Save me from this place
Heaven knows i'm falling
For you my sweet embrace
Heaven knows
Heaven knows I've been waiting

I realise that I haven't blogged for like more than 2 weeks...
been ab-so-lute-ly busybusybusy...
my phone's alarm clock rang at 6 and I woke up...shut it off and then said to myself..."what the *beep* why the hell did I set it at 6...it's freakin' sunday" and with my sleepy eyes I landed back onto the bed. suddenly I sat up and realised it's monday...omg...I was so damn tired...had bf...did all the usual stuff and then to school iw ent for NE and GP.
I swear i told so many of the dancers the story above...haha...they were all pretty dead...I think the first person I told was andrea and then I saw luke in the canteen and told him...haha...saw lisa in the morning and then sean and baby came to join us...
NE was like shit...I was just reading and not comprehending...what's that called? that's like brain dead...haha..anyway I shaded stuff and then onto the canteen to bum around and wait for GP. GP was a so screwed...I dunno what happened...maybe becuse I was tired or smthg but I was half dead at summary and I was dead at AQ....I just made some crap up which DID NOT even make sense to me AT ALL!!!!

Anyway...sunday and saturday was danceworks...haha...went down on saturday to support mel's group - incandescence. dum di dum....they got FIRST!!! just for the dance sugment but whatever muahaha...CJC dance rocks man....haha...sunday was us....and we won first of for the sandwich board....whoo!!!! I mean it was pretty DUH!!! none of the other sandwich boards could compare...haha...we didn't get into the finals but incandescence did...so people GO SUPPORT them on 1st April. Feels quite sucky to be beaten by a buinch of kids...but hey they were damn good...you should really see them, it 's the kind of thing you have to see for yourself and I guess at least we were beaten by a worthy opponent. after all the crying and stuff...went to wash up and then we hung around the shopping centre just talking and talking. We'd like talk and refuse to move and linger around...like we did oputside the toilet...it's just damn funny...haha. Finally decided to go pizza hut and have dinner...mrs koh's treat..haha and we drove her absolutely crazy the way we ordered food. It was a damn fun evening...constantly suaning each other and getting little doses of gossip from people, we were so loud the staff had to ask us to tone down a little haha...after that went home while the rest went on to venezia for more food.

got home bathed, packed my bag...ironed...did the sheets and I just headed to bed.

It's Friday, im feeling that I wanna party
So call up my friends and come on everybody
Gonna make it tight
Gonna make it alright

finally back home...
cooked, bathed and smelling oh so nice...
maths lect... I swear I dislike vectors, I could never get the hang of it in JC...it's like you know what's going on, but somehow you just don't know how to go about to doing it. It's ab-so-lute-ly frustrating you know!!!
anyway we had break at like 9am...the one and only break today, THIS is the one break I so disagree the time with...I mean omg!!! 9am?!?!? and you expect a frikkin' bowl of noodles to keep me full till then...I mean seriously maybe students in CJC are late for lectures due to the poorly timed breaks...so their just dying form hunger coming from the J-block...roight...I'm exaggerating.
GP was fun, as it always is...I was rather displeased to have it end. Then it was math...I like diferential equations...it's just so mechanical...but then again, mechanical, is what makes Singapore students so inflexible towards certain things.Then there was the issue on the stupid toto draw today...I didn't even know about it, apparently it's like 10million+++, so all the guys were just basically going on and on about how they'll not come to school if they win the money and all sorts of other stuff they wanna do....and it carried on into like chem pract...sigh...
chem lect... I stupidly stashed my carbonyl compounds with my whole organic chem pile at home and thought we were doing hydroxy...when we finished hydroxy before starting carbonyl!!!! stupid, stupid...
chem pract...the second hour was terrible..I mean...I hate copying stuff...ARGH!!! I was like late for dance by a half-hour...
DANCE....YESYES!!! MORE MORE...GIVE MORE!!! I need to remember that!!!

"It's better to die dancing, than to be roadkill"

It's not always easy and sometimes life can be deceiving
I'll tell you one thing
It's always better when we're together

it's THURSDAY...
so close yet so far...
I seruously want the weekened to come...
my body just feels so tired...
I just realised that CT is not far away which means I like should be getting down to studying like SOON!!!
The week's been quite okay just that I've been feeling really tired, so it just feels like I've been a little spun outta orbit but I'm still holding quite well so I think I'm quite amazing. Tests haven't been good so far...as usual...the usual stuff like happens and then I'm like a super goner during the test so, it usually doesn't come out good. I swear it's like crazy...there's at lest 2 tests a week...be it some shitty FA or CA...stupid crappy school system. Dance is stressful...not in a drive you crazy way but like...something that weighs in the back of your mind and you constantly have this notion that you NEED to do something about it. Actually that's kinda worse than if it were to drive you crazy. so yeah, need to learn eights fast...really fast!!!!
go gen, go gen...
more power, more strength, more energy...
AAAAAH!!!!!

Got my eyes on you
And I like what I see

so begins february...
oh well...
the past few days of school...was just so tiring...kept sleeping here and there in between and as well as during lessons. Just couldn't get enough sleep. Had 2 sessions of dance for danceworks which is like at the end of this month, my body is super tired now esp. my back...all the body waves and stuff.
Past 2 days have been chingay...went to to ushering to get com service hours...it was like the first time I ACTUALLY watched a chingay performance. First time I actually felt happy when I made someone smile...never used to be like that when I did CIP...maybe its because CIP mostly involved the old folks which I had absolutely no way of communicating in dialect with. There was this guy during the pre-show segment singing all the michael buble songs...omg...he was ab-so-lute-ly wonderful...he sounded so much like michael buble and he sang all the songs I like...haha. Chingay was actually good, with all the floats and lights and performances by all the different countries. Most were enjoyable...although the bosch float was extremely out of place...I mean what's with all the provocative dance moves....like everything was so cultural and ethnic and then this THING comes along with four women dancing like bartop dancers on a blue float. I found it super weird....like it didn't belong. Met baby later and then went to see the street party but I didn't wanna stay so he sent me home.
The house is quieter and less crowded...my relatives have all gone back to m'sia....I kinda like it this way, don't mean it in a bad way, I just don't like too many people in one place...I get quite irritable and exasperated and stuff....tomorrow there's school...gotta sleep early...-_-...

Can you tell, in my eyes
the happiness when you are in my heart
the joy you bring
makes me wanna sing
I love you and you mean the world to me

roight....
cny...I got more money than last year...haha

cny day 1:
okay...spent the day at my aunts house...my mum's side that is. Can't really remember what we did...mostly just getting hongbao and then lazing around watching TV. Not much hongbao from this side...seeing as my mum's side isn't much for size, then ate brunch and then we set off towards my paternal grandma's house in sepang.

It was a damn long ride...longer than I expected...I thought something like an hour or so...oh well...there was a tinsy-winsy jam. eventually we got there after driving around endless countrysides...or rather rural, yet not so much to that extent. Just lots and lots of wild grass and occasionally in the midst of all the grass, a house. anyway we reached the town and then went towards my tuai ma's house to see the EXTEEEEEEEEENNNNNNNNDED part of my dad's family.

It was rather empty at first, but people started arriving slowly. Saw quite a number of familiar faces and remembered a few names here and there...exchanged greetings, got hongbao and then we headed to a restaurant to eat lunch. omg...lunch was like eating a cow for me...which is ab-so-lute-ly impossible. There was like herbal chicken, emperor duck, fish, dessert and like 5 or 4 more dishes and I was absolutely full. Then went back to tuai ma's house again and then hung around with...talked to some more people, watched people...and yeah it was quite like that. Daddy was like gambling playing black jack...haha.

The highlight of the day I suppose was when my auntie wendy came down with her new husband(I didn't even know she was married, let alone engaged), brian, in their new silver lotus which they acquired like 2 days ago. It was like, I dunno...um wah... but not WOW!!! you know, maybe I'm biased and only have eyes for a porsche, but seriously I just thought it looked good...something that would make heads turn, but to me not something I would wanna have. Anway, people just started touching, sitting inside it...blah blah...personally...if that were my car I would be crying...all the fingerprints and yeah you know...I wouldn't even bring it down.
Daddy carried on with black jack and then we 4 ladies went back to my grandma's house to just cool off...I mean it was just damn hot and stuff. napped and then went back at around seven.
dinner...was just different from previous years to me...not so rah rah...but anyway it happened, hung around a bit more after dinner until 10+ then went back to grandma's house, bathed and then to sleep.

many many mosquitoes.

cny day 2:
woke up...went down to tuai ma's place again...
had breakfast there...super heavy one at that...tuai ma just kept telling them to cook and cook...basically they were just reheating yesterday's stuff...so it was like dinner instead of breakfast. Somehow tuai ma was not convinced and just asked for more to be cooked.
quickly left the table and then sat around and talked to suntie winnie for a while and then set off to my paternal uncle's house to see their pink dragonfruit plantation. walked around there...looksie looksie and met their dog. She was sooooooooo damn cute...haha...she was so happy...running here and there, haphazardly....wagging the tail...haha...omg...everything about her was soooooooo cute..I wanna dog.
we left to meet my aunts and cousins for dinner and the new hong kong restaurant...it was a good dinner haha...I always like chinese food. The headed back home, bathed, talked to baby and then went to sleep.

and that wraps cny...I'm too tired to type anymore...so ciao!!!
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!