He broke my heart today
I don't know what to say
I can't feel a thing at all
I did not see it comin'
Now you just a man that got away
I look at the ground
And give the sky the middle finger
Something inside said
"Here's a day you should remember
So mark it on a wall"

I'm back from scrubbing the pot. I burnt the rice (laugh...), mummy's pissed for I have scarred the pot.The whole wet kitchen has an acrid smell.
Anyway, I keep thinking it's Saturday...maybe because of the english paper. The paper was a sad case...I mean I was absolutely stumped. Mrs Tay was being irritating during paper 2, she was like damn pissed we did not submit the thingie for the walkathon or how she would spell it 'walkaton'...melissa was like, she says it wrongly so she spell it wrongly. Had Amath lesson with Mr Tan after the paper, but he came late...so chatted outside class with erika for a while.
Amath was like brain gymnastics. All the questions so damn hard. He gave us like 8 questions(I think) the he said "I'm going to the toilet, when I come back you should have finished." Like hell...when he came back from the john (which was a LONG time later) I was on 14c) which was the 4th question. Whole three hours scaring ourselves with such...how should I say this...challenging questions, with all the interesting ways to do each question. Amath was okay...just a little stressing on the brain. Mr Tan's Car sticks out like a sore thumb...so, so..RED!
Came home and plonked myself down to some TV, watched 'Shattered Glass'...Hayden Christiansen is so cute LOL. My aunties are supposed to come down today...but they aren't here...don't know why. Tomorrow gotta get up early for Amath lesson, and I'm supposed to go eat dim sum. Oh boy.

baby your my destiny
you and i were meant to be
with all my heart and soul
ill give my love to have and hold
and as far as i can see
you were always meant to be
my destiny

Back at Alex's house again, doing Emath this time. SJI teachers have a THING for decimals I tell you...STUPID paper. Anyway today was fine...althought I slept really late last night...or rather very early this morning...does that make sense?? No it doesn't. I offically have NOTHING to read. I failed my first chinese test...I almost wanted to cry in class. Chem was boring...doing questions from new TYS...I almost died when I saw the clock at 0925...but I read it wrongly...Thank you prissy. English was fun...Mrs Alex refering to her self as 'The Wise One'. 'Don't listen to what other schools say cos they don't have 'The Wise One'' and telling us not to trust the chief examiner as some have PMS periods and stuff so don't trust 'The White Man/Woman'. Emath was not boring...didn't fall asleep...went through past year papers then rearranged the tables.
Dragged myself and my heavy bag to Alex's house and sat down to Physics...taking a break from Emath now so I am here. English tomorrow...time's passing TOO fast...aunties coming down tomorrow too...OC tonight...something to look forward too.

So you could give me wings to fly
And catch me if I fall
Or pull the stars down from the sky
SoI could wish on them all
But I couldn't ask for more
'Cause your love is the greatest gift of all

Another quiz...looks like I'm not as bad as I expected myself to be. Got back me prelims...did terribly...taking a break from Amath...gotta go at 5pm. At Alex's house. PE was relaxing...played volleyball, although it was a rather slow game cos the ball kept going out of the court. Took height and weight...am disappointed that I DID NOT grow...and that Miss Jeanette Tan is officially taller than me. Happy I lost 1kg. Mrs Tang brought her extra pair of hands for physics. Something she made out of wax...two of them...eacch showing flemings left and right-hand rule and they were pink. Recess was fine ate my hame bread and some garlic bread. Shared a bowl of mee with erika cos she was feelin' hungry and stuff.
SS was boring and WHY does Mrs Siow like to pick on me??? Well I did better for my SBQ but it was one and a quarter page long....that's long for a 7mk question. Amath later on...assembly about code of conduct for exams. First time we finished assembly early. Came to Alex's house and did Amath until now...stupid trigo. Can't wait for Thursday...gotta go back now...15mins are up.

I am 31% evil.




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I need you like water, like breath, like rain
I need you like mercy from Heaven's gate
There's a freedom in your arms, that carries me through
I need you

I like today....not so hot, just nice and I managed to sleep with my comforter with out the air-conditioning. Gen feels good. Had very little subjects today...very relaxing. Did brainstorming for english, wrpte an essay for CME and then checked homework for chem. Went through MY ppr for Geog...I AB-SO-LUTE-LY LOVE doing tourism questions...I just NEED to write examples. Physics was slightly taxing on the mind, she MADE us think, I HATE that...I was falling asleep and at the end she gave us thinking skill questions to do!! WTH!! Supposed to have Amath but Mr Tan told us to go back and revise for english oral.
Am now at Alex's house, did 3-and-a-half hours of Amath...can you believe it, cos I can't and I managed to solve EVERYTHING so far. WHOA!!! Is there something wrong with me. Maybe the paper was just easy.
Wednesday's PE was nice, got to play rugby, but towards the end we were walking towards the ball, we only ran when we wanted to score.
Thursday, no more prac so headed to Alex house to study...did quite some...went home did a couple...no...ONE mindmap on physics. I HAVE TO STOP WATCHING TOO MUCH TV!!! After that went to watch 'the OC' like the last 5 mins of it.
I hope english oral goes well tomorrow, I am relying on my 'quick-thinking', I certainly HOPE it does me some good. Gotta clear my books too tomorrow, WHY doesn't my music work...WHY!???!
I hope tonight is cold too.

Is it love?
Is it love?
is it why i fall every time you call
is it love?
really love?
when you say it is forever
Is it love really love
that im breathing
cuz im dreaming of you tonight

I have just found out that I am 4 days behind schedule in my studying for mid-year. I have never been this lazy in my life. Had a little pep talk with my mum about this yesterday...and she's right...this the first time I am NOT making an effort to study. I mean...I studied...and I still got nothing out of it. I'm still failing or I just srape through. I just don't see the point. Study or don't study, I still get the same results. The worst thing is...I'm not even worried and nothing I do seems to work. One thing I can say is, I AM studying Amath...and I am SO addicted to it.
Had chinese test...pretty good, seeing as I didn't study very much. English was fun...played with pronunciation...talked about how SOME people cannot pronounce properly. Mrs Alex was saying how she hated that STUPID commercial with the father saying FLOwer, floWER...she said it was so singlish and that if you go to the UK and said "so FARNI" everybody wouldn't know WTH you just said. Talked about American and British pronunciation...Vera and Co. were thinking if flower is pronuounced "flow'r" is shower pronounced "show'r" and what about mower...is it pronounced "mow'r".
Didn't have Bio today...Mrs Tay came in and showed us some stupid video on stress...weird guy and his tye-dye(sp?) shirt.
Had fun with Mr Tan learning integration. Complaining about how talking about a letter 'R' can lead to so many things...some big math tour on symbols in math. Had surprise test later and I must say...it's the first Amath test I did with confidence.
Didn't need to go for chem, so headed home, hung out clothes, then bathed. Did geog hmwk...now doing Emath.

We’ve been on the run
Driving in the sun
Looking out for number one
California here we come
Right back where we started from

I am hooked on this song by the Phantom Planets...the piano is amazing and it's just stuck in my head. After watching th OC, I really wanna have a house there. It's got really nice houses, beaches, sun, sand and the houses have swimming pools. Not that Singapore doesn't have pools in the houses, but it's just not the same. Come to think of it, I think I live in the Sinagpore version of the OC. Did you know that an average American house costs $250,000, but in the OC it costs $1 or $2 million dollars....LOL I'm gonna need a husband to help me out.
The computer is konking out on me, I hate this...everything is soooooooo slooooooooow.
Today was good, had wanton mee for lunch, the MSG in the soup was driving me crazy, kept drinking and drinking...it was yummy although wish I had a bigger portion. Daddy's Bak Kut Teh was nice too.
Came home, hung out the laundry. I have to say my favourite household chore is handng out the laundry...there's an oxymoron. It just looks so satisfying to see all the clothes hanging out in the hot sun. Did Bio later, had a nap and then did more Bio. I'm getting sick off it, they just keep asking the same questions. How is this flower pollinated? How is do you know? What is this part of the flower? How is it fertilised? For 26 pages the same kinda questions. Gonna study Chinese later. First I need to go take a bathe.
Arsenal have 81 points and Man U only have 61...this is irrtating...WHY did they gave to win so well...5-0...that is just rigged.


Soccer Cleats- athletic, determined, and strong,
you are probably good at anything you try. you
can be serious but love having a good time
above all. you love sports and when you aren't
on the feild you love hanging out and having
fun with your team-mates.[please vote! thank
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you are a red dragon. You live in riches and
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My senses smell the strangest smell,
A tortoise cooking in its shell
A Lamb that's cooking, bubbling hot
within a covered brassy pot

Another humid day...was so happy when I got into the car this morning. Ths humid weather has taught me to appreciate air-conditioning and wind more. Did compo during English...had so much to write, I just kept writing and writing and did not have a clue as to how to end the thing. After that, had to write another essay for CME. Supposed to imagine that I had already died and gone back in time to do a video on my life, except you pen it down on paper. My essay turned out to be somwhat of a summary, just skimming the surface, very brief. Had chem, put some face paint on Mrs Tay, took photo of the class(as in the people) then went for recess. Came back, put on somemore face paint...4/1 has the green face paint, 4/9 has the eyeshadow, and 4/8 have the bindis. Like little tribes all over the place. My only worry was the table was gonna collapse in.
Had a rather relaxing time with Mr Wijaya in physics...didn't do much, just workin' out sums at our own pace and stuff.
Amath extra lesson was fun....thanks to Mr Tan and his sarcastic humour, and his zeal towards Amath. Gave us a whole essay on Math to write cos couldn't figure out qns 8c. I'm rather hooked on Amath now...like some addiction, I just can't stop. Maybe it's the joy of finally knowing how to do something. Got home...watched OC and Buffy...basically watched TV all the way until now. Dad's buggin me to go eat honeydew.
I just have to say this: WHY IN THE WORLD IS TROY R-RATED?!!?!?! That's it I tell you, at the worst I'm going to Balestier to watch it....I PRAY that the rating gets changed to NC-16.

He's more than the laughter or the stars in the heavens.
As close as a heartbeat or a song on our lips.
Someday we'll trust Him and learn how to see Him.
Someday He'll call us and we will come running,
and fall in His arms and the tears will fall down and we'll pray.

Today was fairly relaxing and hot...did listening compre for chinese and Mrs Tay let of us early for recess...which we have been asking her to for a couple of times. Had physics, Mrs Tang wasn't here so Mr Wijaya(sp?) came in and taught logic gates...AND, NAND, OR, NOR, NOT so many letters. My mind was kinda slow during then...so he was givin' examples here and there and I was like 'How;d he get that....what? Where?' to sum it up....clueless. Had Emath later, but people had to leave for the netball thingie, so Mrs Mah nicely let us use the last period to do the deco for the class. My hands ache now from tying that table, all the squarelashes and poles...got some people to help me, taught them how to tie and it was tight, thank you to shirley, xier, rizka, and all the people who helped me out. Stayed until 5pm tp complete it, then went upstairs to check out 4/9 and 4/8 cos everybody said it was nice and stuff. Got home watched a little TV, did some homework, cooked rice. Had dinner with whole family and now I have plonked myself infront of the laptop. Going to draw out my timetable, then watch OC...can't be bothered to watch AMI...not interested anymore, this craze is startin' to irritate me.

Ripped these of erika's blog:
You're the party animal!!
You push
through school for one reason only.. The party
at the end of the week!! Well, at least you
still study, but when the weekened comes, you
push aside those books, whip out your (fake) ID
and party the night away. You party animal,
grrowl!


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your asshole.


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schizoid


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Boys lie, must be something in their genes
Makes them say what they don't mean
Boys lie, they tell you what you wanna hear
Boys lie, to them it's not a sin
Just a game that they must win
Cross their hearts, hope to die
Don't know why boys lie

I only have ONE thing to say about the damn weather today...it is HOT!!! Physics was fun...Armstrong came to relief...but according to him we had a test next period on chap 22...so we all had 35 mins to study chapter 22 and then do the test. My Faraday's law was half right...I calculated the secondary coil instead of the primary...I'm screwed. Had PE...was fun...could do whatever we wanted. Played basketball...one period then went to do weights. Sarah and co. were reliving their childhood playing freeze and melt and the eagle and mother hen game thingie.
Applause to our scholars for a great assembly programme today. Esp liked the Vietnamese one. Trang, Luu looked so pretty in the costume...and that pic of Thu and Utt...haiyo...the chorus of envious shouts, I have nothing to say.
Chem test was okay...went smoothly, although I kinda mixed up P and Q in the middle of it...I had very little to right in the boxes too. Kept writing on standing...on standing. Went to do the class deco thing for international friendship day, then did some Amath, went for tuition and here I am. NEED to do SS hmwk, but I have NO idea whatsoever how to start it. My humanities is so screwed.
Tuesday's Bio was fun. Finished up chapter on ecology and then Mdm Is let us sleep...correction, rest for 5 minutes. Although I am positive that I slept on my table for more than that. Wioke up to Mdm Is telling more of her stories, I will not put it here. Just too crude.
Monday's prelims was okay...had a mental block...so whatever that came out during compo was so damn little adn Jin lao shi gave that exact topic for me to do...and she didn't mark it, that whole compo is BS I do not have such feelings towards chinese. Paper 2...I had no idea what the comprehension was talking about, just that it was about the chinese lang again. I spent at least 30mins on it. I just could not locate the damn answer. There goes my A...if the 'O's are like that...I can just throw my A outta the window.

I found a reason for me
To change who I use to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you

Had 2.4km run today...just my luck I had to have a stitch after my first round and it hurt every time I breathed. So kinda slowed me down and cost me my gold with 12 seconds, I only clocked a lousy 16.31min. Went to Macs with Ruo Yun, Janice and Alex to have breakfast...although technically it would be lunch for me. Went to look at the fabric of the nation thingie. Took some pictures...Janice and Ruo Yun found theirs and I saw Jeanette's but didn't see mine. Was like damn kiasu...I was monoplising(sp?) the damn book...trying to find my patch in it...but to no avail. Bought a hairband cos I cut my hair yesterday and it tends to mess up easily. Topped up my card and then went for tuition. Chatted a lot with Jin lao shi...had so much fun joking and laughing with her. Came home...watched a bit of Miss Singapore Universe (GO LAURA!!!), then got down to study more chinese...I'm never going to feel prepared for this damn thing. I'm practically freaking myself out...I NEED to relax. Hidalgo, Shattered Glass, I WILL be right there after Monday.

L is for the way you look at me
O if for the only one I see
V is very very extraordinary
E is even more than anyone that you adore can love

It's all that I can give to you
Love is more than just a game for two
Two in love can make it
Take my heart but please don't break it
Love was made for me and you

Thursday...tomorrow's Good Friday...and today there's the OC and AMI. Don't really wanna watch AMI...watching John walk around in a PURPLE mohawk...is NOT exactly comfortable and he is UNUSUALLY FAIR!!! Which IS kinda freaky.
Didn't have tuition again...maybe havin' it on Sunday. Did letter writing for chinese...I HATE writing chinese compos about conserving the damn freaking environment...I just don't know how to say ANYTHING in chinese. HOWEVER I did unusually well for it...I sorta stoned in class for 10mins thinking of what to write. SS...I have nothing else to say except...Mrs Siow. WTH...got me to choose which is the most important for good government and explain myself...like WHAT did I do to deserve that. Then got me to present on Good Governance and Leadership too...and this is the what, fourth time she's got me to do this kinda thing. English was fun...Mrs Alex was tellin' us how Mr T. Tan was being treated in the staff room and the way she emulated CERTAIN teachers laughing, talking, giggling...OMG like some bimbo. Was kinda drifting in and out of consciousness during the beginning of physics...woke up when she started talking about a cup that played 'I Love You'. Mrs Tay came in for Emath...Mrs Mah had to head home. Talked about time management and then arranged desks.
Bio prac. Was supposed to be fast...but couldn't figure all the radicle and plumule stuff and the stupid leaf was irritating me...is it variegated or is supposed to be green, make up your mind...I referring to myself. Came home did a lil' homework...studied a bit of chinese, have like 30+ pages more to go. Watched 'Grounded for Life'....and then went to do my SS...prepared dinner, and do a little Amath...I swear I am getting good at this differentiation thingie. Papa is sick with the flu...which I ALMOST got...mummy was supposed to be home an hour ago too. Gonna go studiy till late and then get up to go to church tomorrow.

Give me the beat boys and free my soul
I wanna get lost in your rock 'n' roll and drift away
Give me the beat boys and free my soul
I wanna get lost in you rock 'n' roll and drift away

I was supposed to abstain (is that the correct word?) from the internet till after the prelims...my chinese prelims that is, but hell, I couldn't resist it. Was supposed to have tuition tonight, but Paul forgot all about it...so I am here. Taling a break from doing my Amath now...too much differentiation is not good for you.

YESTERDAY:
Meaning Tuesday. English was fun...got to listen to people on a CD do oral. Needless to say....there was laughter, LOTS of it. Laughing at people with weird accents...laughing at people who can't pronounce properly...yada yada...you know the usual.
Had Bio test after recess, which I slept in as I did not know the answers. So was like...write, write...sleep, sleep...more writing, more writing...and then just sleep, until time was up. I mean what's the difference between a seed and a fruit??? I did not see that in the TB...I mean what, oh, one is tasty and the other isn't??? WTH...there goes another test. Well here comes the exciting...well not really exciting, more like interesting part. Each person in class took a test tube from the teacher's table. Supposed to be out body fluids. Then Mdm Is say...sleep with two other people (don't get so excited...I haven't finished yet) meaning mix the liquid in your test tube with two other people and then put a few drops of the indicator. So the whole class was a chorus of "So-and-so...I sleep with you" and a lot of laughter. Then one BEEEEEEEEEG crowd of people standing around Xier and Yi En's table...watching people drop the indicator into the test tube. If you got a white cloudy thingie...everybody was like "haiyah", if you got a purple mixture...it was "OOOOOOOOOOOOOOH!!!!" (as in VERY LOUD) Needless to say, the people with the purple solution were the STD carriers.
After that interesting Bio lesson we had our Amath lesson with Mr Terry Tan...is it me or does that name sound awkward when you say it.

TODAY:
That would mean Wednesday...got my cheena test back. Didn't score very well...well below my normal range. I NEED HELP!!! There is SOMETHING wrong with me. This is scaring me like hell...I tell you one of these days, a nightmare about failing 'O' levels is gonna kill me. PE was fun. Finally played soccer. It was the most unproductive game of soccer. The court so small...and what do people do...they throw the ball in...and the next second...the balls out iof the court...so 3/4 of the time were throw-ins...damn lame...we just coudn't go to the damn field. Chem after recess...got my test back and I'm starting to think that studying for my tests doesn't seem to pay off...or am I just doing it wrongly. Amath....AGAIN...then Assembly. Mrs Alex talked about 'Beyond O levels' right now I don't really see a 'beyond'. Physics prac was easy...just that the STUUUUUPID triangle was irritating me. Graph turned out weird too. Got home...studied chinese...homework...watched my sisters bake brownies...and stole some from them. They are so rich in chocolate...if you ate too many, you would be sick right now. Chocolate...yum...yum...

Went for 9am service, with communion. For the first time the sermon was so short. Came home hung out the clothes from the washing machine and my sister dropped my nice clean shoes which I washed yesterday into puddle of water filled with moss and whatnot. So NOW I have one dry shoe and one wet one. Needless to say I won't be wearing THAT pair of shoes tomorrow. THIS is why I hate to wash my shoes. Well Sunday's ending, and here comes a whole new week. Did some productive studying...although I must say I sorta died at the end. The first time I ever studied for an Emath test...and the first time I have ever studied so early for my chinese test. Watched Everwood...OMG I tell you...the way that girl played Beethoven's Piano Sonata no.14 is MAGNIFICIENT. I ab-so-lute-ly LOVE the way her fingers move. Ephram's piece, Franz Schubert's Impromptu in D was fantastic. Watching these people play makes we wanna cry. Had spaghetti for dinner, with real tomatoes and I pretty much hogged the tomatoes for the salad. Going to turn in early tonight so can get up tomorrow, for school. Can anyone out there believe me when I say I DON'T understand probability??? and I believe it is called SIMPLE probability. There's a cockroach behind the magazine stand...I'll have to call my sister kill it, so goodnight.

This is a story of a girl
Who cried a river and drown the whole world
But while she looks so sad in photographs
I absolutely love her when she smiles

FRIDAY:
I HAVE NOT been here for a LOOOOOOOOOOOOOng time. Anyway it's finally Friday. Amath first period, Mr Tan away in US so we got the Fannie woman again. Already did my homework at home so ended up doin' chinese during then. Mrs Kunna didn't come it for CMER either so we did our own stuff. Read my storybook. Then had PC with Mrs Tay...during which I found out I am waaaaaaaaaaay of my target off 7 pts.
Did compre during English...somethin' about drove roads...Mrs Alex said it was one of her favourites. Had Physics with Mr Goh. He's improved but still needs A LOT of work on his explanations. For the first time during his lesson we went "OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOH".
PFT afer school. Started off well...got 204cm for my standing-broad jump. Set the record for my class...I'm always happy with my SBJ. From what I heard from stephi...it was still standing when 4/9 got there. Pinky and some one from 4/2 broke it with a 22 somethin'.Everything was A except for pull-ups...got a B for that...only 11. But better than last year...gold is in reach at the mo...until 2.4km. Waited for mummy until 8pm and then we went to the hall to listen to the talk. Met a few of my friends mums and mummy talked to Miss Wan, Mrs Tay and Mrs Tang. Now I'm so damn scared for my 'O's after that talk. Stupid talk...I waited 4 freakin' hours to scare myself shitless about the 'O's.
Gen has a TROY trailer on tape...I CANNOT BELIEVE THIS!!! TROY!!! *almost falls of chair laughing* it is MAGNIFICIENT...and Orlando Bloom..just looks so...so...good. NOW I'm obsessing, I'll stop for the benefit of all.
SATURDAY:
Got up late for guides, so got daddy to take me to school. After guides...came home, washed my shoes and my sister's 2 pairs...WHY THE HELL DOES SHE HAVE 2 PAIRS, not my business. Bathed, ate lunch with mummy, then went to revise Amath. Took a nap and then mum woke me up to go to help me dad at his office and I am freezing here. Trying to do my Amath...but I have spent more than 15min on this damn sum...so decided to take a break from it. Damn it...I have GOT to get myself a timetable. I tell you...I am damn disgustingly DISORGANISED!!! Although, even if I did one, would I follow it???