today is stay home and study...
'so sleepy' is what I have been for the pass few days...
THANK YOU to erika, nat, sheryl. jeanette and baby for the birthday smses
THANK YOU to yimin for the ab-so-lute-ly lovely card, I still have NO idea how you do it...it's beautiful; valerie for choosing the colour of the tank; cherie, shuyan for the chocs; karen, jolene, trevin, lianwang and yanny for tor the tank and cute little voodoo doll!! Amanda for the super cool photo frame, meimei for the gummies...weee!!! Mummy for baking the cheesecake!!!! and last but not least, to baby for the necklace and the company you gave me!!!
Sunday, October 01, 2006
Wednesday, September 27, 2006
I got the link to this article in an email, there are actually more articles about the issue on the sunday times issue on how they defined IJ girls there, so you can go read more about it; the link is at the bottom of this paragraph. I was a bit upset about the definition delivered to the public. I guess I would not deny that there is some truth in it, that a majority do hem our skirts really short and wear out belts low, however I did feel offended by the comment IJ girls as being 'allegedly easy when it comes to the opposite sex' as well as the caricature , after all I was educated for 10 years CHIJ Toa Payoh. Even though the article was 'toungue-in-cheek' ,to me , that comment was just baseless and insulting to a school which has probably educated more than thousands of girls in its 152 years of stay in Singapore. It basically undermined the rich legacy of the convent and the strong values it has taught many girls. The education and spiritual enrichment that I received during my years there is one probably no other school would be able to equal and I am proud of how it has shaped me into the person I am today.
http://www.chijalumni.org/news.htm
Lifestyle article cast aspersions on IJ Girls
Tuesday September 19, 2006
I AM the chairperson of the Infant Jesus Board of Management of 11 CHIJ Schools in Singapore and an old girl of one of these CHIJ Schools.
I refer to the article published on pages L4 - L6 of Lifestyle of The Sunday Times ('Alternative Singapore: The Encyclopedia'; Sept 17) where the authors indicated their desire to present 'overseas visitors' with an 'Insiders' Guide to help them get the most out of their stay'. They have therefore 'come up with (their) own counter-culture compendium of nuggets' which will 'initiate you to the local hybrid lingo'. I note that the article was written 'tongue-in-cheek'.
I am concerned and dismayed that the authors have elected to include in their 'compendium of nuggets' their definition of 'IJ Girls', together with other commonly used words within the local Singapore community.
My concern lies in two areas:
Was there a need to tarnish the image of thousands of students, past, present and future, including girls as young as six-plus years old in Primary One, with an image that they are 'allegedly easy when it comes to the opposite sex'?
Was there any need to associate your improper definition with an inappropriate caricature and a picture of IJ students in uniform, taken out of context?
There are currently about 16,000 pupils in our CHIJ Schools aged six to 16 years of age. The first CHIJ School was founded 152 years ago, which means that thousands of young women would have been educated in an IJ School. The wholly inappropriate description has swept through a large swathe of innocent pupils and ex-pupils.
The recent coverage of Mrs Elizabeth Choy was very tasteful. Your readers may wish to know that Mrs Choy was an 'IJ Girl', having schooled at a CHIJ school from 1929-1933.
Other IJ Girls include Singapore's Ambassador to the United States, Prof Chan Heng Chee; Members of Parliament Mrs Cynthia Phua, Ms Ellen Lee, Dr Fatimah Lateef, Ms Sylvia Lim, Ms Jessica Tan; Executive Director (Unifem) Ms Noeleen Heyzer, IJ Sister Cecilia Chew, IJ Sister Daniel Ee, IJ Sister Christina Joy and IJ Sister Maria Lau, just to name a few. I wonder if these women would appreciate being described as 'allegedly easy on the opposite sex'?
The authorship and publication of such an article cannot, by any measure, be accepted as a 'tongue-in-cheek' article. It was an ill-conceived idea and done in bad taste. It has caused much distress, pain and embarrassment to women, of all ages, that hail from our CHIJ Schools. We do not condone your publication and take strong objection to the aspersions cast upon IJ Girls.
Donne Marie Aeria
Chairperson
Infant Jesus Board of Management
CHIJ Schools
Friday, September 22, 2006
these 2 days have been unexpectedly boring...
with the exception that I have met my goal in ironing
the anime episodes on youtube have run out...
I am like a dried up prune in need of much entertainment or just to go out.
Although the problem would be that I have no money to spend and so many things that I want that I can't differentiate what i really want from what is just a fad to me.
sometimes I want things so much, but after a while...or a few months or years...it just doesn't seem necessary to me anymore. Did I also mention I hate indesiciveness...so I just cannot stand not being able to decide what I want. ironically, it's stressful...at this rate I'll probably be dying early...haha...
somehow I just cannot wait for next week, where I can get to school and just...okay maybe that's not a very good option. I sound like some caveman in confinement...
hiax...
with the exception that I have met my goal in ironing
the anime episodes on youtube have run out...
I am like a dried up prune in need of much entertainment or just to go out.
Although the problem would be that I have no money to spend and so many things that I want that I can't differentiate what i really want from what is just a fad to me.
sometimes I want things so much, but after a while...or a few months or years...it just doesn't seem necessary to me anymore. Did I also mention I hate indesiciveness...so I just cannot stand not being able to decide what I want. ironically, it's stressful...at this rate I'll probably be dying early...haha...
somehow I just cannot wait for next week, where I can get to school and just...okay maybe that's not a very good option. I sound like some caveman in confinement...
hiax...
Thursday, September 21, 2006
like prelims are officially over...
*jumps for joy*
although I don't feel very much relieved...there's still the nagging of the mext wave...
haix..
anyway, yesterday was a fantastic day...
haha...2t29's very first class outing, went to minds cafe, opposite paradiz. the class just played board games and card games the whole 2 hours plus...haha...the SNORT was the best game ever...haha...it's like dirty germs but just that for this version we use animal sounds. it was really fun...haha and the the other game was rather interesting...don't really know what it's called though. basically the card shows a hand gesture and you need to dertermine if can be done and if it can be you have to imitate it as fast as possible.
we finished up at 7 and then the girls and I decided to go PS to shop for trevin and karen's bro's present. we walked and walked until 9.30 when we finally found both. Karen and I were in barang barang walking around hoping to find some sort of inspiration there. Surprisingly barang barang does not only sell furniture and furniture accessories but toys too...
and then headed home.
baby had S paper today...poor little thing...
the whole of today was just spent on youtube watching stuff....
I dont want this day to end...
which reminds me, I'll have to go iron late..whoo!!
*jumps for joy*
although I don't feel very much relieved...there's still the nagging of the mext wave...
haix..
anyway, yesterday was a fantastic day...
haha...2t29's very first class outing, went to minds cafe, opposite paradiz. the class just played board games and card games the whole 2 hours plus...haha...the SNORT was the best game ever...haha...it's like dirty germs but just that for this version we use animal sounds. it was really fun...haha and the the other game was rather interesting...don't really know what it's called though. basically the card shows a hand gesture and you need to dertermine if can be done and if it can be you have to imitate it as fast as possible.
we finished up at 7 and then the girls and I decided to go PS to shop for trevin and karen's bro's present. we walked and walked until 9.30 when we finally found both. Karen and I were in barang barang walking around hoping to find some sort of inspiration there. Surprisingly barang barang does not only sell furniture and furniture accessories but toys too...
and then headed home.
baby had S paper today...poor little thing...
the whole of today was just spent on youtube watching stuff....
I dont want this day to end...
which reminds me, I'll have to go iron late..whoo!!
Saturday, September 16, 2006
Happy 18th month anniversary baby!!!
1 and a half years...
Thank you so much for being there for me, giving me a shoulder to cry on.
Thank you so much for pushing me and motivating me, when I felt that I could go on no longer.
Thank you for taking care of me, always putting me first, especially when I'm sick.
Thank you for your patience, kindness and love that you have showered me with.
Thank you for always being there to cheer me up when I was down.
Thank you for making me such a happy person these pass 18 months.
I have truly loved and appreciated all the times we have spent together.
I hope that we would grow to love and understand each other more.
I love you so so much!
:) muakz!!!
1 and a half years...
Thank you so much for being there for me, giving me a shoulder to cry on.
Thank you so much for pushing me and motivating me, when I felt that I could go on no longer.
Thank you for taking care of me, always putting me first, especially when I'm sick.
Thank you for your patience, kindness and love that you have showered me with.
Thank you for always being there to cheer me up when I was down.
Thank you for making me such a happy person these pass 18 months.
I have truly loved and appreciated all the times we have spent together.
I hope that we would grow to love and understand each other more.
I love you so so much!
:) muakz!!!
Thursday, September 07, 2006
Cause there's something in the way you look at me
It's as if my heart knows
You're the missing
make me believe that there's nothin'in this world I can't be
I never know what you see but there's
somethin' in the way you look at me
I've finally gotten into windows on my computer...
It's SUPER screwed up...
It's like everytime I type a letter the whole screen sorta blinks.
The colours all in weird shades....and it comes in dots, not a solid colour.
Everything is extremely BIG cos the resolution is the smallest one and I'm afraid to change it cos then I'll have to restart the comp and then I would need to go through all the shit I had to go through just now to get in. Mummy's probably going to scold me when she finds out the state the comp is in, I have no idea why it screws up like that...why is it MY comp always screws up and other people who DL loads of stuff don't screw-up!??!? I have too much stuff...school stuff and personal stuff in here to reformat this whole thing...AAAAAAAAAAH!!!
Today was rather well spent...I mean just doing chem...now I'll be doing math soon...as you can see it's rather boring, just total mugging and mugging and non-stop worrying if I've done enough.
I have no idea what I'm going to type here seein as the day hasn't been the most exciting of all days, perhaps it's the need to be online and that the computer still works...I haven't even had dinner!!! I was in the middle of doing a math prelim paper too...
I think i should end...
end.
It's as if my heart knows
You're the missing
make me believe that there's nothin'in this world I can't be
I never know what you see but there's
somethin' in the way you look at me
I've finally gotten into windows on my computer...
It's SUPER screwed up...
It's like everytime I type a letter the whole screen sorta blinks.
The colours all in weird shades....and it comes in dots, not a solid colour.
Everything is extremely BIG cos the resolution is the smallest one and I'm afraid to change it cos then I'll have to restart the comp and then I would need to go through all the shit I had to go through just now to get in. Mummy's probably going to scold me when she finds out the state the comp is in, I have no idea why it screws up like that...why is it MY comp always screws up and other people who DL loads of stuff don't screw-up!??!? I have too much stuff...school stuff and personal stuff in here to reformat this whole thing...AAAAAAAAAAH!!!
Today was rather well spent...I mean just doing chem...now I'll be doing math soon...as you can see it's rather boring, just total mugging and mugging and non-stop worrying if I've done enough.
I have no idea what I'm going to type here seein as the day hasn't been the most exciting of all days, perhaps it's the need to be online and that the computer still works...I haven't even had dinner!!! I was in the middle of doing a math prelim paper too...
I think i should end...
end.
Monday, September 04, 2006
Saturday, August 26, 2006
If I lay here If I just lay here
Would you lie with me
And just forget the world
Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life
been a while since i've blogged...
all the mad rush for mock and with prelims coming soon...
I still can't believe it's gonna end so soon.
part of me feels ecstatic about all the stress and crap being lifted from my mind but yet I think...or maybe I would miss everyone in class.
anyways, I have to remember I have to write that stupid thing for MOE about my participation in my CCA.
yesterday was a somewhat wonderful yet guilty day spent...haha.
We had like an early teachers' day celebration in school, so we had 2 lessons and then celebrations after. The girls bought teachers' day presents...for mr wee handkerchiefs, for miss ang a taitai looking purple handbag, for miss koh a clock and for mr hoi a pink shirt. mr wee wore the bright pink shirt that they gave him last year, took some getting used to but I think it makes him look younger, mr hoi's one was a better desicion.
As for celebrations, I just loved the yo-yo man...omg, I thought it was so cool. The bands were average, nothing like rockafella dance was good as usual...haha...after that baby and I went to bukit panjang cafe cartel and had, to me, a rather expensive lunch...which makes me feel soooooo guilty. Then we went to visit the pet store there...omg...I swear I wanna dog...the silky terrier that licked our fingers is soooo cute....I knew i liked dogs, but not like this...haha...went back to baby's place to spend time together and watched click.
all in all...a wonderful day spent =)
today was just spent alone....watched the usual morning cartoons and then work work...break...walk around a bit and then work somemore...and yeah work...
ain't JC life great???
Would you lie with me
And just forget the world
Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life
been a while since i've blogged...
all the mad rush for mock and with prelims coming soon...
I still can't believe it's gonna end so soon.
part of me feels ecstatic about all the stress and crap being lifted from my mind but yet I think...or maybe I would miss everyone in class.
anyways, I have to remember I have to write that stupid thing for MOE about my participation in my CCA.
yesterday was a somewhat wonderful yet guilty day spent...haha.
We had like an early teachers' day celebration in school, so we had 2 lessons and then celebrations after. The girls bought teachers' day presents...for mr wee handkerchiefs, for miss ang a taitai looking purple handbag, for miss koh a clock and for mr hoi a pink shirt. mr wee wore the bright pink shirt that they gave him last year, took some getting used to but I think it makes him look younger, mr hoi's one was a better desicion.
As for celebrations, I just loved the yo-yo man...omg, I thought it was so cool. The bands were average, nothing like rockafella dance was good as usual...haha...after that baby and I went to bukit panjang cafe cartel and had, to me, a rather expensive lunch...which makes me feel soooooo guilty. Then we went to visit the pet store there...omg...I swear I wanna dog...the silky terrier that licked our fingers is soooo cute....I knew i liked dogs, but not like this...haha...went back to baby's place to spend time together and watched click.
all in all...a wonderful day spent =)
today was just spent alone....watched the usual morning cartoons and then work work...break...walk around a bit and then work somemore...and yeah work...
ain't JC life great???
Wednesday, August 09, 2006
holidays are always nice...
the more the merrier I always say
anyway the national day eve was spent quite...QUITE well...
the morning was spent walking, like 7, 6 km from schooland through macRitchie, the start of the day wasn't exactly very good...it took like half a century for the whole school to file out of school...the supposed highlight was walking through the little merryn estate looking and admiring the nice houses. There was a chrome yellow one with like a lift in it, and this really big country-looking house which I really lliked. walked pass some cemeteries and then trekked throught macRitchie. It was a nice walk, if you around, the peacefulness there was really good. All in all the walk was olright, the incessant phototaking aside.
after that went to adam road food centre with weijie, joel, bala, baby and ernst. I think joel is rather comfortable to talk to, I mean he's really easy going and the way he talks and stuff it's really easy for someone to converse with. Plus, he kept calling me 'tai tai'...haha. After that spent some quality time with baby.
Today was rather quiet, just doing math all day long. What with the imminent math mock on friday. I aim to like finish the whole revision package or something. mummy cooked a nice lunch =) mummy and daddy went shopping in m'sia and guin and I watched the NDP on TV and now I'm here. Should be getting back to doing that math like now....
the more the merrier I always say
anyway the national day eve was spent quite...QUITE well...
the morning was spent walking, like 7, 6 km from schooland through macRitchie, the start of the day wasn't exactly very good...it took like half a century for the whole school to file out of school...the supposed highlight was walking through the little merryn estate looking and admiring the nice houses. There was a chrome yellow one with like a lift in it, and this really big country-looking house which I really lliked. walked pass some cemeteries and then trekked throught macRitchie. It was a nice walk, if you around, the peacefulness there was really good. All in all the walk was olright, the incessant phototaking aside.
after that went to adam road food centre with weijie, joel, bala, baby and ernst. I think joel is rather comfortable to talk to, I mean he's really easy going and the way he talks and stuff it's really easy for someone to converse with. Plus, he kept calling me 'tai tai'...haha. After that spent some quality time with baby.
Today was rather quiet, just doing math all day long. What with the imminent math mock on friday. I aim to like finish the whole revision package or something. mummy cooked a nice lunch =) mummy and daddy went shopping in m'sia and guin and I watched the NDP on TV and now I'm here. Should be getting back to doing that math like now....
Thursday, July 27, 2006
no time, no time...
no time to stand and stare
no time to look and see
no time to play...
no time to sleep...
an endless rush from here to there
hours, minutes and seconds needing to be saved from their death
is it supposed to be like this???
maybe I'm at the wrong end of it all?
am I not doing something right?
I HAVE TO KNOW!!!!
2 weeks,
2 months,
4 months
when will it stop?
I feel haunted,
maybe harrassed,
how about stoned?
so many things running in my mind
I just want to tear it out and stop the endless thoughts
no time to stand and stare
no time to look and see
no time to play...
no time to sleep...
an endless rush from here to there
hours, minutes and seconds needing to be saved from their death
is it supposed to be like this???
maybe I'm at the wrong end of it all?
am I not doing something right?
I HAVE TO KNOW!!!!
2 weeks,
2 months,
4 months
when will it stop?
I feel haunted,
maybe harrassed,
how about stoned?
so many things running in my mind
I just want to tear it out and stop the endless thoughts
Wednesday, July 19, 2006
sunday was a good day I must say...
started with 9am serice as usual, and then I joined the family for lunch...indian lunch...
I had like pieces of thosai and cheppatti and whatnot and then me and papa left.
He gave me a lift to orchard and there I met erika =)
lunch was pepper lunch...never been there before
with this thing where you have to constantly mix the rice so it'll cook well and stuff...
rather interesting... for me...
it was nice seeing her, after not having seen her for like 10s of years...haha...just kidding
I'm like so tired, I have this feeling that I'm running on adrenaline.
yesterday, the whole school was let of at 1 so baby and I went to spend some quality time together. i really miss that...
today was all lectures...
started with chem lect with baby, then physics lect which i was so tired in and then we had pe...I swear I'm not getting anything the teacher is teaching about badminton...I just can't do what he does...for me I just whack the shuttlecock and stuff. Physics tutorial was just amusing...mr wee is so comical and I think he's just oblivious to it...he's just weird or something the way he explains things and his little stories and philosphies about life. I was dying by math lect and my eyes were so tired, after which I went to the library to accompany baby where he left me to go play soccer later on and now I am home, still wanting to sleep...
Is it me or am I like a bottomless pit for food recently...
I'm always feeling hungry, like right now....
baby says it's good cause that means I'm not stressed...
is that true?
started with 9am serice as usual, and then I joined the family for lunch...indian lunch...
I had like pieces of thosai and cheppatti and whatnot and then me and papa left.
He gave me a lift to orchard and there I met erika =)
lunch was pepper lunch...never been there before
with this thing where you have to constantly mix the rice so it'll cook well and stuff...
rather interesting... for me...
it was nice seeing her, after not having seen her for like 10s of years...haha...just kidding
I'm like so tired, I have this feeling that I'm running on adrenaline.
yesterday, the whole school was let of at 1 so baby and I went to spend some quality time together. i really miss that...
today was all lectures...
started with chem lect with baby, then physics lect which i was so tired in and then we had pe...I swear I'm not getting anything the teacher is teaching about badminton...I just can't do what he does...for me I just whack the shuttlecock and stuff. Physics tutorial was just amusing...mr wee is so comical and I think he's just oblivious to it...he's just weird or something the way he explains things and his little stories and philosphies about life. I was dying by math lect and my eyes were so tired, after which I went to the library to accompany baby where he left me to go play soccer later on and now I am home, still wanting to sleep...
Is it me or am I like a bottomless pit for food recently...
I'm always feeling hungry, like right now....
baby says it's good cause that means I'm not stressed...
is that true?
Monday, July 10, 2006
today was just absolutely frustrating...
I am still pissed about it and I think I'll just blow it all right here on my blog.
enough is ENOUGH!!
I have seriously had it. I was really short of time and I cannot believe I traded a better grade for my math for a fucking O for physics, At first I thought, hey why not give physics a chance and really work at it this time and get a C , like BULLSHIT man! my math and physics ended up at the wrong end of the table of grades. COME ON! for CTs all I did was memorise the formula and I got an O too...I mean looking at the odds, it really isn't gamble worth taking anymore.
I was so happy I put so much effort into it and managed to do more or less most of the questions, I was still rather deluded when I got the paper...I thought I'd gotten a B with 63.5 but then it hit me like a train that I hadn't even passed. I mean WHAT THE HELL is it going to take!?!??! I've already gone through almost 3+ years with physics and i've worked and worked and to no avail. I mean is it like gonna take 10 years, well I kinda DON'T HAVE 10 YEARS!!! I have like less than 3 months. I juist don't get it. I don't know what's wrong...I really have no idea...I just can't get it, I mean I really want to. I even thought I was starting to get the hang of it and maybe even be able to do it...and now this.
will somebody tell me what's wrong....cos I really want to make this right...I really do...
I am still pissed about it and I think I'll just blow it all right here on my blog.
enough is ENOUGH!!
I have seriously had it. I was really short of time and I cannot believe I traded a better grade for my math for a fucking O for physics, At first I thought, hey why not give physics a chance and really work at it this time and get a C , like BULLSHIT man! my math and physics ended up at the wrong end of the table of grades. COME ON! for CTs all I did was memorise the formula and I got an O too...I mean looking at the odds, it really isn't gamble worth taking anymore.
I was so happy I put so much effort into it and managed to do more or less most of the questions, I was still rather deluded when I got the paper...I thought I'd gotten a B with 63.5 but then it hit me like a train that I hadn't even passed. I mean WHAT THE HELL is it going to take!?!??! I've already gone through almost 3+ years with physics and i've worked and worked and to no avail. I mean is it like gonna take 10 years, well I kinda DON'T HAVE 10 YEARS!!! I have like less than 3 months. I juist don't get it. I don't know what's wrong...I really have no idea...I just can't get it, I mean I really want to. I even thought I was starting to get the hang of it and maybe even be able to do it...and now this.
will somebody tell me what's wrong....cos I really want to make this right...I really do...
Tuesday, July 04, 2006
HAPPY BIRTHDAY LISA!!!!!!!
like omg....
my computer is working 0_0
it was like dead the past 3 days...I just could not get into windows AT ALL!!!
and mei mei needs it on friday for some stupid e-learning thingamajig the school is doing cos there's no school for her...
so woohoo...it's working...
I just hope it stays this way, I have no idea what made it konk-out
anyway, ther first day of normal school was just bad...
today just had to be the one we end at 5, needless to say we were all pretty much dead as the day approached its end. I was already falling asleep during math at 4...
plus I have homework to do!!!! there's like sampling distribution and transition elements...
I still wanna sleep though... -_-zzzzzzzz
I like this world cup song...celebrate the day...hmmm, it's growing on me...
roight, time to go cook rice....ciao!
like omg....
my computer is working 0_0
it was like dead the past 3 days...I just could not get into windows AT ALL!!!
and mei mei needs it on friday for some stupid e-learning thingamajig the school is doing cos there's no school for her...
so woohoo...it's working...
I just hope it stays this way, I have no idea what made it konk-out
anyway, ther first day of normal school was just bad...
today just had to be the one we end at 5, needless to say we were all pretty much dead as the day approached its end. I was already falling asleep during math at 4...
plus I have homework to do!!!! there's like sampling distribution and transition elements...
I still wanna sleep though... -_-zzzzzzzz
I like this world cup song...celebrate the day...hmmm, it's growing on me...
roight, time to go cook rice....ciao!
Saturday, July 01, 2006
You keep me
You keep me smiling
You keep me safe in a crazy world
You understand me
Embrace my fragility
You keep me safe in a crazy world
And in your arms I find the strength to believe in me again
I went on shopping trip today...
a failed shopping trip...
i set out to buy a pair of heels, seemed simple enough...
met baby and we went to orchard.
I like the strappy kinds, which are low heeled and I have this thing about the buckle for the heel cos I especially don't like it flip-flopping everywhere when I walk around.
Baby and I must have walked into almost every shoe store on orchard and the kind of shoes I liked have heels like 2 inches high, i mean come on, what happened to the low heels meant for lousy people like me who can't take the height?!?!? I mean they used to be in charkes&keith and now, they're all GONE!!!! It's teeming with those pointy-toed shoes thingie. I know it's all the trend now, but people like me don't suit it and plus don't find squeezing my toes into a triangle very comfortable. there was hope when we found a nice 9.90 pair...I liked the pink, which had no stock for my shoe size, then there was the green which didn't look as good. Tinkerbell was just as bad...bursting at the seams with those pointy-toed shoes. I just don't get it...
I fely very, extremely, terribly bad for dragging baby from shoe store to shoe store, not even buying anything. I swear I need a shopping buddy, who wouldn't get irritated at the way i shop, walking into stores looking and not buying or saying things are nice but not buying. Plus I have this thing where I survey the store from outside, and just one look I would know this is not the store I want and just walk off.
omg...I seriously need help and a new pair of shoes... =(
You keep me smiling
You keep me safe in a crazy world
You understand me
Embrace my fragility
You keep me safe in a crazy world
And in your arms I find the strength to believe in me again
I went on shopping trip today...
a failed shopping trip...
i set out to buy a pair of heels, seemed simple enough...
met baby and we went to orchard.
I like the strappy kinds, which are low heeled and I have this thing about the buckle for the heel cos I especially don't like it flip-flopping everywhere when I walk around.
Baby and I must have walked into almost every shoe store on orchard and the kind of shoes I liked have heels like 2 inches high, i mean come on, what happened to the low heels meant for lousy people like me who can't take the height?!?!? I mean they used to be in charkes&keith and now, they're all GONE!!!! It's teeming with those pointy-toed shoes thingie. I know it's all the trend now, but people like me don't suit it and plus don't find squeezing my toes into a triangle very comfortable. there was hope when we found a nice 9.90 pair...I liked the pink, which had no stock for my shoe size, then there was the green which didn't look as good. Tinkerbell was just as bad...bursting at the seams with those pointy-toed shoes. I just don't get it...
I fely very, extremely, terribly bad for dragging baby from shoe store to shoe store, not even buying anything. I swear I need a shopping buddy, who wouldn't get irritated at the way i shop, walking into stores looking and not buying or saying things are nice but not buying. Plus I have this thing where I survey the store from outside, and just one look I would know this is not the store I want and just walk off.
omg...I seriously need help and a new pair of shoes... =(
Friday, June 30, 2006
I am so addicted to that adidas ad...
the one with the little kids and the football players...haha
they're just so cute...I'm talking about the kids, plus the football tricks are just so sexy...
okay...I am home cos basically the mids are over and plus I don't have a paper today =)
I'm kinda really dead for math. For the first time in my life, I feel my physics was waaaaaaaay better, chem was just chem, hopefully it's an A though.
HOWEVER, I shall not be home for long, going to set out at like 10 and get to school to return my library books or I shall be so fined for it and that woman in the library isn't the best thing to be chased by. Then I shall pick deborah from there and we shall head to baby's house to meet the boys, assuming they make it there before we do, cos I hear they were playing DoTA until 2 this morning. I feel like playing pool....hmmmmm...but I suck...
I miss people, esp the IJ peeps...
I don't know why...
just haven't seen some people for a while and I miss their presence and the fun stuff, good stuff we had. There are some , quite some, IJ people in CJ, but it's just not the same you know? I missed that gathering for erika, so yeah...stupid mids. or I could say stupid me, cos I went for LTC? cos if I didn't i'd have been able to go for it.
I wonder...should I wear contacts today? my nails are pretty long, so it's be quuuuuuuite hard to put it in and take it out...hmmm...
the one with the little kids and the football players...haha
they're just so cute...I'm talking about the kids, plus the football tricks are just so sexy...
okay...I am home cos basically the mids are over and plus I don't have a paper today =)
I'm kinda really dead for math. For the first time in my life, I feel my physics was waaaaaaaay better, chem was just chem, hopefully it's an A though.
HOWEVER, I shall not be home for long, going to set out at like 10 and get to school to return my library books or I shall be so fined for it and that woman in the library isn't the best thing to be chased by. Then I shall pick deborah from there and we shall head to baby's house to meet the boys, assuming they make it there before we do, cos I hear they were playing DoTA until 2 this morning. I feel like playing pool....hmmmmm...but I suck...
I miss people, esp the IJ peeps...
I don't know why...
just haven't seen some people for a while and I miss their presence and the fun stuff, good stuff we had. There are some , quite some, IJ people in CJ, but it's just not the same you know? I missed that gathering for erika, so yeah...stupid mids. or I could say stupid me, cos I went for LTC? cos if I didn't i'd have been able to go for it.
I wonder...should I wear contacts today? my nails are pretty long, so it's be quuuuuuuite hard to put it in and take it out...hmmm...
Wednesday, June 21, 2006
That's it...
I am so done for the mid-years...
I sorta finished chem...I just have that enormous chapter called environmental chem and doubts avout electrochem to clear-up. as for physics, I have like 8 chapters to go!!!!!! for maths...I've like done 3 papers!!!
talk about equal distribution...it's just that some just take too long...eat into other subjects times and then everything is now in a HUUUUUUUUGE mess!!!!!
I like just wanna give up and just let it pass...they say that people who are perfectionistic would try to get things done but once they find they've had enough, they feel it's better to just ignore it and pretend it never existed.
I just wanna throw everything to one side, sit down somewhere, scream, cry, whatever and just try to loosen up the tension, stress and whatever nonsense that has got me so unhappy...I don't know, I'm like so desperate I'll try anything!!!
I wanna go shop too...
I have never felt so much of a compulsion to be a financial contirbutor of the Singapore sale, but just for once I wanna do something for myself, give something for myself...I mean..yeah...whatever...
why does everything have to be like this??
I am so done for the mid-years...
I sorta finished chem...I just have that enormous chapter called environmental chem and doubts avout electrochem to clear-up. as for physics, I have like 8 chapters to go!!!!!! for maths...I've like done 3 papers!!!
talk about equal distribution...it's just that some just take too long...eat into other subjects times and then everything is now in a HUUUUUUUUGE mess!!!!!
I like just wanna give up and just let it pass...they say that people who are perfectionistic would try to get things done but once they find they've had enough, they feel it's better to just ignore it and pretend it never existed.
I just wanna throw everything to one side, sit down somewhere, scream, cry, whatever and just try to loosen up the tension, stress and whatever nonsense that has got me so unhappy...I don't know, I'm like so desperate I'll try anything!!!
I wanna go shop too...
I have never felt so much of a compulsion to be a financial contirbutor of the Singapore sale, but just for once I wanna do something for myself, give something for myself...I mean..yeah...whatever...
why does everything have to be like this??
Wednesday, June 14, 2006
nothing sucks more than being ditched by a ball...
I don't know why I'm feeling so irritable but yeah, I am...
it's just that when I get down...nothing seems to be able to pick me up except for a good nights sleep...that's when I usually put everything behind, and sorta forget about it.
I'm at papa's office now and typing on his rather disgusting laptop...the place you kinda rest your wrist on is like disintegrating or something. which is rather bugging me...i'm like trying not to touch the thing, so it looks like i'm pivoting my whole lower arm on my elbows. when they start to hurt I just kinda give it up for a while.
I studied from like 11 to 3-4 and now I just cannot go on anymore...the mood to study has absolutely disappeared into oblivion, shrivelled up and died. I almost blew my brains out trying to get my OC dvd working...the stupid programme or dvd, whichever one it is, is just screwing up right now. so I sorta settled for 'the incredibles' again...for like the millionth time. I so need something to keep me sane right now...I cannot stand it!!! I just wanna go out and not spend money. I have no idea what to do to relax, cos I have no idea what even relaxes me...did that confuse you?? so yeah...I think i'm quuuite screwed in terms of enjoyment. watching cartoons was a good optionn till I got kinda irked byt the incessant appearances of little and 'not-so-little' kids appearing on tv, assaulting you with screams of 'the holidays are here, so have fun on kids central' or variations of that, just makes you wanna scream at the TV screen and ask them to shut-up cos you have a stupid mid-year to study for. I mean 'why?', why can't they just do it as per normal...you know the usual 'you're watching kidscentral' nobody would notice or sue them for not wishing them a 'happy school holiday'!!!besides no one cares about stuff like that...we just wanna watch the cartoons...don't you?
okay...that's about enough venting for one day...
back the 'the incredibles'...
I don't know why I'm feeling so irritable but yeah, I am...
it's just that when I get down...nothing seems to be able to pick me up except for a good nights sleep...that's when I usually put everything behind, and sorta forget about it.
I'm at papa's office now and typing on his rather disgusting laptop...the place you kinda rest your wrist on is like disintegrating or something. which is rather bugging me...i'm like trying not to touch the thing, so it looks like i'm pivoting my whole lower arm on my elbows. when they start to hurt I just kinda give it up for a while.
I studied from like 11 to 3-4 and now I just cannot go on anymore...the mood to study has absolutely disappeared into oblivion, shrivelled up and died. I almost blew my brains out trying to get my OC dvd working...the stupid programme or dvd, whichever one it is, is just screwing up right now. so I sorta settled for 'the incredibles' again...for like the millionth time. I so need something to keep me sane right now...I cannot stand it!!! I just wanna go out and not spend money. I have no idea what to do to relax, cos I have no idea what even relaxes me...did that confuse you?? so yeah...I think i'm quuuite screwed in terms of enjoyment. watching cartoons was a good optionn till I got kinda irked byt the incessant appearances of little and 'not-so-little' kids appearing on tv, assaulting you with screams of 'the holidays are here, so have fun on kids central' or variations of that, just makes you wanna scream at the TV screen and ask them to shut-up cos you have a stupid mid-year to study for. I mean 'why?', why can't they just do it as per normal...you know the usual 'you're watching kidscentral' nobody would notice or sue them for not wishing them a 'happy school holiday'!!!besides no one cares about stuff like that...we just wanna watch the cartoons...don't you?
okay...that's about enough venting for one day...
back the 'the incredibles'...
Tuesday, June 13, 2006
right blogger is screwed up...
kinda...
and what i'm typing out is coming out a split second slower...so I gotta keep stopping to see what I'm typing...
and now the blinkie thingie is gone....
anyway..today was supposed to be a major productive day, cos i was planning to study organic and organic for me get's done pretty fast...buuuuuuuuut I brought the source of evil and all distractions in toe world there...
I brought the CD which my sis's friend burnt for me...the OC...absolutely unresistable...season 1 all the way to 3...I just couldn't stop. I was studying while watching...but as you can tell, it didn't tuen out as productive as I wanted today to be.
If I stayed at home...it would have been better...for some reason I'm so psyched up to work in the morning...but once I plonk myself down to watch TV...I'm gone...so yeah...at least we're lesser of one evil.
besides all this I was thinking about something the whole night before and today.
I was watching desperate housewives last night when this new peugeot ad came up...I like peugeot ads...they're catchy and amusing for the viewer. but this one in particular caught my attention.
it was basically appealing to the female gender for this new car that they have. The ad was just basically how women would change the way things ar. One would be that men would give birth...well that would mean we wouldn't have to have all the stuff like terrible morning sickness, which a rare few have for the whole 9 months of gestation. Others have stretch marks after that, a large amount of weight gain and although some people say a woman glows when she's pregnant, acne breakouts are not uncommon at all. It's a whole pandora box of stuff. With the shimmer of hope being that it is one connection a man or father would never be able to experience.
As for high heels not hurting...I am so going to second that...the price of beauty. I mean they help us women gain some height, they provide the leverage women need in the world. They can do wonders for us women besides height. As for diamonds growing on trees...I'm quite indiffferent to that...I'm not exactly a bitg fan of diamonds, but if you give me some...I'll accept...haha...it's like chocolate for me. I don't necessarily crave it, but if it's there I'll take.
As for tailoring men, haha...at times it just seems a good idea, I mean they just DON'T get it sometimes...but if you really sit and look at us women, we are a damn confusing bunch of people. Like we just need to get to the point some time, I think if we had to live with us for a day, our indirectness would drive ourselves crazy. As for tailoring...I like my man the way he is. I mean sure...the ideal one would be like tall, dark, handsome ( baby just needs to be tall...haha...) there's some plus pluses too...but I was watching the "tailor" draw a six pack on the guy...and I was thinking...it would be kinda weird for baby to have a 6 pack. I have no idea why I'm thinking this, but I think the tummy could be a little smaller, but that's all...I don't really need the 6 pack. I like the way my man looks...haha...come to think of it...the 6 pack thingie idea, feels rather awkward...o_O
rightssssss....I just had to get that out....
apologies if that made the reader feel a little awkward...
ciao!
kinda...
and what i'm typing out is coming out a split second slower...so I gotta keep stopping to see what I'm typing...
and now the blinkie thingie is gone....
anyway..today was supposed to be a major productive day, cos i was planning to study organic and organic for me get's done pretty fast...buuuuuuuuut I brought the source of evil and all distractions in toe world there...
I brought the CD which my sis's friend burnt for me...the OC...absolutely unresistable...season 1 all the way to 3...I just couldn't stop. I was studying while watching...but as you can tell, it didn't tuen out as productive as I wanted today to be.
If I stayed at home...it would have been better...for some reason I'm so psyched up to work in the morning...but once I plonk myself down to watch TV...I'm gone...so yeah...at least we're lesser of one evil.
besides all this I was thinking about something the whole night before and today.
I was watching desperate housewives last night when this new peugeot ad came up...I like peugeot ads...they're catchy and amusing for the viewer. but this one in particular caught my attention.
it was basically appealing to the female gender for this new car that they have. The ad was just basically how women would change the way things ar. One would be that men would give birth...well that would mean we wouldn't have to have all the stuff like terrible morning sickness, which a rare few have for the whole 9 months of gestation. Others have stretch marks after that, a large amount of weight gain and although some people say a woman glows when she's pregnant, acne breakouts are not uncommon at all. It's a whole pandora box of stuff. With the shimmer of hope being that it is one connection a man or father would never be able to experience.
As for high heels not hurting...I am so going to second that...the price of beauty. I mean they help us women gain some height, they provide the leverage women need in the world. They can do wonders for us women besides height. As for diamonds growing on trees...I'm quite indiffferent to that...I'm not exactly a bitg fan of diamonds, but if you give me some...I'll accept...haha...it's like chocolate for me. I don't necessarily crave it, but if it's there I'll take.
As for tailoring men, haha...at times it just seems a good idea, I mean they just DON'T get it sometimes...but if you really sit and look at us women, we are a damn confusing bunch of people. Like we just need to get to the point some time, I think if we had to live with us for a day, our indirectness would drive ourselves crazy. As for tailoring...I like my man the way he is. I mean sure...the ideal one would be like tall, dark, handsome ( baby just needs to be tall...haha...) there's some plus pluses too...but I was watching the "tailor" draw a six pack on the guy...and I was thinking...it would be kinda weird for baby to have a 6 pack. I have no idea why I'm thinking this, but I think the tummy could be a little smaller, but that's all...I don't really need the 6 pack. I like the way my man looks...haha...come to think of it...the 6 pack thingie idea, feels rather awkward...o_O
rightssssss....I just had to get that out....
apologies if that made the reader feel a little awkward...
ciao!
Saturday, June 03, 2006
today was just total madness...
the whole week was just draining...besides the time spent with baby....
due to the presence of LTC in my calender taking up humongous space in that school diary of mine...I am constantly assaulted by the rather few (EXTREMELY few) blocks left in june...
my mind is just going crazy....it's like...like the freaking white rabbit in Alice in Wonderland, just that it's going 'no time, no time' and mummy's like going 'don't tell me you don't have time to study'....
I have no freaking idea how to sqeeze in all my revision...I'm like just doing papers and papers to get a feel of all the stuff again, so that revision later wouldn't take so long when I get back...the downside being that I'm taking like one day to one paper...when i should be able to do 2 or 3 ...like I'm super screwed up...
and then when the results come out, it's so gonna be like shit and then it's gonna be no phone, no going out, no this no that....AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARGH!!!!
morale is really low at the moment...
apologies to the dear reader on the tiny snippet of what's been going on in my head consciously or subconsciously 24/7 so far
I swear no one i know worries like this, you could say it's good cos it sorta motivates me, but then it's just so over the top that it makes you just wanna scream and cry to ease all the knots and pent-up frustration, which is what happens most of the time compared to the former. There's absolutely no way to make it go away, unless it's been done with. I'm just afraid i'll just reach my peak one day and only god knows what will happen. The worst thing is that when I try to relax and stuff...I just lose the motivation there and then and going back to whatever I was doing just doesn't hold much incentive for me at that moment in time.
can somebody explain this to me?
the whole week was just draining...besides the time spent with baby....
due to the presence of LTC in my calender taking up humongous space in that school diary of mine...I am constantly assaulted by the rather few (EXTREMELY few) blocks left in june...
my mind is just going crazy....it's like...like the freaking white rabbit in Alice in Wonderland, just that it's going 'no time, no time' and mummy's like going 'don't tell me you don't have time to study'....
I have no freaking idea how to sqeeze in all my revision...I'm like just doing papers and papers to get a feel of all the stuff again, so that revision later wouldn't take so long when I get back...the downside being that I'm taking like one day to one paper...when i should be able to do 2 or 3 ...like I'm super screwed up...
and then when the results come out, it's so gonna be like shit and then it's gonna be no phone, no going out, no this no that....AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARGH!!!!
morale is really low at the moment...
apologies to the dear reader on the tiny snippet of what's been going on in my head consciously or subconsciously 24/7 so far
I swear no one i know worries like this, you could say it's good cos it sorta motivates me, but then it's just so over the top that it makes you just wanna scream and cry to ease all the knots and pent-up frustration, which is what happens most of the time compared to the former. There's absolutely no way to make it go away, unless it's been done with. I'm just afraid i'll just reach my peak one day and only god knows what will happen. The worst thing is that when I try to relax and stuff...I just lose the motivation there and then and going back to whatever I was doing just doesn't hold much incentive for me at that moment in time.
can somebody explain this to me?
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