Friday, June 30, 2006

I am so addicted to that adidas ad...
the one with the little kids and the football players...haha
they're just so cute...I'm talking about the kids, plus the football tricks are just so sexy...
okay...I am home cos basically the mids are over and plus I don't have a paper today =)
I'm kinda really dead for math. For the first time in my life, I feel my physics was waaaaaaaay better, chem was just chem, hopefully it's an A though.
HOWEVER, I shall not be home for long, going to set out at like 10 and get to school to return my library books or I shall be so fined for it and that woman in the library isn't the best thing to be chased by. Then I shall pick deborah from there and we shall head to baby's house to meet the boys, assuming they make it there before we do, cos I hear they were playing DoTA until 2 this morning. I feel like playing pool....hmmmmm...but I suck...

I miss people, esp the IJ peeps...
I don't know why...
just haven't seen some people for a while and I miss their presence and the fun stuff, good stuff we had. There are some , quite some, IJ people in CJ, but it's just not the same you know? I missed that gathering for erika, so yeah...stupid mids. or I could say stupid me, cos I went for LTC? cos if I didn't i'd have been able to go for it.

I wonder...should I wear contacts today? my nails are pretty long, so it's be quuuuuuuite hard to put it in and take it out...hmmm...

Wednesday, June 21, 2006

That's it...
I am so done for the mid-years...
I sorta finished chem...I just have that enormous chapter called environmental chem and doubts avout electrochem to clear-up. as for physics, I have like 8 chapters to go!!!!!! for maths...I've like done 3 papers!!!
talk about equal distribution...it's just that some just take too long...eat into other subjects times and then everything is now in a HUUUUUUUUGE mess!!!!!
I like just wanna give up and just let it pass...they say that people who are perfectionistic would try to get things done but once they find they've had enough, they feel it's better to just ignore it and pretend it never existed.
I just wanna throw everything to one side, sit down somewhere, scream, cry, whatever and just try to loosen up the tension, stress and whatever nonsense that has got me so unhappy...I don't know, I'm like so desperate I'll try anything!!!

I wanna go shop too...
I have never felt so much of a compulsion to be a financial contirbutor of the Singapore sale, but just for once I wanna do something for myself, give something for myself...I mean..yeah...whatever...

why does everything have to be like this??

Wednesday, June 14, 2006

nothing sucks more than being ditched by a ball...

I don't know why I'm feeling so irritable but yeah, I am...
it's just that when I get down...nothing seems to be able to pick me up except for a good nights sleep...that's when I usually put everything behind, and sorta forget about it.

I'm at papa's office now and typing on his rather disgusting laptop...the place you kinda rest your wrist on is like disintegrating or something. which is rather bugging me...i'm like trying not to touch the thing, so it looks like i'm pivoting my whole lower arm on my elbows. when they start to hurt I just kinda give it up for a while.

I studied from like 11 to 3-4 and now I just cannot go on anymore...the mood to study has absolutely disappeared into oblivion, shrivelled up and died. I almost blew my brains out trying to get my OC dvd working...the stupid programme or dvd, whichever one it is, is just screwing up right now. so I sorta settled for 'the incredibles' again...for like the millionth time. I so need something to keep me sane right now...I cannot stand it!!! I just wanna go out and not spend money. I have no idea what to do to relax, cos I have no idea what even relaxes me...did that confuse you?? so yeah...I think i'm quuuite screwed in terms of enjoyment. watching cartoons was a good optionn till I got kinda irked byt the incessant appearances of little and 'not-so-little' kids appearing on tv, assaulting you with screams of 'the holidays are here, so have fun on kids central' or variations of that, just makes you wanna scream at the TV screen and ask them to shut-up cos you have a stupid mid-year to study for. I mean 'why?', why can't they just do it as per normal...you know the usual 'you're watching kidscentral' nobody would notice or sue them for not wishing them a 'happy school holiday'!!!besides no one cares about stuff like that...we just wanna watch the cartoons...don't you?

okay...that's about enough venting for one day...
back the 'the incredibles'...

Tuesday, June 13, 2006

right blogger is screwed up...
kinda...
and what i'm typing out is coming out a split second slower...so I gotta keep stopping to see what I'm typing...
and now the blinkie thingie is gone....
anyway..today was supposed to be a major productive day, cos i was planning to study organic and organic for me get's done pretty fast...buuuuuuuuut I brought the source of evil and all distractions in toe world there...
I brought the CD which my sis's friend burnt for me...the OC...absolutely unresistable...season 1 all the way to 3...I just couldn't stop. I was studying while watching...but as you can tell, it didn't tuen out as productive as I wanted today to be.
If I stayed at home...it would have been better...for some reason I'm so psyched up to work in the morning...but once I plonk myself down to watch TV...I'm gone...so yeah...at least we're lesser of one evil.

besides all this I was thinking about something the whole night before and today.
I was watching desperate housewives last night when this new peugeot ad came up...I like peugeot ads...they're catchy and amusing for the viewer. but this one in particular caught my attention.

it was basically appealing to the female gender for this new car that they have. The ad was just basically how women would change the way things ar. One would be that men would give birth...well that would mean we wouldn't have to have all the stuff like terrible morning sickness, which a rare few have for the whole 9 months of gestation. Others have stretch marks after that, a large amount of weight gain and although some people say a woman glows when she's pregnant, acne breakouts are not uncommon at all. It's a whole pandora box of stuff. With the shimmer of hope being that it is one connection a man or father would never be able to experience.

As for high heels not hurting...I am so going to second that...the price of beauty. I mean they help us women gain some height, they provide the leverage women need in the world. They can do wonders for us women besides height. As for diamonds growing on trees...I'm quite indiffferent to that...I'm not exactly a bitg fan of diamonds, but if you give me some...I'll accept...haha...it's like chocolate for me. I don't necessarily crave it, but if it's there I'll take.

As for tailoring men, haha...at times it just seems a good idea, I mean they just DON'T get it sometimes...but if you really sit and look at us women, we are a damn confusing bunch of people. Like we just need to get to the point some time, I think if we had to live with us for a day, our indirectness would drive ourselves crazy. As for tailoring...I like my man the way he is. I mean sure...the ideal one would be like tall, dark, handsome ( baby just needs to be tall...haha...) there's some plus pluses too...but I was watching the "tailor" draw a six pack on the guy...and I was thinking...it would be kinda weird for baby to have a 6 pack. I have no idea why I'm thinking this, but I think the tummy could be a little smaller, but that's all...I don't really need the 6 pack. I like the way my man looks...haha...come to think of it...the 6 pack thingie idea, feels rather awkward...o_O

rightssssss....I just had to get that out....
apologies if that made the reader feel a little awkward...
ciao!

Saturday, June 03, 2006

today was just total madness...
the whole week was just draining...besides the time spent with baby....
due to the presence of LTC in my calender taking up humongous space in that school diary of mine...I am constantly assaulted by the rather few (EXTREMELY few) blocks left in june...
my mind is just going crazy....it's like...like the freaking white rabbit in Alice in Wonderland, just that it's going 'no time, no time' and mummy's like going 'don't tell me you don't have time to study'....

I have no freaking idea how to sqeeze in all my revision...I'm like just doing papers and papers to get a feel of all the stuff again, so that revision later wouldn't take so long when I get back...the downside being that I'm taking like one day to one paper...when i should be able to do 2 or 3 ...like I'm super screwed up...
and then when the results come out, it's so gonna be like shit and then it's gonna be no phone, no going out, no this no that....AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARGH!!!!
morale is really low at the moment...
apologies to the dear reader on the tiny snippet of what's been going on in my head consciously or subconsciously 24/7 so far

I swear no one i know worries like this, you could say it's good cos it sorta motivates me, but then it's just so over the top that it makes you just wanna scream and cry to ease all the knots and pent-up frustration, which is what happens most of the time compared to the former. There's absolutely no way to make it go away, unless it's been done with. I'm just afraid i'll just reach my peak one day and only god knows what will happen. The worst thing is that when I try to relax and stuff...I just lose the motivation there and then and going back to whatever I was doing just doesn't hold much incentive for me at that moment in time.

can somebody explain this to me?