Today's been a very good day =)

woke up, went to church and headed over to baby's after that...

spent the time there studying a bit and then left at 3 to go to fish city. weeeeeeee....


The guppies there are absolutely exotic...they had such brilliant colours on them. They were like going at $10-$20 a piece...omg. Some of the tanks they had were so so filled with little baby fry...haha...went to take a look at some arowana there too...those amazing looking kings.

Then headed to rainbow to see this humongous planted tank that baby recently saw...it was so amazing. It was like a city...with fish and tonnes of plants. Even the logs placed inside looked like trees...the landscaping was so beautiful.

we then bused to PS to take a look at the new aquarium shop set up there...nothing much...town pricing. Bused down to city hall and had dinner at soup spoon. After that, we walked around a bit...and there was this shop selling novelty kitchen appliances and utensils. It was so fascinating...the ways people re-invent your cups...spoons...plates and stuff. It was so...new...hahaI was like running from one place to another looking at the stuff. Baby calls it making money out of something which is JUST A SPOON...or fork.

After that, we met somebody at the mrt station to get our zebra danio and plants. The zebras are sooo cute, so hyper...weee...then bussed further down to TP to get MORE plants and then came home to put everything in the tank.

In case, some of you didn't know...my tank had a major wipe out. I lost all my fish after intorducing some feeder guppies inside...leaving me with my 2 cute corydoras. I was so heartbroken...watching them just die like that. But I think this time...it'll be good =)

Today was good...thanks to all the people who sent me birthday messages; erika, ethel, nat, yimin and trevin. Birthday wishes from my family, deborah and cass. Most of all baby, hope we spend more birthdays together =)

mid-term break is officially over...time to start studying again...

It's finally Thursday!!!!
I shall be heading off for booth duty to sell tickets at central library later.

Life has been absolutely hectic...rushing to do things...most of my things have been pushed to the later stretch of their deadlines cos I just have too much stuff to do and stuff to clear up for my lectures. Friday is like a breather yet not really one. I don't have to go to school, so it makes it a somewhat less hectic day, but it becomes a day where I catch on stuff that I've not caught up on during the week.

Luckily term break is coming after next week, so we'll see how that break becomes at the end of next week. I also have a stats test to do before mid-term break. I really hope my cap is alright after this year...it seems the cap in mind is a little unrealistic, but yet I don't really even know what to expect for it.

school has been way busy...
I think it's starting to wear me out.
Possibly because I finish at 9pm from Monday to Thursday...although I do have a day off on Friday. But I still don't feel recharged and stuff, like there's an underlying tiredness...some of my friends say I look tired too...haha...

I suppose I'm here again just to sort out my thoughts...more for a personal service...cos I just can't keep it going on in my head. So, if you're here like you usually or somewhat come here to read about what's been happening, perhaps you might wish to proceed with caution. Given that what's going to be written here is more of a personal thing, to sort my issues out, it might seem like a somewhat attention-seeking, looking-for-pity kind of post.

I hate what's happening now, I have NEVER been so indecisive in my life. If I were watching myself I woul have told myself to MAKE A DECISION ALREADY!!! LIKE NOW!!! But somehow there have been too many contributing factors leading to my current very indecisive stage. This may seem familiar but yes, it's yet again between archery and dance.

Like how the hell did I, yes ME, get so damn lucky. I wanted SPS, I got it...so I already finish at 9pm for 2 days out of the 4 days I'm in school. I was hesitant about whether I should try out for the archery committee position but I decided to, I mean at the most I wouldn't get it right? Then I just got it cos somehow I suppose I must have sold myself well as some super duper responsible person...oh so ready for the job. So that's another 2 days out of my 4 day week that I end at 9pm, not forgetting about the saturday morning training. Then, one day it hit me...that archery was the wrong place so I decided to audition for dance ensemble. Supposedly, the hardest dance group to get in on campus, so I heard. I auditioned, I thought I wouldn't get in cos I somewhat screwed it up, and the people there seemed so good. Apparently, I passed auditions so now I'm in this ab-so-lute-ly fucked up position now having to choose between dance and archery.

Given my timetable I should give some allowance and let myself finish earlier than 9pm...4 straight days of ending at 9 pm seem like a death sentence not forgetting the Saturday morning training....but is it better than freeing up the 2 days archery has taken up to end earlier and choose dance which right now, only takes up Saturday afternoon??

you're probably lost now if you decided to read on up till here...unless you get what I'm typing...

my worrying is going to cause me a short life span...

Why am I so bloody indecisive?!?!? Why do I have to have a conscience???? I'm deliberating all because of the archery com position, plus the people there are really nice. Partly also because I'm afraid I wouldn't be able to bond well with dance people, as after 4 years in dance...people there tend to be too cliquish for my liking.

I dunno man...
I DUNNO!!!

Why did I have to do something SO STUPID!!!

I supposed I just need someone to really talk to...I know the decision lies with me in the end, but it's times like this I need someone whom I can talk to to lead me to that decision. It's pretty demanding...but I really feel that's what I need...cos I can't make my way to a decision now.