it's saturday...
and I'm at home...
baby's training as usual...
as predicted, mummy's not gonna allow me to go out and study...this is getting harder than I thought...there's no way I'm going to tell her...it's just too unfair for my baby.
as in...I forsee that if anything were to happen to me...like in this case the incorrigible state of my grades or whatnot...he'd just get the blame for it all. That's just not the way I want things to be...
yesterday was just a long day...although it was until 3, not my longest or shortest day, but it just felt terribly looooooong. especially during prac when we just stayed in class....it just seemed so draggy and boring...haha.
rushed down to meet my baby...but he left for training already, so back upstairs I went to the studio and there we just learnt the whole national day dance, did it a few times and then left.
headed to papa's office and baby surprised me there...haha...he's getting better at it, surprising me I mean...he didn't do too well the last time, cos I had a feeling something was going to happen, so the effect wasn't as good...haha...I was happy of course. Don't get to see him much with his long hours of class and trainings for competition.

I really appreciate it baby...

she will be loved

like this is my 253rd post...
the stupid counter was just all crappe up...
anyway, nothing important. Been getting back all my papers...needless to say there was a great amount of disappointment and irony in it too...there's nothing else to be said about it...I mean, maybe I thought wrong and that actually, I know nothing since January. I screwed myself mostly...I mean the chinese compo was just plain stupidity, luckily I did well for the other parts and I for one, although it was underhandedand bitchy and distasteful of me to say this, but i thank my chinese teacher for helping me pull up my grade. I have NO idea or plan as to what I'm gonna do...I'm stilll in shock off all of this. GP was a real pick-me-up...I thought it was a rather good job on my part, hopefully I'll be able to keep that in time to come.
It's been a rough week...mummy's not happy...I may be under house arreest for the next few months until promos....i really don't know what to do. As it is I only see my baby during 2 breaks, which is like 1 hour, plus 2 physics lects...another 2 hours and other than that it's just the bus rides home on mon, tues and thurs. We don't get to spend time alone together and just sit in silence together, just enjoying each othere's...I like that. I guess I need someone to kinda give me emotional support and help me with my work and if you take that away from me...I feel handicapped.
The day was just tiring...had SDP in the morning, racial harmony... then PE the National Day dance thingie, it can be improved too slow for me, but that's me...break without my babyand then physics...haha...mr wee didn't show, as to why I have no idea, but it was a good relaxing 1 hour...then math lect, I was about to fall asleep in this one, just too tired...chem lect, this one I actually dozed off, I woke up a little clueless, so I need to review...GP was alright, got my mids back as I said above and then finished the 'maria full of grace' film and then went for another break...had a tendency to munch, didn't bring my wallet down though, so i was like pinching from people...haha. Math, it was alroight too...just did differentiation, the marist guys were just playing a number game with miss ang. Went off to the benches at the quadrangle and did a little work there. lisa and sean came later...then my baby...original plan was to go play bball but then it looked like it was going to rain, so decided to head home instead. Baby dropped off to take 67 while I continued to talk to sheryl...haha, long time no talk man, I miss you...got home. talked to baby for a while, then went to bath and now i am stting here munching on oreos stuffed with chcolate cream and peanut butter...if you ask me, it's a funky concoction. Yeah...and now I got teeth stained with oreo crumbs, and I don't even like oreos...that's how desperate I am to munch.
will have to do the stupid EoM soon, 1st draft due tomorrow...PW is like taking over my freaking life...it's a damn heavy load...and you're supposed to do all the heavy stuff this year so next year there'll be less to do...BS, they just pile on more things, making equivalent to this year...oh well.

I never knew I could miss someone so much
I never knew anyone could mean so much to me
I never knew I could feel so much for someone
I never knew I'd meet you in this life
I love you baby

TGIF....
omg...it's finally here...
I just wanna sleep and sleep and sleep...
but I can't...stupid bodyclock...
anyway somehow morning assemblies have become so bloody long...what with all the prize
presentations, countless announcements and whatnot...it just get's damn annoying just standing there and looking at someone above eyelevel.
anyway...had a small shot of chem and then break...went down for break...somehow I feel hungry easily recently. went back up for chinese...for some reason it's very slack...there seems to be no sense of urgency or seriousness in the lesson just sit and do an exercise for a whole lesson...it just feels so weird. the laoshi just gave us a webbie and we just went there doing crosswords on chengyu.
then was physics lect =) finally got to spend time with my baby after not having spent anytime together at all besides the smsing and the little morning meetings...I miss him so much. he walked me up to gp lect and then met sean there and we talked a while before going in to watch a film...maria full of grace...our little theme on crime and punishment. then had another break...I swear...in JC $5 runs out damn fast I'm like almost through $5 already...I dunno what to do.
Had one hour of math...functions...I almost fell asleep in that...the weather just sucks...hot, humid and the fans just blow warm air at you and you just feel so much better...after that stayed in class for pract...miss koh went through equilibria tuitorial...dum di dum...nothing much to elaborate...onthat.
baby came with sean to pick me up and he walked me out and I caught 151 to papa's office. walked in all alone...and then took a little power nap, read the papers and did some functions. stopped doing functions cause I just got tired of all of the graphs and trying to figure out what they look like.
ate some biscuits...daddy came back feeling a little frustrated...and then he left. baby smsed me at 6 to say he had finished...so I called him and we talked a while then he said he had to go...so I said okay. somehow I had a funny gut feeling that he was going to do something...he didn't call back after a while...I got a little more suspicious...was standing at the door of my papa's office and then a thought suddenly came to me that maybe he was making his way to my papa's office to see me. nothing happened for a while so I dismissed the thought and when I walked to the door again...I saw my baby coming. haha...so I was right, or at least my gut feeling was right. My poor baby walked all the way in to see me after training...all sweating even though he had a bath...haha...but I thought it was sweet...haha...he said that since I didn't see him so much because he was training for canoing nationals, he'd come see me since he ended a little earlier. =) I feel happy....haha...i didn't think that he was actually going to do something
like that, thought he'd just go home and call me and stuff...but anyway...I feel so happy. my baby is so sweet...haha...I feel so lucky, so fortunate...

i never knew I could miss someone so much

'the heart has reasons that reason cannot know'
-blaise pascal

it's all over...
like finally...
just eating dinner and typing away...
soon to be talking on the phone and typing...just wanna hear my baby's voice...
miss him so much...
well. woke up...headed to school and did some last minute mugging...
then the paper....
I was jumping and jumping ALL OVER the place...like....every question after the first page, I was only doing half of every question. I was panicking, freaking out and all that stuff...I just couldn't wait for 11 so I can throw the freaking answers back at the teachers. I just left damn quickly...didn't feel like seeing anyone or talking to anyone...my baby caught up with me and then we went for lunch. then he disappeared because of temasek sem...talked to frankie...then'manda and then went for the dumb NE quiz.
after that waited for 'manda's mummy to bring my sleeping bag...then went to baby's home watched desperate housewives and AI....although we got a little bored. I dunno, it's not that it's not a good show, it's just that it moves very slowly...but I think the content is not bad. anyway... after that went to spend sopme quality time together...haha...
went home on 67 and then bathed, dungeon keeper and I burnt fish being too absorbed in the game and it almost happened to the veggies...I think I'm going to be questioned about the switch of plates and the lack of sauce on the fish. oh well, that's what happens when the game is running out of money, and you are in urgent need of some for the game to run. oh well

sunday sunday sunday.....
and tomorrow's a holiday...
they call it youth day, so then you wonder is it only THAT day that people actually feel youthful? who decided that tomorrow would be yuth day? who agreed that tomorrow should be youth day? I mean did the person wake up and then suddenly felt oh so youthful or somthing or did a WHOLE country suddenly wake up and feel youthful and so thought they'd feel exactly the same way cenuries from now? anyway....wth...it's a holiday, food enough for me...why question so much.
yesterday was such a good day...if only all days were like it..haha. got up and then did had bf....did some stuff around the house and then changed to leave to go meet my baby boy on 77., which I missed....baby boy had to walk back down...I was pissed at myself. I mean he already got a biyt frustrated when I didn't understand his msgs and I missed the bus...so he was a little peeved....but it passed. got on the next 77 and to marina we went. walked to the esplanade library and then got to studying. I like that library...it's like heaven....music scores...cds to listen to...all the stuff about dance....omg...it's paradise...not forgetting tthe lovely view, haha...baby was watching the dragonboat race.
later went down to meet sean and lisa to have lunch...went to this restaurant called fin...never really heard of it till now, apparently had some good offer for the main course meals. Also got 2 glasses of soda water....thought it was like perrier, all that sparkling water...turns out, it's just carbonated water and some syrup added in. baby and I had passionfruit...sean and lisa had peach...i think. it was good...had the seafood bucatinni, but the pasta was too little, but I like the mussels, they were good. haha...went back to the library to study again. baby got me the 3 lord of the rings cds...haha...I asked him earlier, but then I couldn't find it...and then I thought he forgot about it, but then he actually disappeared for awhile and went to find it...haha...I love my baby.
continued studying....plus the view. saw a couple of the commandoes parachuting and all the ndp preparations...left to go to the rooftop terrace...did some talking, it was fun...haha...walked sean and lisa to get home. then ben and I went walking into adidas and nike and then we realised that there weren't any buses...cos the roads were closed, so we walked to city hall....A LONG walk...but we saw a couple of the army vehicles...tanks and stuff...damn cool. got to the bus stop...baby went off in a 700A and then I took 77 and home I went...bath...dinner...and then I crashed.
woke up....had fruit and nut loaf for bf...the gardenia one if you are wondering. Got dressed and then to church....came home had dumpling for lunch. Played dungeon keeper until mummy came back and then started on math trigo approx and then math and more math...then went to fold clothes. went to nap...or tried to...then guin came home to wake me up to go out to weed the garden. man my feet hurt...ironed clothes...went to bath...had dinner. remembered that i still have MI to do...oh well...dum di dum...and now i am here.

I miss my baby...

well...almost all the papers are done.....
long weekend in between, so I decided to come blog...
so far....actually looking back on everything...everything was pretty okay, with the exception of physics. although for chem spa and the paper, and the physics spa...I could have done a lot better.
It'e been helluva stressful week and a terrible, one more paper to go...I just NEED to make it good. I know I can do it....
I can always do math...it's the one thing besides can that I am confident I ACTUALLY know how to do. I love math...I love chem....I just need to embrace physics...NEED being the word.
Anyway...after physics bussed to CCK with my baby boy and then watched 'lost' together, after that watched my baby boy play tiberian sun....okay...so I was the bored girlfriend, not really...at least I play the game....I guess bored would mean 'not-getting-attention' bored, after that spent some time together. started not to feel well....had a slight headache which seemed to escalate....reaulting in my bad mood and frustrating him. I just wasn't responding and i guess he felt helpless as he just wanted to do something to help me but I myslef didn't know what he could do.
Finally decided to go to bukit panjang plaza to study...got to macs and baby bought a meal to share...started on math there. I dunno, somehow macs seems to have had interesting sights recently....the last one being the girl in my last post. this time however it was two girls, sitting across the room....together...doing their work...sitting the most wrong way, and from where they were sitting...they gave the world a view they should have only kept for themselves to see. would you want me to elaborate...I guess you would be smart and would be able to infer for yourselves. Then there was the case of the plump lady and her mean friend (at least I think she's a friend of the plum lady, after all they were talking in a rather cordial fashion), the plump lady apparently had a pair of ripped pants...and after chatting to each other and they turned around (the plump lady at the front) and I distinctly saw her eyes travel to the area where the hole was, and somehow her eyes just darted away from that. She (meaning the friend) ahd another chance to tell her abou the hole but she just waved and said bye-bye to the plump lady.
oh well... left to go to the pet store...the dward hamsters ssoooooooooooooooooo cute...haha...the mice too...soooooooo small...sooooooooooooo cute...you'll probably never ever hear me or have never heard me say a so with that many 'o's but thery were so cute...all sleeping and stuff. took 970 home...read papers...bathed...dungeon keeper, I have finally conquered the realm, mwahahahah....anyway...dinner and now I'm here.

right....
so school starts today...and so do the mids...but gen shall re-cap something she was egging to do yesterday, BUT somehow forgot.

sunday
the usual morning routines, went to church and then headed to kap with my baby sis to meet my baby to study. so studied chinese...did the TYS there, although I have yet to see the effectiveness of that...since I don't have the answers to that. studied there...got a bit agitated here and there....couldn't settle down...restless. baby boy and I decided head down to cold storage to get a small tub of ice-cream to um...lets say...settle down.
apparently, after having picked up the tub of ice-cream andwalked around a bit to look at the oh so sinful things on the shelves...we realised we had a dilemma, we had no spoon to eat the ice-cream. we thought of getting them from macs....but then, it's not very good for tub ice-cream...breakable. so we thought let's just buy a small packet of spoons good enough for tub ice-cream. however they came in 20s and so on....hence we abandoned our search and back to macs we went to buy the sundae.
There was however a rather "pleasant" sight I will remember for sometime and I would say...she would be such a bad image for the female gender. she walked...no...more like half-hopping and swinging her little pouch...you know like those little girls, just lacking in the cute area... in her tight pink shirt and denim cheerleader-like skirt....from then she was already frightful. she came in with a few guys dressed in black. they sat down and she at down. omg...and I thought she couldn't be anymore horrifying. she was slouched so bad....I slouch, but at least I still look presentable. she just looked like a mess of the hunchback of notre dame in a young girls skin. She sat like her spine was working OT and when she sat down it was a like break for it in a million years, her chin was almost touching the freakin' table....exaggerating a little but...the vision was there. To think that since she was wearing such a bimbo skirt, which was also short...she'd sit with her legs together. NO she sat with one leg in Russia and the other in Canada. she sat like how those street punks...with her legs all over the place except together. it was just so UNGLAM....omg...and it was so painful for my eyes when she stood up once more to go downstairs to order. baby boy was so annoyed or maybe traumatised how a GIRL could sit like that....it's just so UNGLAM...unfortunately she just happened to be sitting in our line of sight. thankfully she would leave before us.

today
woke up at 7...morning formalities and then daddy sent me to the sixth ave centre bus stop and I bussed to CCK on 67...spent the morning with my baby and did a bit of chem.
left his house at 11 and had lunch in school and then the chem paper. mcq was pleasant...and then a question surprised me....ruffled my feathers a little. I ignored it...finished the paper, quite proud of the stuff I knew how to do...except for those which I recently found out were wrong. As for those I didn't know how to do...I almost cried there and then....I mean I studied...I did...why is it I can't do it. oh well...that passed, took the bus with my baby and dropped off at gourmet...bought a honey glazed chicked steak and shared. got home and then baby boy stayed for a while...and then I walked him to the bus stop for his parents to pick him up.
walked back...dropped into 7-11 for a while and then came home playted more dungeon keeper, bathed, cooked dinner, ate dinner and now I'm here. I so cannot get addicted to dungeon keeper...I SO CANNOT!!! I need to go on hiatus...like now.

very hungry at the mo...but, yeah...baby wanted me to do this so yeah....it's quite interesting actually

To make a woman happy A MAN needs to be

a friend (yeah....we were friends...)

a companion (check. I enjoy his company VERY much you can say...)

a chef (check. he can cook, quite well...haha...he's quite creative in the kitchen...)

an electrician (hmmm....maybe...though maybe not with the wiring of the house, maybe with the computer, that I know he's good at)

a carpenter (not too sure about that....um...he never took DNT, does that count??? )

a plumber (eh....never really seen him around pipes, don't really look like a pipe person...haha)

a mechanic (well...he doesn't have a car...I'll have to ask him.)

a decorator (maybe not...he seems to like the way things are...)

a psychologist (check. he knows when somthing's not right...just a matter of whether I wanna say it)

a pest exterminator (I hope....then he can kill the cockroaches I'm icky about killing)

a psychiatrist (check. he gives me help whenever I've got problems....physicallyt and mentally)

a healer (check. he constantly wants me to drink lots of water. Makes sure I take meds if I'm sick, panadol, paracetemol, all that stuff. Wants me to rest if I'm tired....haha...my baby cares a lot)

a good listener (check. very patient, yes....he always wants to listen when I want to say stuff...although he does get a little frustrated when I don't get his point...)

an organiser (maybe not in certain areas....his room's very, okay maybe not very, but it's untidy....but he does have some element of foresight)

a good father (not very sure. but he wants kids....haha...)

very clean (check. small check....he does tend to be able to live with some amount of dirt)

sympathetic (check. yeah, he get's worried when I get down)

athletic (check. definite check. nice broad shoulders....nice to lie on...haven't seem him row though, wouldn't mind...haha)

warm (check. he is very warm to me)

attentive (check. very attentive...haha)

gallant(check. in some ways....as much as he can be)

intelligent (check. one million checks....it's almost scary....he can play and play, sleep in class, and it's like he still scores...it's almost unreal. it's intimidating...but I guess I can be proud of that, he being intelligent...)

funny (check. he makes me laugh....lame jokes and all...right baby?)

creative (he can be original....especially when it comes cooking lunch, in terms of what's going to go in it)

tender (yes, of course.)

strong (check. yes..he can carry me, i can lie on him....haha)

understanding (check. he tries...although when it somes to a certain way I do things...he just doesn't get why i do it that way)

tolerant (yes...very, all my whining, complaining, requests...sorry baby)

prudent (check. doesn't spend unnecessarily, although he's dying or rather he wants to buy me stuff)

ambitious (check. but not unscrupulous..we can both be a bit power hungry, not in the negative sense though)

capable (check. definite check.)

courageous (um...hmmm...maybe, not too sure though)

dependable (check. although sometimes stuff does slip his mind)

passionate (check. passionate, yes. if he loves to do it...obviously)

Not only that, he also has to give her compliments regularly, love shopping, be honest, be very rich and not look at other girls.
(check, eh...maybe not??? check, not, check.) baby compliments me a million times everyday...not complaining. not sure whether he does, although he says he doesn't mind following me around. he is...sometimes takes a bit of probing. not rich but, that's not important. he doesn't look at other girls in that way...but I do point out girls with nice looking bods to him...he just shrugs.

Of course, he is expected to give her lots of attention, but expect little himself, give her lots of time, especially time for herself and give her lots of space, never worrying about where she goes. (check all.) i love my baby...do you baby? I hope...haha...

wow...
now the post area has those font changing and colour changing stuff...like suddenly...
anyway...omg..it's the last week of hols...
so fast...cannot...I'm so enjoying this...
and next week mids are starting...
you see here's the thing...I think I KNOW stuff...but then I'm not actually 100% sure that I actually KNOW it. Cos when someone actually throws me and ACTUAL question (what exactly would qualify as not a question???) I have NO idea how to answer it...and I have very bad feeling in my gut...worried, worries...
somehow seems like the only thing I SEEM...keyword being seem, to be able to do is chem...and right now, I'm not too confident about it. I mean come on...it's a 3 HOUR paper!!! they can ask...what...ANYTHING in 3 hours...it's time to kill...and there's essay questions 10 marks each...howhowhowhow...
anyway...past few days have been good, spending A LOT of time with my baby, studying too.....but somehow it seems like I didn't do enough studying.

yesterday...went to see miss koh in the morning with my baby on chem...and, everything was pretty much solved...met francesca...haha, was nice seeing her, I miss her. lunch was yong tau fu and then on a bus to dover and then the mrt to boon lay. got to jurong point and did a beeeeeeet of shopping, all that was bought was this 37 degrees halter, yes I finally got a halter and I am happy. went back to CCK and then watched avengers on tape....actually my baby ended up watching most of it, since I fell asleep.
went home at 6.35 and then took LRT to bukit panjang to get 970. I hate that bus...I was there for like what 20 mins before the next one came at 7.10, it always makes me wait damn long...I don't understand why...I mean HELLO, it's not as if nobody takes the 970....it always pisses me off. got home at 7.32, mummy was home already, bathed, cooked dinner and then talked to my baby for a while before going to watch CSI.

supposed to go running this morning, somehow I felt too tired this morning...called my baby at 7.30 and then went back to sleep. woke up at 10, ate bf, watched jackie chan and X-men evo. Ironed mummy's clothes, folded the clothes, and hung up the washing....now I'm reading chem bonding while my baby is having training at maCritche....need to go bath...

And I don't want to fall to pieces
I just want to sit and stare at you
I don't want to talk about it
And I don't want a conversation
I just want to cry in front of you
I don't want to talk about it
'Cause I'm in love with you

gen needs to remember NOT to click anything when she's offline...
cos if she does then stuff like the half-hour-worth post just now goes bye bye...
wtf...
at papa's office now...hence papa's computer. I swear it's retarded, crappified. things on webpages DISAPPEAR, links don't work or it just gives you rubbish. like the blogger index page...there's the fields for you to fill in you username and password, but you see that's useless since there isn't a 'sign-in' button...yeah, so gotta go to the invalid pwd/acct page to get the 'sign-in' button. then CJC where I wanted to access COLAC...tried to get into my account, and then they said I had an invalid password, so I got the shock of my life, thinking that I was in shit that I'd forgotten my password. called my baby sis to log in for me and turns out that nothing's wrong with my password, just the stupid computer. on hotmail I can't open or delete mail, cos the pages just don't load and I can't read blogs with frames cos , they just don't load either. just thought I'd vent it...apologies, not onto today.
wednesday....
almost mid-week...
woke up at 7.40...raining, wonderful weather to sleep in...supposed to go running but, had to go study with my baby, so had to forgo that. left at 8...walked to get on 67 and bused to CCK. did some physics the online self-test, a bit of chem with some breaks in-between. more like before we started work and after, where my baby was playing gunbound during the latter. rushed out at 1.30 and took 67. dropped off outside turf city and walked to papa's office, baby went on to kalland for training. started off doing chem again, then realised that I didn't bring my ideal gas notes, so I stopped...moved onto AP, GP...I'm actually quite okay at it...just that I need to be able to be able to apply for the harder questions.
now I'm just bored outta my mind...baby's going to go for tuition after training...poor thing's going to be so tired...haix. gonna go home and continue studying, to make myself feel better. just worried...I THINK I know stuff....but as to whether I DO know stuff, that's another issue all together.I hope everything turns out well...I just think I expect too much...but then again, I feel that it's very much realistic and achievable.
going to head home soon...40mins more....just wanna bath and start work....and be comfortable. cos I'm freezing here...hands feet and all.hmmm...I should cut my nails, it seriously gets in the way when I'm typing, very uncomfortable...
now I must remember to connect before I press ANYTHING that could make ALL this disappear....

all back from camp...
and needing to start working...
I feel guilty and gen is damn worried...esp. for physics...
it's worrying...A LOT, I don't know how to do so much stuff *pulls hair*
I'm not on good terms with physics...
I was probably some physicst in my past life, and I hated my life, so I probably (and stupidly) swore that I will have nothing whatsoever to do with physics for my next life. At present(the next life...) I just want to, HAVE TO do physics.
*cry*
anyway...had camp the last few days...3 to be exact...I think it turned out fantastic, there's always room for improvement...all the hardwork was well worth it(with the exception that they were all boys...)
emceeing was done with poise and perry and ethel were just so compatible up there.
item was well prepare, with the exception of the low no of mics supplied, other than that...it was a thumbs up.
backdrop...although there were problems, it pulled through and it was just gorgeous with all the glitter.
firepit...it didn't go as expected but hey, its a campfire, as long as it's lighted, you can't go wrong, mishaps happen...it isnh't what we can control, we can only prepare.
if any of you guides are reading this, the effort paid off did it not, so give yourselves a clap for the work and sweat you put into it...ESPECIALLY to the PLC, you really put your heart and soul into this one.
props to you ALL.

just some pic from DS's blog =)

Backdrop for cf 


reception 

Saturday
woke up at 7, left early and home I went. 156, unpacked, bathed and changed and down to bukit batok I went.
I got lost...yeah, I couldn't find my baby. I worried him...haha, miscommunication...no one is to blame. went back to his house and did work before leaving to go to the doctor again.
Had to do some small operation thing to remove the infection from his chin. poor thing...definitely painful. I didn't know how to help, except to offer my hand...he was scared...but my hand still works...so, yeah. his parents came to pick us, then went back to his house to do more work.
baby saw I was tired, so he didn't allow me to do work and asked me to sleep for awhile. slept for an hour and then woke up, did somemore work and then headed home.
Got home, watched simpsons, then went to help my sis steam the egg and I went to bath. dressed and now I am here.

baby: hope your chin is doing okay, sorry I an't help...I hope you feel bettter...muakz! and I didn't mean to get lost...I'll, um, listen better next time?

it's late...
supposed to be for tuesday...but hey wednesday is here...
probably the longest 3 days I've ever been through...
nothing different today...just kep doing work...doing and doing, keep myself busy, keep myself from feeling bored or straying to think of other things....came home, dinner, CSI, and then one disk of star wars ep III...and now I'm here

You know our love was meant to be
The kind of love that lasts forever
And i want you here with me
From tonight until the end of time

You should know, everywhere i go
You're always on my mind, in my heart
In my soul

Baby

You're the meaning in my life
You're the inspiration
You bring feeling to my life
You're the inspiration
Wanna have you near me
I wanna have you hear me sayin'
No one needs you more than i need you

And i know, yes i know that it's plain to see
So in love when we're together
Now i know that i need you here with me
From tonight until the end of time

You should know, everywhere i go
Always on my mind, you're in my heart
In my soul

You're the meaning in my life
You're the inspiration
You bring feeling to my life
You're the inspiration
Wanna have you near me
I wanna have you hear me sayin'
No one need you more than i need you

Wanna have you near me
I wanna have you hear me sayin'
No one need you more than i need you

You're the meaning in my life
You're the inspiration
You bring feeling to my life
You're the inspiration
Wanna have you near me
I wanna have you hear me sayin'
No one needs you more than i need you

You're My Inspiration Peter Cetera

I want a hug, a big one, you owe me...I miss you so so so much I wanna cry...

well...that's one day down
got up at 7.10...couldn't sleep anymore and only 6 hours of sleep 0_0...
went running for 20mins then came home, bathed, had bf and then read papers...
went to papa's office and did work and more work there...I was like dying of boredom...just kept doing and doing seeing as there was nothing to do.
came home...bathed, had dinner and now I'm here...going to watch desperate housewives later...
i didn't think it was going to be this bad....

The sky has lost its color
The sun has turned to grey
At least that's how it feels to me
Whenever you're away
I crawl up in the corner
To watch the minutes pass
Each one brings me closer to
The time you're coming back

I can't take the distance
I can't take the miles
I can't take the time
Until the next time i see you smile
I can't take the distance
And I'm not ashamed
That with every breath i take
I'm calling your name
But i can't take the distance...

I still believe my feelings
But sometimes I feel too much
I make believe you're close to me
But it ain't close enough
Not nearly close enough

I can't take the distance
I can't take the miles
I can't take the time
Until I next see you smile
I can't take the distance
And I'm not ashamed
That with every breath I take
I'm calling your name

I'd brave fire and I'd brave rain
To be by your side I'd do anything
I can't take the distance...

I will go the distance
I will go the miles
that's how much you mean to me

Cause I can't take the distance
I can't take these miles
I can't take the time until I next see you smile
I can't take the distance
And I'm not ashamed
That with every breath I take
I'm calling your name
I can't take the distance...

the distance evan and jaron

friday...
but I shall start with thursday first...
not that you have a choice.
woke up...9-11 chem prac...gravimetric and thermochem, then had some extra info for SPA...then got my chem test back...not what i wanted, but I think my mcq was good
11-12 chem mass tutorial...if you use the word mass loosely...not very MASSive by me. Miss soh like finished 7a, b, c, d, e and f in 1 hour...0_0 nothing to say to that. had lunch with my baby and then went to spend some quality time together =)...rushed home to meet erika's bro, marianne, ethel and perry for dinner at polo club.
surpirsed erika there...her parents were stalling for time given we were a little late.she looked somewhat terrified. had some prawn pesto pasta...it was good, cream, herbs and garlic galore. erika's bro ordered a jug of sangria for us...it was okay by me, although I don't really know what it's supposed to taste like, so yeah. talked a little, laughed a lot...then had cake...it was so rich, white chocolate, cream, all that stuff...and the piece was huge..I just took like millions of years to finish that piece. erika's bro was going on about how the cake looked like a condo and just basically obssessing about the idea. talked somemore and then went to play pool...more exactly billards.
actually we weren't really playing, since none of us knoew how to play...so we just whacked balls into the pockets, the aim being to get rid of ALL the balls from the HUMONGOUS table. was playing, then my baby smsed me and reminded me there was class tomorrow, so left early.
got home, bathed, dried my hair, organised what we were going to do tomorrow wiht my baby and them went to sleep.

friday...
woke up at 7, met baby boy on the bus and went for chem together...states of matter...omg...all the answer so damn long, that ms soh reminds me of TYM, so long winded. Then went to baby's house to do stuff and then went for lunch, had duck rice...I just couldn't resist the soup. caught the 67 just in time, both boarded, was a nice ride.
got off, walked home, bathed and then got down to work. switched on the aircon and started work. stopped at 7.20 and went to cook, then went back to do a little bit more and then mummy and my aunts came. helped to unload stuff, put stuff away and then now I am here.
1 week, apart...that ahs got to be the longest time ever...hmmm...baby girl going to miss baby boy VERY much...I want a hug...=(

another ne of these lousy survey thingie...this time from my sis

1. Starting Time:it's waaaaaay below this post
2. Full Name: sew wei xin genevieve
3. Best Friend(s): can i say i don't have any...good friends, I have
4. Sexiest Friend: HO HUM!!!
5. Funniest Friend(s): it wouldn't be very nice to RATE your friends now would it...although...hmmm
6. Smartest friends: well...smart in what way...smart in what area..
7. Dumbest Person: riiiiight....and this person would be my friend WHY??
8. Shyest Friend: none...if they were they wouldn't really be my friend
9. Most boring person: someone unexciting
10. Who Do you get advice from: not many people...VERY few
11. D(ate)O(f)B(irth): riiiight and what's with the brackets....30th September 1988
12. Righty / Lefty :righty
13.Shoe Brand: NB...I want addidas sneakers...or sneakers
14. Do you Crack any Body Parts:um...no
15. Siblings: 2, one older and the other younger...not much difference..in mentality and they're both a pain, except the younger one is a helluva lot cuter
20. Email Addy: -_-
21. Boy Friend/Girl Friend: yes I have a lot of both...
22. Crush: hm...a lot...but none right now
23. Liked a Teacher: is there no order in this world...is the world YOU live in so BARREN!?!?
25. Ever laughed so hard you've peed in your pants: no
26. Ate a Tub of Ice Cream: I want to...but then there's the fat content
27. Ran Into a Glass Door: who would be THAT stupid...oh I'm sorry I didn't meanto hurt your feelings
29. Gone Skinny Dipping: NO...you see that would be illegal where I come from
30. Gotten hit/nearly hit by a car: no
31. Ran into a parked car: wow...it must have been wonderwoman's invisible car
******Girls Fill Out About Guys******
35. Boxers or Briefs: does it matter??? after all you don't see it
36. Tall or Short : taller than me...
37. Does size matter: size of what? brain? yes
38. Six-pack or Muscular Arms: how 'bout I just leave it at toned
39. Body or Personality: both...moderate amts
40. Ear Pierced or Not : is that supposed to mean something???
41. Sporty or Outdoorsy : sporty enough....so how 'bout er just say fit
42. Good Guy or Bad Guy: it's always good to have a bit of both
******Guys Fill Out on girls****** ---Leave it to the guys please!
47. G or hipster undies: I’m not a guy!
48. Tall or Short : I’m not a guy!
49. Long Hair or Short : I’m not a guy!
50.Dark or Light Eyes: I’m not a guy!
51. Light/Dark Hair: I’m not a guy!
52. Body or Personality: I’m not a guy!
53. Ears Pierced or Not: I’m not a guy!
55. Good Girl/Bad Girl: I’m not a guy!
56.Hair Up or Down : I’m not a guy!
57. Sporty or Classy: I’m not a guy!
58. Chicken or Not Afraid : I’m not a guy!
******Which One is Better******
59. Coke or Pepsi: eh...no colours...7-up
60. K.F.C or McDonalds: I basically try to avoid both unless I have no choice
61. Cats or Dogs : dogs...
62. Coffee or Tea : both...I like
63. Eastside or westside: of what exactly?
64. Vanilla or chocolate: chocolate
65. Cake or Cookies: cookies
66. Purple striped Lime socks or white socks: um...wow...so hard to choose...white
67. Sunset or Sunrise: they're just as nice...you can't go wrong with nature
68. Day or Night: night
69. Lights on or off: depends...is there a purpose?
70. Summer or Winter: winter
*****Your favourite******
71. Food: as long as it tastes good
73. Holiday destination: Anywhere but Singapore and Malaysia
74. Radio Station: hm..power 98
75. Place to be: somewhere I feel comfortable in with people I am comfortable with...all about the comfort
****** In The Future******
76. Will you believe in God: I do
77. What you want to be when you grow up: um...gynaecologist...make a lot of money...have a comfortable life
******Random Questions******
78. Define Love: how tangible
80. Favourite Place to go: didn't I just answer that...and can you COUNT...it's supposed to be 79...now you messed up all the nos...
81. Favourite day(s) of the week: hmm...when I can do whatever I want without worrying about other STUFF...which is never
82. Bedtime: late
83. Who Is Least Likely To Send This Back: I'm not sending this anywhere
84. Satan or God or atheist: God. I believe there is one...
******More questions:******
85. Do you love someone rite now: yes...family, friends and my baby boy
86. Do you care about someone: yes, if you love you care...they come as a package
87. Do you think of someone everyday: yes...you got a problem with that??
88. is anyone special to you: Yes omg...yes...I love and care about people therefore they are special to me...wtf
90. finishing time: 89...what happened to that!??!?! YOU FECKIN' ATE IT UP!??!?! anyway...8.52

I've been looking for that special one
I've been searching for someone to give my love
And when I thought that all the hope was gone
a smile, there you were and I was gone

dum di dum...
tuesday....
my turn to have lessons...
so math trigo approx was just a plain waste of my time...just sit there and listen to missang. after that had maintenance duty...sweep the audi and the audi extension, pack the chairs nicely and neatly...guys went to carry stuff. left and then 154 and 67, bused all the way to CCK. went up and ben's sister was still there...so had lunch and then spent some quality time with my baby when his sister left. then did some chem...which demopralised me some and then left. LRT to bukit panjang, waited damn long for the 970 and then bused all the way home. prepared dinner, bathed and then had dinner, read papers and now I am here. thinking of doing some physics later, why does my whole left hand feel somewhat sore and yet numb?

monday....
baby had class today...talked to him some before that...then went out to return my sisters book at TP library and borrowed one for myself...so I'm a sucker..I couldn't resist. then 105 back to CJ and met him to go to town for movie.
watched MADAGASCAR...madahooha?!?! MADAGASCAR...haha..damn funny...it was really good. was like, went to order the tickets...the women at the counter said something and my baby said 'yes' so I was like 'what?' then he said 'couple seat' I wa like LOST for a nano second there. like...wth...like gen...suddenly realised that she's attached...hmmmmm. went in the cinema...it was just damn weird...sitting at the back with um...people who were just, how should I say this...IN to each other. show started...I think...in that row...um...only the 2 of us were actually WATCHING the show and not each other...yeah...ahem. the show was good I mean...melman the giraffe was just a plain hypochondriac, Alex the lion was just egoistic, gloria the hippo was just all...counsellor like and marty the zebra was just so confused if he was white on black or black on white. The penguins were um...how should I describe it...psychotic...bent on just getting out and military-like and stuff...the lemurs..well the king was just eccentric but there was this WEE LITTLE one...which eyes took up 3/4 of it's body, soooooo huge and CUUUUUUUUUUTE!!! haha...was so enjoyable there...
my baby took me to the bus stop and then I got on 77 to go home, he went for training.
Got home...trigo, rest for a while, more trigo. fold clothes...prepared dinner and then watched the documentary on da vinci code and talked on the phone. desperate housewives...then to sleep for school tomorrow.


madagascar 

sunday...
it's raining heavily...well that was just now..it's just pouring and it's cold. sitting here typing with my ever so colourful blankie.
woke up...had my cornflakes for bf and then went to change to get to church. so happens that the service for the youths was in the MGS dance studio...it was small.what can I say...how can those people actually dance in there...soooooo small...c'mon even my IJ's dance studios is sooooooo much bigger compared to that, and we're not really in very good circumstances, given we are in a holding school. bible competition, genesis...I'll just say we weren't the last; we saved oyrselves the humiliation of that.
after that went to TC to go shopping at giant then went to have lunch. yu pian mee fen...haha...it was good, I like it. came home..hung up the clothes and sheets to dry and then cleared the shopping. mummy came home and I went to do the sheets for my bed, talked to my baby for a while and then he went off to queens way to buy his shoes and I to the table to start on functions 1.
so functions got the best of me...I just can't do the restriction stuff...don't ask me why or how...I just cannot do...I shall try again later...dum di dum. going to cut hair tonight...I am damn happy about it..my hair is just long and ugly and irritating the hell outta me, so I shall be back late tonight. school, school, school for the next week...oh well, extra lessons, JC is JC, oh well.
dunno how to say this but...hmmmm...maybe talking on the phone too much is bad...i mean...too much of each other is going a bit overboard. we should tone down a little....after all we do see each other in schooleveryday, maybe going back to canoeing and dance is good...then we both got time for our own stuff and time to do stuff without each other. we shall see...
it is very cold here...


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I just have to say this...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ERIKA!!!

sorry I can't be there to give you a huuuuuuuge hug, cos I miss you so much...
friday...
technically the beginning of the school hols and the end of school for a month...
the beginning of studying for CT...for the first time in my life I am going to be studying during the june hols...and the temptation to start playing and relaxing is there. may be I should go on hiatus SOON...I WILL do it. just a matter of when I want to start.
today...GP...actually started with listening compre.at 1200 in hall extension. it was freezing...one reason why I like the sweater...and the smell of it was just..um...heavenly? how 'bout nice =). listening of okay except for the 2nd piece...stupid thing talking about global warming or 'cooling'...so it was talking about. it was like 'I think I heard the word zhou qi, and since I don't really get what the woman-slash-man is talking about I shall shade B' after that, went to see my baby to tell him about the major problem. 1pm went back for GP...compo...it was like writing a geog essay. tourism...I just love that...was like digging through the file cabinet of stale memories and it was like 'omg...so many things to talk about'...not bad...afraid I got too much into listing instead of linking. compre...I think time management wise I was good...finished my AQ...I think that since I was able to finish my AQ was an accomplishment for me, but answer quality wise...maybe only average. went to the library to wait for my baby to finish his maintenance duty and then went to orchard.
from far east, walked to PS...quite a long walk but it wasn't so bad with company =). walk, walk and walk...met some people or rather heard and saw. look, look and look...don't have what i want...wen to kopitiam satisfied my craving for mee hoon kueh and my baby had ban mian. then went to walk some more...then decided to head home. caught 77, got a seat and home I went. bathed and then called to company my baby on his bus ride and now I am here.

And I'm surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel alone
Oh, let go home
Oh, I miss you, you know

thursday...
woke up to this terriblly annoying sound...
which I realised 10 seconds later that it was my own phone...
and I realised 10 seconds later that I set the alarm for 7.45....
got up...bf..dressed...and had some fun with my sis in the morning, just being retarded and just basically debating about the issue on fornicating shorts...nvrm...
daddy gave me a lift to the bus stop and talked to my baby until the bus came. gen was stupid, gen has to realise that she ALWAYS needs a jacket as long as she's entering an air-conditioned place...and what did gen do? she didn't bring one...yes...so a cold ride to CCK.
got off and met my baby at the bus stop and then went to study for gp....actually...cleared all the taped shows today and then some more stuff. went to do gp...vocab stuff...then lunch was porridge. he cooked. it was good.
more gp...more gp...as well as some breaks in between.
stopped at 6 and then to LRT to go to bukit panjang interchange. the bus park was full...it's good so my baby says.
wait....
wait...
176...
180....
925...
176 again...
925 again...
180 again...
184...
176 again....
after eons...970...got on and home I went. got home, changed the monitor...so I can do what i am doing now, or basically just to use the comp. I bet none of the briliant heads in this house ever thought of that...mwahahahaha....or rather they were just waitint for some ass to do the work so they can use it later. soooooooo..I guess that makes me the ass...roight....WONderful. daddy came back...cooked dinner, sambal stingray tonight again...yumyum. washed up all the stuff...mummy came home and I went to bath. now I am typing VERY fast so I can make it in time to watch chase...if there is...maybe I shouid check...dum di dum. well I guess not...so I can slow down...however I'm coming to the end of the post. right you can jump for joy or punch the air...whatever. need to DO somthing for gp tonight...feeling uneasy. listening compre tomorrow too.....oh crap...I'll just go worry myself to death or something.

baby I love you & I'll never let you go
but if I have to boy I think that you should know
all the love we made can never be erased
and I promised you that you will never be replaced

baby I love you & I'll never let you go
but if I have to boy I think that you should know
all the love we made can never be erased
and i promised you that you will never be replaced

I love you
yes I do

I'll be with you as long as you want me to
until the end of time
from the day I met you I knew we'd be together
and now I know I wanna be with you forever
I wanna marry you and I wanna have your kids
it can never compare to the feeling of your kisses

I can say I'm truly happy to this day
you've made me think I gotta live my life everyday
there’s never been a doubt in my mind
that I regret ever having you by my side

but if the day comes that I have to let you go
I think there's something I should probably let you know
I enjoyed everyday that I spent with you
and I will miss you but im happy that i had you at all

baby I love you & I'll never let you go
but if I have to boy I think that you should know
the love we made can never be erased
and I promised you that you will never be replaced

baby I love you & I'll never let you go
but if I have to boy I think that you should know
the love we made can never be erased
and I promised you that you will never be replaced

you will never be replaced

I feel for you yes i do
I'll be with you as long as you want me to
until the end of time