honesty is overated

Some things should never be said

No matter who they are

No matter what they say

You tell me to act

I suppose I can learn, but it will be hard (I'll try my bestest)

You tell me to keep silent

I suppose I'll try my darndest

Nobody wants to hear how hurt you are, how frustrated you are, how stressed you are or why you disagree.

So just nod and put on a show.

A new year

A new year has rolled around and things at the office have been progressing well in my current experiment. Plus point being the new awesome intern which I possibly have become very biased towards. He is so different from the others I have had, possibly because he's so much like me in quite a number if ways. He just knows what I need and lifts a lot of my burdens allowing to take on the rest of my burdens whilst being so positive about it. He brings a lot of laughter to the lab as well seeing as he gels well with everyone :)  so it is nice.

I'm still battling my demons of self-doubt and constantly worried about my inadequacies. Especially since it's my last year of funding I'm quite pressured into making significant progress to finish up. I'm worried about things on my end and also my honours students. The latter is certainly a big unknown and has me considerably worried. I just dunno when or if I should jump in.

Wisdom, please. How do I become a better person also? I think I am quite a failure at being a nice person at home. I don't know why but I just find myself incapable of doing so. I don't know what triggers this irritability and quick firing in me which often sparks unhappiness.