Thank you to my baby for making this birthday so special to me....just to have you around makes me so happy. You make me feel like the luckiest girl in the world :)...haha...I hope that I would be able to spend the rest of my birthdays with you....muakz!! I love you!!!

Thanks trevin, jeanette, 'manda, nat, sheryl and my mummy for all the birthday wishes...they are all well appreciated, much love to you all.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TREVIN!!!

I'm currently supposed to be on hiatus from all this blogging, but I'm taking a little break for now...hmmmmmmmm....and this relaxing thing is good, my body's been feeling so crammed up...it makes me want to stretch and stretch, maybe it's cause of the studying or something...I will need to motivate myself back to the books after dinner.

If you're not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you're not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all

I never know what the future brings
But I know you are here with me now
We'll make it through

And I hope you are the one I share my life with
I don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

If don't need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don't need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you're not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you're not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?
I don't know why you’re so far away

But I know that this much is true
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray in you're the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

I don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
'Cause I love you, whether it's wrong or right
And though I can't be with you tonight
You know my heart is by your side

I don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

One cup of love
A dash of lust
A dash of mystery
One tablespoon of sweetness
One teaspoon of envy
One teaspoon of bitterness
1/2 cup of companionship

HAPPY SIXTH MONTH ANNIVERSARY TO MY BABY AND ME!
haha...
somehow that sounded a bit awkward to me...
seeing as I've never had anything to do with such a thing my entire lifetime till now.
The sixth months have been eventful...full of ups and downs like any normal relationship and as well as an emotional rollercoaster for the both of us.
One does not have to be compelled to have a boyfriend...I mean he/it (depending on how you view him) should not be a fashion accessory for you, I would not consider that a relationship, maybe more towards the lines of a compromise.
I'm not trying to perpetrate the ideas of the government 'get married, don't just have kids, have more than 3' or to tell you 'get a boyfriend' but I feel all that I have experienced in these six months are something I would not have been able to experience with my friends or family. It may seem the same, but as aways there's that element of uniqueness.
Through this time, you begin to realise that there isn't just one person anymore...there's 2 of you....so whatever strong desires of independence you have, much of that has to be left behind. Sure there are elements of independence, I mean you can't be together all the time, both parties must have be able to function alone to a certain extent, but now that there's 2 people now, there has to be an element of 'the other above self'. One thing that I'm constantly reminded of by my baby would be to take care of myself. At first i had thought that it didn't matter much, but then if you think again, it's not as simple as that. IF I were to fall ill, he would be affected too, worried and although its cliche, he would have to take care of me and if he were to fall ill, there would be no one to take care of either one of us. If I were feeling upset or one of us was, then both of us would be feel, in a way, inadequate, because no one likes to see anyone unhappy or sad and worst still, in my case, you just don't want to tell what's wrong, the other would just feel frustrated. There is a sort of realisation that whatever you do, you are accountable to your other.
2 people from 2 different backgrounds, would have different idealogies and ways of doing things. There are times when we should just accept the other parties way of doing things and there are times which we should just speak up and correct them and yet one should not become too critical of the other. open-mindedness comes into play as well. I have learned that we should not be closed to each other's suggestions, be it our attitude, academics or when just having fun and yet we should not be trying to turn the other party into an exact copy of yourself, just because you find the way they do things strange. At the same time we should maintain that sense of uniqueness from each other, so that both may have some sense of superiority from the other, and add some sense of balance to the relationship, opposites attract for the basic reason of making up for what the other party lacks.
Finding time to spend together is not easy to come by, being students our main job would be to study and get good grades and the curriculum in his case is rather heavy, so I think through the six months, time has been rather precious to both of us. Even little things like taking a bus home together, although it is rather short, we still do it and I think it helps in a way. I think I've learnt to treasure him more and as well as the time we have together.
There are a good deal of good stuff, but of course there's the disagreements. One being our schools, his being rather secular and mine religious-based...I get quite defensive about it cos different schools have different ways of doing things so and he and I are proud of where we come from, our heritage, both trying to outdo each other...but I've learnt to just let it go. I for one don't think it's very fair, I mean our schools have different ideals, and the way things are done is not exactly the same so, whenever he says something, I just dismiss it or try to refrain from commenting.
For me the issue on jealousy crops up here and thereonce in a while, maybe jealousy is too strong, envy perhaps? It's quite a change for me, other than my sec 3 & 4 class, I have not come across someone so close to me who is that smart. I'm pretty competitive, so yeah, it get's a bit demoralising as it progresses, but to turn it into motivation would be the best...haha...( baby are you reading this???). At the same time I'm so proud of him, somehow I feel a good sense of pride when people say I'm so lucky to have him....people tell me how smart he is, how he's so sweet to me and all that stuff...haha... I love my baby so much!

I got to make this quick...everwood's in 10 mins..
haha...
anyway hols are gonna be officially over in like 9 hours..
today's been good...I've just finished my written report which is due tomorrow...
mwahahaah...in the words of my baby "Ai am a genius..." haha...I fund my 300 words and not only that an extra 200 too
mwahaha...I love myself...haha
church was too long...talk about 2 hours...I wasn't paying attention to the sermon today...I just got restless...and the guy who led worship...I didn't like him...I mean he sounded lke miter wee..."tank you lod fur eberyting" "you are eberything" it was like that for half an hour...it was, let's just say i just wanted to laugh...haha...mummy didn't like him too I think. She kept furrowing her eyebrows and staring at him wih the look that sai "please stop"
haha...
lunch was at church, they had some buffet thingie for the 11th anniversary, it was good, I had my fill, but I didnt' have the cake...oh well just means less cream and fat for me...not so bad...
home I went, bathed, chat with my babay, did my pw and now I'm here. Going to watch everwood now...I shall start on Binomial. It's really hot today...
Ciao, dear reader.

holiday's have started...
there's the constant need and compulsion to study...
and there's the constant feeling of procrastination and sloth...
oh well...the past few days were wondefullt spent with my baby.
I screwed up the chinese paper...at least the zuo wen part mostly, needless to say it was horribly out of point seeing as I mistakenly interptretted a word. it's been getting like that quite often, I I seriously hope that it DOES NOY happen during the 'A's.
Been studying with my baby for the past 2 days, today was much more productive than the last....too many distractions that day, not that today didn't have it's fair share, what with all the cartoons and shows on TV plus my baby watching his soccer highlights and playing NBA on his PS2. but I think today was so much more productive. Baby's been making lunch too haha, just simple stuff, yesterday we had porridge with steam egg, while today I ate beehoon with some salmon and fish cake while baby had the leftovers of the porridge with the salmon and fish cake...haha....the salmon was absolutely lovely...dum di dum...haha..
I hope that you dear reader have also had a lovely day...