Saturday, November 17, 2007

I just wonder, what happened to that little boy in me....he seems a little far away....


Tuesday, November 13, 2007

I have been feeling so unsettled...not the worried unsettled...but the can't sit down and study unsettled.

I am majorly frustrated, pissed off and irritated at this....I am desperately trying to sit and study but I just CANNOT!!! Like WTH!!!

I just cannot seem to sit down and study, if i'm not sleepy i'm just NOT HERE!! I don't know why....I DON'T KNOW WHY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I just want to study....why in the world is it so damn fucking hard to do just it!!!

Saturday, November 10, 2007

Woke up this morning and took meimei to TTSH to buy her malaria tablets and if she hadn't mentioned it...I wouldn't even have known that there was a donut factory there....yum...there've been so many donut shops popping up all over Singapore, they all just seem the same...SERIOUSLY!! If any of you thought what I just mentioned was a serious crime, I really thought that (dunno about now though...) so we decided to buy one each, but we found out they sell their donuts by the box, so we bought 3. The last one for mummy.

I had a raspberry chocolate, meimei had strawberry white chocolate and I brought home apple cinnamon for mummy.

Apparently donut factory is the one at raffles city too, where apparently there are always long queues in the day.

Went to school to do the SPS presentation and then now I'm home. =)

I dunno why but I was prompted to find this phrase in the bible about how God knows all the hairs on our head...so I just decided to note it down here:

Luke 12:4-7
4"I tell you, my friends, do not be afraid of those who kill the body and after that can do no more. 5But I will show you whom you should fear: Fear him who, after the killing of the body, has power to throw you into hell. Yes, I tell you, fear him. 6Are not five sparrows sold for two pennies[a]? Yet not one of them is forgotten by God. 7Indeed, the very hairs of your head are all numbered. Don't be afraid; you are worth more than many sparrows.

which coincidentally also appears in Matthew 10:26-31
Along the way I came across this also in Luke 12 rather appropriate passage for an exam period after I decided to read through the whole chapter:
Luke 12:22-34
Do Not Worry

22Then Jesus said to his disciples: "Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat; or about your body, what you will wear. 23Life is more than food, and the body more than clothes. 24Consider the ravens: They do not sow or reap, they have no storeroom or barn; yet God feeds them. And how much more valuable you are than birds! 25Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life[b]? 26Since you cannot do this very little thing, why do you worry about the rest?

27"Consider how the lilies grow. They do not labor or spin. Yet I tell you, not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. 28If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today, and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, how much more will he clothe you, O you of little faith! 29And do not set your heart on what you will eat or drink; do not worry about it. 30For the pagan world runs after all such things, and your Father knows that you need them. 31But seek his kingdom, and these things will be given to you as well.

32"Do not be afraid, little flock, for your Father has been pleased to give you the kingdom. 33Sell your possessions and give to the poor. Provide purses for yourselves that will not wear out, a treasure in heaven that will not be exhausted, where no thief comes near and no moth destroys. 34For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also.

Friday, November 09, 2007

"With Christ in the weather, we can smile at the storm"

Are you smiling at the storm?

received this in an email not long ago...I read it, but never thought much about it....until this morning...kind of hit me when I saw it again while checking my mail...maybe it's be some help for the peeps out there taking exams esp the 'A's and 'O's...not forgetting the others who are gonna be having exams soon.

Been a super lousy mood to study these few days....there's just no 'exam mood' kind of thing where you're a bit anxious to revise all there is, which is rather worry. If you don't have the mood, it's pretty hard to get down to sitting at the table to revise through all the stuff for the last 6 months. Not forgetting exam's in like 17 days..

I was further distracted yesterday by the fact that I currently still have a panda corydora missing from my tank. O.O I bought 4 and yesterday evening I only saw 3 and today I still only see 3. I searched the whole tank, lifted the logs....EVERYTHING!!! It's like it just disappeared...I told baby maybe it got beamed away by some aliens who were looking for humans o.O...I looked around on the floor to see if it had jumped out, but it wasn't there either. I seriously wonder where it went...I've never lost fish before...and I'm quite sure I bought 4...I still have a picture of them too....aaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!!!!!

Wednesday, November 07, 2007

Everyday
of our lives,
wanna find you there, wanna hold on tight.
Gonna run
while we’re young
and keep the faith
I've supposedly got a super long weekend, which starts today and ends on Sunday....coincidentally there weren't any lessons today cos my LSM lab is done , I've no more IT lectures and IT tutorial's been shifted to next week....which are all my lessons for today.

So today has been mugger day....I like tried to do the CM1501 papers, followed up on the last 2 lectures on carbonyls and after which I proceeded to do the impossible task of mapping out all the reactions. Meaning something like....carbonyls get alcohols with grignard something like that (you obviously have no idea what I'm talking about at this point in time)...I tried it 3 times...The second one was a bit better, then on the third one I realised even if I reorientate the major functional groups eg. ethers, alkenes....it's still gonna be freaking messy...arrows corssing here and there with barely any space to right....with the centre so densely written on already....

like the infrastructure of organic chem country so sucks....in fact it may even be really good cos there are SO many many bloody ways to get from one "town" to the other...it's just damn near impossible for me to write it at this moment...I almost wanted to kill myself...

went out to run to take my mind off all the nonsense, but after a while...I just wasn't in the mood....so went to take a walk in gourmet.

perhaps I shall move on to something much more enjoyable tonight like bio....

i dunno if i can make it...
i just don't feel it anymore...is there something wrong???
why do I always feel lousy??
I just don't have enough time...I'm trying....