Baby there's something about you that
I can hold on to
I'm going to hold on to that

I am HAPPY!!! Yes...I can officially not see chinese until school reopens. Let's not talk about it...the exam was just full of surprises. Was going to go home, but then decided to go out with nat and ju. Went to food court in novena where we were entertained by an extremely funny phone call courtesy of abish, you had to be there to see it. Met ju's sister there. went to watch shrek 2...(I can't believe I watched that) the 3 blind mice were hilarious, and the beginning with all the spoofs from all the other movies and puss in boots was helluva cute. headed home and sat down to watch some TV and then went to cook dinner. I am positive that I am falling sick, my eyes are burning, my nose is stuffy, my voice is funny and I am feeling warm. I CANNOT fall sick...need to to go kayaking and I have Amath after guides...although I'm not sure I should go for this class. Supposed to call jin lao shi about the exam and tell her...why did they have to use GREEN paper...deep impact...elijah wood's eyes, you'll never find eyes more blue than his...jealous.

You are the air I need to breathe
the river of life inside of me
you are the half that made me whole
you are the anchor of my soul

I just found out my home computer is working...*happy* and everything on it seems a whole lot bigger than usual. well, today was good. Founders day mass...whooo! I tell you, I have never seen somany IJ girls squashed together in one place for a long time. The last was 145th anniversary in the indoor stadium, that was fun. In blue seats you got girls in blue and white...*laugh*. met Mrs Goh aka Miss A.Woon. Went to thomson plaza for lunch with ethel and perry...walked around aimlessly for a while then setteled in the food court where we stoned for 3omins then I went to get lormee. the lady at the counter mumbled something and I agreed. Then to my horror I saw her put a whole spoon(the chinese kind) of chilli blacan(I think) I finished the damn thing...THAT was an accomplishment. Shared some 'too sweet' sea coconut with erika and then went for tuition. The place was once again full of guys...man, felt saw weird. Did comprehension throughout and then I came home. Now I am here...going to bath now.

My love for you will never end
You'll always be a part of me
As long as time keeps
on passing by
You'll always be my baby boy.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ERIKA

Well, I am rather happy today. Maybe it's because we don'y have anymore intensive chinese. Today was really the last straw. Got all the holiday homework today, lets just say it is THICK. It's definitely NOT going to be any holiday. Played some bridge in class...and I STILL can't find my partner everythime I play. Then went to say goodbye to mdm is. Went down to the staffroom and then sang outside till she came out, couple of us cried even she did. Went to the shed and took photos with her. It's just bad...I mean to lose her...she been so good to us, and she did a damn good job with us too. Just sad. Went for patrol meeting later. That was SOME experience, I thinkl the people who went would, know. Erika, make sure you can sing and do it, don't get distracted....LOL. We'll see. Got mass tomorrow, I have good feelings about it. Gotta go eat now and then study cheena. tata.

MDM IS 4/1 WILL ALWAYS REMEMBER YOU!!

So here we go
Let's just dance
Teach my soul to take this chance
Put my heart in your hands
Out of all the moments that we leave behind
Turn around and tell me baby we'll remember...

woke up late today...can you believe I bathed, changed and ate breakfast within 10mins? Course you can't...anyway, today gen is tired...aching all over. Netball thingie today. 4/1 peeps good job man, we were great and we got 3rd for cheerleading too...I'm aching now(didn't I just say that?). Went for lunch with perry and ethel...had 'ban mian' for lunch. Bought erika's prezzie(did I just type 'prezzie'!??!) then bought ice-cream...although I was still so thirsty. Went home...why do all the buses I take make me wait half an hour...nvrm. Came home...made phone calls to people....and then later found out that paul was comin' for tuition so rushed to get stuff ready. Watched some TV later...then went to do chinese...supposed to be going to eat dinner soon. I need to change my song...but where? I DON'T WANNA GO FOR PRAC TOMORROW!!!!

amanda: thank you...first and last time you'll ever see me in one, so enjoy it while you can.
vanessa: shut-up man...LOL...yes I got a 'hot' bf...so what...hahaa
perry and ethel: let's not get violent on my tagboard okay?

Don't stop, stop the music
The world will keep turning if you use it, get out there and
Don't stop, stop the music
People keep on dancing, you can do it
Baby come on
Baby come on

Monday...checked more papers...chem was bad, just bad and Amath...HAHA...need I say more? Well...more cheerleading today...I think we so got it down today. We went through the entire thing so many times, and I think I hate that cheer. Doing it too many times...my skirt is super short too...as in SHORT, too short for my liking(since when did I like skirts?). Played 'capteh' with Luu, Trang, Xier, Mich, and Rae Wen...was fun, I actually hit the thing a couple of times...but I can say that I can serve. I have no idea how to get to netball place tomorrow at all, maybe I can beg papa to bring me. My muscles are aching now, esp. my legs, splits...man...I had better stretch tomorrow. Gen will be a bimbo for a day...at least I'll have SOMETHING to tell my grandchildren...if I have grandchildren *laughs to herself*

jeanette: john and ryan are the same person...ryan's just his middle name. Thanks for letting me know. 4/1 Hot babes rule!
amanda: keep guessing girl...you were close, but you went off track and it's not john
erika: heeello there, hope you're doing okay and yes he does doesn't he. I think he knows that too
john: hey baby, miss you too, you know I feel the same way.

Sunday...slow day. Do you really wanna read this?

I don't know what's going on, but hell she's damn serious about what she said. What is up with you? Are you just LOOKING for trouble! Damn you could LISTEN to me once in your life..so I'm not perfect, yes I admit that I am NOT perfect, but if there's anyone I know that needs a slapping AND a wake-up call it's YOU! I'm not trying to go all 'I-am-a-good-kid-so-listen-to-me' on you, cos I know I am far from that, but right now I think you need someone elses view badly. So she wants to take the handphone, just give it to her. It's not as if you are damn unreachable. People can always call you at home! You don't got some top secret number that can't given away to people! So you say it's convenient, but you know what? You don't got the freedom to choose what the hell you get now. You've dug your own damn grave, you get it...you DUG it yourself and guess what? I CARE...yes, I'm not afraid to say it I CARE and I don't care if you don't want to know this, I think you NEED it in order to save yourself. Since you dug your own damn grave, you had better make a choice. Either you jump in it, or you cover it back up. I don't want to see you thrown out, I'm sure neither of us does, but it seems you don't give a crap about it. You think you can bring yourself through it? I'll tell you honestly, You can't, you are not in any condition to do so. You don't got ANYTHING!
STOP telling me that you don't have to listen to me, cos I think it's high time you started listening, if you not you'll be digging another hole yet again for yourself soon enough. So I don't have a very optimistic view on how you're gonna end up, but look at yourself. Put yourself in front of a mirror and tell me what do you see, I'll tell you honestly what I see...somebody who's FULL of herself and cares for no one, selfish, one who doesn't care what others think. Just as long as you're fine, you don't give a crap about other people, s'long as you're comfy. STOP living in your little world out there, act your age man, you ain't some 5-year-old kid anymore, figure yourself out, what do YOU want? and WORK for it...it ain't gonna drop in your lap. You got lucky once, twice, but I'm telling you you're running out of it. You keep saying you know...do you really? Cos I don't seem to see a change. You just keep on doing the same thing over and over again and you know what, it DISGUSTS me yeah, you heard me, I am DISGUSTED! Don't keep saying that people don't give a shit about you, YOU'RE just too blind to see anything. You had BETTER wake up before the reality smacks you in the face, cos when it does, you ain't gonna like it and no one, not even me, will able to help you. So do yourself a favour and wisen up or else you know what? I don't give a shit what you do.

All I want is to hold you forever
All I need is you more every day
You saved my heart
From being broken apart
You gave your love away
And I'm thankful every day
For the gift

I have a headache now...why? Maybe cos of the walkathon...but there wasn't even any sun. Finished it quicker than I expected, but people kept saying that we were slow...oh well...met perry a few times. Went for cheerleading practice later...my splits are rusty...darn, at least my cartwheels are fine. gen shall be a bimbo for a day. Went home...watched some TV, then fell asleep. Did chinese later, lao shi gonna have loads to mark for me. Watched more TV later. More Chinese...I think I am starting to love that GCE blue book...LOL. STOP ME!!!

4/1 Hot babes! We gonna do it!

He´s a warm breeze
Breathing life into me
He's the sunlight
Shining down on me

gen is tired today...so guides was fun...I think we killed them. Anyway...today was like FOC...I mean one blow after the other. Just so UNREAL...don't wanna talk about it, so I'll just leave it. Spent the day after school during guides...don't feel like hitting someone anymore, or not as much at least. Maybe it was the guides...poor people. The bus irritated me again...20mins, not forgetting the jam at my house, since everybody on my damn street or vicinity owns a damn care, big ones too! Got home, bathed and had to miss 'sun wukong' to wash veggies for mummy. Cooked dinner and ate with mummy...talked with her about this and that. Then I washed up...so I am here. Got walkathon tomorrow...8km. I need to go rest, before I die tomorrow...tata.

High above this world
Missing your love

Well, well, I am here once again. I am still feeling irritated...AND I still feel the need to hit somebody. Perhaps it's the chinese...perhaps. I think I need some quiet time to myself, maybe with someONE...and people just keep talking around me...not that I hate talking(WHO DOES!??!) but some people need to know when to stop man...I mean, I just couldn't stand her today just kept telling me the same thing over and over again. How 'bout we leave it at that...no need to go on. Today I was just cruisin' just moving along with the flow...like I wasn't here(or there for the matter of fact). School has just become that....just like that(splat!). I mean it's okay(man that took effort) but not exactly anything I'd look forward too. At least there's walkathon on Saturday...yeah and I hate 156...I mean the bus just gets on my nerves. I was at the bus stop for 20mins and it happens to be the ONLY bus I can take home...now I'm just going insane, I finished my whole book of chinese cloze passages(YAY!), and I can't watch OC tonight...random thoughts. Maybe it's my 'I-am-irritated' streak thats causing this...maybe...or maybe I'm just cranky(WHAT!??!), okay I am gonna stop just in case I start irriatating you, poor reader...hahaha(see what I mean).

Missing you so much baby.

take me to your heart
take me to your soul
give me your hand and hold me
show me what love is
be my guiding star
its easy
take me to your heart

So I am here when it is close to 11. WTH...anyway...today was boring. I mean started off with intensive chinese, I seriously tried to pay attention...but the people around me kept talking to me...and askin' me what does that mean...I mean WTH...lao shi ain't even got there and when she's explainin' you talking? Then went for recess...like I was just stoning at the table. There were 5 of us there, and we weren't talking to each other at all...just staring off into the distance. I was utterly irritated...I just wanted to hit someone...or anything that will make a sound in pain...I just fel to so irritated!!! Then Janice amused us with a card trick. So I discovered that John and I love each other...but we each love someone else...how nice. Okay, never mind...just some stupid card trick...but it was fun. Went to the court to have briefing on netball thingie...when the fire alarm went off. Nalli and I were like, "what's that sound?" "Dunno". Found out later that some person who had nothing better to do did it. So all filed back and had briefing in the basketball court under the hot sun. So I discovered that Carmen out me in cheerleading...and I still object to the raffia skirt. Then had IJ 2010 talk by Miss Tan....was boring...like what else can I say. Then had PLC meeting...erika was just being distracting during it...and so were a couple of others. Stayed to help jianghan later. Then went home...did some cheena...watched 'Sun Wukong' then had math tuition with Paul. Had dinner and now I am here, typing out the agenda...in a very panicked mood.

I wanna know that love will surround us
and you'll share it with me every day
Tell me you'll care for me now and forever
I'll give anything to hear you say
that I'm more than a friend

Today started off with stupid intensive cheena programme...like it's not bad enough that I have chinese for the first period of the day for 4 days out of five. Did like 2 compos in 3 hours....all the new words and sayings...so chim...could just die. Went for mass practice later on...and who did I see? MRS DRYSDALE!!! I mean...I haven't seen her for 2 years...she lost weight too...not that that's bad. She taught me like 9 years ago...and brownies...well she's probabaly the best teacher you could have in primary school. I mean she taught us everything except chinese, taught me music too. She still sings well and damn the charmis like, still there. I mean we NEVER ever sang like THAT. I tell you 4/6 and 4/7 are damn lucky to have her. We were a damn big bunch screaming with her, recognising each other..."hamburger, hamburger...." like WTH we still remeber that shit. Talked more with her during recess...was nice to see her. Came back for some video thingie...was good..I liked the videos...esp. the 'Autograoh Book' one...our schools was a bit confusing at times(call me slow...whatever). Went to stmikes with erika...and then sat and chatter while we waited for her mum...guin was bothering me and man...she was just goofin' off. Walked down and then came home. Supposed to have swept the floor but didn't. Fell asleep watching TV...woke up at 6.30 cos my friend called. Then sat down to do more chinese...went to watch chinese show at 7 and then went to cook dinner, which I should be going downstairs to now. but mummy's gonna take the comp away to the computer guy to do some networking thingie, so yeah...I'm hungry, so gonna eat now.

You took my heart away
When my whole world was gray
You gave me everything
And a little bit more
And when it's cold at night
And you sleep by my side
You become the meaning of my life

Well today was absolutely filled with chinese. Lugged myself to school today...marking day...supposed to be a holiday for us students. Went to do a mock test for chinese...with compo and everything...was falling asleep during the compe and I had nothing to write for compo...but it was good considering I didn't study for it. Went to for lunch...KFC...I like their coleslaw and then left for cheena tuition. Usual pple there...liying and her laughing fits...the poor SJI boy....for a moment we thought we both scared him away. I was there for 4 hours...longest I've ever been, I didn't even know it was four hours. At least the bus didn't take so long today, sat the long bus ride home...and then watched TV...all the way till dinner. Well school starts tomorrow...and I fear going there now...although it would be rather fun...LOL...okay I'll stop.

I've got high emotions
and it's all for you
got this crazy notion
that you feel the same way too
got my dreams in motion
in a sky so blue
and i don't think it's gonna rainy today
are you coming out to play

Good evening once again....am enjoying some nice quiet time alone. Parents are out at IMM to get a printer and my sisters are at some band fest thingie. So I shall appreciate this alone time, until....certain people show up. Mostly slacked off today...watched loads of TV when I came back from going out and church. Cleaned the whole of the upstairs of my house, and everything smelt metallic...what with all the dust mixed with water and whatnot. BLEAH!! Did some chinese...then rest of family came home, mummy made spaghetti with real tomatoes and pineapples. Watched making of Troy...OB looked good...nice red shirt and white tank top...I think it was a tank top, or maybe just a white shirt.
The house is supposed to be empty...but I keep hearing sound from downstairs...why is that...maybe it's the lizards. My mum is convinced they fight at night over insects...and that's why there's insect blood on the floor. She has a personal fued with the lizards in the house. Why can't someone move in next door so the bugs will go there??!?!?!

I don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

Good evening to you, I have just returned from eating dinner...omelette and french beans with carrots. Today was rather relaxing...alept most of the day. Was supposed to get down to do chinese...but the 'freedom mood' got to me. Finished watching my 'shattered glass' Stephen glass is GOOD man...I mean 27 out of 41 fake articles...how the hell did he get away with that? Went shopping in giant with mummy...hated it, so crowded. The trolley was working fine...then I found out I couldn't round small corners. I had to take big angles in for it to turn...and in a crowded supermarket that is NOT good. I mean...they couldn't make it 4WD (four wheel drive) and they don't have an express counter...how irritating is that. Went to guardian later to buy face soap...and paying at the counter when I saw the condoms...and something attracted me(don't take this the wrong way!) It said this on a box of conndoms...chocolate flavoured condoms, for greater fun. I just wanted to laugh at the cashier lady...like WTH...greater fun?!??! Told mummy later and her comment was...crude. Daddy took us home and ate dinner and now I am here.

Sometimes at night I lay awake,
Just to watch you sleep, hear each breath you take.
When the morning lights your face,
I just wanna hold you, and forget the day.
I live and breathe your every touch
Do you love me, do you love me, do you love me that much?

I AM BACK!!!! I am officially free...for now...still got chinese 'O's. Let's NOT think about that tonight. Amath was tedious, but do-able...I like it. Went to watch Troy with debora and rizka and my sis. Well the whole of IJ(almost)swarmed to orchard to watch troy. Cinema 5 was full of people I knew. Met erika, nat, abish, van and carol made me happy. Met perry and ethel too. It was so sad..it was like Hector died along with all the hope of Troy ever standing. Hector was worthy to be King of Troy it was really sad. The sadness is indescribable. The soundtrack is amazing...I could close me eyes and listen to it ALL DAY. Worth my every cent, even if it veered of the proper story. Went walking around orchard looking in bookstores, looking at stuff I can't buy, met yienli in borders. Bought Ice-blended mocha and then went home...watched 'sun wukong' chinese show and now I am here. Blogging after 8 days....HOW did I last that long. That is amazing...

Hey baby, I missed you so much! I'll see you on Monday!

Papers, in order of how I favour them

1)Geography
2)Emath
3)Amath
4)Physics
5)English
6)Biology
7)SS
8)Chemistry

Let's just say chem is NOT my favourite subject, and I wanna do medicine?!?? Got to go eat dinner now. Good night!

GEN IS ON HIATUS
will be back on the 14th of May

I wanna feel the way you make me feel
When I'm with you
I wanna be the only hand
You need to hold on to

wednesday...now I can officially start counting the days. Well we got a rice cooker!!! I know that sound pathetic, but if you'd had to live with the constant fear of burning a whole pot of rice(and the kitchen), you'd understand...trust me. 5 people in my class ponned school today...I liked today...very relaxing...I mean we could do anything we want for chinese and physics was fun...I have NO idea why it was fun...but it was fun. Played volleyball during PE...the game was rather weird...people just couldn't get the ball, so it was mostly spent standing around, BUT I felt much better after, vented all my frustration which explains why all my shots were so high (is that even the right word). SS was weird...I just told Mrs Siow I had a problem with SBQ, and I think she took it as I had a problem with EVERYTHING. She kept throwing questions at me and asking me to answer them when I had absolutely no idea how to. Spent Amath doing functions...don't know why he suddenly decided to do that. Arranged tables later on...and walked down with Rizka. My shoes were wet and my feet were freezing on the bus, and I had to meet those bimbotic girls on the bus again...I was utterly irritated with them, they just couldn't shut up. Came home, bathed and then sat down to do SS...taking a break now...going back at 5. I am craving(what kind of word is that ?!?) to tie something...I need to vent some more...I think erika has influenced me.
I am missing someone...hope to see you soon!

Pride can stand a thousand trials
The strong will never fall
But watching stars without you
my soul cried
Heaving heart is full of pain
Oh oh the aching

Supposed to stay away from any contraption with the access to the internet...but could not resist, anyway mummy's computer is super fast, and I type really fast...so I should be done in no time. I am very frustrated and very angry at myself. I just have to get this out...A B4!!! B4!!!! WTH!!! What a feckin' waste of my time...I spent so much time and that's all I get?!?!? I cried in class.
Went back for chem...luckily she didn't take 3 periods...if she did I'd have fallen asleep. Went for Bio prac after recess. Found out my pee contained traces of protein, traces of ketones(don't know what that is...), and has a pH of 6.5. Petri dishes turned out okay...looked very nice with the exception of the 'dirty/clean' one...both sides seemed to have bacteria on it. Mdm Is was saying Vera's pee is sterile with only sparse growth of bacteria. Amath was fun as usual...gave us some light over some trigo...he ALWAYS seems to do that...tell us something new...never mind. Came home...hung out the clothes to dry and then went to study SS...and I am getting nowhere with it...my head feels absolutely empty...don't seem to remember anything at all...on switzerland now...2 more chapters to go. Then bio...bleah!! At least I've got something to look forward to...going to watch Troy next Friday. Should get back to my SS now...should. I just LOVE the song on the Troy site...beautiful...and Diane Kruger is so pretty. She's beee-yoo-tee-ful and Orlando gets a bow and arrow again...YAY!!!

Here's the chance of life, get ready, set, fly high.
Above the fear of your mind, go for it.
It's hit or miss, too late for you to quit.
You gotta show 'em how bad you really want this

Well...I'm feeling frustrated today, or rather right now. I can't find the stupid mass consent form and the one with the talk behind it, Mrs Tay is gonna kill me . I'm having ORLANDO BLOOM WITHDRAWAL SYMPTOMS, I feel like I wanna explode. Anyway...first part of the day was boring except for english where Mrs Alex let us do anything we wanted and Rae Wen was going crazy setting out her timetable. Bio was the best...I mean what could be more fun than playing with bacteria and your own urine (I'm serious...no seriously I am) Made agar-agar with bacteria, used urine to cultivate bacteria on agar-agar...played with penicillin to kill e-coli, and Vera singed her hair on the bunsen burner...LOL...I know that's mean....but it was like "what's that sizzling sound?"...and part of Vera's hair, maybe not part strands of her hair were SUPER curly. Emath was okay...I did ALMOST fall asleep. Went for cheena tuition with Jin lao shi. I was NOT concentrating at all...I was trying to do the wan cheng ju zi but I was so NOT HERE....I almost wanted to throw the damn book outta the window. When I finished...she made me do a COMPREHENSION!!! *scream* then she said in chinese "you wanna go home ar? Then you go...pass up to me next lesson" THANK GOODNESS. Sat on the bus..saw those irritating boys again. Got home...did Emath paper...watched 'snow queen' (kai is cute) then had nice dinner with curry *yum* now back to doing Emath paper...supposed to be doing Bio...'drugs'...what else can I say...fell asleep on the bus reading it. Need to get up at 5am tomorrow cos pap's not sending me to school...*sigh*
I am missing someone today...don't know why...

They tell you this,
They tell you that,
But their fingers crossed behind their backs,
Yes, your so different that's what you claim,
But all you guyz are all tha same,
If your an Angel I dont see your wings,
I think your after just one thing

Uh huh (uh huh)
Uh huh (uh huh)
All my girlfriends they agree,
Uh huh (uh huh)
Uh huh (uh huh)
The truth comes out eventually

Boys lie,
Must be somethin' in their genes, makes them say what they don't mean
Boys lie,
They tell ya what ya wanna hear,
Boys lie,
To them it's not a sin just a game that they must win,
Cross their hearts,
Hope to die,
Don't know why,
Boys lie

what is love?
But a kiss on a rainy day
a smile that won't go away
a safe place to run
what is love?
But a complicated simple truth
a bond between me and you
the number one

Woke myself up at 7am to go for Amath today...was fruitful...then took all the poles for the deco down with erika's help. Only problem was how we were gonna carry so many poles without taking a second trip. The answer...erika's bike. *applause* We tied ALL the gadget poles to it (as in the bike)...and I swear it looked like a damn camel. So made the way to the den and put everything away. THANK YOU ERIKA. Got home...had a nice lunch...half a bowl of daddy-mee(bleah!) and a bowl of campbell's soup. I know the combination sounds weird but it was good. Found out my bike's gonna be taken by my aunt...WHY!??!? Well just my luck...studying bio now...microorganimsms are so interesting. My mindmaps look absolutely disgusting. My aunts are cooking up a storm in the kitchen...with all the sizzling oil...I can't even go to the back of my own house, which explains my boredom.