm not saying i'm like a total saint, but this is right in front of you, happeneing in your own home...i just don't get it.
I can't help thinking...all the time I did all that stuff, what if I didn't, would have been able to do better for my 'A's? Cos I sure as hell didn't have as much time as the freak sleeping away on the table downstairs or the one far away...and if I definitely could have, then I seriously feel cheated. I feel like I'm being torn up bit by bit, I keep thinking that there's something better than this but right now...I don't think there is anymore.
have i told you how much i need you?
Sunday, March 25, 2007
Today was just Sunday...
woke up, went to church...sermon was about patience, although i didn't detect much of a lesson invoved. More of a tell-you-my-funny-story kind of thing and then go back to the topic and verse for a little reminder.
Came back, had lunch and then headed off to springdale for my engrish tutoring job...it was olright...i mean considering she's from IB i didn't really know what to do, i just went with the general stuff, turned out it was rather okay...just needed to gauge as to where exactly she stands. Came home, hung out the clothes, took a bath and now I am here...oh so tired as usual...
Saw this quiz on my jie jie's blog thought i'd give it a go actually a large porportion of it was rather accurate...give it a go if you please...
woke up, went to church...sermon was about patience, although i didn't detect much of a lesson invoved. More of a tell-you-my-funny-story kind of thing and then go back to the topic and verse for a little reminder.
Came back, had lunch and then headed off to springdale for my engrish tutoring job...it was olright...i mean considering she's from IB i didn't really know what to do, i just went with the general stuff, turned out it was rather okay...just needed to gauge as to where exactly she stands. Came home, hung out the clothes, took a bath and now I am here...oh so tired as usual...
Saw this quiz on my jie jie's blog thought i'd give it a go actually a large porportion of it was rather accurate...give it a go if you please...
Friday, March 23, 2007
it's late
and I am so so tired...
commuting from buona vista to orchard is just so tiring...
I HAVE TO MAKE THIS WORK!!!
I just have to get it started...confidence...
anyways, these few days have been pretty heavy, been commuting between the office at ayer rajah and another one at orchard. I shouldn't be complaining, i need to do this, otherwise it would just be impossible to accomplish what i need to do later on in life. Maybe I'm just scared, scared i won't be able to make it, scared of what I'll have or rather need to do...basically just scared of failing. Being independent in the past has led to too many mistakes for me, although I hate being dependent on someone or something...independence has lost some of it's lustre. Don't get me wrong, I still am very much independent in certain parts of my life, others have just slackened.
Anyway, the day was alright...rather slow in terms of work, still alright. This job hasn't gotten to me yet...people ar nice, they keep giving me stuff to eat and eat, cos they think I am waaaaay too skinny for a human being. Problem is that the stuff they eat is like really oily and stuff, like nasi lemak and char kway teow, which after eating makes me feel extremely uncomfortable. I just want to drink and drink more and more water to just flush all the crap out or something.
after work, travelled to orchard to meet sean and start work there. Was there until late, took the bus home after that, had dinner and now i think I shall go to sleep...
and I am so so tired...
commuting from buona vista to orchard is just so tiring...
I HAVE TO MAKE THIS WORK!!!
I just have to get it started...confidence...
anyways, these few days have been pretty heavy, been commuting between the office at ayer rajah and another one at orchard. I shouldn't be complaining, i need to do this, otherwise it would just be impossible to accomplish what i need to do later on in life. Maybe I'm just scared, scared i won't be able to make it, scared of what I'll have or rather need to do...basically just scared of failing. Being independent in the past has led to too many mistakes for me, although I hate being dependent on someone or something...independence has lost some of it's lustre. Don't get me wrong, I still am very much independent in certain parts of my life, others have just slackened.
Anyway, the day was alright...rather slow in terms of work, still alright. This job hasn't gotten to me yet...people ar nice, they keep giving me stuff to eat and eat, cos they think I am waaaaay too skinny for a human being. Problem is that the stuff they eat is like really oily and stuff, like nasi lemak and char kway teow, which after eating makes me feel extremely uncomfortable. I just want to drink and drink more and more water to just flush all the crap out or something.
after work, travelled to orchard to meet sean and start work there. Was there until late, took the bus home after that, had dinner and now i think I shall go to sleep...
Tuesday, March 20, 2007
Hello!!!
today was good...the radio in the office does wonders for the environment, it just adds that little much needed entertainment. Mummy says it's called pipe music...and luckily it's on class 95...imagine the horror of listening to a chinese station the WHOLE day!!! I mean occasionally is fine, like when I sit in ben's parents car, but the whole day is just too much.
2 reasons why i am so contented with today...one, there was just so much work to do, it just kept coming in man...right about now you must think I am mad, but i think that I have come to realise that I am on the verge of becoming a workaholic and I don't seem to mind it. I was just on the go, on the go and I didn't mind picking up calls for people and taking messages. two, my boss called me in to say that he was impressed with my speed of doing things...he was rather surprised that I was using the SAP system to do quotations, cos he thought that the lady beth would just teach me to use word to generate them as it was just easier. SO i am a happy girl!!!
lunch was just chicken rice and i decided to try out walking from buona vista to holland v to take a bus...definitely cheaper...but timewise...maybe not much of a difference. Went for a run at about 7 and then came back, bathed and now i am here...shall be going for dinner soon...ciao!!!
today was good...the radio in the office does wonders for the environment, it just adds that little much needed entertainment. Mummy says it's called pipe music...and luckily it's on class 95...imagine the horror of listening to a chinese station the WHOLE day!!! I mean occasionally is fine, like when I sit in ben's parents car, but the whole day is just too much.
2 reasons why i am so contented with today...one, there was just so much work to do, it just kept coming in man...right about now you must think I am mad, but i think that I have come to realise that I am on the verge of becoming a workaholic and I don't seem to mind it. I was just on the go, on the go and I didn't mind picking up calls for people and taking messages. two, my boss called me in to say that he was impressed with my speed of doing things...he was rather surprised that I was using the SAP system to do quotations, cos he thought that the lady beth would just teach me to use word to generate them as it was just easier. SO i am a happy girl!!!
lunch was just chicken rice and i decided to try out walking from buona vista to holland v to take a bus...definitely cheaper...but timewise...maybe not much of a difference. Went for a run at about 7 and then came back, bathed and now i am here...shall be going for dinner soon...ciao!!!
Saturday, March 17, 2007
today was like the best day ever...haha.
woke up at like 10...much later than i intended, but anyway changed and headed over to baby's and waited to go out for lunch. His mummy came back with michelle and chuangyang and we went to pick his daddy. Had dim sum buffet at tung lok seafood restaurant at the arena (opposite SAFTI MI), it was rather enjoyable, with the exception that it was really oily, but it was really good...it was so happy...haha. Took a few photos and then we went to QIAN HU FISH FARM!!!
It was just fish, fish and more fish, it was so exciting and they were just so so so beautiful. All the arowanas, stingrays, parrot fish, they even have this twin head tortoise. The fighting fish were also so beautiful, their colours were so electric...they even had this electric blue lobster...it was just so indescribable. Baby's love for fish has just rubbed off...haha...after walking around followed michelle and chuangyang to go lonkang fishing. surprisingly it's really difficult, although chuanguyang was like damn fast, he caught so many and they kept jumping out. They even have these big ponds of water outside for rearing arowanas, you could see them swimming around when they come close to the surface and they were so beautiful to see.
after our lonkang fishing experience, headed to farmart . we went there, fed goats some veggies, saw rabbits , guinea pigs, cute hamsters and mice...weee...plus super huge arowana, even bigger than those at qianhu and the huge snapping turtle. we even saw dogs...there was one cute quiet one just sitting in the cage watching...unlike the rest which were either running around or sleeping, it was just sitting there looking so cute...after that went back to baby's and napped a bit, spent some quiet time together...and then came home.
It was one amazing day!!!
woke up at like 10...much later than i intended, but anyway changed and headed over to baby's and waited to go out for lunch. His mummy came back with michelle and chuangyang and we went to pick his daddy. Had dim sum buffet at tung lok seafood restaurant at the arena (opposite SAFTI MI), it was rather enjoyable, with the exception that it was really oily, but it was really good...it was so happy...haha. Took a few photos and then we went to QIAN HU FISH FARM!!!
It was just fish, fish and more fish, it was so exciting and they were just so so so beautiful. All the arowanas, stingrays, parrot fish, they even have this twin head tortoise. The fighting fish were also so beautiful, their colours were so electric...they even had this electric blue lobster...it was just so indescribable. Baby's love for fish has just rubbed off...haha...after walking around followed michelle and chuangyang to go lonkang fishing. surprisingly it's really difficult, although chuanguyang was like damn fast, he caught so many and they kept jumping out. They even have these big ponds of water outside for rearing arowanas, you could see them swimming around when they come close to the surface and they were so beautiful to see.
after our lonkang fishing experience, headed to farmart . we went there, fed goats some veggies, saw rabbits , guinea pigs, cute hamsters and mice...weee...plus super huge arowana, even bigger than those at qianhu and the huge snapping turtle. we even saw dogs...there was one cute quiet one just sitting in the cage watching...unlike the rest which were either running around or sleeping, it was just sitting there looking so cute...after that went back to baby's and napped a bit, spent some quiet time together...and then came home.
It was one amazing day!!!
Friday, March 16, 2007
HAPPY 2ND YEAR ANNIVERSARY BABY!!
weeee...anyways, the days started normally...went to work, I must say work at drager is much more enjoyable, there is a high possibility of work coming through the entire day, keeping me busy (which is what I like.)
during lunch i was just stuffed, I had like a whole bowl of ban mian and after that some of my other colleagues anne, shirley and kim cam to eat. They bought like nasi padang and every person's packet could like feed 2 and a half people. They then gave me like another portion fit for one, plus some beef and a chicken wing. I was like omg. In the end, i ate like a few mouthfuls of rice, finished the chicken and beef and pretty much threw a lot away. I did feel guilty, but there really was no other way. so back to work.
after which met baby at orchard and we went of to ramen ten for RAMEN!!! The quality of the meal wasn't as good as the one we got at their branch at orchard point before it closed ad was replaced by starbucks. after dinner, we went walk walk and then headed for home.
tomorrow we shall go to qianhu fish farm, weeeeeeeee!!!
weeee...anyways, the days started normally...went to work, I must say work at drager is much more enjoyable, there is a high possibility of work coming through the entire day, keeping me busy (which is what I like.)
during lunch i was just stuffed, I had like a whole bowl of ban mian and after that some of my other colleagues anne, shirley and kim cam to eat. They bought like nasi padang and every person's packet could like feed 2 and a half people. They then gave me like another portion fit for one, plus some beef and a chicken wing. I was like omg. In the end, i ate like a few mouthfuls of rice, finished the chicken and beef and pretty much threw a lot away. I did feel guilty, but there really was no other way. so back to work.
after which met baby at orchard and we went of to ramen ten for RAMEN!!! The quality of the meal wasn't as good as the one we got at their branch at orchard point before it closed ad was replaced by starbucks. after dinner, we went walk walk and then headed for home.
tomorrow we shall go to qianhu fish farm, weeeeeeeee!!!
Monday, March 12, 2007
It's monday....weeeeeee!!!!
anyways, I have once again joined the ranks of the employed...right when baby goes for block leave which starts on wednesday, well actually tomorrow since tomorrow is POP. I'm pretty excited i guess...I mean I don't have any brothers and stuff, so yeah...it'll be pretty cool...i hope i see people i know too...to talk too. ben's mum's gonna be picking me up...
Woke up at like 8...did the morning routines and then headed of to Ayer Rajah Crescent for a job interview. The HR lady was a bit scary...it was fine until she said 'you're only available till july? that's less than 6 months' i basically didn't answer that question...i just smiled...I mean the recruit agency said 3 months and now you're telling me 3-6 months...not my fault. Anyway the boss came in and we had a pretty lighthearted chat...very casual...just to see how I communicated...and I got the job. So I had to head down to the agency to sign a contract which happened to be conveniently located in orchard, so after doing that I decided to do a little window shopping...I'm still on the look out for those tote bag looking things, only things is, most out there are horrible or they just don't strike me as nice at all.
After that headed home and kor let me watch night at the museum on the comp...and now I'm here....I shall be heading out for a run later...I can't believe tomorrow is Tuesday=)
anyways, I have once again joined the ranks of the employed...right when baby goes for block leave which starts on wednesday, well actually tomorrow since tomorrow is POP. I'm pretty excited i guess...I mean I don't have any brothers and stuff, so yeah...it'll be pretty cool...i hope i see people i know too...to talk too. ben's mum's gonna be picking me up...
Woke up at like 8...did the morning routines and then headed of to Ayer Rajah Crescent for a job interview. The HR lady was a bit scary...it was fine until she said 'you're only available till july? that's less than 6 months' i basically didn't answer that question...i just smiled...I mean the recruit agency said 3 months and now you're telling me 3-6 months...not my fault. Anyway the boss came in and we had a pretty lighthearted chat...very casual...just to see how I communicated...and I got the job. So I had to head down to the agency to sign a contract which happened to be conveniently located in orchard, so after doing that I decided to do a little window shopping...I'm still on the look out for those tote bag looking things, only things is, most out there are horrible or they just don't strike me as nice at all.
After that headed home and kor let me watch night at the museum on the comp...and now I'm here....I shall be heading out for a run later...I can't believe tomorrow is Tuesday=)
Friday, March 09, 2007
why hello...
another day without work and is it me or does the weather suck...
it's like major hot or something. maybe it's because i was stuck in an air-conditioned office and hence had no idea what daytime weather is like.
today was pretty much lazy day...didn't do much...just called a 2 places to offer to give tuition. I was telling one of them that i would like to teach maths and chem...or general science...and she was like so what about english, history, geography lit? i was like uh...no humans just those i said...and she was like..."you wanna teach so few only arh?" -_-...
For lunch, kor and I had like spaghetti with too much diluted spaghetti sauce...but i thought it was okay...after that went for a nap...and then got a call for an interview...weeee!!! After a week...like thank god...at least now i'll have something to do instead of just sitting around at home in this horrendous weather. Although i do rather enjoy the hanging up clothes to dry part. I get some strange joy from seeing them hang out to dry.
somehow...i wish i was back in school...
speaking of school...i tried to apply for NUS...but the application form was like so long, with so much stuff to fill and stuff i don't even know what i should fill or if i should even fill it. I still have my doubts about this bio thingie too...but i really don't know if i should take my chances with NTU..is it truly disadvantage as compared to being an NUS student???
I'm so going for a run later
another day without work and is it me or does the weather suck...
it's like major hot or something. maybe it's because i was stuck in an air-conditioned office and hence had no idea what daytime weather is like.
today was pretty much lazy day...didn't do much...just called a 2 places to offer to give tuition. I was telling one of them that i would like to teach maths and chem...or general science...and she was like so what about english, history, geography lit? i was like uh...no humans just those i said...and she was like..."you wanna teach so few only arh?" -_-...
For lunch, kor and I had like spaghetti with too much diluted spaghetti sauce...but i thought it was okay...after that went for a nap...and then got a call for an interview...weeee!!! After a week...like thank god...at least now i'll have something to do instead of just sitting around at home in this horrendous weather. Although i do rather enjoy the hanging up clothes to dry part. I get some strange joy from seeing them hang out to dry.
somehow...i wish i was back in school...
speaking of school...i tried to apply for NUS...but the application form was like so long, with so much stuff to fill and stuff i don't even know what i should fill or if i should even fill it. I still have my doubts about this bio thingie too...but i really don't know if i should take my chances with NTU..is it truly disadvantage as compared to being an NUS student???
I'm so going for a run later
Wednesday, March 07, 2007
It's wednesday people...
mid work week...
and i still haven't found a job...
the job offers haven't been particularly good actually, not that there aren't any...like $5 an hour working an officie job and $1000 a month with OT like until 7-8pm...
it just ain't worth it.
so the search goes on.
I have been sending resumes out like crazy...i don't even remember which company i sent them too and when i went back to check the job listings i can't even recall whether i've already sent my resume for that job or not...basically, the pressures of getting a job are rather great...and i just don't have much control over it, i just call and send out resumes and sit and wait for a reply. if there is one at all.
sad things aside...i am proud to say that i ran for like 20mins today...wee...and i usually do 15 and i actuall managed to run a further distance in the usual 15 mins, so i decided why not do another 5 mins...and it felt damn good. I was also in town in the afternoon, headed down there for an interview with some job agency with my cousin anson, who had class to get to. I wanted to do some window shopping, to see if i could get a new bag, but decided not to do that till i got a job. so yeah, i think i'm rather cruel to myself...i hardly self indulge...i do it like once in a billion years. perhaps it's because i have this fear that once i start i can't stop? Or that i keep thinking i don't deserve it yet? Or that i'm being too calculative? I mean the things i think are expensive are rather cheap for most people i know...like i'm only willing to fork out $20 for a nice bag.
I think i'm insane.
mid work week...
and i still haven't found a job...
the job offers haven't been particularly good actually, not that there aren't any...like $5 an hour working an officie job and $1000 a month with OT like until 7-8pm...
it just ain't worth it.
so the search goes on.
I have been sending resumes out like crazy...i don't even remember which company i sent them too and when i went back to check the job listings i can't even recall whether i've already sent my resume for that job or not...basically, the pressures of getting a job are rather great...and i just don't have much control over it, i just call and send out resumes and sit and wait for a reply. if there is one at all.
sad things aside...i am proud to say that i ran for like 20mins today...wee...and i usually do 15 and i actuall managed to run a further distance in the usual 15 mins, so i decided why not do another 5 mins...and it felt damn good. I was also in town in the afternoon, headed down there for an interview with some job agency with my cousin anson, who had class to get to. I wanted to do some window shopping, to see if i could get a new bag, but decided not to do that till i got a job. so yeah, i think i'm rather cruel to myself...i hardly self indulge...i do it like once in a billion years. perhaps it's because i have this fear that once i start i can't stop? Or that i keep thinking i don't deserve it yet? Or that i'm being too calculative? I mean the things i think are expensive are rather cheap for most people i know...like i'm only willing to fork out $20 for a nice bag.
I think i'm insane.
Tuesday, March 06, 2007
It's tuesday...
I'm feel quite happy without a job...but then...there's the downside being that i have no spending power. Not that I need to spend a lot now, there's nowhere and no one to go out with now, i would actually like to be busy. Especially since baby's not around, i need the mind to be busy so the days pass much easier and faster for me. His POP is next week, and then the block leave comes for 2 weeks...i really wanna spend time during the weekdays...where places are a little much quieter, but if i've already gotten a job...it's gonna be a little hard for that, plus mummy would highly object to placing quality time over making money...dum di dum.
Well, results came out last Friday...didn't really have time to walk much about it. CJC did really well...we're moving up the academic ladder, which i'm really proud. I for one don't believe that mission schools should suffer as a dumping ground...a place to put the "unwanted". Anyway...I would say this is the first time i've felt this quiet satisfaction in me. It's not a kind of ecstacy where i believed that i've done some extraordinary feat, but knowing i've reached somwhere i think. Perhaps it's a little of Karen's 'aim high but don't expect much' thing...but then again it's not. For the first time I don't feel like something has been robbed off of me, although I do wish that the B was an A...after all it would make the cert look a lot better when applying for things like being a tutor. I may not have proved to a certain someone that I'm an 'A' student, but it doesn't seem to bother me so much...perhaps it was just all about someone else. It's not like I have nowhere to go...I do and at the end of the day, I will show you i can make it!!! I will not be a taitai!!!
anyway...that aside...after results...hung around school for a while then baby and I headed to baby's home, watched some discovery channel. Then went out with his parents, sister and sister's bf for dinner...which was rather pleasant. =) after which baby and I walked around orchard for a while, although we did discover that it was 9+ and there wasn't really much to look at at that time and headed home.
Can I say I can't wait for the next week....
I'm feel quite happy without a job...but then...there's the downside being that i have no spending power. Not that I need to spend a lot now, there's nowhere and no one to go out with now, i would actually like to be busy. Especially since baby's not around, i need the mind to be busy so the days pass much easier and faster for me. His POP is next week, and then the block leave comes for 2 weeks...i really wanna spend time during the weekdays...where places are a little much quieter, but if i've already gotten a job...it's gonna be a little hard for that, plus mummy would highly object to placing quality time over making money...dum di dum.
Well, results came out last Friday...didn't really have time to walk much about it. CJC did really well...we're moving up the academic ladder, which i'm really proud. I for one don't believe that mission schools should suffer as a dumping ground...a place to put the "unwanted". Anyway...I would say this is the first time i've felt this quiet satisfaction in me. It's not a kind of ecstacy where i believed that i've done some extraordinary feat, but knowing i've reached somwhere i think. Perhaps it's a little of Karen's 'aim high but don't expect much' thing...but then again it's not. For the first time I don't feel like something has been robbed off of me, although I do wish that the B was an A...after all it would make the cert look a lot better when applying for things like being a tutor. I may not have proved to a certain someone that I'm an 'A' student, but it doesn't seem to bother me so much...perhaps it was just all about someone else. It's not like I have nowhere to go...I do and at the end of the day, I will show you i can make it!!! I will not be a taitai!!!
anyway...that aside...after results...hung around school for a while then baby and I headed to baby's home, watched some discovery channel. Then went out with his parents, sister and sister's bf for dinner...which was rather pleasant. =) after which baby and I walked around orchard for a while, although we did discover that it was 9+ and there wasn't really much to look at at that time and headed home.
Can I say I can't wait for the next week....
Wednesday, February 28, 2007
I
HAVE
OFFICIALLY
JOINED
THE
RANKS
OF
THE
UNEMPLOYED!!!
Today marks my last day at thhe dreaded offshore island...aka Jurong island...
After the boss almost pissed me off today...I felt happy to be leaving, but after thinking about how nice the people there are to me and how they've helped me through these past 1 and 1/2 months...I feel kind of sad. Anyways...i shall have to start looking for another job myself tomorrow so that money comes in like A LOT faster than when it goes out.
HAVE
OFFICIALLY
JOINED
THE
RANKS
OF
THE
UNEMPLOYED!!!
Today marks my last day at thhe dreaded offshore island...aka Jurong island...
After the boss almost pissed me off today...I felt happy to be leaving, but after thinking about how nice the people there are to me and how they've helped me through these past 1 and 1/2 months...I feel kind of sad. Anyways...i shall have to start looking for another job myself tomorrow so that money comes in like A LOT faster than when it goes out.
Sunday, February 18, 2007
greetings from malaysia my people...
haha...
I'm back here once again for the new year as usual.
Set out this morning for the long drivr to tuai ma's(great grandma), which was rather eventful. We left at about 9 and headed towards the woodlands checkpoint. surprisingly there was like no jam...weeeee!!! then we got to the malaysian checkpoint which was unusually super jammed up. We like waited in one queue for 1 hour moving only like 1 metre during that period of time...it was ratehr strange seeing as during the times when we occasionally go in it's hardly jammed...the worst it gets to is just slow moving traffic. I can handle slow moving traffic, i mean at least you feel like you're getting somewhere and not stuck in one place. When we got pass that, it was just the tolls...i can't remember which one it was that we got jammed in. In a way it is pretty unusual for a jam to form at a toll, but it happened. As usual it got into the usual 'no moving' state and then all of a sudden one guy pressed on the horn and then everybody joined in. It was like absolute chaos....and i just wanted it to stop...i am a person who really dislikes noise. Turns out some reallt stupid people got into a little accident in front of the toll and decided to hold everyone up, get out of their cars and see who could shout who's head of in the middle of the road. like wtf...take it to the side of the road man...not everyone here wants to be involved in your bloody argument.
so those were just the terrible parts of travelling...we finally reached tuai ma's at like 2.30pm..had like a light lunch there and then people started arriving...which signaled the start of 'hong bao collecting' haha....daddy began playing black jack with the aunts and uncles, while the rest of us just talked with the others. People just continued to pour in...apprently there seemed to be news that one of my super tai tai aunts is pregnant. She actually came down in a lotus last year...and we were just wondering how in the world she would fit in it...i mean given that it's such a low riding car and with the newly added curves.
Had dinner with the many people and we left at about 7 plus and drove up to visit maternal side, not before we dropped at this humongous textile place just selling...textiles. mummy headed to a few stores to look at the curtains...we saw a couple of really nice ones at first but a pity they were either all sold out or didn't come in white. The trip wasn't wasted though, we actually found somthing nice, then it was another hour to the aunts.
Feeling so so tired, and there's still pizza to eat...i feel the sore throat's coming back...ciao!!
where did you go?
haha...
I'm back here once again for the new year as usual.
Set out this morning for the long drivr to tuai ma's(great grandma), which was rather eventful. We left at about 9 and headed towards the woodlands checkpoint. surprisingly there was like no jam...weeeee!!! then we got to the malaysian checkpoint which was unusually super jammed up. We like waited in one queue for 1 hour moving only like 1 metre during that period of time...it was ratehr strange seeing as during the times when we occasionally go in it's hardly jammed...the worst it gets to is just slow moving traffic. I can handle slow moving traffic, i mean at least you feel like you're getting somewhere and not stuck in one place. When we got pass that, it was just the tolls...i can't remember which one it was that we got jammed in. In a way it is pretty unusual for a jam to form at a toll, but it happened. As usual it got into the usual 'no moving' state and then all of a sudden one guy pressed on the horn and then everybody joined in. It was like absolute chaos....and i just wanted it to stop...i am a person who really dislikes noise. Turns out some reallt stupid people got into a little accident in front of the toll and decided to hold everyone up, get out of their cars and see who could shout who's head of in the middle of the road. like wtf...take it to the side of the road man...not everyone here wants to be involved in your bloody argument.
so those were just the terrible parts of travelling...we finally reached tuai ma's at like 2.30pm..had like a light lunch there and then people started arriving...which signaled the start of 'hong bao collecting' haha....daddy began playing black jack with the aunts and uncles, while the rest of us just talked with the others. People just continued to pour in...apprently there seemed to be news that one of my super tai tai aunts is pregnant. She actually came down in a lotus last year...and we were just wondering how in the world she would fit in it...i mean given that it's such a low riding car and with the newly added curves.
Had dinner with the many people and we left at about 7 plus and drove up to visit maternal side, not before we dropped at this humongous textile place just selling...textiles. mummy headed to a few stores to look at the curtains...we saw a couple of really nice ones at first but a pity they were either all sold out or didn't come in white. The trip wasn't wasted though, we actually found somthing nice, then it was another hour to the aunts.
Feeling so so tired, and there's still pizza to eat...i feel the sore throat's coming back...ciao!!
where did you go?
Wednesday, February 14, 2007
day 4
Dear Valentine, come away with me. If I had a day with you and you only, I would enjoy the simple things. The things that bring joy to the drudgery and the mundane, the things that, in the end, when time steals the rest away, are the only things we'll remember. I would paddle you across a still lake in a rowboat and read poetry to you until you fell asleep, and I would never ever think about the hours.
Dear Valentine, if I had one day with you and you only, I would admire every line of your face, every strand of your hair, every graceful movement of your hands or your eyes or your body. If I had one perfect day. Don't you see, my heart beats only for you?
Dear Valentine, these are the things I remember, my love... A warm hand, your warm breath, your warm mouth, your arms around mine. I remember feeling safe, ceaseless, like one person, the two of us, still, at rest, entwined. I remember how I felt the first time I kissed you. It felt like... the high dive. What do you remember? How will I ever know what was inside your heart? Where do they go, all the things we think and feel but don't say?
Dear Valentine, these are the things I never told you, these are the things I need you to know... that I loved you always, and my love was so big, it lives still after you're gone. I'd like to tell you that I would do it differently, that if I had one more day I would do everything right. But I know that not to be true. I'd make all the same mistakes. That is, except one... I wouldn't say good-bye.
Happy Valentine's Day...
Dear Valentine, come away with me. If I had a day with you and you only, I would enjoy the simple things. The things that bring joy to the drudgery and the mundane, the things that, in the end, when time steals the rest away, are the only things we'll remember. I would paddle you across a still lake in a rowboat and read poetry to you until you fell asleep, and I would never ever think about the hours.
Dear Valentine, if I had one day with you and you only, I would admire every line of your face, every strand of your hair, every graceful movement of your hands or your eyes or your body. If I had one perfect day. Don't you see, my heart beats only for you?
Dear Valentine, these are the things I remember, my love... A warm hand, your warm breath, your warm mouth, your arms around mine. I remember feeling safe, ceaseless, like one person, the two of us, still, at rest, entwined. I remember how I felt the first time I kissed you. It felt like... the high dive. What do you remember? How will I ever know what was inside your heart? Where do they go, all the things we think and feel but don't say?
Dear Valentine, these are the things I never told you, these are the things I need you to know... that I loved you always, and my love was so big, it lives still after you're gone. I'd like to tell you that I would do it differently, that if I had one more day I would do everything right. But I know that not to be true. I'd make all the same mistakes. That is, except one... I wouldn't say good-bye.
Happy Valentine's Day...
Tuesday, February 13, 2007
day 3
I’m bringing sexy back
Them other boys don’t know how to act
I think it’s special, what’s behind your back?
So turn around and I’ll pick up the slack
back from work...
feeling very very tired...
anyways...work was rather pleasant, with tht absence of the lady boss...
when she left, the office was so much more pleasant and i didn't feel as if there were a pair of eyes watching me...
when i had nothing to do, i need not to go on a frantic search to find things to do and when things came, i got them done. I wish work could always be like this.
After work...,mummy told me to go to the polyclinic to get medicine for my cough, so i went to find the polyclinic, which took me forever. Having gotten there, i found it close at like 4.30pm. i mean wtf...people knock off work at the earliest 5?? how was anybody going to make it there?? i just didn't understand it. So i went to guardian and bought cough mixture and lozenges. I swear my house is a like barren, in terms of medicine. after which i took the bus all the way home.
bathed and am here now...dreading that today is ONLY tuesday...and that tomorrow would be wednesday. I am willing for time to past faster, especially during work...where i'm just "locked up" on that island, with no where to go. Plus the cough just aggravates then situation. basically, i'm just suffering...AAH!!! all for money!!! omg...I can't believe myself...
Anyways, i was watching the Victoria's Secret Fashion Show last night right after the chinese show at 9,when this beautiful creature caught my eye...Adriana Lima...she was first in the castings...omg...her face was just beautiful. she had this girlsh but yet exotic look...and her eyes are amazing and so is the body. i like. After watching...the need to go gyming has increased...i seriously need some abs to like APPEAR!! I need nice legs...not nicer legs..but nice legs...and a nice butt. haha...problem is...the 'gym' is missing in the 'gym-ing'. I'm too upper body focused...i need help with the lower...anyone i can consult?? justin timberlake's presence also just made the show so much hotter, his fabulous dancing and popping never fail to amaze.
I’m bringing sexy back
Them other boys don’t know how to act
I think it’s special, what’s behind your back?
So turn around and I’ll pick up the slack
back from work...
feeling very very tired...
anyways...work was rather pleasant, with tht absence of the lady boss...
when she left, the office was so much more pleasant and i didn't feel as if there were a pair of eyes watching me...
when i had nothing to do, i need not to go on a frantic search to find things to do and when things came, i got them done. I wish work could always be like this.
After work...,mummy told me to go to the polyclinic to get medicine for my cough, so i went to find the polyclinic, which took me forever. Having gotten there, i found it close at like 4.30pm. i mean wtf...people knock off work at the earliest 5?? how was anybody going to make it there?? i just didn't understand it. So i went to guardian and bought cough mixture and lozenges. I swear my house is a like barren, in terms of medicine. after which i took the bus all the way home.
bathed and am here now...dreading that today is ONLY tuesday...and that tomorrow would be wednesday. I am willing for time to past faster, especially during work...where i'm just "locked up" on that island, with no where to go. Plus the cough just aggravates then situation. basically, i'm just suffering...AAH!!! all for money!!! omg...I can't believe myself...
Anyways, i was watching the Victoria's Secret Fashion Show last night right after the chinese show at 9,when this beautiful creature caught my eye...Adriana Lima...she was first in the castings...omg...her face was just beautiful. she had this girlsh but yet exotic look...and her eyes are amazing and so is the body. i like. After watching...the need to go gyming has increased...i seriously need some abs to like APPEAR!! I need nice legs...not nicer legs..but nice legs...and a nice butt. haha...problem is...the 'gym' is missing in the 'gym-ing'. I'm too upper body focused...i need help with the lower...anyone i can consult?? justin timberlake's presence also just made the show so much hotter, his fabulous dancing and popping never fail to amaze.
Monday, February 12, 2007
day 2
well, i'm at work...blogging...
my boss is out...so i'm just taking a little risk right not, cos the boss of my boss is still around...
anyways...went for the NTU alks yesterday with a couple of the girls. It was a pretty good eye opener...it's just sad that NUS doesn't have this kind of stuff, cos there's just no way to compare and i don't wanna be swayed by the words people say. I also don't wanna be swayed by my own biasness towards NUS. Met lots of people I had lost contact with...haha..like miss eu-nice chew...she didn't even know i'd cut my hair...that was like 2 years ago!!! met some other CJ people...some I recognised, some I knew. Met jeremy and liting too...haha...seeing them reminded me of baby.
After the talk jolene, cherie and I just decided to walk around and just window shop. Actually, that was more me. anyway..shopping with them was a rather new experience. I walked into stores i myself would never have walked into and actually found some nice stuff. We decieded to drop into zara...seeing as i've never been in zara before in my whole life. Stepping in there was, like stepping into a new world. I wouldn't say it's high fashion, that would be an exaggeration, it's more like fashion higher than what we usually look at. I walked around...and was utterly amazed at all the clothes, most of them were really nice, something i'd love to go to work in when i'm like in my 20s, i mean cos they would define a sort of high status. Yhen again...as i was thinking further...i realised i do have friends my age who actually shop there. They say they shop during the sales...but looking at some of the clothes which range from like $60-$200+++ how much cheaper can they get really? where exactly do they get the money from? I'm not pointing fingers at anyone...it's just a curiosity that I have. Do parents out there really give out this kind of money? Or is it just because i'm like weird? mango itself is no different...so yeah...it was just something i was thinking about the past few days.
anyway...baby's at field camp...no contact for 6 days...something i hope i can get by with. i mean, usually the week passes real fast...and plus there's work to keep myself busy with and when I get home, i'm so tired i just go to sleep. He won't be out for v-day too...so we'll just see what cny has in store for the 2 of us. I'm still not even sure if we're even going back to m'sia at all, if we aren't then i suppose it's good for us, cos we'll be able to spend saturday together. I heard there's a possible half day on friday for work..so...more time for me to go home and sleep too. Other than all this...there's nothing much to consider in the week...i'm just looking towards friday. i still have a really bad sore throat and cough...in addition a headache after drinking all the ginseng root thingamajig. I am one sickly person.
Plus, i think i've been overeating the past month, i mean yes i am skinny and i should eat more, but not at this rate...I feel so bloated and disgusted. I'm usually able to like eat 70% full and then eat a little small snack like a piece of bread later when i'm hungry..but now i don't, so i eat a lot in one go. As a result...i have this extra, how do i say this? extra ring of fat around the area just above my hips, which has never been there before, it's not a lot...just a thin layer enough for me to notice. I wanna go out to run, but i'm still sick, making it impossible for me to do so...so i'm pretty stuck. stuck just doing crunches and push-ups. i have this desperate need to weigh myself. i always forget when i go to baby's house. i have no desire to gain nor lose weight....i just wanna maintain it. omg...could living be anymore stressful..haha...
do you miss me like i miss you?
well, i'm at work...blogging...
my boss is out...so i'm just taking a little risk right not, cos the boss of my boss is still around...
anyways...went for the NTU alks yesterday with a couple of the girls. It was a pretty good eye opener...it's just sad that NUS doesn't have this kind of stuff, cos there's just no way to compare and i don't wanna be swayed by the words people say. I also don't wanna be swayed by my own biasness towards NUS. Met lots of people I had lost contact with...haha..like miss eu-nice chew...she didn't even know i'd cut my hair...that was like 2 years ago!!! met some other CJ people...some I recognised, some I knew. Met jeremy and liting too...haha...seeing them reminded me of baby.
After the talk jolene, cherie and I just decided to walk around and just window shop. Actually, that was more me. anyway..shopping with them was a rather new experience. I walked into stores i myself would never have walked into and actually found some nice stuff. We decieded to drop into zara...seeing as i've never been in zara before in my whole life. Stepping in there was, like stepping into a new world. I wouldn't say it's high fashion, that would be an exaggeration, it's more like fashion higher than what we usually look at. I walked around...and was utterly amazed at all the clothes, most of them were really nice, something i'd love to go to work in when i'm like in my 20s, i mean cos they would define a sort of high status. Yhen again...as i was thinking further...i realised i do have friends my age who actually shop there. They say they shop during the sales...but looking at some of the clothes which range from like $60-$200+++ how much cheaper can they get really? where exactly do they get the money from? I'm not pointing fingers at anyone...it's just a curiosity that I have. Do parents out there really give out this kind of money? Or is it just because i'm like weird? mango itself is no different...so yeah...it was just something i was thinking about the past few days.
anyway...baby's at field camp...no contact for 6 days...something i hope i can get by with. i mean, usually the week passes real fast...and plus there's work to keep myself busy with and when I get home, i'm so tired i just go to sleep. He won't be out for v-day too...so we'll just see what cny has in store for the 2 of us. I'm still not even sure if we're even going back to m'sia at all, if we aren't then i suppose it's good for us, cos we'll be able to spend saturday together. I heard there's a possible half day on friday for work..so...more time for me to go home and sleep too. Other than all this...there's nothing much to consider in the week...i'm just looking towards friday. i still have a really bad sore throat and cough...in addition a headache after drinking all the ginseng root thingamajig. I am one sickly person.
Plus, i think i've been overeating the past month, i mean yes i am skinny and i should eat more, but not at this rate...I feel so bloated and disgusted. I'm usually able to like eat 70% full and then eat a little small snack like a piece of bread later when i'm hungry..but now i don't, so i eat a lot in one go. As a result...i have this extra, how do i say this? extra ring of fat around the area just above my hips, which has never been there before, it's not a lot...just a thin layer enough for me to notice. I wanna go out to run, but i'm still sick, making it impossible for me to do so...so i'm pretty stuck. stuck just doing crunches and push-ups. i have this desperate need to weigh myself. i always forget when i go to baby's house. i have no desire to gain nor lose weight....i just wanna maintain it. omg...could living be anymore stressful..haha...
do you miss me like i miss you?
Saturday, February 10, 2007
I sound like a man...omg...this has got to be the worse sore throat ever. throw in a terrible cough and i look or rather sound like i've got some contagious disease.
A lonely saturday...
baby's still in camp...he won't be booking out today, cos he's got field camp starting sunday for a whole 6 days...later i shall be heading over to papa's office to just sit there and read, sleep and eat. In the evening we shall go shopping...weeeeeeee....
Yesterday, after work went to the driving centre to register for my basic training. Took an extremely long bus ride there from lakeside. I didn't even think it would take that long, the ride just never seemed to end. The procedure was quite simple. no hassle at all. I did however find out that i had lost my posb card. I was super freaked...i even took out all my cards and peered into all the pockets to make sure it wasn;t hiding in there. So i had to queue again to pay by cash. While waiting, met alicia and her father...after that was settled, I had to think when i last used the thing, which happened to be last week. After i deposited some cash I realised i must have forgotten to take it. Called posb and they said that the machine realised that I hadn't taken my card so they've already issued me a new one. Being relieved, went to book a test date...omg...march was totally booked up and I have wait till like April and I was planning to be able to drive by the time I reach u. Hopefully possible, despite the late test date. I liked the driving centre, it seems rather comforting? like it didn't look so bad...or anything too intimidating. Waited for the shuttle bus to bukit gombak mrt and took the mrt and then bused home. Bathed, talked to baby and had dinner. Daddy found my new posb card in the mail...this one's better...it's got my name on it...haha...took the coungh med and then I went to sleep.
I never thought i could miss you so much...
what's going to happen next week??
A lonely saturday...
baby's still in camp...he won't be booking out today, cos he's got field camp starting sunday for a whole 6 days...later i shall be heading over to papa's office to just sit there and read, sleep and eat. In the evening we shall go shopping...weeeeeeee....
Yesterday, after work went to the driving centre to register for my basic training. Took an extremely long bus ride there from lakeside. I didn't even think it would take that long, the ride just never seemed to end. The procedure was quite simple. no hassle at all. I did however find out that i had lost my posb card. I was super freaked...i even took out all my cards and peered into all the pockets to make sure it wasn;t hiding in there. So i had to queue again to pay by cash. While waiting, met alicia and her father...after that was settled, I had to think when i last used the thing, which happened to be last week. After i deposited some cash I realised i must have forgotten to take it. Called posb and they said that the machine realised that I hadn't taken my card so they've already issued me a new one. Being relieved, went to book a test date...omg...march was totally booked up and I have wait till like April and I was planning to be able to drive by the time I reach u. Hopefully possible, despite the late test date. I liked the driving centre, it seems rather comforting? like it didn't look so bad...or anything too intimidating. Waited for the shuttle bus to bukit gombak mrt and took the mrt and then bused home. Bathed, talked to baby and had dinner. Daddy found my new posb card in the mail...this one's better...it's got my name on it...haha...took the coungh med and then I went to sleep.
I never thought i could miss you so much...
what's going to happen next week??
Wednesday, February 07, 2007
for the second day in a row...i haven't gone to work...
i actually planned to...but after mummy dropped meimei off i felt extremely terrible...so i told mummy that maybe i should go home. Cos if i suddenly decided during work that i couldn't take it, there's like no way to get back until 6. it kind of saddens me that i've lost money from not going to work these 2 days.
so came home...slept...had lunch and slept until i couldn't sleep anymore. this was about 12...decided to do some washing seeing how sunny it was outside. Then, had my lunch...drank some ginseng tea and slept again. Basically, it was a really lazy day for me...i feel rather alright now...just that my voice sounds terrible, like a little nasal due to the sore throat. Went through a terrible headeache, which just would not go away, in the afternoon. Then i started thinking of all sorts of weird stuff...like maybe I have like a tumour or something or maybe my brain's being eaten away inside my own head by something, making it hurt so bad...well, the headache's gone now...so i guess it wasn't cause by that. I didn't even switch any of the fans on the whole day for fear that the headache would just come back. It really sucks being sick like this.
i really miss school.
'O' level results will be out this Friday...so 'A' levels will be on the way too...I have my doubts, I've done all i can...maybe it's not enough?
i actually planned to...but after mummy dropped meimei off i felt extremely terrible...so i told mummy that maybe i should go home. Cos if i suddenly decided during work that i couldn't take it, there's like no way to get back until 6. it kind of saddens me that i've lost money from not going to work these 2 days.
so came home...slept...had lunch and slept until i couldn't sleep anymore. this was about 12...decided to do some washing seeing how sunny it was outside. Then, had my lunch...drank some ginseng tea and slept again. Basically, it was a really lazy day for me...i feel rather alright now...just that my voice sounds terrible, like a little nasal due to the sore throat. Went through a terrible headeache, which just would not go away, in the afternoon. Then i started thinking of all sorts of weird stuff...like maybe I have like a tumour or something or maybe my brain's being eaten away inside my own head by something, making it hurt so bad...well, the headache's gone now...so i guess it wasn't cause by that. I didn't even switch any of the fans on the whole day for fear that the headache would just come back. It really sucks being sick like this.
i really miss school.
'O' level results will be out this Friday...so 'A' levels will be on the way too...I have my doubts, I've done all i can...maybe it's not enough?
Tuesday, February 06, 2007
the start of another new week...
although it didn't start off very well.
before that, let's recap the weekend...
saturday was pleasant...
ben's mummy came to pick me up and we went to pick baby up after he booked out in the morning. made a detour to the army market to get some stuff and off we went to fetch chuan yang. ben's mummy cooked lunch and then baby napped while i played some sims...weee!! i had long forgotten about that...haha...
watched some tv and then headed to town to have dinner at cartel...i decided to move out of my eating comfort zone and have pork ribs...haha...seeing as i had salad for 4 days in a row for work...it's time for some meat!!! reached home at about 10 and then i went to sleep.
sunday was alright except for the trip into malaysia...i had my long awaited hair cut =) and dinner...and we went shopping. i felt ab-so-lute-ly terrible...as i felt so under the weather...my knees hurt, so did my back and the air-conditioned environment didn't help either. At least we went my 2nd link...and got home fast after spending a bomb on grocery shopping. I did receive some tragic news upon my return to Singapore...For all who know Mrs Magdelene Low, please pray for her and her family...that they may find the courage within themselves to push on and that Mrs Low herself would find the strength to be able to continue being a mother to her children as well as her students. The only subject she taught me was ME but she did play a special part in the lives of my older and younger sister having taught them lit and english respectively. For all those who knew her would know how amazing she is at both, hopefully in this time of grieving she would be able to receive support from all those close to help her get through this.
home from work much earlier today...cos I was feeling most terrible at work. The place was freezing...i wore 2 jackets and still felt like an ice popsicle. I couldn't concentrate, my head felt like it was about to explode and my back felt like it was about to break. I like finished a whole tray of panadol there...but it didn't prove to work much. so after work, mummy picked me from lakeside and brought me home. after drinking some black concoction I slept for so so long...woke up when baby called me. =) He just finished guard duty and wanted to tell me he saw dolphins during his shift...haha...that was interesting. I told mummy and she was like 'dolphins? at tekong?'...haha...
anyways...i guess i shan't be going to work tomorrow, seeing as what a terrible state i'm in.
although it didn't start off very well.
before that, let's recap the weekend...
saturday was pleasant...
ben's mummy came to pick me up and we went to pick baby up after he booked out in the morning. made a detour to the army market to get some stuff and off we went to fetch chuan yang. ben's mummy cooked lunch and then baby napped while i played some sims...weee!! i had long forgotten about that...haha...
watched some tv and then headed to town to have dinner at cartel...i decided to move out of my eating comfort zone and have pork ribs...haha...seeing as i had salad for 4 days in a row for work...it's time for some meat!!! reached home at about 10 and then i went to sleep.
sunday was alright except for the trip into malaysia...i had my long awaited hair cut =) and dinner...and we went shopping. i felt ab-so-lute-ly terrible...as i felt so under the weather...my knees hurt, so did my back and the air-conditioned environment didn't help either. At least we went my 2nd link...and got home fast after spending a bomb on grocery shopping. I did receive some tragic news upon my return to Singapore...For all who know Mrs Magdelene Low, please pray for her and her family...that they may find the courage within themselves to push on and that Mrs Low herself would find the strength to be able to continue being a mother to her children as well as her students. The only subject she taught me was ME but she did play a special part in the lives of my older and younger sister having taught them lit and english respectively. For all those who knew her would know how amazing she is at both, hopefully in this time of grieving she would be able to receive support from all those close to help her get through this.
home from work much earlier today...cos I was feeling most terrible at work. The place was freezing...i wore 2 jackets and still felt like an ice popsicle. I couldn't concentrate, my head felt like it was about to explode and my back felt like it was about to break. I like finished a whole tray of panadol there...but it didn't prove to work much. so after work, mummy picked me from lakeside and brought me home. after drinking some black concoction I slept for so so long...woke up when baby called me. =) He just finished guard duty and wanted to tell me he saw dolphins during his shift...haha...that was interesting. I told mummy and she was like 'dolphins? at tekong?'...haha...
anyways...i guess i shan't be going to work tomorrow, seeing as what a terrible state i'm in.
Tuesday, January 30, 2007
it's tuesday...
and the weekend just seems so far away...it seems that everytime I work, i only look forward to the weekends. Not that i didn't when I was schooling, but it's pretty alright to sleep during classes or in between classes, as in not out of the ordinary, but it isn't during work.
It just always happens during work, perhaps due to the lack of things to do??? I discreetly catch 40 winks here and there. Especially since sunday was 'house cleaning' day, there was an extreme reluctance to get out of bed. It's extremely horrible having to get out of bed so early 5 days a week...although I did do it like 9 years of my life. The perks of an office environment, such as an air-conditioned environment, soon become a bane. The dry air makes your eyes, nose and throat dry, hence making you sleepy and uncomfortable, plus it makes you feel like you're on the verge of falling sick everyday you go to work. To make matters worse, I get cold very easily, so I feel extremely uncomfortable.
Anyways...the weekend was really good, besides the house cleaning on Sunday. on Saturday, woke up, went for a run, came back and helped to clean the front of the house. The shoe cabinet, door, doorpost and the grilles. The amount of dust that has collected over the year is disgusting...especially with the contribution of the massive re-construction that my neighbour's house went through. After that, bused to baby's house after he had finished the NE programme at SDC. His mummy 'da bao-ed' the nice ban mian from the back of his house for lunch and we watched some TV together. Watched army daze together and he played a few games of dota while i napped. Went out at about 6 to lot 1 to buy some stuff and after that to orchard. We had dinner at vilage, which is the newly re-vamped marche...service is a little better, although there aren't many foreign chefs like there were in marche. Other than that, it was a really good dinner. =) walked around a bit and then headed home. Just like that, a day is over and sunday evening he went back. It just makes you wish for more time in a day.
and the weekend just seems so far away...it seems that everytime I work, i only look forward to the weekends. Not that i didn't when I was schooling, but it's pretty alright to sleep during classes or in between classes, as in not out of the ordinary, but it isn't during work.
It just always happens during work, perhaps due to the lack of things to do??? I discreetly catch 40 winks here and there. Especially since sunday was 'house cleaning' day, there was an extreme reluctance to get out of bed. It's extremely horrible having to get out of bed so early 5 days a week...although I did do it like 9 years of my life. The perks of an office environment, such as an air-conditioned environment, soon become a bane. The dry air makes your eyes, nose and throat dry, hence making you sleepy and uncomfortable, plus it makes you feel like you're on the verge of falling sick everyday you go to work. To make matters worse, I get cold very easily, so I feel extremely uncomfortable.
Anyways...the weekend was really good, besides the house cleaning on Sunday. on Saturday, woke up, went for a run, came back and helped to clean the front of the house. The shoe cabinet, door, doorpost and the grilles. The amount of dust that has collected over the year is disgusting...especially with the contribution of the massive re-construction that my neighbour's house went through. After that, bused to baby's house after he had finished the NE programme at SDC. His mummy 'da bao-ed' the nice ban mian from the back of his house for lunch and we watched some TV together. Watched army daze together and he played a few games of dota while i napped. Went out at about 6 to lot 1 to buy some stuff and after that to orchard. We had dinner at vilage, which is the newly re-vamped marche...service is a little better, although there aren't many foreign chefs like there were in marche. Other than that, it was a really good dinner. =) walked around a bit and then headed home. Just like that, a day is over and sunday evening he went back. It just makes you wish for more time in a day.
Thursday, January 25, 2007
work has been rather olright this week so far...
with the exception of the constant desperation to look busy when i have nothing to do.
The people are fun to be around with...the only problem still being the 'ulu-atedness' of the place, my constant hunger to eat something and the oily food. I have this reaction to oily food..it's not an allergic reaction like 'break-out-in-hives' kind of thing. My throat just gets really phlegmy, my stomach just feels like throwing up and I feel like scrubbing my sides clean or something like that. I apologise if I have made you queasy, but it's how it is. I tried bringing bread...but it doesn't fill you for long...then you might say, 'bring more'...but then eating so much bread just makes you never want ot eat bread again in your life. To think that I am actually contemplating to stay there for 5-6 months. I mean it's good money and stuff, but to imagine yourself stuck out there...is just a little unbearable.
The boss was supposed to set-up a computer at my table for the past 2 days...and it has still yet to be done. From what I hear, it's a rather scary move...because it means she's gonna be giving me A LOT more stuff to do and from what I hear... she's one of those psycho workaholic kinds who don't give very good instructions. I have been there 2 weeks without a PC, can you imagine that...you must wonder what the hell i do there. That would be just filing, calling people (which I hate) and at times answering phone calls. I suppose that would all change once the PC comes along. The people there say time moves A LOT faster with one to interact with.
The people there speak tonnes of chinese and dialect...people who know me well enough know how amazing my command of chinese and dialect is. With chinese, i'm quite okay...I just have problems conveying certain ideas and messages. My dialect ability is non-existent...I didn't even know what 'chi she' meant. Directly translated it means to eat snake...meaning slack. However, the people make it rather alright.
I HAD plans to learn to drive during this 6 months while I work...but looking at the cost...perhaps not. Even after working for 6 months...I would be left with almost nothing. I planned to learn how to drive before going to the U...plus since I'm working in the most 'ulu-ated' place in Singapore, makes it hard to commit to lessons. Anyway....baby's booking out tomorrow...after 2 weeks of confinement...I feel to happy and excited to see what he looks like. haha...what with the bald cut now. I just want to hug him...so much after not seeing him for so long. =)
with the exception of the constant desperation to look busy when i have nothing to do.
The people are fun to be around with...the only problem still being the 'ulu-atedness' of the place, my constant hunger to eat something and the oily food. I have this reaction to oily food..it's not an allergic reaction like 'break-out-in-hives' kind of thing. My throat just gets really phlegmy, my stomach just feels like throwing up and I feel like scrubbing my sides clean or something like that. I apologise if I have made you queasy, but it's how it is. I tried bringing bread...but it doesn't fill you for long...then you might say, 'bring more'...but then eating so much bread just makes you never want ot eat bread again in your life. To think that I am actually contemplating to stay there for 5-6 months. I mean it's good money and stuff, but to imagine yourself stuck out there...is just a little unbearable.
The boss was supposed to set-up a computer at my table for the past 2 days...and it has still yet to be done. From what I hear, it's a rather scary move...because it means she's gonna be giving me A LOT more stuff to do and from what I hear... she's one of those psycho workaholic kinds who don't give very good instructions. I have been there 2 weeks without a PC, can you imagine that...you must wonder what the hell i do there. That would be just filing, calling people (which I hate) and at times answering phone calls. I suppose that would all change once the PC comes along. The people there say time moves A LOT faster with one to interact with.
The people there speak tonnes of chinese and dialect...people who know me well enough know how amazing my command of chinese and dialect is. With chinese, i'm quite okay...I just have problems conveying certain ideas and messages. My dialect ability is non-existent...I didn't even know what 'chi she' meant. Directly translated it means to eat snake...meaning slack. However, the people make it rather alright.
I HAD plans to learn to drive during this 6 months while I work...but looking at the cost...perhaps not. Even after working for 6 months...I would be left with almost nothing. I planned to learn how to drive before going to the U...plus since I'm working in the most 'ulu-ated' place in Singapore, makes it hard to commit to lessons. Anyway....baby's booking out tomorrow...after 2 weeks of confinement...I feel to happy and excited to see what he looks like. haha...what with the bald cut now. I just want to hug him...so much after not seeing him for so long. =)
Thursday, January 18, 2007
work is starting to take its toll...
or was it supposed to be toll on me...
waking up so early all the time...and not sleeping early due to late dinners which make it uncomfortable to sleep right after a meal..
I have this horrendous feeling that if I do, i'd wake up fat and disgusted at myself. a beautiful vision.
baby called last night...well he calls almost every night...i got a little afraid when I read the sms about the ippt categorising...he "sounded" so unhappy and upset at himself. I was afraid it would really get to him...cos he always tries so hard when it comes to fitness, but he was alright. The army feeds them damn well...so far I heard bak kut teh, half a spring chicken with chips, a bun soup and cordial, plus ice-cream as a treat. haha...they were issued their m-16s yesterday night and learnt to assemble...reassemble...blahblah...i just wanna see it and touch it...however I don't think that would happen.
baby got worried too that I was going to work so tired...so I am eating dinner early tonight...there's also the matter of prisonbreak. I have yet to decide whether I should watch it, I could watch the encore on sat...but I may be forced into going to papa's office, resulting in me missing this episode for good. Then there's also the reason that tomorrow's friday...so after tomorrow, I can sleep in on sat to recuperate and make up for the lost time. there is the matter of that stupid shift in timeslot...making it end even later...at 11.30...
AAAAAH!!!
or was it supposed to be toll on me...
waking up so early all the time...and not sleeping early due to late dinners which make it uncomfortable to sleep right after a meal..
I have this horrendous feeling that if I do, i'd wake up fat and disgusted at myself. a beautiful vision.
baby called last night...well he calls almost every night...i got a little afraid when I read the sms about the ippt categorising...he "sounded" so unhappy and upset at himself. I was afraid it would really get to him...cos he always tries so hard when it comes to fitness, but he was alright. The army feeds them damn well...so far I heard bak kut teh, half a spring chicken with chips, a bun soup and cordial, plus ice-cream as a treat. haha...they were issued their m-16s yesterday night and learnt to assemble...reassemble...blahblah...i just wanna see it and touch it...however I don't think that would happen.
baby got worried too that I was going to work so tired...so I am eating dinner early tonight...there's also the matter of prisonbreak. I have yet to decide whether I should watch it, I could watch the encore on sat...but I may be forced into going to papa's office, resulting in me missing this episode for good. Then there's also the reason that tomorrow's friday...so after tomorrow, I can sleep in on sat to recuperate and make up for the lost time. there is the matter of that stupid shift in timeslot...making it end even later...at 11.30...
AAAAAH!!!
Wednesday, January 17, 2007
Baby what we doing makes the sun come up
Keep on lovin' til it goes back down
And I don’t know what I'd do if I would loose your touch
That's why I’m always keeping you around
My sexy love
so you think you can dance 2 has ended...
so we'll just have to see what 'dance floor' has to offer, not that i'm doubting it's abilities or the ability of our local dance talents.
i'll put some videos of some of the favourite dances I've seen at the end of the post.
anyway...work was a little better...
there was a better flow of work down to me, so i was relatively busier...which is what I like.
At lunch I went out to do my S pass...which grants me easier entry than what I have with the 'V' pass....with the 'V' pass I have to get of the bus and queue up every morning to surrender my IC to get the pass and then get through the gates and metal detectors every morning and the people on the bus have to wait for me. For those of you who are like 'huh-ing' at the post...I'm actually working at jurong island now...and not at venezia anymore...the checkpoints are like those you get at 2nd link and causeway...they check your boots, your pass...in layman terms very 'lechey'. high security area.
The S pass was done pretty fast...it was like my number was called after i sat down for a few mins. The photography was weird...I mean I went inside, sat down and smiled at the camera cos I thought she was taking...but I didn't hear from the woman in there. she just kept typing on the computer...and then like a few mins later she gives the pass with my photo on it. usually people say something when their taking your picture. thankfully the pic was nice.
went back to the office...did more work and that woman eunice came. the first time i saw her...i didn't like her...she gives of that vibe like...she's better than others? call it confidence if you want...but it just makes you stay away from her, cos she just seems to be looking for a quarrel. The worst part of work would be the calling part, it's that I'm uncomforable with talking, but these kinds of calling...i usually have little idea what i'm calling about...so I just seem rather noob. plus the person who did the job is on maternity leave...so no one can really help me.
came home...bathed...and I'm here...I'm so so sleepy.
2 weeks seems so long, 3 months seems so far...maybe I should relief teach after 3 months...like at IJ sec???
Heidi and benji - Black mambo
I heidi has grown on me during this season...I've come to LOVE her. Benji and her are cousins too and they dance AMAZING together...i mean where can you get such gret genes running in a family man!!
Ivan and Allison - Sexy Love
this performance had a special place in my heart...it was so sweet...not mushy...seeing them dance like that, I wish I had someone to dance with like that...haha...and this kinda of hip-hop really touches you SO much more than the aggressive kind we normally see.
Top 4; benji, donyelle, travis and heidi - sexyback
I LOVED this one...wade robson is a GENIUS!!! and travis...hothothot...the way he worked it walking down the stage...haha...
heidi and travis - calling
this one left me rather void of emotion..i dunno why...like after I saw it...i felt empty...which is a rather strange feeling to evoke.
Keep on lovin' til it goes back down
And I don’t know what I'd do if I would loose your touch
That's why I’m always keeping you around
My sexy love
so you think you can dance 2 has ended...
so we'll just have to see what 'dance floor' has to offer, not that i'm doubting it's abilities or the ability of our local dance talents.
i'll put some videos of some of the favourite dances I've seen at the end of the post.
anyway...work was a little better...
there was a better flow of work down to me, so i was relatively busier...which is what I like.
At lunch I went out to do my S pass...which grants me easier entry than what I have with the 'V' pass....with the 'V' pass I have to get of the bus and queue up every morning to surrender my IC to get the pass and then get through the gates and metal detectors every morning and the people on the bus have to wait for me. For those of you who are like 'huh-ing' at the post...I'm actually working at jurong island now...and not at venezia anymore...the checkpoints are like those you get at 2nd link and causeway...they check your boots, your pass...in layman terms very 'lechey'. high security area.
The S pass was done pretty fast...it was like my number was called after i sat down for a few mins. The photography was weird...I mean I went inside, sat down and smiled at the camera cos I thought she was taking...but I didn't hear from the woman in there. she just kept typing on the computer...and then like a few mins later she gives the pass with my photo on it. usually people say something when their taking your picture. thankfully the pic was nice.
went back to the office...did more work and that woman eunice came. the first time i saw her...i didn't like her...she gives of that vibe like...she's better than others? call it confidence if you want...but it just makes you stay away from her, cos she just seems to be looking for a quarrel. The worst part of work would be the calling part, it's that I'm uncomforable with talking, but these kinds of calling...i usually have little idea what i'm calling about...so I just seem rather noob. plus the person who did the job is on maternity leave...so no one can really help me.
came home...bathed...and I'm here...I'm so so sleepy.
2 weeks seems so long, 3 months seems so far...maybe I should relief teach after 3 months...like at IJ sec???
Heidi and benji - Black mambo
I heidi has grown on me during this season...I've come to LOVE her. Benji and her are cousins too and they dance AMAZING together...i mean where can you get such gret genes running in a family man!!
Ivan and Allison - Sexy Love
this performance had a special place in my heart...it was so sweet...not mushy...seeing them dance like that, I wish I had someone to dance with like that...haha...and this kinda of hip-hop really touches you SO much more than the aggressive kind we normally see.
Top 4; benji, donyelle, travis and heidi - sexyback
I LOVED this one...wade robson is a GENIUS!!! and travis...hothothot...the way he worked it walking down the stage...haha...
heidi and travis - calling
this one left me rather void of emotion..i dunno why...like after I saw it...i felt empty...which is a rather strange feeling to evoke.
Friday, January 12, 2007
today was a rather bittersweet one...
Had work from 10 to 1...
then baby and his parents came to pick me up to send him of to tekong. The car ride was nice...I mean...I won't be able to seem him as and when I like anymore...so I was trying to remember whatever I could about him...to commit it to memory.
parked at white sands and went to the bus terminal to board a bus to get to the ferry terminal. It was like at so many parts of the journey, the enlistees had to queue separately or go to somewhere else to check in and stuff...I felt a little empty...like I didn't want him to leave yet. He was apart from us most of the time...actually for the whole tour of the BMT school, but the accomdations, amenities and especially the food looked like damn good. There was this video where they showed a video of recruits lining up for food and the plate was like carbo LOADED!!! with like humongous fries and stuff. like wth...anyways, they were in the process of buidling a basketball court and street soccer court for them...and the recreation room was big, with TV, foosball table...haha...They even get dessert in those field packs...haha. Later on, there was this presentation about the equipment that they would carry and in the field packs, which had a person carrying it with uniform and camo on...and ben's mum and I were saying that the guy was quite pitiful, standing there having to do this...later I found out it was joel...haha. He was like calling me and I kept turning around to see who was calling and then I saw him.
last meeting was the meal, met in the canteen chiongwei too...like long time no see that marist since he left 1st 3 months. The meal was alright, rice with veggie, fishcake and a chicken wing plus green bean soup and an apple. after that...was bye bye...the ride home in the car was lonely...it was like I forgot to bring something back. I mean I did leave someone there but...like an empty feeling...
and tomorrow is another day...
just very different from usual...
i don't know when you'll read this,
but i hope i can be what you need me to be...
i love you... =)
Had work from 10 to 1...
then baby and his parents came to pick me up to send him of to tekong. The car ride was nice...I mean...I won't be able to seem him as and when I like anymore...so I was trying to remember whatever I could about him...to commit it to memory.
parked at white sands and went to the bus terminal to board a bus to get to the ferry terminal. It was like at so many parts of the journey, the enlistees had to queue separately or go to somewhere else to check in and stuff...I felt a little empty...like I didn't want him to leave yet. He was apart from us most of the time...actually for the whole tour of the BMT school, but the accomdations, amenities and especially the food looked like damn good. There was this video where they showed a video of recruits lining up for food and the plate was like carbo LOADED!!! with like humongous fries and stuff. like wth...anyways, they were in the process of buidling a basketball court and street soccer court for them...and the recreation room was big, with TV, foosball table...haha...They even get dessert in those field packs...haha. Later on, there was this presentation about the equipment that they would carry and in the field packs, which had a person carrying it with uniform and camo on...and ben's mum and I were saying that the guy was quite pitiful, standing there having to do this...later I found out it was joel...haha. He was like calling me and I kept turning around to see who was calling and then I saw him.
last meeting was the meal, met in the canteen chiongwei too...like long time no see that marist since he left 1st 3 months. The meal was alright, rice with veggie, fishcake and a chicken wing plus green bean soup and an apple. after that...was bye bye...the ride home in the car was lonely...it was like I forgot to bring something back. I mean I did leave someone there but...like an empty feeling...
and tomorrow is another day...
just very different from usual...
i don't know when you'll read this,
but i hope i can be what you need me to be...
i love you... =)
Tuesday, January 02, 2007
Well it is a bit late but HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!
I'll be heading to work soon...at like about 4
I'm like working 12 hour shifts this week.....and baby's heading into NS next friday.
oh well, lots has happened the past few days, so lets start with
SATURDAY
the relatives popped down to celebrate the new year so the house was mighty crowded and noisy...perhaps noisy is a rather negative word to be used...how about warm...it's like you can't move around or find a space for yourself. Took the cousins out for lunch at turf city to eat the fried fish bee hoon at our favourite stall, then headed home bathed and changed, and headed out for salsa!!!
met stacey at the macs at parklane and we talked a little, the class was not bad...haha...it's like the best time of the week for me...it gives me a high...dancing just does that to me. after that, rushed to pick baby up from the bus stop and headed home for steam boat...haha...joseph came too...so it was like 14 people squeezed at the table. we had gelato, konyaku jelly and some sago dessert plus sone other stuff....I think we had like 5 courses of dessert. haha...played some bridge which I just suck at and will probably never ever play again unless I make sense of it. Mummy and daddy sent joseph and baby home and I went to sleep.
SUNDAY
morning was church...sadly PEW is leaving us...he's like the humour of the church.
Came home, had lunch and wasted away in front of the tv till like 3 when we headed out. Met baby and went shopping!!! haha...well sort of, seeing as we didn;t buy anything. Saw a nice denim skirt for lik $21, but decided to head down to the sales to find anything cheaper....which there was for $9 woohoo!!! they just didn't have my size...so that was the end of shopping. Walked around PS for a bit and then headed to city hall to meet ben's friends for dinner and countdown. The pre-show was quite terrible, entertainment was pretty bad but the fireworks at marina was so good. Besides the fact that there was no bus for me home and it was super duper crowded and a girl slammed into me stepping of my toenail which is sort of broken now...it was a pretty good evening spent with baby....muakz!!! haha...mummy, with my aunt in another car, came to pick us 7 stranded travellers home.
MONDAY
Happy birthday kelvin!!!!
lets see what happened...well I woke up at almost noon and had brunch...sat around and chatted for a while and when guin came home, we headed of the m'sia for dinner at 3.37. it was early....but we got there at 6...it was jammed pretty badly. Ate at the usual place just with more stuff and more people...and we left after that. Then it was another 2 hours to home. I actually wanted to watch So You Think You Can dance today, the episode looked SO SO SO good. but I just had to get it taped. Came home, bathed, watched little nicky...and then it was of to bed.
TODAY
Happy Hari Raya haji to all the muslim people out there!!!
Everybody's left...so the house is pretty quiet. All that remains of noise right now, would be the incessant sounds of the construction coming from my 2 neighbouring houses. It's just hit me that school actually starts tomorrow and I have no uniforms to iron norbooks to buy...it feels rather foreign to me. I'm old....I wanna drive =)
I'll be heading to work soon...at like about 4
I'm like working 12 hour shifts this week.....and baby's heading into NS next friday.
oh well, lots has happened the past few days, so lets start with
SATURDAY
the relatives popped down to celebrate the new year so the house was mighty crowded and noisy...perhaps noisy is a rather negative word to be used...how about warm...it's like you can't move around or find a space for yourself. Took the cousins out for lunch at turf city to eat the fried fish bee hoon at our favourite stall, then headed home bathed and changed, and headed out for salsa!!!
met stacey at the macs at parklane and we talked a little, the class was not bad...haha...it's like the best time of the week for me...it gives me a high...dancing just does that to me. after that, rushed to pick baby up from the bus stop and headed home for steam boat...haha...joseph came too...so it was like 14 people squeezed at the table. we had gelato, konyaku jelly and some sago dessert plus sone other stuff....I think we had like 5 courses of dessert. haha...played some bridge which I just suck at and will probably never ever play again unless I make sense of it. Mummy and daddy sent joseph and baby home and I went to sleep.
SUNDAY
morning was church...sadly PEW is leaving us...he's like the humour of the church.
Came home, had lunch and wasted away in front of the tv till like 3 when we headed out. Met baby and went shopping!!! haha...well sort of, seeing as we didn;t buy anything. Saw a nice denim skirt for lik $21, but decided to head down to the sales to find anything cheaper....which there was for $9 woohoo!!! they just didn't have my size...so that was the end of shopping. Walked around PS for a bit and then headed to city hall to meet ben's friends for dinner and countdown. The pre-show was quite terrible, entertainment was pretty bad but the fireworks at marina was so good. Besides the fact that there was no bus for me home and it was super duper crowded and a girl slammed into me stepping of my toenail which is sort of broken now...it was a pretty good evening spent with baby....muakz!!! haha...mummy, with my aunt in another car, came to pick us 7 stranded travellers home.
MONDAY
Happy birthday kelvin!!!!
lets see what happened...well I woke up at almost noon and had brunch...sat around and chatted for a while and when guin came home, we headed of the m'sia for dinner at 3.37. it was early....but we got there at 6...it was jammed pretty badly. Ate at the usual place just with more stuff and more people...and we left after that. Then it was another 2 hours to home. I actually wanted to watch So You Think You Can dance today, the episode looked SO SO SO good. but I just had to get it taped. Came home, bathed, watched little nicky...and then it was of to bed.
TODAY
Happy Hari Raya haji to all the muslim people out there!!!
Everybody's left...so the house is pretty quiet. All that remains of noise right now, would be the incessant sounds of the construction coming from my 2 neighbouring houses. It's just hit me that school actually starts tomorrow and I have no uniforms to iron norbooks to buy...it feels rather foreign to me. I'm old....I wanna drive =)
Saturday, December 23, 2006
I was supposed to watch prisonbreak today...but due to some unfortunate circumstances...I was unable to do so.
I should like just stop watching, I mean, I've missed one too many epsiodes for me to understand the show anymore, I think.
Anyway, woke up this morning...watched some cartoons...spongebob was truly hilarious...haha...and winx was just what it was. Later, went down to venezia to pick up the ice-cream and went to papa's office.
Left there at 5 to get to the dance class, which was what triggered my little 'pissed off' mood. I got to the bus stop at like 5.20...I understand...I probably missed it. The next one came at like 5.40...like wtf...I was supposed to meet sean at like 5.50. The bus service is super screwed or something man...plus the bus uncle was driving so slow...even the areas where 77 does not stop, like in orchard where 77 does not stop at like 2 bus stops in a row...it was going at CRAWLING speed. I felt like punching th uncle out and taking the wheel, which would then be bad for the other commuters; or just standing up in the bus and screaming 'WHAT IS YOUR PROBLEM, YOU CAME LIKE FREAKING LATE AND NOW YOU'RE DRIVING DAMN SLOW.' but of course I did not. I just sat in my seat and fumed. When I alighted, I speed walked like 5 mins walk to the building next to paradiz. like omg...
anyways, dance was fine...there were some good laughing moments with sean today, although we did get confused along the way...haha...
Went walking around and I came upon what seemes like a reward from HEAVEN!!! It was like God was presenting me with a gift for being so disciplined and thrifty the whole year. There were some really noce polo tees going for like $13...like wth...I'm saving like $10-$20!!!! woohoo!!! pity i didn't have money there I then, I just need to calm myself down and limit myself to ONE!!! I walked into La Senza...I really like some of the pjs there, but who knew pjs could be that ex man....then I headed home.
Came home watched some toy story and had dinner...I can't wait for christmas...weeeee....ben and joseph are joining us. I think it would be really good. ben's coming back tomorrow...I wanna see what he bought me....weeee...he won't tell me.
I should like just stop watching, I mean, I've missed one too many epsiodes for me to understand the show anymore, I think.
Anyway, woke up this morning...watched some cartoons...spongebob was truly hilarious...haha...and winx was just what it was. Later, went down to venezia to pick up the ice-cream and went to papa's office.
Left there at 5 to get to the dance class, which was what triggered my little 'pissed off' mood. I got to the bus stop at like 5.20...I understand...I probably missed it. The next one came at like 5.40...like wtf...I was supposed to meet sean at like 5.50. The bus service is super screwed or something man...plus the bus uncle was driving so slow...even the areas where 77 does not stop, like in orchard where 77 does not stop at like 2 bus stops in a row...it was going at CRAWLING speed. I felt like punching th uncle out and taking the wheel, which would then be bad for the other commuters; or just standing up in the bus and screaming 'WHAT IS YOUR PROBLEM, YOU CAME LIKE FREAKING LATE AND NOW YOU'RE DRIVING DAMN SLOW.' but of course I did not. I just sat in my seat and fumed. When I alighted, I speed walked like 5 mins walk to the building next to paradiz. like omg...
anyways, dance was fine...there were some good laughing moments with sean today, although we did get confused along the way...haha...
Went walking around and I came upon what seemes like a reward from HEAVEN!!! It was like God was presenting me with a gift for being so disciplined and thrifty the whole year. There were some really noce polo tees going for like $13...like wth...I'm saving like $10-$20!!!! woohoo!!! pity i didn't have money there I then, I just need to calm myself down and limit myself to ONE!!! I walked into La Senza...I really like some of the pjs there, but who knew pjs could be that ex man....then I headed home.
Came home watched some toy story and had dinner...I can't wait for christmas...weeeee....ben and joseph are joining us. I think it would be really good. ben's coming back tomorrow...I wanna see what he bought me....weeee...he won't tell me.
Friday, December 22, 2006
Christmas is like ALMOST here...
weeeeeeeeee...
somehow...the feeling towards christmas has changed...there's this lack of excitement and anxiety as the day approaches. It has become somewhat like just any other ordinary day in a year. It doesn't feel like a holiday anymore...
I've just had my lunch...a rather heavy one...which is very out of the ordinary for me. Perhaps it was due to the fact that there was too much leftover stuff, but yet not enough to make a meal so I had to make like a bowl of instant noodles. All in all I had a char siew pao, a bowl of soup (from last night) and a bowl of instant mee. Which is a helluva a lot of crap to me...aaaand I just put all that into myself....
work has been olright...I'm just afraid that my hands would become all rough after all the washing of dishes and plates. I dished out so many boxes of ice-cream today...omg...wo zhen de gen chocolate you yuan (I'm fated with chocolate). All that dishing of the belgium and dark chocolate was really a workout...for the fact that the belgium is so damn hard and the dark chocolate is damn sticky and hard. A pity my left arm is like useless...if not...the biceps on both arms would at least look the same. haha...
I think last night, mummy like went crazy. I have NO idea where she went...she came home with like 4 burnt christmas cds. I mean, their pretty nice and all, but I mean, their all pretty much the same songs in different versions. It's like the hamburger...if you know what I'm talking about, or did I just confuse the dear reader. However the enya one was a good choice...I just want the corrine may one now. =)
I believe I now have to go and clean the house. so ciao!!!
Merry Chiristmas and a Happy New Year. (just in case i'm not here to say it)
weeeeeeeeee...
somehow...the feeling towards christmas has changed...there's this lack of excitement and anxiety as the day approaches. It has become somewhat like just any other ordinary day in a year. It doesn't feel like a holiday anymore...
I've just had my lunch...a rather heavy one...which is very out of the ordinary for me. Perhaps it was due to the fact that there was too much leftover stuff, but yet not enough to make a meal so I had to make like a bowl of instant noodles. All in all I had a char siew pao, a bowl of soup (from last night) and a bowl of instant mee. Which is a helluva a lot of crap to me...aaaand I just put all that into myself....
work has been olright...I'm just afraid that my hands would become all rough after all the washing of dishes and plates. I dished out so many boxes of ice-cream today...omg...wo zhen de gen chocolate you yuan (I'm fated with chocolate). All that dishing of the belgium and dark chocolate was really a workout...for the fact that the belgium is so damn hard and the dark chocolate is damn sticky and hard. A pity my left arm is like useless...if not...the biceps on both arms would at least look the same. haha...
I think last night, mummy like went crazy. I have NO idea where she went...she came home with like 4 burnt christmas cds. I mean, their pretty nice and all, but I mean, their all pretty much the same songs in different versions. It's like the hamburger...if you know what I'm talking about, or did I just confuse the dear reader. However the enya one was a good choice...I just want the corrine may one now. =)
I believe I now have to go and clean the house. so ciao!!!
Merry Chiristmas and a Happy New Year. (just in case i'm not here to say it)
Thursday, December 14, 2006
I'm finally on the internet....
the home PC has finally died...it was rather expected cos , it didn't seem too hot when it came back from the repairman in the first place...
so now I'm on papa's comp, just that there's no powercord(sp?)...I have no idea where it went...so I have to finish this fast before the battery runs out.
anyway, work is going a little better, I think the scooping has improved...with regards to one and 2 flavours. As for the box ones...a little more time, I just need to make the ice-cream look neat and stuff. I learnt to do more of the foods...so yeah. other than that, I've been on the night shift the past 2 days...which is crazy. Tuesday was fine...there wasn't anybody in near closing so li yin and I went home early. YESTERDAY, there were still people in the store at closing and more people coming in during closing, so we ended late.
Baby's away on another of his things until saturday, so other than work...it's been the TV and 2 dvds my sisters and I rented. I thought Gattaca was really good, Mr Hoi let us watch snippets of it for a while during GP but we never really finished it in the end, so it was good to see how it all finally turned out for the man. Highly recommended. My sisters watched Maria Full of Grace, another movie I watched in GP lecture. It wasn't too bad...it's just frightful to think you can swallow 60+ pellets THAT big into your stomach.
Just had my bf...home alone and I will be working closing again, missing prisonbreak again. It's gonna be more tv again wile waiting to go to work, maybe I'll do some reading since I've found a book to read, or maybe ironing. whatever it is, life is just boring now, until work starts.
I so need to get out more often...without spending money that is.
Any takers? haha...
Have you ever loved somebody so much it makes you cry?
the home PC has finally died...it was rather expected cos , it didn't seem too hot when it came back from the repairman in the first place...
so now I'm on papa's comp, just that there's no powercord(sp?)...I have no idea where it went...so I have to finish this fast before the battery runs out.
anyway, work is going a little better, I think the scooping has improved...with regards to one and 2 flavours. As for the box ones...a little more time, I just need to make the ice-cream look neat and stuff. I learnt to do more of the foods...so yeah. other than that, I've been on the night shift the past 2 days...which is crazy. Tuesday was fine...there wasn't anybody in near closing so li yin and I went home early. YESTERDAY, there were still people in the store at closing and more people coming in during closing, so we ended late.
Baby's away on another of his things until saturday, so other than work...it's been the TV and 2 dvds my sisters and I rented. I thought Gattaca was really good, Mr Hoi let us watch snippets of it for a while during GP but we never really finished it in the end, so it was good to see how it all finally turned out for the man. Highly recommended. My sisters watched Maria Full of Grace, another movie I watched in GP lecture. It wasn't too bad...it's just frightful to think you can swallow 60+ pellets THAT big into your stomach.
Just had my bf...home alone and I will be working closing again, missing prisonbreak again. It's gonna be more tv again wile waiting to go to work, maybe I'll do some reading since I've found a book to read, or maybe ironing. whatever it is, life is just boring now, until work starts.
I so need to get out more often...without spending money that is.
Any takers? haha...
Have you ever loved somebody so much it makes you cry?
Thursday, December 07, 2006
Wednesday, December 06, 2006
Well...work is so starting to get to me...
I'm starting to think I'm not too good with this ice-cream dishing thingamajig...
I mean I just CANNOT make it look right in the cup,one person says it's fine, just get the shape. On the other hand, someone else says make the sides flat like OMG!!!
worst of all I was like trying to get through work without breaking any like plates and stuff and I ended up breaking a jar of jam which was conveniently put in front of the drinks, plus at that moment there was a rush to get stuff out of the kitchen...so the floor was sticky, went to get the mop...of course I ahad to wring it, if not the whole place would be wet and slippery and people might fall, no the person there tells me I don't have to wring the mop...like huh??
Tomorrow night I'll be working closing...hopefully it goes well...and then I'll rush home to watch prisonbreak.
Today was just today...I spent almost the whole day playing the pokemon gameboy which I got from ben. I swear, the games I get from him...the first was chicken invaders. Spent about another 2+ hours watching Italian Job...it's a good movie I must admit, the genius of the plan always amazes me.
I thought I'd get through today okay...I dunno, sometimes i despise being a girl. There are just TOO many traits I dislike about girls. Like how in movies they scream and cry about everything when they should be DOING something CONSTRUCTIVE, like shutting the hell up. Plus, how they get so freaked out by anything with more than 2 legs. Cockroaches I understand, cos they're so damn filthy but like for the rest just use your feet and kick it away or flick it away, Another thing is how they get so emotional when they get attached to someone which is how i am right now. Like WTH...it's only 4 days...STOP being an unreasonable WHINING BITCH!!! stop calling acting like you can't live without him....AAAAAH!!!! I'm becomig like EVERYTHING I dislike about girls, being the retarded loser who just can't live without her boyfriend.
somebody just shoot me...
are words of comfort so hard to come by??
I'm starting to think I'm not too good with this ice-cream dishing thingamajig...
I mean I just CANNOT make it look right in the cup,one person says it's fine, just get the shape. On the other hand, someone else says make the sides flat like OMG!!!
worst of all I was like trying to get through work without breaking any like plates and stuff and I ended up breaking a jar of jam which was conveniently put in front of the drinks, plus at that moment there was a rush to get stuff out of the kitchen...so the floor was sticky, went to get the mop...of course I ahad to wring it, if not the whole place would be wet and slippery and people might fall, no the person there tells me I don't have to wring the mop...like huh??
Tomorrow night I'll be working closing...hopefully it goes well...and then I'll rush home to watch prisonbreak.
Today was just today...I spent almost the whole day playing the pokemon gameboy which I got from ben. I swear, the games I get from him...the first was chicken invaders. Spent about another 2+ hours watching Italian Job...it's a good movie I must admit, the genius of the plan always amazes me.
I thought I'd get through today okay...I dunno, sometimes i despise being a girl. There are just TOO many traits I dislike about girls. Like how in movies they scream and cry about everything when they should be DOING something CONSTRUCTIVE, like shutting the hell up. Plus, how they get so freaked out by anything with more than 2 legs. Cockroaches I understand, cos they're so damn filthy but like for the rest just use your feet and kick it away or flick it away, Another thing is how they get so emotional when they get attached to someone which is how i am right now. Like WTH...it's only 4 days...STOP being an unreasonable WHINING BITCH!!! stop calling acting like you can't live without him....AAAAAH!!!! I'm becomig like EVERYTHING I dislike about girls, being the retarded loser who just can't live without her boyfriend.
somebody just shoot me...
are words of comfort so hard to come by??
Monday, December 04, 2006
first day of work...
my feet hurt, hurt...
I wish there was someone here to make it feel better...
I just wish you would leave me the hell alone...
like just GO AWAY...why is I always feel like i'm being, I dunno, pushed around.
it's like when you like you get me to do stuff and when you don't like it you just explode in my face.
I've had ENOUGH!!! find someone else to do your shit, you think you're the ONLY ONE, you think you're the only one that has a whole load of SHIT to handle. Well let me just tell you this...WAKE UP YOUR FREAKIN' IDEA!!! The whole BLOODY world does not revolve around you. It doesn't mean you're treated like that all day you can come home and be like that around everyone. If everyone can take all your crap, I certainly can't!!!
I am SICK and tired of this...
I just had to vent...anyways, today's work was alright, I just could not get the ice-cream to look right, I mean what the hell is up with the gelato man...it just won't get into the shape in the cup. The worst is when 2 flavours are needed, I can't uimagine 3 flavours. In way the job isn't too bad, cause there isn't much to do in the morning and it's walking distance. I just need more confidence...yeah and like not to be so kan chiong when doing things, cause if I do i just screw up some stuff. plus I just need to get more familiar with things, the isea of having to call on people for help is just, I dunno, it makes me feel a little retarded. I get that it's not wrong to ask for help, but to ask for it so frequently just gets to me. hopefully, everything get's sorted out and into place tomorrow...
tomorrow seems bleak, lonely, oh why did I let you go so far...
I want you back...
why did you go...
my feet hurt, hurt...
I wish there was someone here to make it feel better...
I just wish you would leave me the hell alone...
like just GO AWAY...why is I always feel like i'm being, I dunno, pushed around.
it's like when you like you get me to do stuff and when you don't like it you just explode in my face.
I've had ENOUGH!!! find someone else to do your shit, you think you're the ONLY ONE, you think you're the only one that has a whole load of SHIT to handle. Well let me just tell you this...WAKE UP YOUR FREAKIN' IDEA!!! The whole BLOODY world does not revolve around you. It doesn't mean you're treated like that all day you can come home and be like that around everyone. If everyone can take all your crap, I certainly can't!!!
I am SICK and tired of this...
I just had to vent...anyways, today's work was alright, I just could not get the ice-cream to look right, I mean what the hell is up with the gelato man...it just won't get into the shape in the cup. The worst is when 2 flavours are needed, I can't uimagine 3 flavours. In way the job isn't too bad, cause there isn't much to do in the morning and it's walking distance. I just need more confidence...yeah and like not to be so kan chiong when doing things, cause if I do i just screw up some stuff. plus I just need to get more familiar with things, the isea of having to call on people for help is just, I dunno, it makes me feel a little retarded. I get that it's not wrong to ask for help, but to ask for it so frequently just gets to me. hopefully, everything get's sorted out and into place tomorrow...
tomorrow seems bleak, lonely, oh why did I let you go so far...
I want you back...
why did you go...
Friday, December 01, 2006
Back from the hotel!
weee....the hotel was damn nice...just that I didn't sleep much having drunk too much. By the wasy...drinking too much is rather relative...for me that would me more than a bottle of becardi or hooch. yes, yes...laugh your bloody ass off and say it....I'm a pathetic drinker....muahaha...luckily I'm not a fan of drinking, so it's not much of a loss...haha.
The dinner was a blast because of the people...but foodwise it wasn't too great. Even my favourite course (shark's fin) didn't have much taste, in addition the vinegar was rather lousy...you had to add like a lot to actually even taste it. Dessert was olright by me...just that the aloe vera wasn't as crunchy as it was supposed to be.
Took a bus down to PS in the morning and baby and I had breakfast at MacDonalds...Weeeee!!! I satisfied my long time crave to have hotcakes...and it was prettyt satisfying with a nice hot cup of tea. I also managed to have breakfast with baby at macdonalds, which was what I have wanted to do for a while now. after that, baby went off for his appointment and I headed home. Came home and I did a little housework before bathing...and I called Venezia. YES!!! I shall be dishing out ice-cream for the next 2 months. Plus, it's NOT just ice-cream people...its GELATO!!! muahaaha...I just hope to clock enough hours to make like $1000 in my bank, which would actually require me to work for like 10 hours everyday at the most...but hey, I'm dishing out GELATO!!!! Who wouldn't be able to work 10 hours with lovely GELATO!!!! Weeee!!!!
I really hope it works out...I keep thinking that a good paying office jopb would come along...but it's been like 2 weeks...it's driving me crazy!!!!
Like really...
weee....the hotel was damn nice...just that I didn't sleep much having drunk too much. By the wasy...drinking too much is rather relative...for me that would me more than a bottle of becardi or hooch. yes, yes...laugh your bloody ass off and say it....I'm a pathetic drinker....muahaha...luckily I'm not a fan of drinking, so it's not much of a loss...haha.
The dinner was a blast because of the people...but foodwise it wasn't too great. Even my favourite course (shark's fin) didn't have much taste, in addition the vinegar was rather lousy...you had to add like a lot to actually even taste it. Dessert was olright by me...just that the aloe vera wasn't as crunchy as it was supposed to be.
Took a bus down to PS in the morning and baby and I had breakfast at MacDonalds...Weeeee!!! I satisfied my long time crave to have hotcakes...and it was prettyt satisfying with a nice hot cup of tea. I also managed to have breakfast with baby at macdonalds, which was what I have wanted to do for a while now. after that, baby went off for his appointment and I headed home. Came home and I did a little housework before bathing...and I called Venezia. YES!!! I shall be dishing out ice-cream for the next 2 months. Plus, it's NOT just ice-cream people...its GELATO!!! muahaaha...I just hope to clock enough hours to make like $1000 in my bank, which would actually require me to work for like 10 hours everyday at the most...but hey, I'm dishing out GELATO!!!! Who wouldn't be able to work 10 hours with lovely GELATO!!!! Weeee!!!!
I really hope it works out...I keep thinking that a good paying office jopb would come along...but it's been like 2 weeks...it's driving me crazy!!!!
Like really...
Tuesday, November 21, 2006
wahahahahaha....
spent like the entire afternoon till evening at sheryl's house...
morning went to pick baby and buy the delicious ham ends we discovered last night and then walked back to the house. Baby fixed the neckalce up for me and we spent sometime together and watched a bit of flushed away.
After that walked to sheryl's. Sheryl and I watched step up together (LIKE FINALLY!!) It was pretty good...I LOVED the showcase, rehearsals were groovy to watch...sean and baby were outside playing ome flying game when we left and when we were done, they were playing some tank game. As in they were riding in tanks shooting aliens which make really cute noises when killed. Had lunch...curry with maggi mee noodles and bread....we like finished the whole loaf. after that we decided to play monopoly...haha..it was pretty good. I got 2 hotels...haha...sean paired up with sheryl and baby with me...haha and sean went like bankrupt twice. Saved by passing GO!
It got a little boring...then we played MAJONG!!! muahaaha....baby and sheryl taught sean and I the noobs how to play...it was a rather painful 6 games...taking eons to finish each one...each time I was sooooooo close the the tile just didn't come. haha...baby said, another criteria filled towards becoming a taitai. I can shop and now I can play mahjong. I just need to be jobless in the future and married to rich husband or tycoon(Being optimistic...=))
we left at about 7...baby took a bus to the interchange while sean and I waited for the bus together. While waiting I educated him on the basis of make-up; why women put make-up, what piece of make-up is for what purpose, the colours they come in...haha...now I a home having had my last day of freedom without a job.
I just dread the idea of having a job...it's like I so haven't made up for ALL the free time lost from prelims till the end of 'A's I just wanna, you know get acquainted with the god of idling (if there is one) and regain the ability to SLACK!!! This sounds a bit strange but yeah....however, on the bright side...I will have a bit of spending power. I still have a lot of things in mind to buy...so there's the motivation, plus the dance classes I ahve to pay for, so I just need to focus on that.
NO PROBLEM!! yeah....oookay...so ciao!!!
spent like the entire afternoon till evening at sheryl's house...
morning went to pick baby and buy the delicious ham ends we discovered last night and then walked back to the house. Baby fixed the neckalce up for me and we spent sometime together and watched a bit of flushed away.
After that walked to sheryl's. Sheryl and I watched step up together (LIKE FINALLY!!) It was pretty good...I LOVED the showcase, rehearsals were groovy to watch...sean and baby were outside playing ome flying game when we left and when we were done, they were playing some tank game. As in they were riding in tanks shooting aliens which make really cute noises when killed. Had lunch...curry with maggi mee noodles and bread....we like finished the whole loaf. after that we decided to play monopoly...haha..it was pretty good. I got 2 hotels...haha...sean paired up with sheryl and baby with me...haha and sean went like bankrupt twice. Saved by passing GO!
It got a little boring...then we played MAJONG!!! muahaaha....baby and sheryl taught sean and I the noobs how to play...it was a rather painful 6 games...taking eons to finish each one...each time I was sooooooo close the the tile just didn't come. haha...baby said, another criteria filled towards becoming a taitai. I can shop and now I can play mahjong. I just need to be jobless in the future and married to rich husband or tycoon(Being optimistic...=))
we left at about 7...baby took a bus to the interchange while sean and I waited for the bus together. While waiting I educated him on the basis of make-up; why women put make-up, what piece of make-up is for what purpose, the colours they come in...haha...now I a home having had my last day of freedom without a job.
I just dread the idea of having a job...it's like I so haven't made up for ALL the free time lost from prelims till the end of 'A's I just wanna, you know get acquainted with the god of idling (if there is one) and regain the ability to SLACK!!! This sounds a bit strange but yeah....however, on the bright side...I will have a bit of spending power. I still have a lot of things in mind to buy...so there's the motivation, plus the dance classes I ahve to pay for, so I just need to focus on that.
NO PROBLEM!! yeah....oookay...so ciao!!!
Friday, November 17, 2006
IT'S OVER!!!
OMG...I like never thought that i'd be able to wait till this day came...haha
well chem mcq, didn't go as planned, but oh well, nothing much can be done as of now.
went out with baby and his class to minds cafe to play board games.
and guess what?
I met ERIKA!!!
and we just spoke on the phone the night before...um...no...the day before last night...
it was soooo good to see her...haha...we have to meet sometime....SOON!!!
got to minds and I stayed with the guys, played citadel, it was pretty good...baby won...weeeee!! I helped him out choosing the cards...baby bought me a brownie and ice-cream...and the brownie was soooo good. it was so moist and warmprobably on e of the best brownies I've ever tasted.
after minds we met baby's friend siewjing...haha...she was so cutely blur....likecrazily disoriented...um...you most likely didn't get what I said but never mind...baby sent me out and then I took 77 home
the wait was like forever...it was like after numerous 190s, 106s, and 162s, it finally decieded to show up. The bus ride was equally bad...I don't know why, I was rather irritated as to why it took so bloody long to get out of orchard, perhaps it was due to the after work rush to get home thing....but it was UNBEARABLE. The hunger and tired eyes just added to the horrible experience...got home...bathed and now I'm here....mei mei went to pierce her ears...weeee....I'm wondering if I should....I have this strong feeling of wanting too...
OMG...I like never thought that i'd be able to wait till this day came...haha
well chem mcq, didn't go as planned, but oh well, nothing much can be done as of now.
went out with baby and his class to minds cafe to play board games.
and guess what?
I met ERIKA!!!
and we just spoke on the phone the night before...um...no...the day before last night...
it was soooo good to see her...haha...we have to meet sometime....SOON!!!
got to minds and I stayed with the guys, played citadel, it was pretty good...baby won...weeeee!! I helped him out choosing the cards...baby bought me a brownie and ice-cream...and the brownie was soooo good. it was so moist and warmprobably on e of the best brownies I've ever tasted.
after minds we met baby's friend siewjing...haha...she was so cutely blur....likecrazily disoriented...um...you most likely didn't get what I said but never mind...baby sent me out and then I took 77 home
the wait was like forever...it was like after numerous 190s, 106s, and 162s, it finally decieded to show up. The bus ride was equally bad...I don't know why, I was rather irritated as to why it took so bloody long to get out of orchard, perhaps it was due to the after work rush to get home thing....but it was UNBEARABLE. The hunger and tired eyes just added to the horrible experience...got home...bathed and now I'm here....mei mei went to pierce her ears...weeee....I'm wondering if I should....I have this strong feeling of wanting too...
Friday, November 10, 2006
Finally a little breather in between papers...
I had like math 1, chem 3 and math 2 for 3 consecutive days
next week's like the last stretch of everything, the only thing that's finished is math, so yeah, like 2 down, 2 more to go...making that like 5 more papers to go....
after all this...chacha and salsa hopefully...I really wanna learn...
and for the first time in my entire life, I WANT to go shopping...I have NO idea what to shop for, I just wanna spend and buy something...AAAH!!!
I had like math 1, chem 3 and math 2 for 3 consecutive days
next week's like the last stretch of everything, the only thing that's finished is math, so yeah, like 2 down, 2 more to go...making that like 5 more papers to go....
after all this...chacha and salsa hopefully...I really wanna learn...
and for the first time in my entire life, I WANT to go shopping...I have NO idea what to shop for, I just wanna spend and buy something...AAAH!!!
Sunday, November 05, 2006
12 to go...
the tagboard is like fixed...not fixed, I just got a new one.
Anyway, seeing as I haven't blogged since october...
lotsa stuff happened; graduation day, many fun days of class with the class, or at times the lack of it, mock and more mock exams. A rather bittersweet period of time, parting ways is difficult after having gotten used to having them around almost 24/7. plus, it's only been 2 years, so it seems like you've just gotten used to them and it all just ended so fast.
Graduation day was like a touch of reality that we won't see each other as often anymore, and that the 'A's are like 3 weeks away. The year passed like lightning, and yet there's a feeling like i'm not ready to go yet. I wanna stay a little while longer, especially since this is the last I'll ever see of formal schooling. JC life was truly amazing...it was torture, but yet there was so much laughter involved to totally dismiss it an insufferable experience. It's nothing like IJ, but it was close...maybe on par...
now it's time to hibernate and prove to myself what the two years were worth in terms of academics and I really hope that there are no regrets. not even a single one.
church today was rather light, I mean pastor was like preaching on how we could spiritually connect when two sparrows flew in from behind the curtains in the MG audi. I have NO idea how they got in. but they kept chirping and hopping infront and flying around. There was also a little boy who kept following the birds, obvioulsy fascinated...haha...that came to an end when he started to climb onto the stage. The rest of the day was spent with environmental chem, technically should be just called major regurgitation, the problem being that regurgitation is only possible if you actually SWALLOW anything.
I pray to God that everything goes well for the next 2 weeks...
baby: haha...oh yeah, it still seems rather strange as to how we could have forgotten the 19th anniversary...so happy belated 19th anniversary...
the tagboard is like fixed...not fixed, I just got a new one.
Anyway, seeing as I haven't blogged since october...
lotsa stuff happened; graduation day, many fun days of class with the class, or at times the lack of it, mock and more mock exams. A rather bittersweet period of time, parting ways is difficult after having gotten used to having them around almost 24/7. plus, it's only been 2 years, so it seems like you've just gotten used to them and it all just ended so fast.
Graduation day was like a touch of reality that we won't see each other as often anymore, and that the 'A's are like 3 weeks away. The year passed like lightning, and yet there's a feeling like i'm not ready to go yet. I wanna stay a little while longer, especially since this is the last I'll ever see of formal schooling. JC life was truly amazing...it was torture, but yet there was so much laughter involved to totally dismiss it an insufferable experience. It's nothing like IJ, but it was close...maybe on par...
now it's time to hibernate and prove to myself what the two years were worth in terms of academics and I really hope that there are no regrets. not even a single one.
church today was rather light, I mean pastor was like preaching on how we could spiritually connect when two sparrows flew in from behind the curtains in the MG audi. I have NO idea how they got in. but they kept chirping and hopping infront and flying around. There was also a little boy who kept following the birds, obvioulsy fascinated...haha...that came to an end when he started to climb onto the stage. The rest of the day was spent with environmental chem, technically should be just called major regurgitation, the problem being that regurgitation is only possible if you actually SWALLOW anything.
I pray to God that everything goes well for the next 2 weeks...
baby: haha...oh yeah, it still seems rather strange as to how we could have forgotten the 19th anniversary...so happy belated 19th anniversary...
Sunday, October 01, 2006
today is stay home and study...
'so sleepy' is what I have been for the pass few days...
THANK YOU to erika, nat, sheryl. jeanette and baby for the birthday smses
THANK YOU to yimin for the ab-so-lute-ly lovely card, I still have NO idea how you do it...it's beautiful; valerie for choosing the colour of the tank; cherie, shuyan for the chocs; karen, jolene, trevin, lianwang and yanny for tor the tank and cute little voodoo doll!! Amanda for the super cool photo frame, meimei for the gummies...weee!!! Mummy for baking the cheesecake!!!! and last but not least, to baby for the necklace and the company you gave me!!!
'so sleepy' is what I have been for the pass few days...
THANK YOU to erika, nat, sheryl. jeanette and baby for the birthday smses
THANK YOU to yimin for the ab-so-lute-ly lovely card, I still have NO idea how you do it...it's beautiful; valerie for choosing the colour of the tank; cherie, shuyan for the chocs; karen, jolene, trevin, lianwang and yanny for tor the tank and cute little voodoo doll!! Amanda for the super cool photo frame, meimei for the gummies...weee!!! Mummy for baking the cheesecake!!!! and last but not least, to baby for the necklace and the company you gave me!!!
Wednesday, September 27, 2006
I got the link to this article in an email, there are actually more articles about the issue on the sunday times issue on how they defined IJ girls there, so you can go read more about it; the link is at the bottom of this paragraph. I was a bit upset about the definition delivered to the public. I guess I would not deny that there is some truth in it, that a majority do hem our skirts really short and wear out belts low, however I did feel offended by the comment IJ girls as being 'allegedly easy when it comes to the opposite sex' as well as the caricature , after all I was educated for 10 years CHIJ Toa Payoh. Even though the article was 'toungue-in-cheek' ,to me , that comment was just baseless and insulting to a school which has probably educated more than thousands of girls in its 152 years of stay in Singapore. It basically undermined the rich legacy of the convent and the strong values it has taught many girls. The education and spiritual enrichment that I received during my years there is one probably no other school would be able to equal and I am proud of how it has shaped me into the person I am today.
http://www.chijalumni.org/news.htm
Lifestyle article cast aspersions on IJ Girls
Tuesday September 19, 2006
I AM the chairperson of the Infant Jesus Board of Management of 11 CHIJ Schools in Singapore and an old girl of one of these CHIJ Schools.
I refer to the article published on pages L4 - L6 of Lifestyle of The Sunday Times ('Alternative Singapore: The Encyclopedia'; Sept 17) where the authors indicated their desire to present 'overseas visitors' with an 'Insiders' Guide to help them get the most out of their stay'. They have therefore 'come up with (their) own counter-culture compendium of nuggets' which will 'initiate you to the local hybrid lingo'. I note that the article was written 'tongue-in-cheek'.
I am concerned and dismayed that the authors have elected to include in their 'compendium of nuggets' their definition of 'IJ Girls', together with other commonly used words within the local Singapore community.
My concern lies in two areas:
Was there a need to tarnish the image of thousands of students, past, present and future, including girls as young as six-plus years old in Primary One, with an image that they are 'allegedly easy when it comes to the opposite sex'?
Was there any need to associate your improper definition with an inappropriate caricature and a picture of IJ students in uniform, taken out of context?
There are currently about 16,000 pupils in our CHIJ Schools aged six to 16 years of age. The first CHIJ School was founded 152 years ago, which means that thousands of young women would have been educated in an IJ School. The wholly inappropriate description has swept through a large swathe of innocent pupils and ex-pupils.
The recent coverage of Mrs Elizabeth Choy was very tasteful. Your readers may wish to know that Mrs Choy was an 'IJ Girl', having schooled at a CHIJ school from 1929-1933.
Other IJ Girls include Singapore's Ambassador to the United States, Prof Chan Heng Chee; Members of Parliament Mrs Cynthia Phua, Ms Ellen Lee, Dr Fatimah Lateef, Ms Sylvia Lim, Ms Jessica Tan; Executive Director (Unifem) Ms Noeleen Heyzer, IJ Sister Cecilia Chew, IJ Sister Daniel Ee, IJ Sister Christina Joy and IJ Sister Maria Lau, just to name a few. I wonder if these women would appreciate being described as 'allegedly easy on the opposite sex'?
The authorship and publication of such an article cannot, by any measure, be accepted as a 'tongue-in-cheek' article. It was an ill-conceived idea and done in bad taste. It has caused much distress, pain and embarrassment to women, of all ages, that hail from our CHIJ Schools. We do not condone your publication and take strong objection to the aspersions cast upon IJ Girls.
Donne Marie Aeria
Chairperson
Infant Jesus Board of Management
CHIJ Schools
Friday, September 22, 2006
these 2 days have been unexpectedly boring...
with the exception that I have met my goal in ironing
the anime episodes on youtube have run out...
I am like a dried up prune in need of much entertainment or just to go out.
Although the problem would be that I have no money to spend and so many things that I want that I can't differentiate what i really want from what is just a fad to me.
sometimes I want things so much, but after a while...or a few months or years...it just doesn't seem necessary to me anymore. Did I also mention I hate indesiciveness...so I just cannot stand not being able to decide what I want. ironically, it's stressful...at this rate I'll probably be dying early...haha...
somehow I just cannot wait for next week, where I can get to school and just...okay maybe that's not a very good option. I sound like some caveman in confinement...
hiax...
with the exception that I have met my goal in ironing
the anime episodes on youtube have run out...
I am like a dried up prune in need of much entertainment or just to go out.
Although the problem would be that I have no money to spend and so many things that I want that I can't differentiate what i really want from what is just a fad to me.
sometimes I want things so much, but after a while...or a few months or years...it just doesn't seem necessary to me anymore. Did I also mention I hate indesiciveness...so I just cannot stand not being able to decide what I want. ironically, it's stressful...at this rate I'll probably be dying early...haha...
somehow I just cannot wait for next week, where I can get to school and just...okay maybe that's not a very good option. I sound like some caveman in confinement...
hiax...
Thursday, September 21, 2006
like prelims are officially over...
*jumps for joy*
although I don't feel very much relieved...there's still the nagging of the mext wave...
haix..
anyway, yesterday was a fantastic day...
haha...2t29's very first class outing, went to minds cafe, opposite paradiz. the class just played board games and card games the whole 2 hours plus...haha...the SNORT was the best game ever...haha...it's like dirty germs but just that for this version we use animal sounds. it was really fun...haha and the the other game was rather interesting...don't really know what it's called though. basically the card shows a hand gesture and you need to dertermine if can be done and if it can be you have to imitate it as fast as possible.
we finished up at 7 and then the girls and I decided to go PS to shop for trevin and karen's bro's present. we walked and walked until 9.30 when we finally found both. Karen and I were in barang barang walking around hoping to find some sort of inspiration there. Surprisingly barang barang does not only sell furniture and furniture accessories but toys too...
and then headed home.
baby had S paper today...poor little thing...
the whole of today was just spent on youtube watching stuff....
I dont want this day to end...
which reminds me, I'll have to go iron late..whoo!!
*jumps for joy*
although I don't feel very much relieved...there's still the nagging of the mext wave...
haix..
anyway, yesterday was a fantastic day...
haha...2t29's very first class outing, went to minds cafe, opposite paradiz. the class just played board games and card games the whole 2 hours plus...haha...the SNORT was the best game ever...haha...it's like dirty germs but just that for this version we use animal sounds. it was really fun...haha and the the other game was rather interesting...don't really know what it's called though. basically the card shows a hand gesture and you need to dertermine if can be done and if it can be you have to imitate it as fast as possible.
we finished up at 7 and then the girls and I decided to go PS to shop for trevin and karen's bro's present. we walked and walked until 9.30 when we finally found both. Karen and I were in barang barang walking around hoping to find some sort of inspiration there. Surprisingly barang barang does not only sell furniture and furniture accessories but toys too...
and then headed home.
baby had S paper today...poor little thing...
the whole of today was just spent on youtube watching stuff....
I dont want this day to end...
which reminds me, I'll have to go iron late..whoo!!
Saturday, September 16, 2006
Happy 18th month anniversary baby!!!
1 and a half years...
Thank you so much for being there for me, giving me a shoulder to cry on.
Thank you so much for pushing me and motivating me, when I felt that I could go on no longer.
Thank you for taking care of me, always putting me first, especially when I'm sick.
Thank you for your patience, kindness and love that you have showered me with.
Thank you for always being there to cheer me up when I was down.
Thank you for making me such a happy person these pass 18 months.
I have truly loved and appreciated all the times we have spent together.
I hope that we would grow to love and understand each other more.
I love you so so much!
:) muakz!!!
1 and a half years...
Thank you so much for being there for me, giving me a shoulder to cry on.
Thank you so much for pushing me and motivating me, when I felt that I could go on no longer.
Thank you for taking care of me, always putting me first, especially when I'm sick.
Thank you for your patience, kindness and love that you have showered me with.
Thank you for always being there to cheer me up when I was down.
Thank you for making me such a happy person these pass 18 months.
I have truly loved and appreciated all the times we have spent together.
I hope that we would grow to love and understand each other more.
I love you so so much!
:) muakz!!!
Thursday, September 07, 2006
Cause there's something in the way you look at me
It's as if my heart knows
You're the missing
make me believe that there's nothin'in this world I can't be
I never know what you see but there's
somethin' in the way you look at me
I've finally gotten into windows on my computer...
It's SUPER screwed up...
It's like everytime I type a letter the whole screen sorta blinks.
The colours all in weird shades....and it comes in dots, not a solid colour.
Everything is extremely BIG cos the resolution is the smallest one and I'm afraid to change it cos then I'll have to restart the comp and then I would need to go through all the shit I had to go through just now to get in. Mummy's probably going to scold me when she finds out the state the comp is in, I have no idea why it screws up like that...why is it MY comp always screws up and other people who DL loads of stuff don't screw-up!??!? I have too much stuff...school stuff and personal stuff in here to reformat this whole thing...AAAAAAAAAAH!!!
Today was rather well spent...I mean just doing chem...now I'll be doing math soon...as you can see it's rather boring, just total mugging and mugging and non-stop worrying if I've done enough.
I have no idea what I'm going to type here seein as the day hasn't been the most exciting of all days, perhaps it's the need to be online and that the computer still works...I haven't even had dinner!!! I was in the middle of doing a math prelim paper too...
I think i should end...
end.
It's as if my heart knows
You're the missing
make me believe that there's nothin'in this world I can't be
I never know what you see but there's
somethin' in the way you look at me
I've finally gotten into windows on my computer...
It's SUPER screwed up...
It's like everytime I type a letter the whole screen sorta blinks.
The colours all in weird shades....and it comes in dots, not a solid colour.
Everything is extremely BIG cos the resolution is the smallest one and I'm afraid to change it cos then I'll have to restart the comp and then I would need to go through all the shit I had to go through just now to get in. Mummy's probably going to scold me when she finds out the state the comp is in, I have no idea why it screws up like that...why is it MY comp always screws up and other people who DL loads of stuff don't screw-up!??!? I have too much stuff...school stuff and personal stuff in here to reformat this whole thing...AAAAAAAAAAH!!!
Today was rather well spent...I mean just doing chem...now I'll be doing math soon...as you can see it's rather boring, just total mugging and mugging and non-stop worrying if I've done enough.
I have no idea what I'm going to type here seein as the day hasn't been the most exciting of all days, perhaps it's the need to be online and that the computer still works...I haven't even had dinner!!! I was in the middle of doing a math prelim paper too...
I think i should end...
end.
Monday, September 04, 2006
Saturday, August 26, 2006
If I lay here If I just lay here
Would you lie with me
And just forget the world
Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life
been a while since i've blogged...
all the mad rush for mock and with prelims coming soon...
I still can't believe it's gonna end so soon.
part of me feels ecstatic about all the stress and crap being lifted from my mind but yet I think...or maybe I would miss everyone in class.
anyways, I have to remember I have to write that stupid thing for MOE about my participation in my CCA.
yesterday was a somewhat wonderful yet guilty day spent...haha.
We had like an early teachers' day celebration in school, so we had 2 lessons and then celebrations after. The girls bought teachers' day presents...for mr wee handkerchiefs, for miss ang a taitai looking purple handbag, for miss koh a clock and for mr hoi a pink shirt. mr wee wore the bright pink shirt that they gave him last year, took some getting used to but I think it makes him look younger, mr hoi's one was a better desicion.
As for celebrations, I just loved the yo-yo man...omg, I thought it was so cool. The bands were average, nothing like rockafella dance was good as usual...haha...after that baby and I went to bukit panjang cafe cartel and had, to me, a rather expensive lunch...which makes me feel soooooo guilty. Then we went to visit the pet store there...omg...I swear I wanna dog...the silky terrier that licked our fingers is soooo cute....I knew i liked dogs, but not like this...haha...went back to baby's place to spend time together and watched click.
all in all...a wonderful day spent =)
today was just spent alone....watched the usual morning cartoons and then work work...break...walk around a bit and then work somemore...and yeah work...
ain't JC life great???
Would you lie with me
And just forget the world
Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life
been a while since i've blogged...
all the mad rush for mock and with prelims coming soon...
I still can't believe it's gonna end so soon.
part of me feels ecstatic about all the stress and crap being lifted from my mind but yet I think...or maybe I would miss everyone in class.
anyways, I have to remember I have to write that stupid thing for MOE about my participation in my CCA.
yesterday was a somewhat wonderful yet guilty day spent...haha.
We had like an early teachers' day celebration in school, so we had 2 lessons and then celebrations after. The girls bought teachers' day presents...for mr wee handkerchiefs, for miss ang a taitai looking purple handbag, for miss koh a clock and for mr hoi a pink shirt. mr wee wore the bright pink shirt that they gave him last year, took some getting used to but I think it makes him look younger, mr hoi's one was a better desicion.
As for celebrations, I just loved the yo-yo man...omg, I thought it was so cool. The bands were average, nothing like rockafella dance was good as usual...haha...after that baby and I went to bukit panjang cafe cartel and had, to me, a rather expensive lunch...which makes me feel soooooo guilty. Then we went to visit the pet store there...omg...I swear I wanna dog...the silky terrier that licked our fingers is soooo cute....I knew i liked dogs, but not like this...haha...went back to baby's place to spend time together and watched click.
all in all...a wonderful day spent =)
today was just spent alone....watched the usual morning cartoons and then work work...break...walk around a bit and then work somemore...and yeah work...
ain't JC life great???
Wednesday, August 09, 2006
holidays are always nice...
the more the merrier I always say
anyway the national day eve was spent quite...QUITE well...
the morning was spent walking, like 7, 6 km from schooland through macRitchie, the start of the day wasn't exactly very good...it took like half a century for the whole school to file out of school...the supposed highlight was walking through the little merryn estate looking and admiring the nice houses. There was a chrome yellow one with like a lift in it, and this really big country-looking house which I really lliked. walked pass some cemeteries and then trekked throught macRitchie. It was a nice walk, if you around, the peacefulness there was really good. All in all the walk was olright, the incessant phototaking aside.
after that went to adam road food centre with weijie, joel, bala, baby and ernst. I think joel is rather comfortable to talk to, I mean he's really easy going and the way he talks and stuff it's really easy for someone to converse with. Plus, he kept calling me 'tai tai'...haha. After that spent some quality time with baby.
Today was rather quiet, just doing math all day long. What with the imminent math mock on friday. I aim to like finish the whole revision package or something. mummy cooked a nice lunch =) mummy and daddy went shopping in m'sia and guin and I watched the NDP on TV and now I'm here. Should be getting back to doing that math like now....
the more the merrier I always say
anyway the national day eve was spent quite...QUITE well...
the morning was spent walking, like 7, 6 km from schooland through macRitchie, the start of the day wasn't exactly very good...it took like half a century for the whole school to file out of school...the supposed highlight was walking through the little merryn estate looking and admiring the nice houses. There was a chrome yellow one with like a lift in it, and this really big country-looking house which I really lliked. walked pass some cemeteries and then trekked throught macRitchie. It was a nice walk, if you around, the peacefulness there was really good. All in all the walk was olright, the incessant phototaking aside.
after that went to adam road food centre with weijie, joel, bala, baby and ernst. I think joel is rather comfortable to talk to, I mean he's really easy going and the way he talks and stuff it's really easy for someone to converse with. Plus, he kept calling me 'tai tai'...haha. After that spent some quality time with baby.
Today was rather quiet, just doing math all day long. What with the imminent math mock on friday. I aim to like finish the whole revision package or something. mummy cooked a nice lunch =) mummy and daddy went shopping in m'sia and guin and I watched the NDP on TV and now I'm here. Should be getting back to doing that math like now....
Thursday, July 27, 2006
no time, no time...
no time to stand and stare
no time to look and see
no time to play...
no time to sleep...
an endless rush from here to there
hours, minutes and seconds needing to be saved from their death
is it supposed to be like this???
maybe I'm at the wrong end of it all?
am I not doing something right?
I HAVE TO KNOW!!!!
2 weeks,
2 months,
4 months
when will it stop?
I feel haunted,
maybe harrassed,
how about stoned?
so many things running in my mind
I just want to tear it out and stop the endless thoughts
no time to stand and stare
no time to look and see
no time to play...
no time to sleep...
an endless rush from here to there
hours, minutes and seconds needing to be saved from their death
is it supposed to be like this???
maybe I'm at the wrong end of it all?
am I not doing something right?
I HAVE TO KNOW!!!!
2 weeks,
2 months,
4 months
when will it stop?
I feel haunted,
maybe harrassed,
how about stoned?
so many things running in my mind
I just want to tear it out and stop the endless thoughts
Wednesday, July 19, 2006
sunday was a good day I must say...
started with 9am serice as usual, and then I joined the family for lunch...indian lunch...
I had like pieces of thosai and cheppatti and whatnot and then me and papa left.
He gave me a lift to orchard and there I met erika =)
lunch was pepper lunch...never been there before
with this thing where you have to constantly mix the rice so it'll cook well and stuff...
rather interesting... for me...
it was nice seeing her, after not having seen her for like 10s of years...haha...just kidding
I'm like so tired, I have this feeling that I'm running on adrenaline.
yesterday, the whole school was let of at 1 so baby and I went to spend some quality time together. i really miss that...
today was all lectures...
started with chem lect with baby, then physics lect which i was so tired in and then we had pe...I swear I'm not getting anything the teacher is teaching about badminton...I just can't do what he does...for me I just whack the shuttlecock and stuff. Physics tutorial was just amusing...mr wee is so comical and I think he's just oblivious to it...he's just weird or something the way he explains things and his little stories and philosphies about life. I was dying by math lect and my eyes were so tired, after which I went to the library to accompany baby where he left me to go play soccer later on and now I am home, still wanting to sleep...
Is it me or am I like a bottomless pit for food recently...
I'm always feeling hungry, like right now....
baby says it's good cause that means I'm not stressed...
is that true?
started with 9am serice as usual, and then I joined the family for lunch...indian lunch...
I had like pieces of thosai and cheppatti and whatnot and then me and papa left.
He gave me a lift to orchard and there I met erika =)
lunch was pepper lunch...never been there before
with this thing where you have to constantly mix the rice so it'll cook well and stuff...
rather interesting... for me...
it was nice seeing her, after not having seen her for like 10s of years...haha...just kidding
I'm like so tired, I have this feeling that I'm running on adrenaline.
yesterday, the whole school was let of at 1 so baby and I went to spend some quality time together. i really miss that...
today was all lectures...
started with chem lect with baby, then physics lect which i was so tired in and then we had pe...I swear I'm not getting anything the teacher is teaching about badminton...I just can't do what he does...for me I just whack the shuttlecock and stuff. Physics tutorial was just amusing...mr wee is so comical and I think he's just oblivious to it...he's just weird or something the way he explains things and his little stories and philosphies about life. I was dying by math lect and my eyes were so tired, after which I went to the library to accompany baby where he left me to go play soccer later on and now I am home, still wanting to sleep...
Is it me or am I like a bottomless pit for food recently...
I'm always feeling hungry, like right now....
baby says it's good cause that means I'm not stressed...
is that true?
Monday, July 10, 2006
today was just absolutely frustrating...
I am still pissed about it and I think I'll just blow it all right here on my blog.
enough is ENOUGH!!
I have seriously had it. I was really short of time and I cannot believe I traded a better grade for my math for a fucking O for physics, At first I thought, hey why not give physics a chance and really work at it this time and get a C , like BULLSHIT man! my math and physics ended up at the wrong end of the table of grades. COME ON! for CTs all I did was memorise the formula and I got an O too...I mean looking at the odds, it really isn't gamble worth taking anymore.
I was so happy I put so much effort into it and managed to do more or less most of the questions, I was still rather deluded when I got the paper...I thought I'd gotten a B with 63.5 but then it hit me like a train that I hadn't even passed. I mean WHAT THE HELL is it going to take!?!??! I've already gone through almost 3+ years with physics and i've worked and worked and to no avail. I mean is it like gonna take 10 years, well I kinda DON'T HAVE 10 YEARS!!! I have like less than 3 months. I juist don't get it. I don't know what's wrong...I really have no idea...I just can't get it, I mean I really want to. I even thought I was starting to get the hang of it and maybe even be able to do it...and now this.
will somebody tell me what's wrong....cos I really want to make this right...I really do...
I am still pissed about it and I think I'll just blow it all right here on my blog.
enough is ENOUGH!!
I have seriously had it. I was really short of time and I cannot believe I traded a better grade for my math for a fucking O for physics, At first I thought, hey why not give physics a chance and really work at it this time and get a C , like BULLSHIT man! my math and physics ended up at the wrong end of the table of grades. COME ON! for CTs all I did was memorise the formula and I got an O too...I mean looking at the odds, it really isn't gamble worth taking anymore.
I was so happy I put so much effort into it and managed to do more or less most of the questions, I was still rather deluded when I got the paper...I thought I'd gotten a B with 63.5 but then it hit me like a train that I hadn't even passed. I mean WHAT THE HELL is it going to take!?!??! I've already gone through almost 3+ years with physics and i've worked and worked and to no avail. I mean is it like gonna take 10 years, well I kinda DON'T HAVE 10 YEARS!!! I have like less than 3 months. I juist don't get it. I don't know what's wrong...I really have no idea...I just can't get it, I mean I really want to. I even thought I was starting to get the hang of it and maybe even be able to do it...and now this.
will somebody tell me what's wrong....cos I really want to make this right...I really do...
Tuesday, July 04, 2006
HAPPY BIRTHDAY LISA!!!!!!!
like omg....
my computer is working 0_0
it was like dead the past 3 days...I just could not get into windows AT ALL!!!
and mei mei needs it on friday for some stupid e-learning thingamajig the school is doing cos there's no school for her...
so woohoo...it's working...
I just hope it stays this way, I have no idea what made it konk-out
anyway, ther first day of normal school was just bad...
today just had to be the one we end at 5, needless to say we were all pretty much dead as the day approached its end. I was already falling asleep during math at 4...
plus I have homework to do!!!! there's like sampling distribution and transition elements...
I still wanna sleep though... -_-zzzzzzzz
I like this world cup song...celebrate the day...hmmm, it's growing on me...
roight, time to go cook rice....ciao!
like omg....
my computer is working 0_0
it was like dead the past 3 days...I just could not get into windows AT ALL!!!
and mei mei needs it on friday for some stupid e-learning thingamajig the school is doing cos there's no school for her...
so woohoo...it's working...
I just hope it stays this way, I have no idea what made it konk-out
anyway, ther first day of normal school was just bad...
today just had to be the one we end at 5, needless to say we were all pretty much dead as the day approached its end. I was already falling asleep during math at 4...
plus I have homework to do!!!! there's like sampling distribution and transition elements...
I still wanna sleep though... -_-zzzzzzzz
I like this world cup song...celebrate the day...hmmm, it's growing on me...
roight, time to go cook rice....ciao!
Saturday, July 01, 2006
You keep me
You keep me smiling
You keep me safe in a crazy world
You understand me
Embrace my fragility
You keep me safe in a crazy world
And in your arms I find the strength to believe in me again
I went on shopping trip today...
a failed shopping trip...
i set out to buy a pair of heels, seemed simple enough...
met baby and we went to orchard.
I like the strappy kinds, which are low heeled and I have this thing about the buckle for the heel cos I especially don't like it flip-flopping everywhere when I walk around.
Baby and I must have walked into almost every shoe store on orchard and the kind of shoes I liked have heels like 2 inches high, i mean come on, what happened to the low heels meant for lousy people like me who can't take the height?!?!? I mean they used to be in charkes&keith and now, they're all GONE!!!! It's teeming with those pointy-toed shoes thingie. I know it's all the trend now, but people like me don't suit it and plus don't find squeezing my toes into a triangle very comfortable. there was hope when we found a nice 9.90 pair...I liked the pink, which had no stock for my shoe size, then there was the green which didn't look as good. Tinkerbell was just as bad...bursting at the seams with those pointy-toed shoes. I just don't get it...
I fely very, extremely, terribly bad for dragging baby from shoe store to shoe store, not even buying anything. I swear I need a shopping buddy, who wouldn't get irritated at the way i shop, walking into stores looking and not buying or saying things are nice but not buying. Plus I have this thing where I survey the store from outside, and just one look I would know this is not the store I want and just walk off.
omg...I seriously need help and a new pair of shoes... =(
You keep me smiling
You keep me safe in a crazy world
You understand me
Embrace my fragility
You keep me safe in a crazy world
And in your arms I find the strength to believe in me again
I went on shopping trip today...
a failed shopping trip...
i set out to buy a pair of heels, seemed simple enough...
met baby and we went to orchard.
I like the strappy kinds, which are low heeled and I have this thing about the buckle for the heel cos I especially don't like it flip-flopping everywhere when I walk around.
Baby and I must have walked into almost every shoe store on orchard and the kind of shoes I liked have heels like 2 inches high, i mean come on, what happened to the low heels meant for lousy people like me who can't take the height?!?!? I mean they used to be in charkes&keith and now, they're all GONE!!!! It's teeming with those pointy-toed shoes thingie. I know it's all the trend now, but people like me don't suit it and plus don't find squeezing my toes into a triangle very comfortable. there was hope when we found a nice 9.90 pair...I liked the pink, which had no stock for my shoe size, then there was the green which didn't look as good. Tinkerbell was just as bad...bursting at the seams with those pointy-toed shoes. I just don't get it...
I fely very, extremely, terribly bad for dragging baby from shoe store to shoe store, not even buying anything. I swear I need a shopping buddy, who wouldn't get irritated at the way i shop, walking into stores looking and not buying or saying things are nice but not buying. Plus I have this thing where I survey the store from outside, and just one look I would know this is not the store I want and just walk off.
omg...I seriously need help and a new pair of shoes... =(
Friday, June 30, 2006
I am so addicted to that adidas ad...
the one with the little kids and the football players...haha
they're just so cute...I'm talking about the kids, plus the football tricks are just so sexy...
okay...I am home cos basically the mids are over and plus I don't have a paper today =)
I'm kinda really dead for math. For the first time in my life, I feel my physics was waaaaaaaay better, chem was just chem, hopefully it's an A though.
HOWEVER, I shall not be home for long, going to set out at like 10 and get to school to return my library books or I shall be so fined for it and that woman in the library isn't the best thing to be chased by. Then I shall pick deborah from there and we shall head to baby's house to meet the boys, assuming they make it there before we do, cos I hear they were playing DoTA until 2 this morning. I feel like playing pool....hmmmmm...but I suck...
I miss people, esp the IJ peeps...
I don't know why...
just haven't seen some people for a while and I miss their presence and the fun stuff, good stuff we had. There are some , quite some, IJ people in CJ, but it's just not the same you know? I missed that gathering for erika, so yeah...stupid mids. or I could say stupid me, cos I went for LTC? cos if I didn't i'd have been able to go for it.
I wonder...should I wear contacts today? my nails are pretty long, so it's be quuuuuuuite hard to put it in and take it out...hmmm...
the one with the little kids and the football players...haha
they're just so cute...I'm talking about the kids, plus the football tricks are just so sexy...
okay...I am home cos basically the mids are over and plus I don't have a paper today =)
I'm kinda really dead for math. For the first time in my life, I feel my physics was waaaaaaaay better, chem was just chem, hopefully it's an A though.
HOWEVER, I shall not be home for long, going to set out at like 10 and get to school to return my library books or I shall be so fined for it and that woman in the library isn't the best thing to be chased by. Then I shall pick deborah from there and we shall head to baby's house to meet the boys, assuming they make it there before we do, cos I hear they were playing DoTA until 2 this morning. I feel like playing pool....hmmmmm...but I suck...
I miss people, esp the IJ peeps...
I don't know why...
just haven't seen some people for a while and I miss their presence and the fun stuff, good stuff we had. There are some , quite some, IJ people in CJ, but it's just not the same you know? I missed that gathering for erika, so yeah...stupid mids. or I could say stupid me, cos I went for LTC? cos if I didn't i'd have been able to go for it.
I wonder...should I wear contacts today? my nails are pretty long, so it's be quuuuuuuite hard to put it in and take it out...hmmm...
Wednesday, June 21, 2006
That's it...
I am so done for the mid-years...
I sorta finished chem...I just have that enormous chapter called environmental chem and doubts avout electrochem to clear-up. as for physics, I have like 8 chapters to go!!!!!! for maths...I've like done 3 papers!!!
talk about equal distribution...it's just that some just take too long...eat into other subjects times and then everything is now in a HUUUUUUUUGE mess!!!!!
I like just wanna give up and just let it pass...they say that people who are perfectionistic would try to get things done but once they find they've had enough, they feel it's better to just ignore it and pretend it never existed.
I just wanna throw everything to one side, sit down somewhere, scream, cry, whatever and just try to loosen up the tension, stress and whatever nonsense that has got me so unhappy...I don't know, I'm like so desperate I'll try anything!!!
I wanna go shop too...
I have never felt so much of a compulsion to be a financial contirbutor of the Singapore sale, but just for once I wanna do something for myself, give something for myself...I mean..yeah...whatever...
why does everything have to be like this??
I am so done for the mid-years...
I sorta finished chem...I just have that enormous chapter called environmental chem and doubts avout electrochem to clear-up. as for physics, I have like 8 chapters to go!!!!!! for maths...I've like done 3 papers!!!
talk about equal distribution...it's just that some just take too long...eat into other subjects times and then everything is now in a HUUUUUUUUGE mess!!!!!
I like just wanna give up and just let it pass...they say that people who are perfectionistic would try to get things done but once they find they've had enough, they feel it's better to just ignore it and pretend it never existed.
I just wanna throw everything to one side, sit down somewhere, scream, cry, whatever and just try to loosen up the tension, stress and whatever nonsense that has got me so unhappy...I don't know, I'm like so desperate I'll try anything!!!
I wanna go shop too...
I have never felt so much of a compulsion to be a financial contirbutor of the Singapore sale, but just for once I wanna do something for myself, give something for myself...I mean..yeah...whatever...
why does everything have to be like this??
Wednesday, June 14, 2006
nothing sucks more than being ditched by a ball...
I don't know why I'm feeling so irritable but yeah, I am...
it's just that when I get down...nothing seems to be able to pick me up except for a good nights sleep...that's when I usually put everything behind, and sorta forget about it.
I'm at papa's office now and typing on his rather disgusting laptop...the place you kinda rest your wrist on is like disintegrating or something. which is rather bugging me...i'm like trying not to touch the thing, so it looks like i'm pivoting my whole lower arm on my elbows. when they start to hurt I just kinda give it up for a while.
I studied from like 11 to 3-4 and now I just cannot go on anymore...the mood to study has absolutely disappeared into oblivion, shrivelled up and died. I almost blew my brains out trying to get my OC dvd working...the stupid programme or dvd, whichever one it is, is just screwing up right now. so I sorta settled for 'the incredibles' again...for like the millionth time. I so need something to keep me sane right now...I cannot stand it!!! I just wanna go out and not spend money. I have no idea what to do to relax, cos I have no idea what even relaxes me...did that confuse you?? so yeah...I think i'm quuuite screwed in terms of enjoyment. watching cartoons was a good optionn till I got kinda irked byt the incessant appearances of little and 'not-so-little' kids appearing on tv, assaulting you with screams of 'the holidays are here, so have fun on kids central' or variations of that, just makes you wanna scream at the TV screen and ask them to shut-up cos you have a stupid mid-year to study for. I mean 'why?', why can't they just do it as per normal...you know the usual 'you're watching kidscentral' nobody would notice or sue them for not wishing them a 'happy school holiday'!!!besides no one cares about stuff like that...we just wanna watch the cartoons...don't you?
okay...that's about enough venting for one day...
back the 'the incredibles'...
I don't know why I'm feeling so irritable but yeah, I am...
it's just that when I get down...nothing seems to be able to pick me up except for a good nights sleep...that's when I usually put everything behind, and sorta forget about it.
I'm at papa's office now and typing on his rather disgusting laptop...the place you kinda rest your wrist on is like disintegrating or something. which is rather bugging me...i'm like trying not to touch the thing, so it looks like i'm pivoting my whole lower arm on my elbows. when they start to hurt I just kinda give it up for a while.
I studied from like 11 to 3-4 and now I just cannot go on anymore...the mood to study has absolutely disappeared into oblivion, shrivelled up and died. I almost blew my brains out trying to get my OC dvd working...the stupid programme or dvd, whichever one it is, is just screwing up right now. so I sorta settled for 'the incredibles' again...for like the millionth time. I so need something to keep me sane right now...I cannot stand it!!! I just wanna go out and not spend money. I have no idea what to do to relax, cos I have no idea what even relaxes me...did that confuse you?? so yeah...I think i'm quuuite screwed in terms of enjoyment. watching cartoons was a good optionn till I got kinda irked byt the incessant appearances of little and 'not-so-little' kids appearing on tv, assaulting you with screams of 'the holidays are here, so have fun on kids central' or variations of that, just makes you wanna scream at the TV screen and ask them to shut-up cos you have a stupid mid-year to study for. I mean 'why?', why can't they just do it as per normal...you know the usual 'you're watching kidscentral' nobody would notice or sue them for not wishing them a 'happy school holiday'!!!besides no one cares about stuff like that...we just wanna watch the cartoons...don't you?
okay...that's about enough venting for one day...
back the 'the incredibles'...
Tuesday, June 13, 2006
right blogger is screwed up...
kinda...
and what i'm typing out is coming out a split second slower...so I gotta keep stopping to see what I'm typing...
and now the blinkie thingie is gone....
anyway..today was supposed to be a major productive day, cos i was planning to study organic and organic for me get's done pretty fast...buuuuuuuuut I brought the source of evil and all distractions in toe world there...
I brought the CD which my sis's friend burnt for me...the OC...absolutely unresistable...season 1 all the way to 3...I just couldn't stop. I was studying while watching...but as you can tell, it didn't tuen out as productive as I wanted today to be.
If I stayed at home...it would have been better...for some reason I'm so psyched up to work in the morning...but once I plonk myself down to watch TV...I'm gone...so yeah...at least we're lesser of one evil.
besides all this I was thinking about something the whole night before and today.
I was watching desperate housewives last night when this new peugeot ad came up...I like peugeot ads...they're catchy and amusing for the viewer. but this one in particular caught my attention.
it was basically appealing to the female gender for this new car that they have. The ad was just basically how women would change the way things ar. One would be that men would give birth...well that would mean we wouldn't have to have all the stuff like terrible morning sickness, which a rare few have for the whole 9 months of gestation. Others have stretch marks after that, a large amount of weight gain and although some people say a woman glows when she's pregnant, acne breakouts are not uncommon at all. It's a whole pandora box of stuff. With the shimmer of hope being that it is one connection a man or father would never be able to experience.
As for high heels not hurting...I am so going to second that...the price of beauty. I mean they help us women gain some height, they provide the leverage women need in the world. They can do wonders for us women besides height. As for diamonds growing on trees...I'm quite indiffferent to that...I'm not exactly a bitg fan of diamonds, but if you give me some...I'll accept...haha...it's like chocolate for me. I don't necessarily crave it, but if it's there I'll take.
As for tailoring men, haha...at times it just seems a good idea, I mean they just DON'T get it sometimes...but if you really sit and look at us women, we are a damn confusing bunch of people. Like we just need to get to the point some time, I think if we had to live with us for a day, our indirectness would drive ourselves crazy. As for tailoring...I like my man the way he is. I mean sure...the ideal one would be like tall, dark, handsome ( baby just needs to be tall...haha...) there's some plus pluses too...but I was watching the "tailor" draw a six pack on the guy...and I was thinking...it would be kinda weird for baby to have a 6 pack. I have no idea why I'm thinking this, but I think the tummy could be a little smaller, but that's all...I don't really need the 6 pack. I like the way my man looks...haha...come to think of it...the 6 pack thingie idea, feels rather awkward...o_O
rightssssss....I just had to get that out....
apologies if that made the reader feel a little awkward...
ciao!
kinda...
and what i'm typing out is coming out a split second slower...so I gotta keep stopping to see what I'm typing...
and now the blinkie thingie is gone....
anyway..today was supposed to be a major productive day, cos i was planning to study organic and organic for me get's done pretty fast...buuuuuuuuut I brought the source of evil and all distractions in toe world there...
I brought the CD which my sis's friend burnt for me...the OC...absolutely unresistable...season 1 all the way to 3...I just couldn't stop. I was studying while watching...but as you can tell, it didn't tuen out as productive as I wanted today to be.
If I stayed at home...it would have been better...for some reason I'm so psyched up to work in the morning...but once I plonk myself down to watch TV...I'm gone...so yeah...at least we're lesser of one evil.
besides all this I was thinking about something the whole night before and today.
I was watching desperate housewives last night when this new peugeot ad came up...I like peugeot ads...they're catchy and amusing for the viewer. but this one in particular caught my attention.
it was basically appealing to the female gender for this new car that they have. The ad was just basically how women would change the way things ar. One would be that men would give birth...well that would mean we wouldn't have to have all the stuff like terrible morning sickness, which a rare few have for the whole 9 months of gestation. Others have stretch marks after that, a large amount of weight gain and although some people say a woman glows when she's pregnant, acne breakouts are not uncommon at all. It's a whole pandora box of stuff. With the shimmer of hope being that it is one connection a man or father would never be able to experience.
As for high heels not hurting...I am so going to second that...the price of beauty. I mean they help us women gain some height, they provide the leverage women need in the world. They can do wonders for us women besides height. As for diamonds growing on trees...I'm quite indiffferent to that...I'm not exactly a bitg fan of diamonds, but if you give me some...I'll accept...haha...it's like chocolate for me. I don't necessarily crave it, but if it's there I'll take.
As for tailoring men, haha...at times it just seems a good idea, I mean they just DON'T get it sometimes...but if you really sit and look at us women, we are a damn confusing bunch of people. Like we just need to get to the point some time, I think if we had to live with us for a day, our indirectness would drive ourselves crazy. As for tailoring...I like my man the way he is. I mean sure...the ideal one would be like tall, dark, handsome ( baby just needs to be tall...haha...) there's some plus pluses too...but I was watching the "tailor" draw a six pack on the guy...and I was thinking...it would be kinda weird for baby to have a 6 pack. I have no idea why I'm thinking this, but I think the tummy could be a little smaller, but that's all...I don't really need the 6 pack. I like the way my man looks...haha...come to think of it...the 6 pack thingie idea, feels rather awkward...o_O
rightssssss....I just had to get that out....
apologies if that made the reader feel a little awkward...
ciao!
Saturday, June 03, 2006
today was just total madness...
the whole week was just draining...besides the time spent with baby....
due to the presence of LTC in my calender taking up humongous space in that school diary of mine...I am constantly assaulted by the rather few (EXTREMELY few) blocks left in june...
my mind is just going crazy....it's like...like the freaking white rabbit in Alice in Wonderland, just that it's going 'no time, no time' and mummy's like going 'don't tell me you don't have time to study'....
I have no freaking idea how to sqeeze in all my revision...I'm like just doing papers and papers to get a feel of all the stuff again, so that revision later wouldn't take so long when I get back...the downside being that I'm taking like one day to one paper...when i should be able to do 2 or 3 ...like I'm super screwed up...
and then when the results come out, it's so gonna be like shit and then it's gonna be no phone, no going out, no this no that....AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARGH!!!!
morale is really low at the moment...
apologies to the dear reader on the tiny snippet of what's been going on in my head consciously or subconsciously 24/7 so far
I swear no one i know worries like this, you could say it's good cos it sorta motivates me, but then it's just so over the top that it makes you just wanna scream and cry to ease all the knots and pent-up frustration, which is what happens most of the time compared to the former. There's absolutely no way to make it go away, unless it's been done with. I'm just afraid i'll just reach my peak one day and only god knows what will happen. The worst thing is that when I try to relax and stuff...I just lose the motivation there and then and going back to whatever I was doing just doesn't hold much incentive for me at that moment in time.
can somebody explain this to me?
the whole week was just draining...besides the time spent with baby....
due to the presence of LTC in my calender taking up humongous space in that school diary of mine...I am constantly assaulted by the rather few (EXTREMELY few) blocks left in june...
my mind is just going crazy....it's like...like the freaking white rabbit in Alice in Wonderland, just that it's going 'no time, no time' and mummy's like going 'don't tell me you don't have time to study'....
I have no freaking idea how to sqeeze in all my revision...I'm like just doing papers and papers to get a feel of all the stuff again, so that revision later wouldn't take so long when I get back...the downside being that I'm taking like one day to one paper...when i should be able to do 2 or 3 ...like I'm super screwed up...
and then when the results come out, it's so gonna be like shit and then it's gonna be no phone, no going out, no this no that....AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARGH!!!!
morale is really low at the moment...
apologies to the dear reader on the tiny snippet of what's been going on in my head consciously or subconsciously 24/7 so far
I swear no one i know worries like this, you could say it's good cos it sorta motivates me, but then it's just so over the top that it makes you just wanna scream and cry to ease all the knots and pent-up frustration, which is what happens most of the time compared to the former. There's absolutely no way to make it go away, unless it's been done with. I'm just afraid i'll just reach my peak one day and only god knows what will happen. The worst thing is that when I try to relax and stuff...I just lose the motivation there and then and going back to whatever I was doing just doesn't hold much incentive for me at that moment in time.
can somebody explain this to me?
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