Monday, January 31, 2005

I'm back here again....
anyway...new week. somehow I love coming to school, it's strange...I mean yeah! okay fine...I have reasons, but they are not able to be put down in words. gen is not turning into a nerd, that you don't have to worry about.
today...one lect GP. the family unit...mmm...yeah. interesting topic...what would you consider a family? Is there such a thing as a perfect family? Is it possible? right...I'll stop making you think (wait do you even? haha...). chinese was interesting... a lot interesting...logical thinking, so different from secondary school, despite the fact that we didn't do textbooks, it's still more interesting and sitting in front of guo shiong...is damn fun! I mean, he just doesn't shut up...wait is that supposed to be good? physics tuitorial is physics tuitorial, nothing to jump out of your seat about.
Stayed back and talked with cynthia and ben...actually would you really ben talking. He was listening most of the time...doing his physics...so okay...yes I guess I would.
Took the bus to papa's office and yes...I have been stoning. Is it too late to say GEN NEEDS A BOOK TO READ...BADLY!!!
fact established, I need to go to a library!!!!
Tonight desperate housewives...will watch tonight.
I feel happy and confused...I dunno what I want. I'm like gonna tear my hair out over THIS...would letting go a bit help? I mean...WTH!! fuck this...

Sunday, January 30, 2005

Mmmm, uhh, Mmmmm, Yeah,
Mmmmm, Yeah, Yeah, Yeah, Mmmm,
uhh, Mmmmm, Yeah, Mmmmm, Yeah,
Yeah, Yeah, Mmmm, uhh, Mmmmm,
Yeah, Mmmm, Yeah, Yeah

Baby I just don't get it
Do you enjoy being hurt?
I know you smelled the perfume, the make-up on his shirt
You don't believe his stories
You know that they're all lies
Bad as you are ,you stick around and I just don't know why

If I was ya man (baby you)
Never worry bout (what I do)
I'd be coming home (back to you)
Every night, doin' you right
You're the type of woman (deserves good thangs)
Fist full of diamonds (hand full of rings)
Baby you're a star (I just want to show you,you are)

Chorus:

You should let me love you
Let me be the one to give you everything you want and need
Baby good love and protection
Make me your selection
Show you the way love's supposed to be
Baby you should let me love you, love you, love you

Listen
Your true beauty's description looks so good that it hurts
You're a dime plus ninety-nine and it's a shame
Don't even know what you're worth
Everywhere you go they stop and stare
Cause you're bad and it shows
From your head to your toes, Out of control, baby you know

If I was ya man,baby you
Never worry bout,what I do
I'd be coming home,back to you
Every night doin' you right
You're the type of woman,deserves good thangs
Fist full of diamonds,hand full of rings
Baby you're a star,I just want to show you, you are

Chorus

Bridge

You deserve better girl,you know you deserve better
We should be together girl,baby
With me and you it's whatever girl, hey!
So can we make this thing ours?

Chorus (3x)

Let me love you that's all you need baby

Saturday, January 29, 2005

I'm tired...
very tired...
it's either because of last night (which maybe it is?) or it's the whole week added up.
woke up at 9+ and then was deciding to slack and laze around until time to go out, however someTHING cropped up. So the whole morning was being busy, scrape and cut lotus for the soup tonight, eat breakfast and hang up the washing. multi-tasking.
bathed, left the house, and to papa's shop. I shall not say what happened in between, cos it irritated me quite some.
Left at 12.30 and to CCK interchange, met ben and then we walked and talked a bit and met christine. had lunch and to ben's house we went to do the tix and banner design.
Picked 'manda up from the LRT place, thingie...um, oh yeah, it's called a station, yes gen, a station. bought some junk food and we continued back to the house.
work.
play.
work.
laughing.
work.
basically, it was fun. I liked it. I started to get tired (I was tired all along, but it got worse...did that sound right?) so, became rather quiet, which is what usually happens when I am. tweaked around with the pic, and when it looked nice decided to stop there and home we went.
I was just stoning all the way to the bus stop, hardly talked. 'manda and christine left and ben waited for the bus with me. Was nice...very quiet, comfortable silence =), 67 came got on and all the way back. Walked and home was there. bathed, cooked dinner and rice and now I am here.
i should get down to my work soon, work as in homework, I NEED to figure out what it's trying to say to me.

stop pushing stuff to me to do, i hate it when you mess around with me like that. it's either they wanna do it or not. if they don't, then I would rather they starve to death than eat what they were unwilling to steam up and I would rather they have no clothes than see them wear what they were SO unwilling to wash. damn it, tell them to pull their fucking weight. I'm only one person, you can't expect me to do everything all the time and be there all the time. cos when I can't, you're gonna be in a helluva a lot of shit. I'm not afraid to say it, I'm pissed off. I don't like being the one taking the initiative all the time, if they don't get what INITIATIVE is I'll help'em and trust me you ain't gonna like it if I teach it. One's a freakin' old enough, actually you know what? they're BOTH old enough, so I don't see the problem. this isn't the first time, but I've held out long enough.

I'm done.

Tuesday, January 25, 2005

I just have to say...this THING in school is getting very, very weird.....*knits eyebrows*
anyway...I think the school should never have pe on such hot days like this. Canadian square didn't come (don't ask me how that name came about, I just found out about it today), so we were like sitting around, doing nothing. Kinda obvious, since the whole world who was down for pe was like playing volleyball and yes, 24 students sitting on the ground is very obvious.
Today's timetable is quite balanced, I mean in terms of lectures and tutorials being nicely spaced out and stuff, but it's just irritating. After every hour or 2, we're heading to LT 2. For my class, the world we live in has only LT 2, nothing else.
2 breaks, and I was damn hungry in the morning. Even before 9 and that's weird for me. I obviously underestimated the time for the first break and overestimated the filling power of cornflakes.
Math was probably the funnest ( I like to write it that way). I swear Mrs Koh was about to explode from exasperation....I mean...we just don't get it, or either we're just too damn weird for normal.
Got let of half an hour early, cos Mr Canadian square no show today and finally bought the damn door wedge...stopper, whatever you wanna call it. Hope my sis comes home early tonight so I can get my GP done, wanna watch CSI too, and I'm wondering whether I should cut my nails. I kinda like'em long, feels weird when their short...hmm, shall think about it tonight.
Tomorrow, another long day. SC, who knows how long that'll last.

erika: Can I say, I need to talk to you about some things???

Saturday, January 22, 2005

Automatic, supersonic, hypnotic, funky fresh
Work my body, so melodic
This beat flows right through my chest
Everybody, Ma and Papi came to party
Grab somebody, work your body, work your body
Let me see you 1, 2 step


I'm just gonna write what the HELL has been bothering me for the past 2 days, if not I'm gonna explode or smthg...so yeah, if you don't get it, not cause for worry yea? we good? good.

it's confusing...
is it to supposed to be?
I thought, you're supposed to know from the start?
if that's the case, why do I feel bothered?
somehow I can't envision it.
maybe it's because I always had a different view on how it would happen.
is it fair?
cos right now, I don't know what I want...I don't know where I am in this.
am I supposed to let it take its course or do something about it?
would that make it worse or better?
OMG...I swear, I never imagined it would be THIS complicated.
Suddenly, I wanna call erika and talk...

Friday, January 21, 2005

it's late
I'm tired...
Had a good sleep, caught up on all the lost hours.
Cleaning...conclusion dust + me = bad!!! I finished fast though...helped mummy clean other stuff, bathed and changed, hung out with my sis for a while and then went out.
met benjamin saw cynthia there too and went to eat. holiday...so yes naturally EVERYWHERE was crowded. decided to go to macs. and we met NAT, 'BISH, STEPHIE AND CAROL can I say I miss them bad...haha. went walk walk and then the movie.
Elektra...HUM...it was good. jennifer garner is damn fit...i mean, she got abs, she can do one-armed pull-ups...damn! Can I say i hate her for that? storyline-wise I like the idea, but I felt that it wasn't developed to its full potential. the fight scenes were well done, I like her scythes too...sharp stuff fascinates me...
then home we went and mummy made me pull grass, or rather cut grass. I swear fom today onwards I HATE LALANG. I was just cutting or rather more like...um...hacking my way through. There was like A LOT!!! so yes...I was dying what with it ALL OVER THE PLACE and all the stuff that has been living in there. If you were standing outside the wall of my house, you'd just have see lalang flying. after like 1 hour, I stood back to admire my work and I am proud of it. Now the garden isn't overgrown with lalang, it's laiden with leaves of lalang. It looks like a bloody haystack.
bathed, and tried to do work, but I fell asleep. Mummy woke me up for dinner and I went to eat and now I am here.

Thursday, January 20, 2005

oh yeah...say it with me...no school!!!
Did I ever tell YOU I love public hols...haha.
okay, shut up gen.
Lots of homework to do...which I can't do.
HUMMM!! did that sound logical to you?
Today...long day. 10 hours in school...STUDYING!!!
Lotsa lectures, physics, chem and math...like WTH.
Not forgetting tuitorials, and I was hungry.
I ran, in the sun. I ran, what felt like 5 rounds. However, reality smacked me in the face...it was 4.
yes...prac, um...hmmm..it was serious, yeah, I guess I could say that.
HOLIDAY HERE I COME!!!

Tuesday, January 18, 2005

tired.
too many lectures...in and out..in and out.
and I forgot to bring my key.
tired....
stoning 0.0
*whines* I wanna go hoooooooooooooooooome!!!

Monday, January 17, 2005

The confusion sets in...dance or SC. Would I choose dance over student council or vice versa? Which would you do? Should I stay in CJ, or look for greener pastures?
Wells...today was short must say, was like sec school. Finished at 2pm, due to a change in timetable. So this is how it's gonna be huh?
Had GP first instead of PE...basically nothing much, then PE...got a chance to go to the gym. I like it...feels good. Stayed behind after PE, which is break to do more weights...can I say I hate my arms. Not to the extent of wanting them chopped off, but as in hate how pathetically weak they are.
Back for GP lect. I swear that woman is mad. She obviously has no idea how bloody ear-piercing and annoying her voice is when one scream into the mic and the stupid students, who can't seem to be able to find a place to sit down in a LT teeming with seats, decide to test her patience as well. other than that it was cold and it was much better after she let out all her steam on the mic.
Physics, Mdm Tam wasn't around and there wasn't any relief teacher coming in, so yeah...discussed the toopid CNY lantern thingamajig in the process.
Another break...I think there are too many....it just leaves you bored and poor francesca and her sweet sauce. Even I wouldn't be stupid enough to put THAT much sauce...haiz....anyway.
After that was MT, francesca left with an upset stomach...or whatever you call it or what she would call it and then more talk on mr teng ye. Did chinese exercise...which I have not done for a LONG time...sorta felt strange, but was okay larh. Not as rusty as I expected myself to be. Then walked out with benjamin and we took 154 and to papa's office I went.
Yes, so NOW I am here...bored...um...no homework, need to prepare for partial fractions test SOMEHOW, will figure out how. Must finish the goals thingie, bring hongbaos to make the lantern tomorrow and endorse my CCA form tomorrow.

'manda: WHERE IN HELL WERE YOU!! I lugged that THING to school and you no show. ni dao di yao bu yao ar?

Saturday, January 15, 2005

Another week...
Got up and made my way back to IJ...felt a little weird. Actually it feels weird every school day, whennwe drop guin off at school and then it feels damn unusual that I don't get out off the car and walk that 300m all the way to st raphies. but anyway...came to help them with their orientation actually.
Although, personally...don't think I did much except for sit around, talk to the guides and look here look there, play a little Bball with naomi, erika and deb...but I don't think you'd seriously consider it Bball.
Helped them clear up all the stuff and naomi, erika and I left. Erika and I headed to J8 to have lunch...food court...chicken rice. Nots bad...and then we talked, as in really talked. Haven't done it for a long time, it felt good and then we walked and then headed to papa's office which I am apparently freezing in right now. don't ask me to put on a jacket cos, it's on...it's my feet that are cold.
Pass few days have been quite relaxed, just that the homework is a lot, days are long and yeah...I screwed up my chances of performing competition-wise for dance. Still pissed at myself for that...but at least I'm not really tied down to CJ. PE is enjoyable and I would like to announce to the whole world...or to YOU dear reader that I have grown 1.5cm, yes that makes me happy...but I have also gained 1 kg in the process...-_-...yes, I don't like gaining weight. LTs are cold...classes are cold...yes, grandstand is cold too....yes...so I thank benjamin for his jacket on thursday.

erika: hey....if you need anything, just call okay...just when I'm back from school. I know this sounds damn weird...but I know what you're going through. what with what happened with my dad and all, just want you to know that I'm always here and I don't want you to feel like you're unloading all your stuff on me and feel bad about it...cos you're not. I don't know if my listening to you helped lighten your load whatsoever, cos for me...I have never been able to tell people what I told you in my life. In fact I haven't been able to talk to anybody like what we did. Not even those that I have known for so long, cos I don't want people to treat me any different. Just know that I'll be there for you. mucho love!

Tuesday, January 11, 2005

tuesday....
I am officially 1T23's treasurer and secretary...oh well. money....suits me, in a way.
Chem...okay, so I didn't know there was homework and yeah....but nvrm 1st week. Then had chem lecture...was all the basic stuff and then break.
Funny thing is...1 hr break...and I think maybe we're all so used to the 35 min break we finish damn early, then we just sit there and talk and then head upstairs and then sit and class and BS.
Went for phy lect...was feelin sleepy, always like that during the period straight after break and plus I was cold.
Then back to class for math...mrs felicia koh...don't mess with her. She may be short, but damn she got some personality! haha
Then back to LT2 for math lect...okay...I knew what was going on...although yes I was cold...I need a jacket. Fact established.
PE...I swear...I was about to run myslef aground. thanx to me having sitting on my ass for a whole month.
okay..stop now.

Saturday, January 08, 2005

Saturday today...my favourite day of the week...for certain reasons. at papa's office now...with nothing to do. lectures gonna start officially on monday, so finally gonna have something to do, so it should be quite good. last 2 days have been crazy...likeable crazy.

thursday
games day...switched with the other set of classes, so they gonna do dragon boating and amazing race today.
First game was smthg to do with marbles. supposed to like stick 2 marbles in your toes and go to the other end of the line to deposit them in a corner, was okay then at the end we were supposed to pick someone to bring the most number of marbles over the other side. Was damn farni, picked sara of course...the guy's like 193 and had big feet, was quite a sight. Then had to draw some stupid picture by constantly sending people to the other side to look at partds of the picture and then slowly draw it out. stupid thing was they even noticed all the damn minor details, like how many rays there were on the sun, how many petals on the floor, how many hairs on the girls head...WTH was damn irritating.
Then, also had some tongue twister game. The facils lined up two rows of ten chairs, one for our class and the other for the other class, competition thingie. We were supposed to sit in the chair and say "one smart fella he felt smart" and the go on to the next chair and the number just keeps increasing and stuff, thing is people tend to say "one smart fella, he smelt fart" damn farni...I mean you try it larh! Khai the facil, kept saying 'smelt fart' to me during the game, like WTH! nvrm.
Played captain's ball, but tied people together. Some in fours and threes, victor and kui juan joined in too...was quite fun. both teams tied, so we played without being tied together, talk about OVERCROWDING man...40 plus people playing on half a netball court...yeah you can imagine.
Longest line...that was fun. Was damn big rush...we just took out everything we had, wallets, shoes, shoelaces, watches, raffia we picked up from the other groups...blahblah...new record of 9 and 1/2 lines. WOO 23!
Last game was to do with water bombs. jeremiah aka miah aka livia was in-charge...started out okay, basically line up and then throw the water bombs backwards without turning around and looking. Then we had a little game of scissors, paper, stone jedi style, with hand actions for darth maul, qui gon, obi-wan, forgot who beats who, quite confusing. Winner gets to throw a water bomb at the other group, while the looser gets a bamboo stick to protect his entire group from the in-coming water bomb. Didn't get wet at all...the guys all stood in front and took'em all...so nice ar? haha...but would have been nice to get wet. After that, broke out into a water bomb fight...involving the facils too...and it was total chaos.
Lunch later, then went to the audi had mass dance...revised the banghra and then did some of thriller, personally I like it and then to class to do some reflection stuff thingie...was it refelction? WHY am I asking you?
Had to go for house meeting and then we worked on our commercial for tomorrow's finale night and then met sheryl and we headed home. Bathed, ate dinner and then watched bachelor for a while...say it with me "trish is a bitch, trish is a bitch..." okay, I'll stop. Then to sleep.

friday
assembly...timetable for today...and had introductory lectures. chemistry was okay...just that the woman looked like a younger and plumper version of TYM. scary. then went to LT2 for physics lecture...um...kinda boring...but it's physics. Had to sit according to our classes for that, 23 ended up in a corner. You just take one look around and you could see people in other classes sleeping and stuff.
Break...and back to LT2 for GP. Farhee(sp?) I think that's his name...WOW....he means business you know and quite blunt...kinda like ET but worse than that. Then came maths 9233, that miss ang woman...okay...how should I say this...infelxible? or should I call it...picky? nvrm...you just gotta know she's really um...you know what? forget it. assemled at the quadrangle and we went to the audi for assembly for CCA bazaar briefing form mr michael tan. watched a performance for dance, was good, I liked it. Then went out and started choosing.
After 2 hours...came back together at the canteen for house meeting. practiced the commercial for finale night and to the audi we went for finale night.
Had house wars for a while...must say that pyro was damn on last night...WOO! my house luminos....we were a bits quiet and yeah...our cheers still kinda suck. Whole thing started and it was damn chaos...houses cheering in between here and there..people from the audiences shouting from here and there. The performances were a different league of chaos. I mean, guys dressed as women...as in the real deal. with skirts...shirts rolled up with balloons as breasts...like WTH...DAMN SCARY!!! some were lame, some were damn drama, throwing tables and chairs...do you feel it? Do you FEEEEEEL the chaos...nvrm.
Mass dance and we finished off. the class went for dinner...had a hard time deciding where we wre gonna go, so decided on town and yes, so did the whole student population of CJC present at the time. Whole lot squeezed on a double becker 132 bus and the noise was exactly like during the performances and stuff...wouldn't be surprised if CJ received a comment form SBS for rowdy students on bus. HAHA! Got off at far east split-up and bought dinner, met victor and headed to the esplanade.
Went outside and the whole lot of CJ students practically congregated there and caused a big commotion and a whole lot a crap...singing, laughing, screaming. There was a couple nearby who probably got damn irritated with tthe noise so they disappeared after awhile...we moved a a corner to be anti-social but yeah...everybody decided to be too. So we werern't AS for long. decided to play zong1 ji4 mi4 ma3. Basically some one sets a number between a certain range...say 1-100 and the person who guesses it does a forfeit. the forfeits were damn disgusting larh...at least those by the facils, they're like damn on or smthg. Went off at 10, benjamin came along, and took 77 home together.
Reached home, bathed, and then to sleep...yes...sleeeeeeeeeeep.

Wednesday, January 05, 2005

Fighting crime
Trying to save the world
Here they come - just in time
The Power Puff Girls


Okay...today I am REALLY tired.
To CJC..papa fetched...so was a lot quicker. It was raining, drizzling...whatever you call it. Was waiting at the bus stop, feeling damn cold from the cars rushing past on the road. Saw yan yi..so went in together. Sat at the benches in the foyer until was time to go to the grandstand. OMG...the wind there is damn strong, not forgetting how cold I was. cynthia, yan yi and I were using the people one step lower to block the wind...was damn funny.
Got on the bus, and to kallang we went. Dragon boating...same old same old...rowing, rowing... though this time didn't have slacker boon. took a break for a while, had fun in the not-very-clean-oh-so-green water (hey that rhymes!) and back to rowing...boat competition and we were onto amazing race.
Must say that amazing race thingie was an experience...you get to know tonnes of things about people. How much they eat, the extent of their insanity, how some are so full of crap (I mean that in a funny way), physical ability and that guys actually know more about powerpuff girls than girls do. haha...was a good experience, despite the tiny screw-up, but we had lotsa fun together. The two sexes mixing well too, talking to each other and all that stuff, so I thinlk we'll be all good for the first 3 months.
Back to college, and then to home. I'm damn red...but then what sun was there today...practically none, but hey that's me. My watch tan has become more visible and the souls of my feet hurt...gonna sleep early tonight for tomorrow.
Still dunno if I should wear my sport shoes or school shoes, seeing as we're gonna get wet and stuff reason having being stated in yesterday's post. Unless I bring along both...but that's such a hassle. WTH!!

SHERYL BAEY!!! NI BEI PAN WO!!! I WAIT FOR YOU SO LONG AND YOU NO SHOW...WHAT IS THIS!!! WHERE IN HELL WERE YOU?!?!?

Tuesday, January 04, 2005

strike 3...
One word tired.
Monday
Met Janice in the morning...went in and then assembly. Sat in pairs...can you believe it? Was like automatic..haha amusing.
Later got into out IGs (index Groups) went into the audi extension to do some intros...facil's were ryan and christine (tini), 24 of us played a name game, the one where you sit in a circle and then you have to say the names of all the people before you before you say yours, got it? No...nvrm. Funny thing is I was in the same group as gen liu and we sat together so everybody was like "gen, gen, vanessa, rene, priscilla..." and then they usually get stuck there, having forgotten the next guy's name which is Ho Rey. Coincidentally, he's fromSt Pat's scouts and he came for our cf...so yeah...I was thinkin' I'd seen him somewhere.
Had a tour of the school saww all the facilities. Nice pond...and I mean NICE pond, you can actually SEE the bottom of the pond and what's actually IN it...2 1/4 lane, 330m, sqaure track...hostel...grandstand...bball courts, volleyballcourt, street soccer court, netball court cum assembly area aka quadrangle...staffroom...canteen...LTs (lecture theatres) ryans saying if you're late, go by this door not by that door...or if you're late with in these 2 weeks just tell the lecturer you lost your way...they'll (teacher's) buy it. WTH...jiao1 huai4 junior man. Saw the MPH building, housing the fencing room as well as air rifle range, saw tennis courts and then back to the audi again.
Brother paul talk...1 hour...he talks reeeeeaal sloooow and with extreme bluntness and dry humour. A lot better than Miss tan where she just seems to make you feel guilty or just asking for the impact. Later had to leard the mass dance. Dance, what's there not to like? Indian music, what's not to like? Haha...was damn fun...couple's so dance so gotta pair, was like some pasar malam...with people shouting "you need girls ar?" "you need guys ar?" "I got extra guys/girls, you want?" and this guy claiming to be livia...damn LAMER.
More talks and then let off at 4.30...took bus to papa's office. Tool a lift home from mummy, bathed, dinner, TV and then I crashed.

Tuesday
Went to the audi, sang some songs with this guy called eugene. Whose catchphrases happen to be "give me a chance lar!" or "you guys sucked out"...dunno where the latter came from, personally I think it's weird..don't sound right.
After that...brother paul talk...one hour as expected. Was okay...basically was about a guide to JC life and CJC. How YOU can make it beautiful and yet insufferable for yourself. Later, more mass dance...I was super screwed, forgot ALL...or atleast it was at the back of my head...couldn't recall. I was like look then follow, looked super retarded.
After that had lunch, met back at the audi and went to learn cheers at the MPH block. We used the fencing room with group 2. Sing cf songs...was like girl guides man. What with all the epoh, gako, little green frog, but with A LOT of add-ons...esp epoh, OMG what with all the killing chickens. The chickens like damn hard to kill...cut off the head, not dead yet...crack the head, not dead yet...swing it around by it's neck, not dead yet...shoot it and yet it survives...and finally after shelling it, it dies. Then jean came...I tell you that girl is a damn POWERHOUSE...WTH. Can I say LOUD???? haha
Went back to audiand then had singing competition, dancing competition, J2s showed us the whole dance and then posting results came. Ended up in 1T23, 9 girls 10 guys...quite balanced, compared to others which had like 4 guys and 19 girls, sad, sad.
Went to our classrooms and did admin stuff, got to know our new HTs (home tutors) and the people in-charge of us for the nect few days, Victor and Kui Juan...victor looks A LOT like my cousin..haha. Played ice-breakers and then back to the audi. Briefed about tomorrow's activities for the various houses...and then broke into our houses for discussion for finale night seeing as our group is doing that. Left at 5.30 and to papa's shop on 151...mummy then took mw to the shop to clarify the price of my shoe and OMG it's a whopping $82.95...like WTH, I've never owned shoes that ex before man...I tell you I'ma gonna guard it with my life or smthg.
Gonna go home, take a bathe, aet dinner, watch CSI and then crash .
Tomorrow I shall go dragon boating and amazing race...wish me luck and I wanna get tanned...haha. CIAO!